presumptuous [entertainment]

"You guys go to rest first." Tang Ruoyao apologized, and said to the three roommates in front of her, "I came all the way here specially, I'm sorry for spoiling your mood."

Wen Shuxian has been on fire for a long time, and seeing her apologizing now, she was so angry that she shed tears: "Why are you apologizing to us, aren't you friends?"

Cui Jiaren sighed and said, "Yeah, what's the matter with you? Tell us?" When she first came up, she was happy to confess, but Cui Jiaren is still confused about this reversal.

Tang Ruoyao remained silent.

Fu Yujun lowered his voice and said, "Go back first, I'll stay with her here."

Fu Yujun can stand up to ten, and Wen Shuxian has always been self-aware, so she left with Cui Jiaren without any objection. Before leaving, Tang Ruoyao looked back, but Tang Ruoyao still lowered her head.

She went to the corridor outside and suddenly punched the wall hard.

Fu Yujun looked at Tang Ruoyao's clean and tidy room, walked around the room on his own, picked up the electric kettle on the table, filled the kettle with water, and connected it to the power supply to boil water.

The water made a gurgling sound of boiling in the pot, and white steam came out.Fu Yujun handed Tang Ruoyao a wrung hot towel. Tang Ruoyao thanked her, covered her face with the hot towel, and let out a long sigh of relief.

Fu Yujun took out two glasses, washed them, put them on the table, and poured out two glasses of water.

"Would you like to take a shower and tidy up first?" Fu Yujun pointed at Tang Ruoyao with his chin, and said bluntly, "You are in such a mess now."

"Yeah." Tang Ruoyao initially regained his ability to think after being confused all night, "I'm going now, you sit down for a while."

Fu Yujun raised his eyebrows: "Go."

There was the sound of a shower.

Fu Yujun thought for a while, took out his phone from his pocket, and sent a message to Guan Han.

There was a face-to-face game tonight, and she also helped her avenge her friendship three times, which was logical.She and Guan Han got close, originally for the sake of future contingencies, there is no harm in making more friends, but she didn't expect it to come in handy so soon.

The content doesn't mean much, it's just an ordinary inquiry: 【When will we play together again? 】

Fu Yujun tapped his knuckles on his knees and put down the phone lock screen.

Before the boiling water was warmed, Tang Ruoyao came out of the shower. Her long hair was dripping wet, and she didn't wipe her body. There were rolling drops of water on her cheeks and neck. She was sitting on Fu Yujun with steam all over her body. On the opposite side, the eyelids are red and swollen.

Fu Yujun sighed, got up and helped her find a big towel, covered her head, and said, "Wipe it off."

"Thank you." Without wasting any time, Tang Ruoyao told Fu Yujun what happened tonight as if pouring beans from a bamboo tube while wiping her hair.

She could think clearly by herself, but she never reacted quickly.Every time Qin Yinong said something, he had to think for a long time, analyze the other party in detail, and then convince himself.She used to think about one thing for hours or even overnight, but now that so many things are piled up, she needs more time.

But what she lacks most now is time, and she doesn't have that much time for her to think slowly.

Fu Yujun woke her up once, and knew about her past with Qin Yinong, as well as her mental journey when she was on the set. It would undoubtedly save a lot of time for her to watch as a bystander than for her alone.

Tang Ruoyao's mind was full of images. When it came to the crucial point, the huge shock she received was still there, and her eyes were sore for a few times, but she endured it back. After she calmed down, she continued to speak slowly.

No matter how calm Fu Yujun was, he still unconsciously opened his mouth several times in the middle of the journey. This...

After Tang Ruoyao finished speaking, her eyes were red, and she opened her eyes wide to look at the person in front of her, like a drowning person clutching her straw.

Fu Yujun received too much information, and his brain was overloaded. He raised a hand and said, "I... let me think about it first, you wait."

Tang Ruoyao said obediently: "You think, I don't talk."

Tang Ruoyao was not idle when Fu Yujun was thinking. She lowered her head and twisted her hands and fingers together. She was also concentrating on thinking, but mixed with regret and self-blame, she couldn't stop thinking about Qin Yinong's last Desperate look.

——I will love you all my life, from birth to death, what about you?

