If the world had no daylight

What is more difficult than "making yourself do something" is "not letting yourself do something".

How easy it is for a person to mobilize his own motivation, as long as he has something to look forward to.Whatever that is, it can pull you forward.

But to kill the thoughts that have been born, it requires not only strong self-control, but also timing.

Before the summer vacation of the first year of high school came, Ye Wan knew that he had missed the best time.

If it had been earlier, even earlier, when she didn't need Bai Tian that much, the words "Duansheli" would be nothing more than a knife.

If a person wants to be strong, he must learn to downgrade his desires.

It includes but is not limited to appetite, material desire, money desire and even more unfathomable things.Only by minimizing the influence of desire can one maintain an indestructible heart.

This is the first thing Xing Yun taught Ye Wan after his "death".

Thanks to genes and education since childhood, Ye Wan has never been the kind of child who will be willful because of what he wants.

When she was in elementary school, she already understood that what her parents gave her had to be obtained by her own efforts.

Over time, Ye Wan discovered one thing: as long as she is good enough, it is easy to get whatever she wants.

This made Ye Wan not a materialistic person since he was a child.

The more people lack something, the more they long for it.But Ye Wan is rich, from spirit to material, from heart to character.

But as long as you are human, you will be greedy sometimes.

In the eyes of Ye Wan's father, Ye Chengze, she is an out-and-out problem child.

In the eyes of others, Ye Wan is a good boy who is both good in character and learning, humble and polite, and can be called a model among "children from other people's families".But at home, she either ridiculed him, or regarded him as air, like an uneducated wild girl.

But even so, Ye Chengze never severely punished Ye Wan, nor did he touch her when the two of them were most unhappy.

Because Ye Chengze always thought that Ye Wan became like this because of his negligence.

But what happened to Ye Wan that would cause her temperament to change drastically, and she became what she is now, but Ye Chengze never figured it out.

It's like a child entering the rebellious stage ahead of time, from an obedient and sensible child to a problem child who refuses to be disciplined, thinks he is independent, and fights against adults all day long.

Ye Chengze didn't know the reason, and felt ashamed, so he was unwilling to use strong means to correct Ye Wan.

So her rebellion directly rebelled against her entire middle school career.

However, everyone didn't know that Ye Wan had always been very clear about what he was doing.

She knew that in the eyes of Ye Chengze and Xing Yun, including Teacher Li, she was a "problematic" child.

She even knew that they had been guessing why she became like this, and there were probably no less than dozens of versions of the reasons that had been guessed.

But the truth is only known to Ye Wan himself.

She was not a rebellious period at all, she just witnessed the bloodiest evil in this world at the most innocent age.

Ye Chengze and Xing Yun love her without a doubt, like every pair of parents who love their children deeply, give her the best care and life.They devoted all their efforts to build the most beautiful and comfortable greenhouse for her to grow.

If nothing else, Ye Wan would grow into an outstanding woman through the love of her parents.

She will graduate from the best school, she will get the award that best proves her strength, and she will leave her name on the celebrity list of her alma mater.

After finishing her studies, she may continue to study academics and stay in school for further studies.

Or she will choose another path, using the knowledge she has learned and her unique brain, to contribute her modest efforts to the technology, medical and other industries.

Such a bright and colorful life should belong to her.

Instead of fighting, skipping school, drinking, or even running away from home during the so-called "rebellious period".

Ye Chengze blamed everything on himself. He thought it was something wrong with his education.

It is true that there are many misunderstandings and prejudices between their father and daughter. Over time, these knots are deeply rooted and form shackles.

But seriously think about the root of the problem, in fact, it has always been only in the word "trust".

Ye Chengze didn't trust Ye Wan.

The fact he believes is that he is a failed educator, so his originally sensible daughter "degenerates" into such a problem child.

But Ye Chengze never thought that Ye Wan's many problems might not be the willful nonsense of "immature children".

If he is willing to give Ye Wan such trust and understand her from her perspective, maybe they won't let them drift away from each other.

It's a pity that, in Ye Chengze's perception, there is no other possibility except that his daughter "failed to learn".

Ye Wan also didn't trust Ye Chengze.

From the day when the glass house she lived in was shattered into slag, and from the day she witnessed the other side of the real world.

She just lost trust in everything.

When she was a child, her parents taught her to say hello to elders when she met her elders, and to be modest and polite when playing with other children.Be a hardworking and considerate good boy at home, and a good student who is serious and obedient at school.

The textbook taught her 1+1=2, the 5000-year history of her motherland, and how to say good morning in English.

Only she hadn't been taught - the world is dangerous.

Most people in this world are familiar with the word "hardship".

Children suffer from the pain of growing up, while adults suffer from the pain of survival.

Regardless of the former or the latter, all are the only paths that people must pass through in this life.

But Ye Wan's growth came too early.

Before she had a strong heart, when she was just a helpless child, she faced the evil of this world.

