poor little boy

"it is good."

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After a long silence, I answered him.

After finishing speaking, I added something in my heart.

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temporary.

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I looked at Viagra, and felt a bit tight in my chest, as if a stone was pressing on it, and it was still being pushed in bit by bit.

I know that if it wasn't unbearable, Viagra wouldn't just express his inner thoughts so bluntly.

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I put my hand on his shoulder, and for a moment, I thought of a figure squatting on the ground, and I felt more depressed.

A pent-up feeling of being bound made me dizzy.

I opened my mouth and wanted to say something, but nothing came out.

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Lao Kong had been watching from the sidelines for a long time, but no matter how dazed he was, after seeing this posture, he thought for a while and reacted.

He immediately put the plastic bag with the supermarket logo in his hand on the coffee table with a bang, and when he let go, the plastic bag was pushed aside by the contents, and several cans of beer rolled out.

"Come on, don't stand still, eat while it's hot."

Regardless of the silent atmosphere between me and Viagra, he sat next to Viagra and pulled me to sit opposite.

Raising eyebrows to ease the current situation: "You don't eat, just drink some beer, and you have to go again next week."

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I stared at Viagra for a while before nodding, with one hand on my lap and the other opening a can of beer from the table.

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Bang bang bang three times, each of them raised their necks and drank several mouthfuls, and put down the tin can in unison.

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I lowered my eyes and said nothing.

Viagra stared at the tin can on the table with relish.

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Lao Kong's eyes wandered between the two of us for a while, and finally curled his lips helplessly and smiled awkwardly: "Eat, eat."

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That big bag of skewers ended up in Lao Kong's stomach.

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I saw Viagra walking towards the balcony with a cigarette case, and I hesitated.

Seeing Lao Kong's eyes, he closed his eyes and finally followed.

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Viagra rested his hand on the balcony, raised his other hand, and held a cigarette between his fingers.

A regular cigarette, not the e-cigarette he usually smokes.

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I stood beside him, and I also lay down on the balcony, with one hand reaching into his pocket.

Cigarette case and lighter are inside.

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I wanted to take it out, but was held down by him just as I was about to move.

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"You can't smoke."

I heard Viagra say in a hoarse voice.

He seemed to sigh, and loosened my hand through the jacket, but he still held it tightly.

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"Just one, it's fine."

When was the last time you smoked.

It seems to be thirty nights.

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"Not even one."

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Still leaning against the railing with a straight face, he flicked the cigarette ash with his empty hand, watching the flickering fire fall from his fingertips and onto the lawn downstairs.

His expression was indescribably lonely, and the dim light in the living room behind him shone on his thin face, carving the lines of his face sharply.

Like an office worker frustrated in the workplace, in the silent and moonless night, when the pain slowly comes up, he chooses to be silent and bear it.

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My shoulders collapsed, and with the strength of his repeated relaxation, I stretched out my empty hand.

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If you don't smoke, don't smoke.

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Viagra is like this now, a bit like a little girl who is angry with her boyfriend.

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Be angry, be angry, it's not that I don't like you, can't you coax me.

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I laughed when I thought about it.

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Viagra paused, turned his head slowly, and his eyes finally fell on my face.

He raised his eyebrows, as if asking me what the wind was.

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I smiled and waved my hands so as not to tell him my slander, and said with a light smile, "It's nothing serious, I just remembered a joke."

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Viagra rarely opened his mouth: "How do you say?"

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I was flattered, I thought he would ignore me and just prevaricate, but I didn't expect him to be aroused and wanted to listen.

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I panicked, opened my mouth and started making things up: "There is a goldfish in a tank, and a turtle in the refrigerator. The fish is gone the next day. Why?"

Viagra gave up after thinking for two seconds, "Where did you go?"

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"Isn't it? Where did the goldfish go?" I frowned and pretended to be confused, then spread my hands and looked at him happily, "The turtle is also wondering."

Viagra: "..."

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"Hold."

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He was stunned for a moment, and after realizing it, he smiled and slid down against the railing while covering his stomach. The unstoppable laughter also infected me, and then the two of us laughed at each other like idiots for a long time.

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"Oh, you, what are you, you son of a bitch..."

Viagra quacked happily, the tense expression on his face broke, and the corners of his mouth almost reached the back of his head without stopping.

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I laughed with him for a while and then stopped, and leaned on the railing to watch him laugh silly. The atmosphere that had been solidified between the two of them because of the unhappiness just now was broken, and the distance between the two became closer for a while, and the relationship became harmonious.

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Viagra laughed for 5 minutes before he stopped slowly. The cigarette in his hand was already laughed off by him, and it was extinguished when he stepped on it.

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He propped his head on his elbows, tilted his head and looked at me silently for a while, then sighed again.

Ask me: "Do you have someone you like?"

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I:"……"

Fortunately, I was not as caught off guard as before. I quickly adjusted my mood and shook my head slowly and firmly.

"No."

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"When are you going to look for it?"

"I don't know, I haven't thought about it, let's take it one step at a time." At least I don't have the idea of ​​starting a family now.

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Probably due to the influence of my parents' unhappiness in marriage,

As long as I can remember, they have been arguing and arguing non-stop. I was only in the second grade at that time. Once I was doing my homework in the room, and they were arguing. I covered my ears and waited for a long time, but the sound was like The magic sound came into my ears, and it has been drilling into my brain all the time.

So I went out and cried and asked if they could stop arguing, and the two of them were like deflated balloons and stopped talking.

Later I asked my mother why they didn't separate when they were obviously not happy.

My mother said it was because of me.

Because they want to give me a complete home.

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In my first summer as an adult, they divorced in court mediation, and I wrote the complaint myself.

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It may be because of this deep-rooted memory in me that it has dulled my thoughts on personal feelings.

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This is also the reason why I haven't been rumored to have any scandals with any celebrities in this circle for so long.

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Facing Viagra at this time, he knew my past like the back of his hand, and he knew what I was thinking with just one look.

He smiled softly, raised his hand and patted my shoulder as comfort.

Then his expression became a little unnatural, and his tone was teasing.

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"Then do you want a woman or...a man?"

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I choke.

He looked at him inexplicably.

"Of course it's a woman."

Is this still worth considering?

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But Viagra glanced at me with an indescribable expression, and I was very surprised by the look in his eyes like someone who came over. I subconsciously wanted to ask something, but he didn't want to listen. He just added a sentence when he turned around and left:

"Don't forget what you promised me."