——Are you sure you can afford my past, present and future?Can you face all the unknown wind and rain with me together?

——What I want is someone who can pull me up when I give up on myself, not someone who pulls me up briefly and then pushes me deeper into the bottom of the sea in the blink of an eye.When my sister died, I almost died, and if I lose you again, I will really die.I'll ask you again, are you sure?

If she were Han Zifei, she would hug her without hesitation.

If she were Tang Ruoyao, she would be ecstatic that she finally got a response. As for the things after that, she can't guarantee it. She won't agree easily, but she might sit down and discuss rationally with Qin Yinong , no matter what, he will never be afraid like a coward and choose to flee on the spot.

But she happened to be both, but neither of them.

Who is she?

Tang Ruoyao fell into unprecedented self-denial and doubt.

She couldn't even find her original self.

A tear splashed on the floor, she immediately raised her hand to wipe it away with the back of her hand, and bit the tiger's mouth hard.

Stop crying, only cowards cry all the time.

How did she become like this?

Tang Ruoyao's eyes were red from the boil, blood was bleeding from the tiger's mouth bitten by herself, and she was startled when Fu Yujun called her.

Tang Ruoyao was on the verge of collapse, her eyes were all gray.

Fu Yujun hurriedly called her name.

Tang Ruoyao slowly regained focus, loosened the tips of her teeth, and said, "I'm fine, just tell me."

Fu Yujun dismissed the idea of ​​starting from the beginning, and said directly: "You did nothing wrong."

Tang Ruoyao thought it was her consolation, she twitched the corners of her lips cooperatively, and said palely, "Thank you."

Fu Yujun looked into her eyes and said seriously: "If I were here today, I wouldn't do better than you."

Father, like son.Tang Ruoyao has deep affection for Qin Yinong. Even though she has doubts about the depth of this affection, Fu Yujun has watched her come all the way, and it is definitely not the kind of liking that he talked about.

Tang Ruoyao looked slightly startled.

Fu Yujun said: "I know you are blaming yourself now, but is she wrong at all? What does it mean that she will die if she loses you?" Fu Yujun felt unbelievable when he heard it just now, and now he pointed to the point, "Have you heard Do ordinary people confess like this?"

She performed live, pretending to have a lover in front of her, and said emotionally: "I like you, I want to be with you. But if you break up with me in the future, I will die."

Tang Ruoyao: "..."

Fu Yujun: "Who doesn't want to think about it? It's the same thing to love or not. Who wants to risk a life for falling in love? Don't blame me for speaking harshly. Others are kidnapping morality, but she is kidnapping human life."

She feels that she is quite gentle. If Wen Shuxian were here, she would definitely say "Crazy, go to the doctor if you are sick, the mental hospital is waiting for you."

Tang Ruoyao subconsciously defended Qin Yinong: "That's not the case. It's because of family matters that she..." Tang Ruoyao thought about her words, and said, "It's a little bit extreme."

Fu Yujun raised his voice and said, "Why is it her business? It's the two of you's business when she confesses like this! She is an independent adult, she is 30 years old, she is not a child, why should others be responsible for her life and even human life?" ?!"

Tang Ruoyao couldn't refute for a while, pursed her lips, and said softly, "Anyway, don't say bad things about her, I didn't come to ask you to scold her." She lowered her head, "You can scold me, whatever you want. "

Fu Yujun followed her words and said, "Okay, I'll scold you now."

Tang Ruoyao raised his head immediately, his eyes were bright, and he looked like he was listening to the teaching.

Fu Yujun said: "Your biggest mistake is that you were led into a ditch by her series of questioning, and completely lost the ability to think and judge." She asked inexplicably, "Where is your brain?"

Tang Ruoyao smiled wryly.

"Maybe it was eaten by a dog at that time." Tang Ruoyao laughed at herself, and now the dog didn't spit it out for her.She wiped her face with her hands, patted her cheeks, and tried her best to remember the period when her mind was in chaos.

a long time.

Tang Ruoyao said: "Since she started questioning me, whether it is Han Zifei who loves Shen Muqing more, or I love her more, I became confused. I never thought about this question. When I love her, I love her with all my heart." When she was Han Zifei, she also loved Shen Muqing wholeheartedly. I was neither flirtatious nor affectionate." Tang Ruoyao murmured with tears in her eyes, "Why do you have to divide it into two?" She couldn't tell much, Because it's all [-]%.

