If the world had no daylight

The result of the third temperature measurement has approached normal.

Bai Tian heaved a sigh of relief, put the thermometer back, then walked out of the bedroom to the kitchen.

Xu Lin is a person who loves life very much, as can be seen from her kitchen and refrigerator.Full and neatly placed pots and pans, range hoods and stoves that are so clean that there is no trace of oil stains, and a variety of fresh ingredients in the refrigerator.

It is a very happy thing to live with such a person.

Bai Tian found a small pot and prepared to cook some millet porridge for the patient.

She took half a bowl of millet, put it in the sink to wash the rice, then filled a half pot of water and put it on the stove, and turned on the gas stove.

Then there is a long waiting process, but I can't go away, because I have to stir it from time to time to prevent sticking to the pan.

Bai Tian folded his arms around his chest, and stood beside the stove in a daze.

Although she looked calm, the restlessness was always traceable on her face.

When locked tightly in the arms of the person below her, Bai Tian couldn't move and couldn't break free. The body temperature felt by the skin-to-skin contact and the wet clothes made her feel uncomfortable.

But these are not the root causes of her suffocation.

But from a certain moment, the world suddenly became very quiet.What followed were some subtle sounds that were amplified infinitely.

The sound of weak breathing, the "rustling" sound caused by the friction of clothes, and the occasional ravings from the nasal cavity of the sleeping person.

No, none of these.

From the moment she called her name, Bai Tian heard a voice.

Beneath the ears, in the soft chest, there is a steady beating heart.

It beats regularly, slightly faster than usual.Once, twice, again and again.

It's like the crisp sound when the keys are pressed down, or the "slapping" of rainwater falling on the eaves.

It casts a veil over the world, dispels the noise, and slows down time to a relaxing rhythm.

So those flustered, bewildered, and even uncomfortable body temperature are classified as nothingness.

Maybe it's just hiding, waiting for the next opportunity to reappear and destroy people's hearts.

But at this moment they no longer exist.

Bai Tian leaned against her chest, his tightly hugged body relaxed little by little, as if he was unbearably tired.

She lowered her eyes, and amidst the steady beating of her heart, she slowly fell into a gentle and lingering strange circle.

For a second, Bai Tian felt that only she and the person hugging her were left in the world.

They snuggle up in this corner that no one knows, regardless of the past or the future, and only stay in this moment.

in case.

If time stands still...

A bubble popped out of the small pot and burst with a pop.

Bai Tian raised his head and regained his senses.

She put away her scattered thoughts, picked up a spoon and stirred in the pot.While taking out his mobile phone with his left hand, he sent a message to the people who were still in the hospital to ask about the situation.

The other party was probably still busy and didn't reply.

It happened that the porridge in the pot was almost done, so Bai Tian turned to a low heat and simmered slowly, then put down the spoon and walked out of the kitchen.

The medicine she just bought was on the table, and she couldn't leave, so she could only use the delivery software to place an order for the pharmacy to deliver.Bai Tian walked to the table, opened the medicine box and read the instructions inside.

Taking these medicines before meals hurts the stomach, Bai Tian thought about it, and decided to boil the water later.

She took out a pill and put it aside for later use, then got up and walked to the bedroom door.

The person lying on the bed was still in the sleeping position just now, and he didn't even move his hands.Bai Tian looked at her for a while, then unconsciously lost his mind again.

In my memory, although Ye Wan's sleeping position was very regular, she would turn over several times a night, especially on a bed she wasn't used to.

Bai Tian has never seen lying motionless for hours like this.

However, what she had never seen before was not limited to this incident.

They have been separated for more than eight years. This number is too long, and it can change too much.In this world, the only thing that never changes is the fact that "people change".

Bai Tian himself has also changed, and he doesn't even have a little bit of his youthful appearance.

So no matter how much Ye Wan has changed, it's not surprising.

She leaned against the door, silently watching the person lying on the bed, but her eyes passed through him, and she saw a figure in the distance.

When exactly did Bai Tian fall in love with Ye Wan?

She had never thought about this issue herself, and even if she did, she couldn't tell the exact time.

As Liu Ran said, Bai Tian has lived in the process of "pleasing others" all his life.

As long as she can remember, the first person she courted was her mother.

Children from other people's homes are usually very naughty. They either cry and ask adults to buy toys and snacks for them, or conflict with other children, fight and fight, and go home after being embarrassed.

Bai Tian has never been like this.

But whatever she likes, even if she doesn't tell her, her father, grandfather, and third uncle will buy it for her.

They doted on her and never concealed it.

Only mother doesn't do that.

