[Net King] Take away my heart

my eternal soul

watching your heart

Even though the night is lonely

Burning by day

—Jean Nicolas Arthur Rimbaud

I have always believed that it is absolutely impossible for a free and easy person like Miyake to be bound by some subtle emotions.

Dead Poets Society has no up and down system, we have no ministers, and we don't have vice ministers, although to a certain extent I think Miyake has the same responsibilities as ministers, but she herself doesn't think so.

Unlike the girls who can be seen everywhere, Miyake is as open-minded and unconstrained as a bold man.When you are with her, you don't feel like you are communicating with a girl, but more like you are talking with someone who can be called a brother.

At the end of the second half of the second grade, Miyake announced without any warning that she would go to the United States with her parents who had changed jobs overseas, and would not go to the third grade with us.

Before leaving Lihai, she confessed to a boy she liked at the graduation ceremony in front of the whole school.This earth-shattering confession became her last legend in Lihai.

Yes, Miyake is a legendary figure.She and Akiyama created Lihai's first student club spontaneously. She ignored the tradition and went her own way. She was a stranger in everyone's eyes. She shouted out the name of the person she liked in front of everyone without shame. .

At least in this school, Miyake has opened up a new field that others have never set foot on.

Sometimes I think, if we could have realized more in the second grade how important an existence like Miyake is, if we had done more to keep her in Lihai instead of going to the United States, if I could have done it earlier If you notice those signs of misfortune and investigate...

Maybe the tragedy in the third grade will not be staged.

When did Miyake fall in love with Jack?I think it should be after that sports meeting.

It was the sports meeting before the final exam of the second grade, and it was also the last sports meeting in our junior high school career.Because of the tragedy that happened after entering the third grade, the annual sports became the final memorial ceremony.

Both Miyake and Akiyama were not very interested in class group activities, so I remember that they didn't take the initiative to sign up for the sports meeting that year.

At that time, almost all the contestants sent by each class were members of the sports club. Needless to say, I and Genichiro signed up for three or four events alone.But in the second grade, there were not many people in our class who belonged to the sports club, and even if there were some people who tried their best to avoid signing up for fear of trouble.As a disciplinary committee member and class representative, Genichiro was furious and reprimanded the whole class at the weekend class meeting.

"Guys who don't have the slightest sense of collective honor get out of this classroom now!"

His roar made half the students in the class stretch out their hands to cover their ears.

There were 9 classes in the second grade at that time, and each class had its own characteristics.For example, Marui and Jack's class is very good at home cooking subjects, and they always bake delicious biscuits and distribute them to teachers and students in other classes.Another example is Yukimura's class. There are several members of the art department in Yukimura's class. Every issue of their class's blackboard newspaper is beautifully drawn, which always attracts many people to watch.

And what about our class?In Xianichiro's words, our class is divided as a whole, the hearts of the people are scattered, and we can't bear to look directly at them.

Most of our classes are small groups. Although there are Akiyama and Miyake who are good at the literature department, and I and Genichiro who belong to the tennis club, everyone is centered on their own small circle and doesn't have much contact with each other, so naturally it doesn't matter. The "class characteristics" of concerted efforts.

Mrs. Sugiyama doesn't care much about whether we are united and make progress together. She always pays attention to students' individual strengths and advocates that everyone should stick to their own individuality.

As a result, Xianichiro, who was powerless, not only failed to inspire everyone's fighting spirit, but also made some people who usually hated his serious style complain.

"Why do we have to risk our lives to help the class earn honors? At this time, the top students should be on the stage. Anyway, for Sanada, winning the honor is the icing on the cake. Even if we unknown juniors get the ranking, it can only be counted. Being at the head of the class is not good for me at all."

"That's right, instead of panting like a dog under the scorching sun to barely get a ranking, it's better to hide in the classroom like Miyake and the others and write more poems and submit them. Maybe a lucky one will be voted in."

After listening to these speeches, Genichiro was furious, and he slammed his fist on the podium heavily.

"A worthless thing! Don't you feel ashamed to say such a thing! Where did those guys make a little contribution to the class!? This is also worthy of your emulation!"

When Genichiro said these words, Akiyama and Miyake were also sitting below.Both were indifferent at first, but Miyake clearly couldn't sit still when they were mentioned.

"Isn't it just to apply for a sports meeting? What kind of contributions are you talking about? Why don't you tell me how many items you have applied for? Whatever you apply for, I will add one more than you!"

"Lianhua, don't be impulsive." Akiyama on the side quickly tugged at the corner of her clothes.

But Miyake ignored it.

"What's the matter, don't you want to compare contributions? I'll let you see how many items I can win! I'm not like some people who know how loud I am. If I'm really on the field, I won't be able to guarantee a ball of embroidered pillows. I don't know who will be ashamed at that time, cut."

In this way, after a class meeting, Miyake reported four events in one breath, including sprint, long-distance race, relay race and horseback riding.In addition to horseback riding, Genichiro also signed up for the other three events.People in the class said that with these two people competing with each other, the results of our class this year should be quite impressive.I hadn't noticed how fast Miyake could run, but she was tall and long-legged, and she had been spotted by the track and field teachers before, so I guess it shouldn't be too bad.

Because both Miyake and I signed up for the sports meeting, Akiyama also took the initiative to take on the role of logistics.On the day of the sports meeting, she came to school with a pack of bento, mineral water and towels. She was already panting and exhausted before the competition started.

"I will fight a good fight!" Miyake said confidently to Akiyama before going on stage.

