My undercover organization eats jujube pills

"Someone who was very important to me died."

I got up and walked over to the side of the bed and sat down, the soft bed formed a slight collapse due to my weight.

Accelerator's hand was still held by me, I slightly turned my eyes to the side, and lowered my eyelashes to look at Accelerator's face.

He seemed very careless about such things, he didn't even open his eyelids, he was lying on the bed peacefully, and when he heard me say yes, he just gave a flat "hmm".

... Well, it's rare that I want to tell you what's on my mind, but you're still acting like an old man.

I bother.

I felt that I couldn't continue talking about this topic, and I just planned to start it and end it hastily.Facing Accelerator's stinky coffin face, it must be that no one has any thoughts to confide in.

"... Forget it." I puffed my face, let out a sigh of relief, and planned to let go of Accelerator and go to sleep.

There's nothing to say to this straight guy—I shouldn't think that Accelerator can understand the delicate thoughts of girls!

I'm so stupid, really.

But when I let go of his hand, Accelerator took the initiative to hold my palm instead.

The fingers are clasped together, forming a ten-fingered kiss.dense.The blue raised blood vessels on his arms are particularly clear because of his exertion.

His strength was unexpected, and I couldn't break free from Accelerator's imprisonment for a while.

Fuck, is this guy sneaking off to lift weights so strong? ? ?

"Fart, let go." Accelerator clicked his tongue, and his tone was very unfriendly, "Half talking, how did you learn the smelly habit?"

He opened his eyes, the color of the iris seemed to be soaked in a little ink in the dark dark color, and after being soaked, it was like a surging dark tide, wrapped in hot red.

Even if this guy is good-looking, it can't change the fact that he is a badass.

I gritted my teeth, and cast a sidelong glance at Accelerator: "Isn't that why you don't want to listen to me? Why are you a big man talking so much about shit?"

I feel that I may have been confused by Yifang Accelerator's tolerant attitude recently, so that I have become more and more courageous, and even dared to challenge Yifang Accelerator directly-of course, I paid the price.

He clicked again: "Are you going to tell me?"

"Say, I said, you just listened to a bedtime story." I pouted, sat on the edge of the bed honestly and began to tell him about my experience in Tokyo.

"I told you before, I met a very good girl... She is very kind and gentle to me, she is like sunshine, as long as you get close to her, you will feel very warm and soft. Her name is Akemi Miyano."

"In the first few years when I came to this world, my life was almost the same as that in the research institute... Similarly, the Ability Secret Service Division just used me as a tool."

When I said this, I couldn't help but twitched the corners of my lips mockingly, revealing a smile that really did.

In this world, the weak prey on the strong, and the strong are always respected.They are government agencies and national organizations. In the eyes of these people, even if I have incomparable strength alone, I cannot fight against an entire country.

that's the truth.

I am afraid that I will come to this world alone. What I want is to live a good life, not to be an enemy of a country, to be in fear everywhere, and to live in endless assassinations and revenge all day long.

Under such circumstances, it does not harm me to temporarily choose to stand with the country and be a tool person who is still free.

As long as I am willing to surrender and surrender, then of course "unbehaved" and "willful" are understandable and indulgent.

"But... Miyano Akemi is different."

"Even if she knew that I was a child raised by the organization, not an innocent child, maybe even better than her in killing skills, and had seen the dark side of the world, but she never treated me special because of it."

I recall the short time I spent with Akemi Miyano, and I only feel that every bitter time I recall now was full of sweetness at that time.Like rich colored Kopeito in a delicately packaged glass jar.

It was a candy made of honey and sugar. The sweet taste permeated from the tip of the tongue, and even the heart was filled with soft sweetness.

"She was so nice to me."

In the end, I just said that I slowly felt my eye sockets start to sore.I didn't want to show such a weak side, so I forcibly held back my tears, bit my lower lip hard, and a slight bloody smell slowly spread from the tip of my tongue.

"She's so nice..."

"But I can't save her."

I lowered my head, and the slowly condensed tears turned into drops of water, and fell down from my eye sockets, and the warm tears "slapped" on the clasped hands between me and Fang Accelerator.

Tears flowed slowly along the curve of the back of the hands into the joined palms, and I could feel the wetness with residual warmth, soaking each other's palms wetly.

"You're not a god." Accelerator rubbed his hair irritably with his free hand, messing up the white hair a little.He paused, his voice full of awkwardness, "You can't save everyone."

