Nature

The darkness is unfathomable, constantly devouring people's hearts like shadows.

She is constantly running ahead.

The road is very long, but there is no end in sight.

Dark clouds were pressing down on the mountains, and she felt that she was about to suffocate.

Where am I?

Keep running, the road behind you is gradually disappearing.Can only go forward, not back.

Where am I?

Fear struck her overwhelmingly, and ignorant despair overwhelmed her.

let me out!

A beam of dazzling white light tore through the dark clouds, and in a blink of an eye, she was close to a blank space.

The surroundings are white, and at a glance, there is nothing but white.

It's so bright, why can't I see anything?Why is no one coming to save me?

Still white, horrible white, everywhere, desperate.

why!

She seems to have seen it when she was a child.

There was a bustling crowd all around, people shouting this, colorful costumes swaying back and forth, neon lights flashing all around, and huge billboards constantly changing.

But why no one cares about me?

She was running, shouting, beating and scolding.

Why no one can see me?

She walked alone on the bustling road, looking at the night scene of the busy city, her heart became more and more desperate.

why!

——You deserve it.

Do not!I do not believe!

——This is your true destiny.

go away!demon!

A voice laughed sharply.

—Admit it, your mind has been taken over!You have fallen into darkness.

I do not have.

--You have!You are no longer the light of nature!Of course you never are!You are just a stranger!

Rivendell.

Arwen frowned at her.

- "Why didn't you take care of Aragorn? You put him in a dangerous place. You broke your promise!"

Elrond shook his head slightly.

— "Get out of here, you are not welcome in Rivendell. You will only bring disaster to us."

Glorfindel's eyes flashed with indifference.

- "You failed to protect the one you love, you failed."

Why do you do this to me?What did i do wrong?

All kinds of characters appeared in my mind, they kept chattering, and their vicious words swirled in my mind.

Mirkwood.

Thranduil stood up gently from the throne and looked at her mockingly.

—— "Want to marry my son? Why don't you consider your own identity first! You are not even human!"

Why?Because I am a stranger to you?

Galadriel shook his head mournfully at her.

——"I shouldn't have suggested you to participate in the trial. I should have known that you didn't have the ability."

—Looks like they've all abandoned you.

The voice gloated.

roll!Get out of my mind!Get out of my body!

——Why refuse the only helping hand?Of course I can help you.isn't it?

I do not believe you.

—You don't have a choice, do you?Don't you see what they did to you?Why not join us?Give them a hard time and tell them you can do it.

That is all illusion.

— but you know it's not, that's very likely to happen.

I refuse to allow darkness to control my will.

--how could be?I'm your friend, I won't manipulate you.You are me.

I'm not you!

——No, no, dear, you are me.In the boundless solitude of the forest, that indifferent you, that you who wantonly killed your enemies, that bloody and violent you.During the journey to the lonely mountain, the indifferent and arrogant you, the unreasonable you, the indifferent you, the you who wanted to get something in return without paying, the you who didn’t understand etiquette but only knew how to shed tears.

Then what am I like?

——You, you are nothing in my eyes, the one who loves to death, is fragile, weak and can't stand a little pressure is nothing.What else do you have besides a bunch of empty titles?

I still have myself, and I only have myself, because only myself can rescue me from the abyss.

——Do you think you are very powerful?

A moment of silence.

The beauty of the elf land had disappeared, and she saw the vast sea again.

I may not be great, but I clearly know who I am.

She stepped on the golden sand on her feet, and the sea water beat her calves, but she didn't feel anything.

I am who I am, not just the natural light, not just the name, I have many facets, but I am just me.I know this better than anyone.

She walked slowly into the deep sea, the water overflowed her chest, and she swam.

Even if I lose everything, I still have me.Not because I am the Mermaid Queen, Daughter of the Sea, nor because I am a child of Camantauri, a Child of Nature, nor even because I am the Light of Varda, the Chosen One.I struggle only because of me, and my burning desire makes me struggle.

The sea water was receding rapidly, and the sound of ebbing tide was still so familiar, and she returned to the familiar forest.

No one can dominate me, not even the dark you like me.

——"Anna..."

She raised her head slowly, and the sunlight came in from the dense canopy, and the forest became extremely green again.

--"wake up……"

She could feel the pain of the flames scorching her and the heat that hit her.

--"wake up……"

Darkness fell, and she returned to the silent world again.

—Very well, then you can stay here forever.

She walked on the road silently, looking at the past that flashed before her eyes.

She watched in a daze as she came here for the first time, the first time she ruthlessly killed creatures.

She watched herself huddled by the river, with a high fever, hungry, and kept drinking the river water.

She watched herself huddled together in the torrential rain, her body shivering under the thin clothes being blown by the cold autumn wind.

Those were the saddest days for her, until she met the mermaid.

don't go...don't go...

She watched herself walk slowly towards the merman, and the silver-haired Eyavin looked up at her.

——"Use your life to protect it..."

As time went by, she saw the time when she first met him.

She saw the time when she knew her identity.

She saw when her hair turned gray after being tested.

Such a distant memory seems to be close at hand, but it has long been lost in the yellowed old time.

— "Look at me, Anna."

