[Comprehensive] What the hell is CP?

Kanako knew that she was dreaming, and she clearly remembered what Kojima Satoshi injected herself with before she fell into a coma.

He also said: "Ayan, go to sleep, wake up...we can be together forever."

As a result, Kanako fell into a deep sleep and became another person in her dream.

My name is Xu Yan.

I have a family of four, father, mother, me and my twin brother.

My brother's name is Xu Yan.

Mom and Dad are professors of biology and fellows at the Institute.My brother and I have perfectly inherited the high IQ of our father and mother, and have shown extraordinary IQ and logical thinking since childhood.

Live like a "child of someone else's family".

Mom and Dad love me very much, and my brother is also very kind to me, but my classmates avoid us, and I have almost no friends.

No, I once had a friend.

In the third grade of elementary school, when I was just learning English.

Because of my parents, my English is much better than that of ordinary children. When they were still learning "Hello, I'm Han Meimei", I could already have an English conversation, although it was just a daily communication.

The teacher likes to ask me to speak, because it will not make his class cold.

I am more adaptable to this class than my brother, and I answer what the teacher asks.Unlike him, who always looks cool and ignores his teachers.

That girl was met at that time, she is very cheerful and outgoing.I feel that English is simply destroying her life, so...she adores me.Because I defeated the English big devil.

She started trying to talk to me, went to the bathroom hand in hand with me, and even brought me cookies her mom made.

I don't dislike her, I'm even a little pleased because no one has ever done that to me.

I started trying to do the same things as her, like calling her when I went to the bathroom.

This attempt continued until one day, I saw her with her brother.

A small flower garden in the northwest corner of the campus.

The elder brother said to her: "Please stay away from my sister in the future. She is only too kind to cooperate with you all the time. In fact, you are causing her trouble. She does not need a friend like you."

The little girl who lost to English felt that she could not speak Chinese as well as the boy in front of her who had the exact same face as her good friend. In the end, she ran away crying.

I didn't know why at the time, so I left quietly.Did not let my brother find me.

Later, she never asked her to go to the bathroom again, and even... she changed schools not long after, and disappeared from my life ever since.

My brother was still waiting at the door of my class after school as always, and said to me with a smile, "Ayan, let's go home."

Although the disappearance of that little girl made me emotionally fluctuate for a while, it was far from sad enough.

I just went back to my old way of life, with my brother.It doesn't matter if there is no one else.

However, although my brother and I seem to be very out of group, we still receive many gifts from our classmates on our birthdays.

A boy gave me a little rabbit.

In vain and fat, I actually like it very much.

When I got home that day, I carried the cage myself, and it sat on my lap when I sat in the car.

My brother asked me who gave it to me.

I said, it was a male student in the class.I don't remember the name.

The brother seemed to be smiling.

After returning home, I asked my parents, and after getting permission, I put the little rabbit next to the small garden in the front yard of the villa.

On the third day, the little rabbit died.

I tried to bury it in the little garden, but my brother threw it in the trash outside.

He said, there are germs, don't stay at home.

I went to apologize to the male classmate, but he waved his hand in horror and didn't say a word to me again.

After middle school, a male classmate asked me to confess. I asked my brother, should I agree to his wish?

My brother told me, let me not worry, he will solve it.

Then, the boy also transferred.

In the three years of junior high school, no boy has ever confessed to me, and most of the girls are jealous of me and don't be friends with me. I am still with my brother.

When I was in high school, I went to participate in a math competition and met a strong competitor. Although he was in the third year of high school and I was in the second year of high school, I still did not allow the two of us to compete even though I had never been defeated since I was a child.

He is very gentle, even if I frown coldly at him, he still responds to me with a gentle smile.

In the end, in that competition, he took the first place and I took the second place.

I asked him what his name was.

He looked like he couldn't laugh or cry, he said: "Student Xu Yan, at least you remember your opponent's name! My name is Gu Kai."

I replied to him like this: "The opponent doesn't need to remember, but if you beat me, I will remember your name."

"Then it's my great honor, can I treat you to an ice cream?"

"……Can."

Later, he told me that he was pursuing me, but I didn't seem to respond, so he decided to tell me straight up, and he said, "Seo Yeon, I like you. Can you be my girlfriend?"

This reminds me of that boy in junior high school.

I asked him: "Will you always like me and never leave me?"