Accelerator supported the bed and sat up straight, then stretched out his hand towards me. I could feel his hands pressing down on my head and pressing me into his arms.

Accelerator was originally a head taller than me, and I just buried my head in the socket of his neck in this posture. The young man still had the fresh smell of acacia after washing, and the tips of his slightly long white hair fell on my cheeks and ear tips.

The itching caused by the hair tip brushing against the skin made me flinch a little, and after being held down by him even harder, I stopped moving.

"Are you comforting me?" I obediently maintained this movement of putting my whole body on him, and asked sullenly.

"State the facts." Accelerator's voice was unusually steady, "I can temporarily stop the rotation of the earth, but even I can't save lives. Destroying a person is a very simple thing, you can do whatever you want without me telling you Who will be crushed to death."

"But it's hard to save a person, and no one is a savior."

"Neither you nor I."

Yes, he was right.

I can't save Miyano Akemi, even if Accelerator is present, I can't save Miyano Akemi either.

But I am not reconciled, I am not reconciled, how can I be calm and do nothing to save her and watch her die before my eyes?When I recalled that day, I only felt that my heart and eyes were full of hasty and dazzling red.

"You don't have to hold back in front of me, right?" Accelerator asked me calmly, "I've even seen you without clothes when you just got out of the experimental cabin."

"Yakizawa Yayoi, I have seen all your shame from childhood to adulthood."

Even if what I said annoyed me, I couldn't deny it... It really made me feel relieved.It seems that some heavy burden has been let go of in my heart, and I can finally let go of it wholeheartedly and without any scruples.

He was absolutely right.

He is Accelerator, the strongest evil party I was born for, and all my embarrassments are thanks to him.

That being the case, it doesn't matter if you lose face a little bit, right?Because it's him...so there's no problem even if you lose face.

My fingers interlocked with Accelerator's and I held his fingers even more forcefully, and my other hand firmly gripped his shirt, pinching a few deep folds.

I could feel my eyes streaming out uncontrollably, soaking Accelerator's neck and clothes, and smearing dark gray water stains on the white clothes.

I was out of breath and sobbing--for the first time in my life I was crying in such a disgraceful state.

"She's dead...I don't want her to die."

I even hiccupped in embarrassment.

"It's so uncomfortable...why do such good people never live long?"

"I want to avenge her, and I want everyone who hurt her to pay the price."

"Yeah." Accelerator's voice gradually lowered, "I've said it all, all you have to do is beg for me."

"I'm right behind you."

So don't be afraid.

***

It was a few days before I adjusted my mood and returned to Port Mafia.

I heard that Mr. Ango was busy with a small task after his business trip in Europe, so I planned to pick him up with Dazai Osamu and Oda Saku at the Lupin Bar.

If I hadn't been a little anxious, I would never have chosen the occasion where Osamu Dazai was present to meet Ango Sakaguchi.Who knows if this black mud spirit will discover something again?

According to the news I got from the Supernatural Secret Service Division, it seems that something big is about to happen... From the tone of Chief Tanada, all I can feel is that the rain is about to come, as if Yokohama... the sky is about to change.

Such a cryptic attitude made me have to be a little more cautious. The farming chief was unwilling to tell me what would happen, so I could only test Ango Sakaguchi by myself.

Relying on one's own information is always more credible.

I sat between Dazai Osamu and Oda Saku, and had already drank several glasses of Margaux in a row.To be fair, the taste of this stuff is too light, not much like a fruity drink at all. I don't think I will get drunk after drinking ten or eight bottles of it.

During the period, Osamu Dazai asked the bartender for a glass of detergent mixed with gasoline very skillfully, and the bartender also refused him very skillfully—why are you two so skillful? ? ?

Bartenders have suffered from the scourge of Osamu Dazai, and their lives are indeed difficult and painful.

While we were talking, there were very regular footsteps coming from the entrance of the bar, and the sound of the heels sounded like the kind of leather shoes that Mr. Anwu used to wear.

Sure enough it was him.

It was raining tonight, and after Ango Sakaguchi walked in, the wind chime hanging on the door frame made a tinkling sound as he pushed the door.He put away the umbrella and leaned aside. The rainwater on the wet umbrella fell along the track, and it didn't take long to accumulate a small piece of water.

Ango Sakaguchi held an exquisite suitcase in his hand, and his expression under round-rimmed glasses was calm and gloomy.

He was slightly taken aback when he saw me.