That's a different voice.

——"Open your eyes, do you want to stay here forever?"

Of course I don't want to.

She sat by the campfire and watched Thorin chatting with the dwarves.

"Then open your eyes and look at me."

where are you?

in such a distant place.

She saw Legolas peel off her cloak.

—"In Moria."

The flames were soaring into the sky, and the dragon flames ravaged the Long Lake. She could feel the horror far away in the far west of the Black Forest.

——"Light of Nature, child of Kementari, wake up from the chaos!"

The fire did not go out.

It was strange, since she was still in Beorn's residence by the Misty Mountains.

No, that's not Long Yan.

A ray of light tore through the darkness, and she found that the road ahead was slowly disappearing.

Wake up, wake up.But why wake up?

Because of your dream!

Darkness was surrounding her, the road had disappeared, the dark clouds were very close to her, and her place became a whirlpool.

Jump down.

A voice speaks to her, and you're set free.

Whose voice is this?

It was still fire, and the fire was getting closer and closer to her.

The darkness forms a vortex, an abyss that can swallow all hope, and there is no bottom to look at.

jump off.

- "Anna -!"

Do not!

The ray of light was getting weaker and weaker, and seeing it gradually disappearing into the thicker and thicker dark clouds, she jumped up suddenly.

Varda could feel the life force of Eyaana Kaimenting was constantly passing away.

Little by little, along with the light she ignited in her heart, it was gradually disappearing.

"She must go through it herself," said Manwe. "This is her way, and if she fails this test, she must fail."

"When she fails, Iluvatar's grand movement is really in order. We don't have to worry about that discordant interloper."

"But if she gets past this, she will truly be part of the grand movement."

But it's difficult.

Varda had been quietly observing the girl, she knew the power of the grand movement, and knew that it could not be disturbed.

She will be tested the most, no less than the twists and turns of Lucien and Beren.

But Manwë came and talked to her once.

"Her heart has been occupied by evil for a while, and if she is not careful, she will degenerate into the second Sauron. However, this is not what we want to see. Because at that time her fate will be completely out of control, prediction and planning. "

Kementari was also very worried, she was worried about all the things she created on the earth, and she was worried about her children.

"Why should she go to Moria when she is already so weak?"

"Fate, you can only get a new life in the raging fire."

"But she has to pass the mental test first, and not be tempted by evil."

"If she can't get out, she can only be trapped to death inside."

Varda had watched Eyaana Camentine as she entered Moria.

Watching her poisonous hair, watching her fight against orcs, watching her fall into the abyss.

"Eya Anna Kaimenting, wake up from the darkness and chaos, look at me, and let the light fill your heart again!"

She opened her eyes slowly.

She saw raging flames and a figure emitting golden light.

"Varda..." she murmured.

Varda's tender hand stroked her forehead.

"You finally defeated the inner demon."

The flames are still burning, and there are cliffs everywhere.

"I have always believed in you," she said, "I believed that you could succeed, that you could escape the fate of elves and the limitations of humans. However, I have to tell you that if you take one step forward, you will be bound forever In this world, there is no way to leave."

"I would like to..."

"I hope this sentence carries your promise and symbolizes the new destiny of your destiny that has been played by the grand movement from now on."

Of course I would, I've fought for it for so long, I've made my heart clear long ago.

"In this case, I officially announce that you have passed the final test. Between life and death, you will be reborn. But before that, you must first walk out of the flames and give the Balrog a fatal blow."

She walked into the flames slowly, she could hear the roar and roar of the Balrog, and could feel the pain and heat of the flames burning on her body, she slowly raised her hand.

Varda's voice came from behind, very soft but very powerful.

"The light awakened you from the darkness, and you are still the one who struggled to find the light with the eyes of the night. In the name of Varda after the stars, I endow you with the truth of the name of nature. May the father of all beings accept you, acknowledge you, Protect you. Only death can live. In the fire you will be reborn. May you show the light of Varda, the heart of Ulmo and the mercy of Yavanna. Come from nature, and go to nature, may the light With you, the sun and moon are with you, and the stars shine for you."

The pupils were filled with flames, and her whole body was wrapped in flames.

Opening his eyes again, the joy of life was reflected in the black pupils!

The author has something to say: Anna is reborn!Note that her name is not used when describing herself in this chapter. Is it very similar to Chapters 1~4? At that time, I didn’t write a name because I was too lazy to make up the name before time travel, but once I have the name Anna, I will immediately used.But now it's to emphasize that she is just her, and name and identity aside, she really is just her.And this, may often be forgotten.Others call her Natural Light, Nai Kuang, Ning Ku, Anna, Eya Anna, and Kai Mengting, but she is just her, not representing these names, but just representing this person who is thinking about who she is.And her meaning is relatively simple in the first four chapters.

So, I finally wrote it here, and it is not far from the end.There should be no bottleneck after getting stuck here.Although this time was very busy, I still persisted.Originally, I thought that if Chapter 40 was over, how would you guys react?

In fact, there is a foreshadowing here, that is, in Chapter 40, there is one who calls her Eya Anna Kaimenting, this is the call of Varda, and the others are the calls of Legolas and Sauron.