"I will always like you and never leave you."

"Okay, I promise you."

I told my parents and brother about this, and I said, I found someone I like, and I am with him.

At that time, mom and dad were busy with a new project, and my brother was helping them. When they heard the news, mom and dad were very happy and said they wanted to meet Gu Kai.

Brother also laughed, and he said, I am looking forward to your boyfriend, Ah Yan.

Later, Gu Kai came here a few times, and his parents loved him very much, and his brother didn't drive him away as before.

Yes, I know, it was my brother who drove those people away from me before, I know it all.

However, I don't blame him, because I don't care much about them.

However, I care about Gu Kai.

I also thought that if my brother still drove Gu Kai away, I would probably quarrel with him.

Fortunately, my brother didn't do that.

My brother was smiling all the time, watching Gu Kai and I go shopping and watch movies together.As long as he is here, he will send me out with a smile.

I am very happy.

On the day of my senior year's coming-of-age ceremony, Gu Kai was there.

He is studying at Yenching University and came to accompany me in the afternoon.

He accompanied me to buy the sprint roll for the college entrance examination, and took me to eat ice cream.

When I got home, my brother called me into the bedroom.

I saw the lilies on the window sill, smiled and said thank you to my brother.

My brother stood next to me and said with a smile, as long as you like it.

"Mom and Dad are already preparing to get you engaged to Gu Kai, do you know?" My brother was standing by the window, looking at me.The sunlight came in from behind him, making it hard for me to see his expression clearly.

"Really!?" I was very happy.

"It's true. Ah Yan, are you so happy?"

"happy."

"Ayan... I really like Gu Kai."

"Well... I like it very much. Doesn't my brother like him?"

My brother didn't answer me that day.

Although it is my coming-of-age ceremony, there are only four of us and Gu Kai in the family.

That was my most memorable and last birthday.

Because that day, Gu Kai kissed me.

Because that day...they all died.

My brother imprisoned me in an apartment that had been destroyed by an explosion that night.

Father, mother, Gu Kai...all disappeared.

And me, my brother and I are still alive, he cut off all contact information and locked me in an apartment.

He was the only person I had access to, and he told me he was doing Mom and Dad's funeral.

I asked him, "Why are we still alive?"

"Because we deserve to live," he said.

I asked him again, "Why didn't they survive."

"Because ... they're trying to tear us apart," he said.

"Ayan, you can only be with me, this is our destiny. We can't leave each other."

I looked at him like I was looking at a stranger: "Brother, you are crazy."

Unexpectedly, he just smiled and said, "Yes, I'm crazy. But Ayan, you can't deny that in this world, only we understand each other best."

Yes, I can't deny it.

but……

"How could you kill your parents, and... Gu Kai?"

"Don't mention that name to me! That name doesn't deserve to come out of your mouth. Ah Yan, my Ah Yan, wouldn't it be good to be with my brother forever?"

I didn't answer his question, and he didn't rush for an answer, maybe because he knew that I couldn't leave him now.

He still leaves early and returns late every day.

And I'm thinking in the apartment.

I found out that I haven't cried since the accident.

Why don't you cry?

Maybe Xu Yan is right, we are actually the same, we are all monsters living in our own world.

Obviously can't tolerate others, but still try.The result is... making the victim suffer.

Later I found that I couldn't even remember what Gu Kai looked like, I was trying to remember his voice, his appearance.

After I fainted, Xu Yan took me for an examination, and it turned out that I had brain cancer.

I'm starting to feel blessed.

I can finally escape from this world.

I even look forward to the moment of death.

Xu Yan began to become violent, and I often saw him lose his temper with people on the other end through the computer.

I feel like I should hate him, but, he's been nice to me.

I might be crazy too.

While trying to recall Gu Kai's appearance, I waited for the arrival of the god of death.

Fortunately, Reaper didn't keep me waiting too long.Only three months.

The first time I saw Xu Yan cry, he was lying on his side beside me, looking at me.

He said he wanted to be with me forever.

He said, Ah Yan, don't leave me.

He keeps calling my name.

At that moment, I suddenly felt relieved, it was great that I didn't choose to die with him.

Leaving him alone in this world forever alone, continuing to be a monster living in his own world, probably hurts him more than letting him die.

I am very happy.

I said to him: "Xu Yan, I hate you, so... I will never be with you."