presumptuous [entertainment]

Qin Yinong's right hand fell to his left from time to time, and he twirled the ring on his little finger. Since Guan Hanguang sent her upstairs, he has seen her no less than three times.

What does she want to wear?Still want to take it off?

Or...Guan Han's brows raised an imperceptible upward arc, thinking, relieve the tension?

Her CP is finally going to pierce this layer of window paper together!Even Guan Han could tell that just now before Qin Yinong went upstairs, he deliberately exchanged a glance with Tang Ruoyao, there was clearly something in his eyes.

Ding--

The elevator door opens.

Qin Yinong seemed to have just recovered, and murmured to himself: "We'll be there so soon." His expression was quite sad.

Guan Han was not yet sure whether he wanted to answer her words, Qin Yinong's eyes were half-closed, and he got out of the elevator first, and Guan Han followed behind her half a step away.After swiping the card to enter the door, Guan Han put Qin Yinong's bag and mobile phone on the table.

Qin Yi said nonchalantly: "Go out, I don't need you here for the time being, if you are bored, you can go downstairs to play with those kids, I will call you if I have something to do."

Guan Han replied, "Yes."

Qin Yinong stopped her again: "Last time you said you could destroy the cameras in the corridor?"

Guan Han was startled, and said, "Yes."

Qin Yinong didn't raise his eyelids, and said calmly, "Then destroy it."

Guan Han stopped breathing and said, "Okay."

So happy!

Qin Yinong: "Go out."

Guan Han hurried out to start her sabotage plan, before Tang Ruoyao went upstairs.

After she left, Qin Yinong sighed towards the empty room.

She habitually went to the wine cabinet and took out a bottle of wine, mixed ice cubes and poured it into the glass. When her lips pressed against the cold rim of the glass, she paused and slowly put the glass down, saying yes After wrapping up, she quit drinking, and she couldn't drink anymore.

Besides, Tang Ruoyao will be coming later, so if the other party sees her drinking, he must be worried.

Qin Yinong closed his eyes, then opened them, his eyes were fixed on the rippling wine reflected by the light, the light amber color was very similar to the color of Tang Ruoyao's eyes.

Qin Yinong smiled, then picked up the cup again, took a sip, only one sip, then put it down and never touched it again.

The phone on the table buzzed and vibrated.

Qin Yinong took it over and glanced at it, a string of unfamiliar but familiar numbers was jumping on the display screen, Guan Han showed her twice, she hung up twice, Qin Yinong's fingertips were turning off the phone Tap the key twice to hang up, the screen jumps back to the main interface, the system recognizes her face, Qin Yinong swipe the screen to unlock, and click into the call history.

The records show that every half an hour to an hour, it is convenient to make a phone call, and it has been six times so far.

Qin Yinong instinctively had an ominous premonition, and planned to block the upper right corner, but who knew that the other party came out of order, and the phone vibrated again.

Qin Yinong chose to answer, held her breath, and did not speak.

"Is Qin Yinong?" asked the other person.

Qin Yinong began to lose her breath, and she took the phone a little further away from the place where her childhood began, the source of her nightmares.No matter how old she is, no matter how many days and nights have passed, even if she no longer has to fear that violent and incompetent man, she still cannot resist her instinct and escape from the shadow of the past.

She said coldly: "Where did you know my number? Who gave it to you?"

The person on the opposite side laughed, the laughter was old and hoarse, but it was full of joy and madness.

Qin Yinong's heart skipped a beat, his eyes were bloodshot, and he almost gritted his teeth and called out that person's name: "Qin Hongjian!"

……

I don't know what disconnected the phone, I don't know if I hung up in anger or the other person hung up, when Qin Yinong regained his consciousness, there were several empty wine bottles lying in front of him.

Pain came from the palm of his hand belatedly, Qin Yinong's eyebrows twitched, and when he looked down, his pupils shrank suddenly.

The glass shattered into many pieces, and she held it in her palm. Drop by drop of blood dripped down the palm lines, blooming blood-red flowers.

Qin Yinong stared blankly, looking at the pool of blood indifferently.

