Perfect match.

He An's heart rose.

He knew that this story, which had a good beginning, was about to take a nosedive.

Yan Ning still had her eyes closed, her face was calm, she crossed her ten fingers on her lower abdomen but unconsciously tightened them: "Hongming attaches great importance to this meeting, he spent a few weeks preparing gifts, bought new clothes, tie I also bought a new one, and said that I must not make mistakes, and I want to make a perfect first impression on my parents. I laughed at him at that time, saying that you are making a fuss, and you are tossing yourself. Unexpectedly, that day, see The first time I met my father, Hong Ming's expression changed on the spot.

"At first, I thought he was nervous. My father has been in politics and business for decades, he is unsmiling, and he is a bit scary when he looks majestic. Alphas who meet him for the first time are rarely not nervous. But soon I found out , Hong Ming’s state is not so much nervous as embarrassment, and the hostility that embarrassment breeds.”

"After exchanging a few pleasantries, I realized that this is not their first meeting. Two months ago, Hong Ming's business was in big trouble. The capital chain was broken and it was difficult to continue. It's okay to continue, continue. If he didn’t, he would die. He had nowhere to go, and visited my father’s company three times, hoping to get some financing, but they were all rejected. Of course, he didn’t know at that time that the person he was looking for was my father. "

Speaking of this, Yan Ning couldn't help sighing: "Hongming never mentioned this matter to me from the beginning to the end. As long as he is with me, he behaves exactly as usual, and he is obviously bearing the burden in his heart. So much pressure, yet he refuses to show even the slightest sign—Alpha's self-esteem is really hard to understand."

"Well, they... are like this." He An was deeply touched by this.

Yan Ning said again: "Even if I was rejected three times, Hongming's reaction was a bit too intense in my opinion. When my father mentioned this matter at the dinner table, he didn't say much, just a few words, but Hongming was polite I didn't want to answer the question, I just wanted to turn over the story quickly, as if it didn't happen. I guessed that there might be something hidden in it, so after the game ended, I asked my father, and he told me the details of the three visits. "

"An Alpha in his early twenties with little qualifications, who is not well-born and has no one to recommend him, how well can he be treated by my father? My father didn't even let him in the door of the office. Those three meetings, said It's a 'visit', which actually takes place in the elevators, in the lobby and in the underground garage."

"Electricity, elevator?!"

He An was so surprised that he clenched his hand into a fist and covered his slightly opened mouth.

Yan Ning nodded, with a bitter smile: "It's not easy for Hong Ming to bow his head and beg for help for such an arrogant person, let alone in the elevator, knowing that he is not to be seen, but still grasping the rush of the elevator going up for tens of seconds, Making a request that sounds overwhelming in front of a group of strangers. It might be interrupted midway, never getting a chance to finish, or it might be finished, surrounded by mocking laughter.

"Father didn't tell me how he rejected Hongming, but I can guess. He is a straightforward person who never considers other people's feelings. He is willing to comment on his lack of ability and qualifications, which is already considered as a face. The worst case may be only Three words - why.

"How strong Hongming's self-esteem is, I can't even imagine how painful he is."

"Then... what happened later?" He An was worried, and asked with concern, "Did your father agree to help?"

Yanning didn't answer right away.

The tea was too cold to warm my cold hands.He got up and filled it half full, then held a cloud of translucent steam close to his lips, and took a sip slowly.

"My father...finally agreed. He said to Hong Ming at the dinner table: I don't know you, but I believe in Ning Ning's vision. Since it is the person Ning Ning likes, it doesn't matter if you give him a hand. At that time, Hong Ming My father's reaction was the same. He was very restrained and polite. He stood up and said to my father, thank you uncle for his appreciation.

"His family's business escaped the ghost gate and came back to life. After graduation, we got married as scheduled. But once we got married, his attitude towards me completely changed.

"He became very cold, never came home all day, and was on work 24 hours a day. I thought he was hurting his pride and wanted to make a living as soon as possible so that he could feel proud in front of my father. I should wait, Maybe after he has been busy with this period, his career has improved, and he has established a firm foothold in the business world where the jungle is prey to the jungle, the unwillingness in his heart will dissipate.

"But I didn't expect to wait for this class for 20 years."

The new tea warms the stomach, and the heat smokes the eyes. No matter how tightly you hold it in your hands, you still feel cold.

