broken sun

Qi Nian followed Gu Saming for a long time, now practice makes perfect, he can maintain a reasonable distance all the way without haste, neither fast nor slow, walking step by step.

But Qi Nian would not and would not dare to rub the back of Gu Saming's hand with his hand anymore.

For him, the act of holding hands does not bring any impure desires.It's just that the palm of the hand is connected to the heart along the artery, the warmth in Gu Saming's hand is transmitted, and the moisture after sweating is also transmitted, which can make him really have a kind of belonging and fill some emptiness - people like Qi Nian are also Can hold the light.

Now Qi Nian is still closely following the only light that can be perceived by him and illuminate him, regardless of the cost.

In fact, after much deliberation, he and Gu Saming hadn't held hands a few times, so they couldn't be so obsessed with it.

The price paid is not that heavy.

"What are you thinking?" Gu Saming suddenly turned his head to look at Qi Nian while walking, and asked.

Qi Nian opened his eyes, and suddenly said with a dry voice, "I didn't think about anything."

Gu Saming didn't say anything else when he heard the sound, he just handed out the half bottle of water in his hand.

However, Qi Nian stood there blankly, not quite understanding why Gu Saming gave him water, and when he reached out to pick it up, his brother had already withdrawn his hand.

Gu Saming was silent for a while, looked up at the shop next to him, and after changing sides, he pulled Qi Nian with his school uniform hand, and pulled him to the door of a small supermarket on the roadside.

"Wait here." Gu Saming saw that Qi Nian had no intention of following him in, so he dropped this sentence and went into the supermarket by himself.

The small supermarket is really rudimentary. Looking outside Qi Nian Station, you can see that Gu Saming's head is much higher than the shelves. It is particularly eye-catching in the crowded layout. Gu Saming didn't take much time, and he didn't know what to take. Checkout at the door.

Gu Saming walked out with his back hooked slightly, exchanged a glance with Qi Nian, and stuffed the yogurt he just bought into his hand: "You should always drink the yogurt."

Qi Nian looked down at the yogurt in his hand, only to realize that Gu Saming just asked him to drink water.

When he rolled his eyes and didn't know whether to be happy or annoyed first, Gu Saming had already left.

Qi Nian became impatient, and hurriedly chased after him while twisting the yogurt cover, his footsteps were hasty and chaotic, and he accidentally rubbed against Gu Saming, both of them had to stop.

Gu Saming saw that the yogurt in Qi Nian's hand had already been unscrewed. Qi Nian was holding the bottle with one hand and the lid with the other, with a look of haste on his face, he probably hadn't had time to drink it yet.

"You can drink it now, don't worry, I won't run away again."

Only then did Qi Nian raise his head and take a sip, half of his mouth was stained, and he stuck out his tongue to lick it, as if he was pleased by a bottle of yogurt.

"Do you want to lick the bottle cap too?" Gu Saming laughed softly.

Qi Nian bit his lips and said nothing, took another sip, and put the lid on, thinking that he should show his brother something, and then thanked Gu Saming.

After this "thank you", there was no verbal communication between the two of them until they got in the car.

No matter how uncomfortable Qi Nian himself was, it wouldn't have much effect, but now it was Gu Saming who was angry, he nestled in the car seat like a needle felt, pinched the bottle in his hand until it was dented.

To be honest, Gu Saming treats Qi Nian no differently than before, he always does what he says, and from the moment he speaks, he really treats Qi Nian as his younger brother, caring and protecting him silently everywhere.

Qi Nian was flustered for a while, couldn't help giving in first, called Gu Saming "Brother", and said, "Don't be angry..."

Gu Saming turned his head quickly, and there was no expression on his face when he turned around.

"Come here," he said after a moment's pause.

Qi Nian's eyelids twitched, hesitant to Gu Saming's unclear request.

Seeing him like that, Gu Saming almost laughed angrily, and repeated: "Qi Nian, come here."

At this moment, even if he was asked to shirk, he couldn't do it anymore. Qi Nian liked to hear his name being called out by Gu Saming. An arm's width gap is shortened.

"Do you still like brother?" Gu Saming touched his hair with his hand and smiled, "I probably don't like it anymore."

Sitting so close to each other, Qi Nian's head was itchy from his touch, and his back was stiff. When he heard this, he felt very wronged. He twitched a few times, and still replied without any progress: "I like it."

Although he no longer took the initiative to find Gu Saming's room at night; although he was always careful in school to avoid intimacy; although he walked slowly and didn't hold hands; although he didn't take the water that Gu Saming handed over, Qi Nian still liked it.

Or it is because of liking that these changes are deliberately and obviously made.

Gu Saming's hands trembled imperceptibly, rationally wanting him to withdraw, but before he let go, Qi Nian staggered and added: "It's like, just like you are to me."

Qi Nian thought that such an answer and self-explanation would be absolutely foolproof, and there would be no flaws in lying - the liking he said would no longer annoy Gu Saming, and would not make him lose his brother.

Gu Saming was dumb for a moment, he knew that Qi Nian's statement was fine, but he felt an indescribable sense of guilt.

For him to be satisfied after hearing the answer he likes, for his unprovoked negative emotions that affect Qi Nian, for his inappropriate possessive desire that needs to be suppressed because of his inappropriate words.

Without Qi Nian's actions that night, it is not impossible for Gu Saming to regard these as brotherhood caused by his deep psychological factors.

But everything was punctured and ignited that night.

The person who tried to ask for a kiss was Qi Nian, but the eyes of this person who did absurd things were always clean and clear, even asking for a kiss with his own brother was pure and holy.

Gu Saming is different.

The one who chose to push away was him, and the one who really wanted to sink into the abyss of sin was also him.