Then she seemed to have seen something extremely terrifying suddenly, showing a look of panic.She backed away sharply, falling to the ground with her chair and her body.Regardless of the pain in her back, she scrambled and rushed into the bathroom, turned on the faucet, turned the water to the maximum, and nervously rushed to the blood on her palm.

The glass was thick and the pieces were large. The cut was deep, and a lot of broken glass was embedded in it.The glass should be taken out first, and then cleaned, but Qin Yinong seemed to have suddenly lost his common sense and reason, and just kept rinsing with water. As if the bleeding had stopped.

Qin Yi closed his eyes heavily, and the buzzing in his ears disappeared.

Her uninjured left hand turned off the faucet, pulled the towel on the rack to wrap her right hand, and planned to call Guan Han in to treat her wound.She wanted to deal with it by herself, but this time it was worse than last time, and Guan Han was nearby, she would rather be nagged twice, in case she didn't deal with the infection well, it would be bad, and her hands couldn't go wrong.

Qin Yinong straightened the wine bottle, found Guan Han's number in the phone address book, but footsteps suddenly sounded in the corridor.

Qin Yinong looked down at the time on his phone, and it turned out that more than half an hour had passed.

Oops.

Tang Ruoyao is here!Hope she doesn't knock on the door right away!

Qin Yinong didn't care about the injury to his right hand, so he grabbed the towel in his hand to wipe the blood off the table enduring the pain, and put all the wine bottles in the corner, erecting the suitcase to block it.Then opened the windows that were already open to the maximum, and sprayed the room with strong perfume.

After doing all this, she leaned her back against the wall, and the towel in her right hand was stained with blood. She hid the blood-stained towel in the bathroom, thought for a while, and stepped into the shower to turn on the shower head.

Hot water poured down.

***

Tang Ruoyao did not knock on the door right away, she had to go back to her room to get Qin Yinong's birthday gift, necklace and love letter, one was in the gift bag and the other was on her bedside table.

Tang Ruoyao carefully checked the love letter to see if there were any missing or missing pages - she had written too much, fearing that Qin Yinong would mess it up and she would mess it up carelessly, so she marked the page numbers thoughtfully.

She took both gifts, took a few steps outside, turned back, and put back a thick love letter.Today is just an early birthday, Qin Yinong's real birthday has not yet arrived.Tang Ruoyao has calculated her announcement arrangement, she can squeeze out at least one afternoon and evening that day, no matter whether Qin Yinong has an announcement or not, she can go to her side, and then give it to her personally, justified identity of the girlfriend.

Tang Ruoyao weighed the gift bag containing the necklace, stood in front of Qin Yinong's closed door, raised his hand nervously and apprehensively, habitually raised his face to look at the camera above the corridor, but found that it was always flashing The little red light was gone.

Tang Ruoyao had doubts in his heart.

She had no time to think about it, she looked away and knocked on the door.

dong dong dong-

"Wait a moment." The gentle and gentle female voice responded.

Tang Ruoyao's heart beat suddenly, and his palms began to sweat, so he had to change his hand to hold the paper bag and rub it against his clothes.

She took a deep breath.

The door opened in front of the room, and the tall and slender figure of the woman came into view. She was wearing a snow-white nightgown, her long hair was draped wet behind her, her cheeks were white and rosy, and there was still mist-like moisture on her body. The towel, the towel was a little wet, she should have been wiping her hair before Tang Ruoyao came in.

Tang Ruoyao was stunned for a moment: "Are you taking a bath?"

Qin Yinong smiled and said, "Yes."

Tang Ruoyao showed a bit of embarrassment, bit her lips and said, "Then I..."

Qin Yinong has already turned sideways to make way: "Please come in."

Tang Ruoyao thanked him politely and moved in with small steps.

Orphaned and widowed, they shared the same room, and she even took a bath specially, and the fragrance was tangy.Tang Ruoyao thought: What does this mean?She couldn't help but wander off to something pleasurable.

I knew that I should take a shower, Tang Ruoyao said regretfully, then she thought again, it’s okay to take a bath here, anyway, it doesn’t matter if you wear it or not, the two of them have seen each other so many times, and they haven’t seen anything .