She is the only one in the family who insists on "not pampering education" to Bai Tian. According to her, the child should be educated from the memory, otherwise it will be too late.

The mother is engaged in the education industry, so she has seen too many children who have come out of failed families.Every time she met irresponsible parents, she would criticize and scold them at the dinner table, and then sighed again and again.

The family has long been used to her character, and they can't do anything except say "every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite".

Even the police station doesn't care about family problems, so how can she be a teacher?

Just because she can't control it, at other times, she will pay more attention to those children who have suffered a lot.

One or two is fine, but when there are more people, she will run out of energy, but she has to support her work at the same time.

So neglecting the family has become a natural thing.

Bai Tian's father quarreled with her more than once because of these things, because he is a person with very strong family values, and nothing can affect his emphasis on family.

He thinks that Bai Tian's mother has too many students in her heart and has neglected her daughter.

That's exactly what happened.

So every time they quarreled, they broke up unhappy.

Bai Tian didn't want to spoil the atmosphere at home because of his own reasons.She likes to get up every day, and everyone sits happily and eats breakfast together.Even though mother is always complaining about those bad parents, father is always reading newspapers while eating, grandpa always looks unhappy, and third uncle keeps coming and going in a hurry.

She loves everyone in this family very much, and if she could, she would like to live with them forever.

So my grievances and small emotions are not important to Bai Tian.

She felt that she could digest these unhappiness, just like eating a bad stomach, and she could get rid of it after a few trips to the toilet.

But the young Bai Tian didn't know that no one in the world would accompany you forever.

You were born alone, and so you will die.

On the day she lost her parents, Bai Tian hid in a dark room, hugged the puppet bear her parents bought when they took her to the amusement park, and cried all night.

She once said to others: "At that time, I was young and didn't know much about death, so I didn't feel particularly sad."

In fact, it is all calm and breezy that has been precipitated by time.

How could she not be sad?

Even though she didn't understand the meaning of death at that time, she also understood that some people would go away from the world and never come back.

From that day on, Bai Tian realized one thing: no matter how much the person she loves loves her, there will be times when she can't help but leave her.

So she has to cherish, be sensible, and give more tolerance and consideration in each other's limited company.In this case, even if they are separated, the memories between them will be beautiful.

In this way, Bai Tian gradually stopped quarreling with others, and stopped caring about trivial matters in life.She hid the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys that many of her peers should have, buried them deep, and forgot them bit by bit.

What followed was an invisible wall erected between her and life.

Those who have lost it will understand the meaning of having it, but Bai Tian would rather not have it anymore.

So she grew up all the way and became a lonely child who walked alone. Only Liu Xiaopang, who grew up with her, never alienated her.

Bai Tian felt that this was enough.

There is a close friend Fa Xiao, a small shop that carries her fond memories and dreams, and a third uncle who loves her silently and takes care of her.

She doesn't have much ambition and ambition, she is content.

Originally, Bai Tian thought so.

Until she met Ye Wan.

Have you ever regretted meeting someone in your life?

Bai Tian once heard this question in a taxi.

The host of the radio station has a gentle and magnetic voice, and when he said these words, people's hearts trembled slightly.

At that time, the talkative driver brother snorted and said, "Yes, give me a chance to do it all over again, so I won't marry that prodigal bitch."

Bai Tian heard the words and looked over, but saw a smiling expression on his face in the mirror.

She also smiled, because of the duplicity of human nature.

But in the next second, Bai Tian stopped laughing, looked out the window and calmed down.

She lightly stroked the wrist of her upper right hand, rubbed the scar that had faded with her fingertips, and her thoughts drifted away slowly with the lights passing by outside the car window.

What a pity.

Until now, the first thing that came to her mind was still those lingering images.

It is clear that the most unforgettable thing is the blood and scars, but she closed her eyes, let herself go back to the past, and opened her eyes again.

What I saw was a smiling face.

How can I remember it so clearly?

To her life, that period of time was just a tenth of her companionship. Compared with the heart-piercing pain, it should have been as light as a feather, not worth mentioning.

But Bai Tian, ​​Bai Tian, ​​your unrepentant nature deserves this fate.

If only pain were remembered.

In that way, you can also persuade yourself to hate, to hate, to fester, and then dig out the rotten flesh, waiting for it to grow back.

However, she picked up a knife to dissect the piece of meat, and what was inside was a colorful candy.

It is sour on one side and sweet on the other, sweet and sour in the mouth, just like every kind of first love.

Bai Tian stood in front of the door, his eyes resting on that pale sleeping face.

When did this candy congeal?

Bai Tian has not found an answer to this question until today.

She just probably, maybe, maybe.

Accidentally, it fell again.

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