Yan Ning looked sad: "In the past 20 years, he has achieved success and fame, and his status has even surpassed my father, but he is still the same to me. I have never doubted his feelings. Between Alpha and Omega, love or not, after one estrus period I fully understand. No matter how cold he is usually, he can't control himself during the estrus period. He is still the same Hong Ming in school, who loves me like life, but...

"But the estrus period, it's too short, really too short. As soon as the estrus period passes, he will immediately start to run away and intensify his indifference to me."

While speaking, Lily of the Valley grunted something.

She was lying in He An's arms, sleeping soundly, and sucking her fingers relish.Looking at her, Yan Ning calmed down a lot for no reason, so she reached out and touched her head.

Seeing this, He An took Ling Lan's hand away from his mouth and put it into Yan Ning's palm.

"Uncle Yan." He said softly, "I think, I probably know what your Hongming is avoiding."

"Really? Tell me." Yan Ning's tone was soft.

He An said: "He is evading the fact that he likes you. He is so ambitious and wants to prove himself so much, but it is a financing that is a matter of life and death. He can't get it by his own ability, but depends on yours." Like'. He feels that from now on you stand taller than him. In front of you, he doesn't know how to deal with himself, so he can only 'dislike' you and stay away from you to feel a little safe."

Yan Ning lowered her head and fiddled with Ling Lan's little finger, without saying a word, she said calmly after a long time: "He An, you are smarter than me. It took me several years to understand such a simple truth.

"He is like a jealous child, constantly denying my major and hobbies. I used to write poems and praise them, but now I don't like them all. Not only do I look down, but I have to spit them out and analyze them. It’s only comfortable to belittle it once. He also refuses to admit that he has been sincere to me, saying that he was deceived by pheromones—this kind of reason is so absurd that he can’t even fool himself, but he is like a madman. I was trapped in it life and death, and I didn't want to turn back for many years."

"It's not a bad thing for a person to have self-esteem, but it would be silly to look for self-esteem in the person next to him."

Helpless to the extreme, Yan Ning smiled instead.

"After 20 years of ignoring me, my father passed away. He was a mirror, reflecting the most desolate image of Hongming in his life. When the mirror was broken, the thorn in Hongming's heart was also pulled out. Funeral On the night, Hong Ming suddenly woke up from a big dream, standing next to me and weeping. That night, he found the photo album of our student days, sat on the sofa, and looked at it over and over again all night.

"He turned off most of his work and gave me all his time, talking to me, writing me poems, driving me to work, reading every book I've published over the years, and having someone tape me telling the kids I listen to the class at home one by one. I like lettuce, so he planted a small vegetable garden. I like to eat fish, so he goes to the lake to catch one every day, and brings it back to make soup... In the past 20 years, there is no What he did, he made up for me one by one, but he forgot one thing—"

Yan Ning sighed, "He is no longer the Hong Ming of 20 years ago."

Time will refine one's appearance day by day, as well as one's concept and character day by day. 20 years is enough to redraw an unfamiliar face.

If two people walk together all the way, holding hands all the time, and looking at each other from time to time, time will not dare to make drastic changes.On the contrary, if they run in the opposite direction and ignore each other, no one will recognize anyone until the day when they look back and reunite.

Yan Ning has lived in the ivory tower for a long time, and at the age of 50, he still cherishes a childlike heart, which is almost the same as when he was young, but Zheng Hongming has gone too far.

He has climbed all the way to the top in a circle full of calculations and murders, and he has used countless dirty tricks. He even didn't bother to cover them up, and put them all on the surface, all he wanted was a terrifying reputation of killing and decisiveness.There are piles of corpses under your feet, each of which is a once prosperous enterprise, some were strangled to death when they first showed their talents, and some fell apart in the bloody storm.

Vicious, snobbish, wily...

These unacceptable characteristics of Yan Ning inevitably merged into Zheng Hongming's character.He didn't have to be such a person, if every time evil thoughts popped up, Yan Ning would help him by his side.

However, there is no if.

"20 years ago, Hongming wrote me poems. No matter how clumsy, I still like it. But now, even if he looks at me with eager eyes, I know clearly in my heart that there is no soul resonance between me and him. gone."

The stars are far-reaching, flickering like lamps.

Yan Ning looked at the night sky and said sadly: "I still remember the first time we met, the poem I copied on the blackboard and he erased it, the last sentence was written like this: the flashy grows old, the wise, and the deep in love Misunderstanding of youth.