Tang Ruoyao was thinking east and west, so distracted that he temporarily ignored the overly strong aroma in the air, and the faint smell of alcohol and blood mixed in the aroma.

There is a small sofa and coffee table in the room.

Qin Yinong said politely, "Please sit down."

"Thank you." Tang Ruoyao sat down on a single sofa cautiously.

Qin Yinong sat across from her, the big towel for drying her hair was left on her knees, and her right hand was hidden under the towel.

Tang Ruoyao met her eyes, looking at the woman's beautiful face under the light, her heart was full of tenderness, she opened her mouth, and wanted to say something, but she couldn't help but laugh.

She loves Qin Yinong, and Qin Yinong loves her too, this is the best thing.

Qin Yinong tilted his head and said gently, "Huh?"

Tang Ruoyao raised both hands, handed over the gift bag, and said, "Birthday gift for you."

"Thank you." Qin Yinong took it with her left hand, and asked according to the etiquette she remembered, "Can I take it apart now?" Even if it was a bit difficult for her to do it with one hand.

Tang Ruoyao said: "Later, I have something to tell you."

Qin Yinong put the bag at his feet.

"You said."

Tang Ruoyao cleared her throat, she had already rehearsed the words thousands of times in private, and when she really wanted to say it, her hands were still trembling and her breathing was short of breath.

She looked into Qin Yinong's eyes, took a deep breath, and said seriously: "I like you, are you willing to be my girlfriend?"

The room was very quiet.

The young woman spoke very solemnly and with great force, and her enunciation was clear, so there was a little echo.

After the echo ended, Qin Yinong didn't speak.

Ten seconds passed.

Qin Yinong looked back at her, neither dodging nor evading, but just kept silent.

Tang Ruoyao's heart skipped a beat, and he began to feel uneasy.

But she couldn't grasp Qin Yinong's thoughts, just like these days, the feeling of powerlessness and empty sadness came to her heart again.

What happened?

One minute later, Tang Ruoyao supported the armrest of the sofa, planning to stand up.

Qin Yinong spoke, with an unusually flat voice: "Can you tell who I am now?"

who are you?

Tang Ruoyao said without thinking, "Qin Yinong."

Qin Yinong asked: "Then can you tell who you are during this time? Is Tang Ruoyao confessing to me now, or Han Zifei confessing to Shen Muqing?"

Tang Ruoyao said without hesitation: "It's me who treats you." Afraid she wasn't clear enough, she changed her words, "It's me, Tang Ruoyao, who treats you, Qin Yinong."

"Okay." Qin Yinong looked directly at her with extremely sharp eyes and said, "Let me ask you again, since I joined the filming group, is it Tang Ruoyao who loves me, or Han Zifei who loves Shen Muqing? Obviously before joining the group , you have given up on me, haven't you?"

There was a buzzing in Tang Ruoyao's head.

She knew where the sticking point was.

She knows the problem of not being able to tell the difference between people and dramas, especially in the later stages of the plot, when the emotional ups and downs are greater, in order to get more immersed in the characters, she will let Han Zifei dominate herself, and even alienate Qin Yinong several times, making her worry about gains and losses .

No wonder she's been so abnormal lately. It turned out that she was worried that she only fell in love with her because of the drama. Are you such a casual person?this woman.If he hadn't liked her a long time ago, who would have been entangled with her for so long?

So Tang Ruoyao said with a smile: "I didn't know you well enough at that time. The days on the set gave me the opportunity to fully understand you, so I fell in love with you and decided to pursue you."

Qin Yinong was unmoved by her confession again, and asked, "Then did you love Shen Muqing when you were Han Zifei?"

Tang Ruoyao said honestly, "Love."

Qin Yinong said: "That is to say, you fell in love with two people at the same time?"

"I don't." Tang Ruoyao retorted rationally, "I love you, Han Zifei loves Shen Muqing, Shen Muqing is played by you, both of them are you, what's the difference? I love you off screen."