Fu Yujun asked: "Then why didn't you tell her?"

Tang Ruoyao sniffed, and said, "What should I say? To me, she is not only the person I like, but also my teacher, my sister, and my guide on the road of life. I subconsciously feel that she is right , I was wrong, and I don't know where I am wrong, what should I say?"

Moreover, Tang Ruoyao had been her lover for three years, and she had always been afraid of Qin Yinong in her bones. Whenever she put on a straight face and taught her seriously, Tang Ruoyao didn't dare to say a word about what she said.

Fu Yujun sighed softly, leaned over and took out a few facial tissues from the tissue box, and handed them to her.

Tang Ruoyao picked it up, just holding it in his hand.

"She said that all the actors who are in love with each other have filters. What I see is the perfect her. When the movie is over, the filter that belongs to Han Zifei disappears, and the she I see is not the current her. It's gone." Tang Ruoyao said more and more now, the thoughts distorted by Qin Yinong gradually cleared up, and she suddenly cursed in a low voice.

Fu Yujun: "Huh?"

Tang Ruoyao cursed again, not only scolding himself, but also Qin Yinong.

dead woman.

When did Qin Yinong become perfect in her eyes?Obviously a bunch of shortcomings, boring gourd, favorite duplicity, every time she will be half-deadly pissed off.She still remembers what happened to Lin Ruohan last time, she pushed her to others during the day, and hid in the room crying at night!

And today, I said some specious things with great momentum, but it doesn't make any sense!

Tang Ruoyao was so angry that his heart heaved.

Why didn't she think of it at the time!

Has Shen Muqing offended Han Zifei?Did Han Zifei bite Shen Muqing's face in anger?

Qin Yinong and Shen Muqing are completely different!Can't she tell who's who?She just likes Qin Yinong, her awkwardness, her occasional shyness, and her calmness when teasing her intermittently.

Fu Yujun looked at Tang Ruoyao's pale face turned rosy due to the sudden anger, and couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips.

It's no longer that dumb look, it should be back to normal soon.

Tang Ruoyao drank the cold water in the glass in one gulp, stretched his stiff shoulders and neck, stood up and said, "I'll pour another glass."

Fu Yujun handed over the empty glass in his hand: "Pour me a glass too."

Tang Ruoyao put two glasses of water on the tea table, sat back down again, pinched the bridge of his nose, and sighed heavily.

Fu Yujun laughed and said, "What's wrong?"

Tang Ruoyao shook her head: "It's nothing, I just feel..." She pulled the corners of her lips, the corners of her lips were drawn into a smile, and said sadly, "I'm not mature enough, she has never believed me."

No matter what she did, she almost got her heart out. Qin Yinong still didn't believe that he really loved her, and loved her unconditionally.Even without Han Zifei's identity, Qin Yinong couldn't see her sincerity at all?

How can we generalize her and Han Zifei?Is her love so cheap and shallow in her eyes?

Tang Ruoyao's teeth whitened his lower lip.

Fu Yujun was worried about her, and said softly, "Are you okay?"

Tang Ruoyao put aside her pessimism and said, "It's okay." She let out a soft breath, and said, "I've already confirmed the emotional aspect, let's move on to the next question, she said that I am only because of Han Zifei's courage." The one who stalked and pursued her."

"So you think if you didn't have Han Zifei's courage, you wouldn't have pursued her?" Fu Yujun asked.

"Yes."

"Why must you be separated from Han Zifei?"

"Because I'm out of the play, it won't be her anymore."

"Really?" Fu Yujun looked at her with a half-smile.

Tang Ruoyao looked at her strangely, and suddenly understood something.

Fu Yujun said: "As actors, we may lack real life experience. But every role we perform and every life we ​​experience is our life, which will bring us various influences. People are not static. You How much have you changed since filming? How many changes were brought to you by the people in the play? Someone taught you tenacity, someone taught you kindness, someone taught you integrity, and someone taught you tolerance. Why can't you accept the bravery given to you?"

Tang Ruoyao said hesitantly, "I know, but I'm afraid... I can't be as brave as her."