"If he can wake up earlier, the first year, the second year, the third year... I think, I will forgive him. Unfortunately, 20 years is too long. I don't know what it feels like to wait on the sofa every night. I almost don’t remember. Don’t hate, don’t love anymore, forget it, let’s forget it.”

The old black-and-white photos were still lying on the coffee table, the bright moon cast light on the surface, and the faces of the two young people were erased.Yan Ning has watched it too many times, even if she closes her eyes, she still remembers it vividly.

A beautiful moment freezes into eternity, so what?

Reality still flows into the darkest valley, falling down, falling down, until it is drowned in thousands of similar sighs.

He An's eyes were flushed, and he tried his best to squeeze his lips tightly, but a tear still fell down.

He quickly lowered his head and wiped it with the back of his hand, pretending he wasn't crying.

Yan Ning smiled: "Good boy, don't feel sorry for me. Love is only a part of life. If you fail, you fail. For half of my life, to be honest, I should be more fulfilled.

"I am fortunate to have no worries about food and clothing, a stable life, and have been doing the work I love. I also met many talented children in school, and taught me a little bit of superficial insights. They don't dislike them either. I have been remembering me for more than ten years after graduation, and sent me letters and gifts from all over the world. I consider myself an interesting person. I am in my fifties. I also like what young people like. I don’t follow the old rules and be a baby. Old Antique's bad reputation. He sleeps soundly on weekdays, his mind is open, and his body is healthy.

"The most incredible thing is that in my twilight years, I still..."

And got a cute little granddaughter.

Yan Ning raised her fingers, and lightly scratched Lily of the Valley's face, her eyes were full of kindness.

Like He An, not like that jerk at home.

good thing.

"What...what else?" He An couldn't help being curious when he saw that he didn't go on.

Yan Ning thought for a while, looked up at him, and said in a gentle voice: "I still have this opportunity to calmly speak out what was about to rot in my stomach. He An, thank you for not being annoying and listening to me so much. "

"No, no thanks..." He An was a little shy, "As long as you don't feel uncomfortable."

"Of course, if you are complete, you will have some regrets." Yan Ning drank tea and chatted a few more words, "My biggest regret so far is my two children."

"The eldest son is slightly better. He was not selected by Hong Ming as his successor. He stayed with me most of the time and was raised by me. He is considered humble and empathetic. He will not stand on a high ground and belittle others, especially Omega. And mine The youngest son...his pheromone level is very high, I don't know if it's luck or misfortune. Hongming regards him as the only heir, and taught him too many cruel rules when he was still a blank sheet of paper.

"He has no real childhood, only endless spurs and competitions, no rewards for winning, punishment for losing, and punishment for not being pretty. These disciplines gave him an extremely distorted mentality: he must put other Competitors are all underfoot, and it is difficult to turn over when they are stepped on, so as to maintain a sense of security. He becomes vigilant, suspicious, and arbitrary, and any potential threat must be strangled at the initial stage, because his self-esteem is as fragile as Hongming's, and he is affected by it. Not a little hit.

"I failed to protect him well, and failed to teach him what is tolerance, what is empathy, and what is heart-to-heart. He doesn't know these things that everyone knows, so he makes mistakes frequently, and he doesn't know where the mistakes are. The concept of love is also It was a mess, met the right person, but made the same mistake as Hongming, and set up a dead end for himself, and he couldn't get out of it."

When He An heard this, his little finger trembled slightly.

Yan Ning didn't go into details, but every sentence reminded him of Zheng Feiluan involuntarily.So similar mentality, experience and personality flaws, did Zheng Feiluan have the same experience when he was a child?

No, don't do that.

Don't always think of him on unrelated occasions.

He An lowered his head, dug his nails deeply into his palms, and repeatedly told himself not to think too much.But when he lowered his head, his eyes fell on the black and white photo again.

Then he froze—

The young Hongming in the photo has such familiar eyebrows and eyes.

It's very similar.

Really like it.

Why didn't you notice it before?

He An stretched out his hand to the photo, wanting to take it over for a closer look, but accidentally knocked it down in a hurry.The photo fell to the ground and turned over. Under the silvery moonlight, He An saw a line of strong pen writing:

Zheng Hongming, Yan Ning, in ××××, at Yuting Pavilion of Yuanjiang University.