"It's not the same." Blood oozes from the palm of his hand, Qin Yinong folded a layer of towel on his right hand, and said calmly, "Now you have two loves for me, one is Tang Ruoyao's love for Qin Yinong, and the other is Han Zifei to Shen Muqing."

"Yes."

"Which one is more?"

Tang Ruoyao was dumbfounded.

How can she tell the difference?

"Is it important?" Tang Ruoyao asked.She faintly felt that things were not as simple as she thought.

"Important." Qin Yinong nodded, "You've been in the industry for so many years, you should know that there are countless couples who fall in love because of drama, some of them have achieved positive results and entered into marriages, which are widely known, but more people have broken up with dismal endings. Even if you get married, as time goes by, there are not many people who can achieve consummation."

Tang Ruoyao caught her loophole, and immediately said: "Even if it's not because of drama, there are not many people who are always happy in reality. You can't use an example to prove it." She was afraid that Qin Yinong would retaliate against her, so she added first, "I won't be like this with you, I have confidence."

Qin Yinong was unhurried, and smiled lightly: "You don't need to rush to defend yourself. Listen to me."

Tang Ruoyao's flustered heart was slowly calmed down, but she was still not completely calm.

Qin Yinong said: "It's easy for actors to fall in love with each other because of the fact that when playing couples in a drama, as the plot progresses, I get more and more involved in the drama, so I have a real-life lover for the 'couple' in the drama." At the beginning, Director Han was afraid that I would fall into it too, and taught me that if you really fell in love with the person in the play, you should not be together immediately after the filming, but give yourself and the other party time to calm down. Wait for the perfect filter of the person in the play to pass, and then determine whether the real person is the person you want."

Tang Ruoyao said firmly: "I don't need time, I'm sure you are the one I want."

Qin Yinong went back to that question, looked her in the eyes, and asked slowly: "In your love, do Han Zifei love Shen Muqing more, or Tang Ruoyao loves Qin Yinong more? If it's Han Zifei who loves Shen Muqing more? Zifei loves Shen Muqing even more, how can you be sure that I am the one you want?"

Her eyes were very gentle, with a trace of sadness in the gentleness, Tang Ruoyao suddenly fell silent.

Qin Yinong said: "As time passed day by day, you were completely out of play. Han Zifei's love for Shen Muqing disappeared. How much of your love for me is left? I'm not perfect, but Shen Muqing is in Han Zifei's eyes. The movie is perfect, the me I see now is the me that has been beautified with countless layers of filters, once you leave the movie, are you sure it will be the same as before?"

"I..." Tang Ruoyao concluded.

It's not like this, I will always love you, she convinced herself in her heart, but she found that she couldn't refute Qin Yinong's words.

The wound on the palm was bleeding more and more, and it hurt more and more. Qin Yinong wrapped the towel twice more tightly, thin beads of sweat rolled out on his forehead, and his face turned pale after the heat from the bath dissipated .

She breathed out without a trace, changed the subject, and asked, "Why did you pursue me?"

Tang Ruoyao's voice was much lower than before, and said: "I like you, I have liked you for a long time, I did not lie to you."

"That's not what I'm asking." Qin Yinong put it another way, "Why are you pursuing me so persistently? After I refused to hurt you again and again, you still walked towards me firmly, why?"

Tang Ruoyao didn't understand at first, she was stunned for a while, then the blood faded from her face, and her lips were pale.

Qin Yinong smiled wryly.

Tang Ruoyao hardly dared to look her in the eye, and lowered his head.

It was the courage that Han Zifei brought her, the solitary courage of not looking back after bumping into the south wall.

With his original character, he gave up long ago, right?Whether it was before the movie started or after she joined the crew, Qin Yinong's sarcastic remarks revealed that she had a child with a half-smile, she left without saying goodbye, and every blow she made meant to Tang Ruoyao, who was originally proud and arrogant. Even if she manages to live in peace with Qin Yinong, she will not have Han Zifei's firm belief that she must bear the thorns all over her body, even if she is covered in blood hug her.

It wasn't that Tang Ruoyao opened up Qin Yinong's defenses and made the hedgehog willingly open his soft belly. It was because she was too involved in the play, and Han Zifei's determination to go to Shen Muqing made her persevere to go to Qin who played Shen Muqing as well. Concentrated.