The sprint and long-distance races were the first competitions, and Miyake and Genichiro participated in the men's and women's competitions respectively.The two chased after each other, biting each other tightly, and the results were very close after two rounds.

"Asshole, let that guy know how good I am!" After the two games, Miyake, who was sweating profusely, ran to Akiyama and wiped his wet hair with a towel while gulping down mineral water.

"Are you really okay?" Akiyama asked worriedly.

Miyake gave her a thumbs up, but I noticed that her legs were trembling slightly.After two fierce matches, Miyake's physical strength should have reached its limit. Girls and boys have different physiques after all. Genichiro on the other end may not matter, but it should be enough for Miyake.

Can she survive the battle on horseback?I can't help but think so.

In the relay race, the class is used as a group. Genichiro runs the last leg, and Miyake runs the second-to-last leg.Jack and Marui on the other side also participated in the relay race. Jack ran the last bat like Genichiro. Their class was the biggest rival of our class.

At the beginning of the game, there was no obvious difference in the first shot. When the second shot was handed over, the distance between the players gradually widened.Jack's and Marui's classes are temporarily ahead, and our class is close behind.Seeing such a situation, Miyake was so nervous that her face was covered with sweat. She stood at the junction and kept rubbing her hands, waiting for the stick to be passed to her hand.

"Miyake! It's up to you!"

There were many people cheering and cheering.The moment the stick was handed over to Miyake, she rushed out like the wind.

"Good job! Miyake! Come on!"

Amidst the sound of cheering one after another, Miyake tried his best to run faster and faster, and soon caught up with the leading players.The last one, Genichiro, was standing at the intersection and waiting for her. Seeing the distance between the two getting closer, my palms broke out in cold sweat.

The accident happened when Miyake was one step away from handing the stick to Genichiro.

That was the most exciting moment. Miyake and another contestant came to the junction almost at the same time. Genichiro had already stretched out his hand to take the baton, but in the next second, Miyake suddenly lost his balance and fell face down on the ground .

"Lianhua!"

Accompanied by Akiyama's frightened cry, Miyake who fell on the ground struggled to raise his arms.

"Let's go! Let's go!" She handed the baton to Genichiro who was already stunned, and shouted at him with the last bit of strength.

At the same time, Jack also got the last stick.

The two people who were supposed to continue the game hesitated for a moment. Looking at Miyake who was lying on the ground with a painful expression, they might be hesitating whether they should continue the game or should stop the game and send the injured Miyake to the infirmary.

"Sanada! Run! The game is not over yet! There is still time! Run!"

Such a voice came from outside the arena.

Genichiro gripped the stick tightly, and the next moment he turned around and rushed out, rushing to the finish line in one breath.There was another burst of enthusiastic cheers from the audience.

But Jack didn't catch up to him.

He dropped the baton in his hand and walked towards Miyake, helping her up from the ground.Miyake's ankle was red and swollen, the pain made her face pale, and cold sweat was dripping down her forehead.

"Are you okay? It's okay. I'll take you to the infirmary right now."

Jack picked up Miyake, who couldn't move, and Genichiro was already standing at the end of victory.But the cheers gradually became smaller. Everyone saw Jack silently leaving the runway with Miyake on his back.Only Genichiro stood alone at the finish line, staring at their leaving backs in a daze.

"Lian Er, from a man's point of view, what do you think of me?"

Miyake, who limped to class with a cane after the athletic meet, once asked me this question.

Perhaps no one would have imagined that Miyake had an unexpected new life after that sports meeting.

Although on crutches, she cut her hair, changed her hairstyle, and drew some cute patterns on her legs wrapped in plaster gauze.

Miyake began to look feminine—a surprising transformation that made everyone who saw her open their mouths and forget to close them.

"Why, I just cut my hair, what's all the fuss about?"

Miyake said dissatisfiedly when he noticed that everyone was looking at him with the same eyes.

Officer Kawai, do you know what Miyake's dream is?She wants to become a model, a world-class supermodel, and she followed her parents to the United States with such a beautiful dream.

I have always believed that she can do it, because she is none other than Reika Miyake.

... If Miyake is still alive, I really want to tell her these words.

I never used data to talk to Miyake and Akiyama, because I knew from the beginning that they were not measurable by data.They are not written in the dictionary, nor can any book record them, they live here, my heart.

There is an old Chinese story called Boya Juexian. It is said that Boya smashed his qin because of the death of his best friend. There is no point in continuing to play.

I've lost Miyake, and now I'm losing Akiyama.Dead Poets Society went from three people to two people, and finally it became just me.

I know what you are doubting, but what I want to tell you is that they actually lived here, and they live in my heart now, in everyone's heart, no matter what rumors you hear Rumors, their past and everything is never what you think it is.

I hope that Akiyama can wake up, even if it takes my whole life, I will find a way to make her wake up.

I will wait for the day when you find out the truth.But before that I have to let you know that I trust them, I trust everyone around me unconditionally, so I can't point out anything suspicious about them to you.

In these short three years of junior high school, we have experienced too many impermanence of fate.

Whether it's Genichiro, me, Jack, Marui, or Yukimura, no one is malicious, and no one wants to watch this happen.

We just can't do anything about it.

We just can't resist the injustice of fate.

... Officer Kawai, please, please find out the truth.Regardless of the final facts, I hope that Miyake's spirit in heaven will not be unable to rest in peace because of the cruelty and inhumanity of the world.

I will wait for your message.

I will keep waiting forever.

Wait until she wakes up, until the day when all the truth comes out.