However, she is also smart.

Her cleverness made her understand the meaning of "despair" when she tasted it for the first time.

Then her life went to the first fork in the road.

Xing Yun is not a good mother in the traditional sense.

She and this family always get together less and leave more.In Ye Wan's memory, she was so busy that she didn't even have time to take a family portrait together.

Ye Wan is sensible, and she chose to forgive other children who would cry and make trouble.

Even if she can't write the word "understanding".

The three years of junior high school were the whole stage when Ye Wan was completely different.She began to disobey discipline, and no longer confide in her thoughts, and her expression always contained secrets that people wanted to explore.

But she still kept the old Ye Wan, even if it was only in front of outsiders.

This blocked the mouths of Xing Yun and Ye Chengze.Let them teach her what?She has done well enough.She has done everything that other people's children can't do.

What more could one ask for?

But the better Ye Wan did, the farther she would be from the child in the past, and the more unapproachable she would be.

At first Xing Yun still had time to think of ways to improve, but later she and Ye Chengze got divorced, and the two of them completely lost the energy to discipline this impeccable daughter in the eyes of others.

Ye Wan, who was raised by her parents, went to high school just like that.

At this point in the story, if it goes with the flow, the protagonist becomes a single-parent family, and then faces the remarriage of his parents, and both parties lose their status.

So she should work hard, obtain fame, and use her own strength to embark on a sunny road that will not lose to anyone.

In the end, I met my destined other half, and my career and love were both harvested, and my life was fulfilled.

Unfortunately, Ye Wan took the wrong script again.

Of her divorced parents, one died inexplicably, and the other married the second without stopping, and she also gave a oil bottle that was only one year younger than her.

That's all, at worst, she can leave home to support herself and be beautiful alone.

But she was still damn smart, so smart that she found out that her mother had died unexpectedly based on clues.

Sometimes Ye Wan would think in a wild way: Did God give her such an IQ just to let her experience the sufferings of the world?

The answer is unknown.

Ye Wan only knows that as long as it is something she wants to do, she can do it.

So she found the clues, took risks alone, and finally got her wish to meet her mother again.

Immediately afterwards, her life was here, and she embarked on the second fork in the road.

Is "breaking away" an easy task for you?

You may answer: It depends on what is broken, what is given up, and what is left.

But for Ye Wan, this matter is simple and easy, but also difficult.

She cut off her ignorance of the world, and gave up her stable life, but in the end, she couldn't do without her sunny day.

Moreover, repeated teachings do not change.

A bowl of seafood noodles in clear soup just rightly warmed Bai Tian's empty stomach.

When she put down the chopsticks, she touched her stomach only to realize that she was full.

"I have Jianweixiaoshi tablets in my bag, do you want it?"

The person who had already finished eating took the backpack, pulled out the medicine box and handed it over.

Bai Tian didn't try to be brave, he caught the Xiaoshi tablet and swallowed one for himself.

She glanced at the watch on her wrist, then looked at the person who got up to clean up the dishes, and asked, "What time does the restaurant open? Shall we leave first?"

Ye Wan turned on the faucet and replied casually: "I have already sent a message to the manager before coming here, otherwise how do you think we got in?"

The two of them finished their breakfast in the back kitchen, so they cleaned up quickly.

After Bai Tian's stomach felt better, Ye Wan also dried her hands and walked over to pick up her bag.

"Let's go, it's time to see off Teacher Li."

Bai Tian lowered his eyes and responded.

The cemetery chosen by the Li family is a very ordinary cemetery. Although Li Xuemin's status in the education field means that many people buy the best cemetery for him, the Li family insists on keeping everything simple.

It is said that this is Li Xuemin's own wish.

When Bai Tian and Ye Wan arrived at the cemetery, there were even a few buses parked in the vehicles at the gate.

When they looked into the cemetery, they saw a long funeral procession. At the front of the procession was Li Shanshan holding a photo of her remains.

Bai Tian raised his head and glanced at the sky, then looked away after a while, and followed Ye Wan's footsteps and walked over slowly.

The sky is bright and cloudy, the blue sky is like washing, today is a sunny day.

Ye Wan hugged a large bouquet of white chrysanthemums, and walked side by side with Bai Tian on the narrow and long stone steps. Someone's singing came from a distance, and she listened carefully, it was the tune of "Farewell".

The man with the ponytail paused, then laughed, and said in a low voice, "I'm tone deaf, so I won't make a fool of you."

Holding the bouquet of flowers in his arms, Bai Tian took a step forward and opened his mouth softly.

The people beside her looked at her, followed silently, and moved forward together.

Outside the long pavilion, beside the ancient road, there are green grass and sky.

I ask you when you will come here, and don't linger when you come.

The ends of the sky, the corners of the earth, knowing friends are scattered.

Life is rarely a happy gathering, but there are many separations.

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