It turned out to be the case.

Tang Ruoyao hooked the corners of her lips ironically.

Tang Ruoyao knew that she couldn't tell the difference between the inside and the outside of the play, and she also knew that Qin Yinong was sad because of it, but before today, she just thought that Qin Yinong was hurting her to alienate her. If I'm Han Zifei again, I won't do anything to make her feel wronged.

She thought she loved Qin Yinong deeply, but she couldn't tell whether she loved Qin Yinong more in the play or outside the play.No wonder Qin Yinong was so sad during the day, and kept trying to remember her name by himself.

She is just Qin Yinong, she has never been confused, she loves herself from beginning to end.But I am two people, giving two loves out.

There were tears in her eyes slowly.

Qin Yinong sighed softly, echoing in the room.

Tang Ruoyao raised his head and held back his tears.

Seeing her crying, Qin Yinong felt sore in his heart, and he calmed down, and then said: "I have a mother, who is in her sixties, in poor health, her hair is all white, and one leg was limped when she was young, and she couldn't walk. It is convenient and needs someone to take care of; I also have a daughter who is three and a half years old and just started kindergarten. She is not my own, and she has no father, but it is better than my own. I will always raise her to grow up and start a career. It is inseparable from my life.

"I have a cousin who told you. She has a very good relationship with me and has always been my spiritual pillar. She passed away three years ago. I was hit hard and almost couldn't survive. Later, Reluctantly support, it is only because she left a daughter, which became the responsibility on my shoulders. In fact, I liked you very early, probably earlier than you liked me." Qin Yinong smiled like a child , looking a little proudly, "You don't know, do you?"

Tang Ruoyao's eye circles suddenly turned red, and said in a low voice, "Yes."

"One night, you got drunk and kissed me secretly. Remember?"

Tang Ruoyao nodded.

"At that time, I really wanted to kiss back."

Tang Ruoyao's eyes became more and more sour for some reason, and finally a tear fell.

Qin Yinong pressed his right hand hard, and a light red color appeared on the surface of the towel.She leaned over and took a few tissues with her left hand, handed them to Tang Ruoyao, and said helplessly, "I told you this not to make you cry."

"I know." Tang Ruoyao sniffed and said nasally.

Qin Yinong said: "But I don't dare. My mother and my cousin were emotionally unhappy. It can be said that they missed their lives. I don't want to repeat their mistakes. I have always resisted love. Until I I met you." Her eyes became very soft.

"If it hadn't been for my cousin's sudden death, I might really be with you. Or maybe you appeared two years earlier..." She thought for a while, then suddenly shook her head and denied herself, "No, I don't have enough Power protects you." If it was later, she would already be a walking dead, and she would never be touched by anyone.

After all the calculations, Tang Ruoyao could only appear at that time. She returned home because of Qin Lunong's embarrassment, and she didn't want to accept the reality, so she ran away from home and built herself a Neverland.

She appeared at that time, and he fell in love with her in the day and night, and he was vacillating. When the bad news came, Qin Lunong passed away, and she completely closed herself off, and also cut off this budding relationship.

Everything is just right.

The only thing to blame is fate.

Qin Yinong raised his face, let out a long sigh of relief, suppressed the bitterness on the back of his tongue, adjusted his mood, and said slowly: "I am strict with you because I have suffered a lot in the circle before, so I want you to stay here You can walk on this road smoothly, and don’t suffer from the outside world. You just need to be an actor at ease, play your own play, and do whatever you like. You are the past that I can’t make up for.”

Tang Ruoyao murmured, "I'm sorry, I don't know..."

Qin Yinong said: "In the past, my methods were a little extreme. I apologize to you."

Tang Ruoyao was almost overwhelmed by shame, and said in a low voice, "It's me who should say I'm sorry."

Qin Yinong waved her hand, signaling that she needn't do this.

Tang Ruoyao had been in the room for so long before noticing that her right hand hadn't moved at all. She looked up at the woman and turned pale with shock.Beads of sweat rolled out of the woman's fair forehead, her face was as white as paper, and her lips were frighteningly white.

She immediately stood up: "Qin Yinong—"

"Don't come here." Qin Yinong pressed down with his left hand, his eyes forced her to sit back in her original position.

Tang Ruoyao was about to go crazy, but she didn't dare to move: "What's wrong with you?"

Qin Yinong lowered his head and unwrapped his right hand layer by layer. The towel changed from white to light red to deep red, revealing his bloody palm. Tang Ruoyao's pupils shrank suddenly, and he bit his lower lip tightly.

Qin Yinong laughed mockingly.

"My biological father, Qin Hongjian, was the most hated person in my life, never one of them. The one thing I wished most when I was a child was that my mother could divorce him, but she never did. She tolerated that man, drank too much , domestic violence, beat her again and again, and me. Even a leg was limped, but she failed to wake up. She always said, it will be fine, it will be fine, he was not like this before." Qin Yi Nong tilted his head, and suddenly asked her, "Do you know what he was like before?"

Tang Ruoyao stared at her blood-dropping palms, and her deteriorating complexion. He was so anxious that he had to cooperate and asked, "What is it like?"

"My mother said that he is a talented man with gentle speech and gentle manners. Ha, is it funny?" Qin Yinong was smiling, but his smile was full of bitterness, "It won't get better. After more than 20 years, he It never got better."

Tang Ruoyao looked uncomfortable, and couldn't bear it: "Stop laughing."

Qin Yinong really stopped laughing, and she changed her tone to a calm one: "Then do you know how he became like that slowly?"

Tang Ruoyao intuitively felt that she might not want to hear the next words, so she didn't answer, and even tried to get up to stop her, but was stopped by Qin Yinong: "Listen to me."

Tang Ruoyao didn't dare to move, locked her eyes tightly, but insisted: "You wrap your palms first."

"I forgot, I'm sorry." Qin Yinong smiled softly, understated, and rewrapped his palm with a dirty towel.

Tang Ruoyao was going crazy: "Don't you feel pain?"

"This?" Qin Yi raised his hand and said, "It's not the first time anyway."

"What do you mean it's not the first time?"

"It's not the first time you've hurt yourself."

"You hurt yourself? Why?"

"I don't know why." Qin Yinong said calmly, "Qin Hongjian didn't hit people right away. He was just drinking heavily at first, and then slowly, he began to abuse himself, cutting himself with a knife, and later, he developed violence. .”

She raised her eyes and looked at Tang Ruoyao fixedly. There was no emotion in her eyes: "He drank heavily, and I drank too much. He abused himself, and I abused myself. Next step, what is it?"

Tang Ruoyao suddenly fell into an ice cellar, his hands and feet were completely cold.

She subconsciously said: "No, he is him, you are you, you are different."

Qin Yinong just smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes: "I am his biological daughter, and his despicable genes are engraved in my bones. I always thought he had a mental illness, and now it seems that I may have it too."

Tang Ruoyao said loudly: "No!"

Contrary to her suddenly raised tone, Qin Yinong asked softly: "Are you afraid? I may have violent tendencies in the future, are you afraid?"

Tang Ruoyao shook his head firmly: "I'm not afraid."

Qin Yinong said: "Answer me as Tang Ruoyao, not Han Zifei. I know she is not afraid, and I am asking you."

Tang Ruoyao couldn't tell the difference between herself and Han Zifei, so she hesitated.

Is Tang Ruoyao afraid?

It should be...not afraid, right?Even in a fight, he may not be able to defeat Qin Yinong, and she may not become like that.

She hesitated for a short time, but still shook her head firmly.

Qin Yinong asked her again: "I became alcoholic, violent, and irrational when I exploded. Will you still love me at that time?" Qin Yinong believed in Tang Ruoyao's sincerity, but sincerity was always changing rapidly. It's not just the present.

Tang Ruoyao hesitated even longer, she bit her lip, and promised: "I will accompany you to stop drinking and get better again."

Qin Yinong glanced at her calmly, not disappointed, more expected.

She looked up and let out a long sigh.

Tang Ruoyao suddenly clenched her fingers tightly, and began to panic for no reason.

Qin Yinong looked at her again, with an indistinct red circle around his eyes, and said: "I am not young anymore, I don't just want to fall in love. But you are still young, you are only 23 years old, your life has just started At first, I don't want you to regret it in the future."

Tang Ruoyao's lips moved: "I..."

Qin Yinong gently interrupted her: "I will love you forever, from birth to death, what about you?"

Tang Ruoyao burst into tears suddenly, filling her eyes.

Qin Yi said in a deep voice: "I have told you everything about me. I have a family with deep ties, and I may have violent tendencies in the future, or worse, mental illness. Are you sure you can afford my past , Now and the future? Can you face all the unknown wind and rain with me together? If you are sure, come and hug me, we are together. If you are not sure, you can leave now, I will not blame you. "

Tang Ruoyao got up subconsciously and took a step forward.

Qin Yinong yelled softly: "I'm asking about Tang Ruoyao, not Han Zifei!"

Those deafening words Tang Ruoyao's heart sank and he was nailed to the spot.

Qin Yinong's eyes were full of sadness, and he said word by word: "What I want is someone who can pull me up when I give up on myself, instead of pulling me for a short time, and then pushing me deeper into the bottom of the sea in the blink of an eye. When my sister died, I almost died, and if I lose you again, I will really die. Let me ask you again, are you sure?"

Tang Ruoyao looked at her teary eyes and stood there with her head bowed.

She is ignorant and superficial, she does not have Han Zifei's pure and unswerving love for Shen Muqing, nor Han Zifei's indomitable courage.And Qin Yinong's love for her has already surpassed mountains and rivers, sun and moon, and is as vast and deep as the sea and stars.

Even though it was only three steps away, it was like a galaxy in the sky, and she couldn't cross it.

Yes, she wasn't sure, she was shaken.

She can't bear such a deep love, she doesn't deserve it.

Qin Yinong needs her courage the most, but she just doesn't have the courage.Han Zifei has it, but Tang Ruoyao doesn't.So it was never the real, cowardly Tang Ruoyao who moved her during this time.

Qin Yinong used the knife to spread out his wounds layer by layer for her to see, and then willingly handed over the handle of the knife to her.Whether to put down the knife and approach her to hug her, or to stab her in the heart with the sharp knife handed over by her, was all in Tang Ruoyao's mind.

Her long silence and freezing had already told Qin Yinong the answer.

The faint brilliance in the woman's eyes dimmed and finally completely extinguished.

a long time.

"I'm sorry." Tang Ruoyao's voice was so hoarse that it didn't seem to come from her throat, she said with difficulty, "I think I might..."

"Does it take a while?" Qin Yinong supplemented her later words with a soft voice and gentle eyes.

Tang Ruoyao's whole body was tense, and it took all his strength to let himself nod that head.

The moment he nodded, tears fell like rain.

I am sorry.

I am sorry.

I am sorry.

Her head was too low to lift.

Qin Yinong turned his face away from her and said, "You go."

"Then your hand..." Tang Ruoyao knew that he was not qualified, but couldn't help but choked up and asked.

"I'll let Guan Han bandage it up for me, please take care." Qin Yinong clenched her right hand into a fist, and the blood-clotting wound opened again. She tried her best to suppress something, and said again, "Let's go."

Tang Ruoyao didn't even have the strength to pull the corners of his lips politely, so he turned his back stiffly and walked towards the door.

Qin Yinong turned around to look at the back of her leaving, with steam welling up in his eyes.

do not go.

stay with me.

Please.

The door locked with a click.

Everything is quiet and there is nothing left.

The moon in the water and the flowers in the mirror are all just like dreams.

Qin Yinong sat on the sofa for a long time, melting into the shadows, without making any noise, and solidified into a wax figure with no expression and no words.

Her throat was sweet, and she suddenly lowered her head and spat out a mouthful of blood.

Two low laughs rolled out of her throat, the smiles were full of bitterness and self-mockery.

It turns out that even if the wish is not spoken, it will not come true.

The author has something to say:

Wish: Refers to a birthday wish made an hour ago - please don't leave me.