Her family background and growth experience are completely different from Han Zifei's. Han Zifei can put all his eggs in one basket, but she can't.She has a vegetable father who is bedridden, and a younger brother who is about to enter puberty. In fact, like Qin Yinong, she has a family on her shoulders, and she is used to looking forward and backward, and thinking twice before acting.

Of course, she can hug Qin Yinong regardless and just focus on the present moment.But after that?How long can I last with just a layer of paper-thin courage?She doesn't want it now, she wants it for a lifetime, and her original intention has never changed.

Qin Yinong no longer believed in her, even if she hugged him back then, would she have believed in herself?

Tang Ruoyao hooked the corners of her lips mockingly.

Qin Yinong was still that snail, hiding in her snail shell at the slightest sign of disturbance.She has doubts about herself, and she can sit down calmly, and the two of them have a good talk, instead of this kind of seemingly conversation, in fact, she uses her own logic to mislead herself, and starts to force herself to think in an extremely self-destructive way. time to make a decision.

While relentlessly pushing her away, while hoping for her to get closer, this is the method Qin Yinong used several times during the filming of "True Colors".Tang Ruoyao borrowed the solitary courage that Han Zifei had given her, passed five trials and beheaded six generals, thinking that she had finally walked into her heart. From now on, only the grass and the warm sun were left, but unexpectedly encountered this kind of situation again without warning. trick.

She was stunned, unexpectedly, and the only courage she could use was also disintegrated by Qin Yinong's few words. She fell into an inextricable self-denial. She thought she didn't love her enough, she thought she was a coward. Powerless to fight back, she felt inferior, cowardly, and guilty, so she fled in despair.

Yes, she did give up on Qin Yinong because of what Qin Yinong said to Ji Yunyao.She did not love each other enough, but that was before.People change, and so do feelings. In the past, she didn't know Qin Yinong, never saw her fragility and helplessness, never tasted her beauty and sweetness, never trekked through mountains and rivers, overcame thorns and thorns, just to make her smile .

She had fallen in love with her long ago, more than anything else in the world.Han Zifei was just the key to Qin Yinong's heart, Tang Ruoyao was the only one who walked in from the beginning to the end.

Tang Ruoyao closed her eyes heavily.

Fu Yujun asked her: "What kind of courage is enough?"

Tang Ruoyao murmured, "I don't know."

She sorted out a problem, but her mind became more and more confused.

Qin Yinong didn't believe her, and she didn't fully play the role herself. How much of Han Zifei's courage belonged to her was unknown.

"It's late." Tang Ruoyao turned on the phone screen on the desktop, "Go back and rest first."

"Have you thought it through?" Fu Yujun asked.

"I'll always think it through." Tang Ruoyao smiled, showing the composure Fu Yujun was used to.

Fu Yujun was relieved, and smiled: "Then I went back?"

Tang Ruoyao said, "I'll see you off."

Fu Yujun declined: "There are cameras downstairs."

Tang Ruoyao laughed again: "Then I'll take you to the door, and send me a message when you get to your room."

Fu Yujun said, "Okay."

Watching Fu Yujun's back disappear into the corner of the elevator, Tang Ruoyao closed the door behind him.She stood quietly in the empty room for a while, then went to the bedside table and opened the drawer, and took out the unsent love letter.

The thick book was written by her when she was Tang Ruoyao.

Turning back page by page, from the first encounter to the day before "True Color" was finished, there were only two people in it, Tang Ruoyao and Qin Yinong.

She smiled, but her eyes were moist with a smile.

Obviously she worked so hard, why did she still fail?

***

The next morning, the trio from Dormitory 405 knocked on the door of Tang Ruoyao's room. Tang Ruoyao opened the door, and Wen Shuxian was the first to rush in, "Shall we go downstairs for breakfast?" After speaking, he looked nervously at Tang Ruoyao's face.

Tang Ruoyao said calmly, "Is there something on my face?"

Wen Shuxian said with a grin, "No." It's fine, and her eyes don't look like she's been crying again.

Tang Ruoyao pointed to the sofa by the window and said, "Sit down first, I'll go wash up."

Wen Shuxian looked at her back when she turned around, and immediately covered her mouth with a sudden ah, and waited for Tang Ruoyao to enter the bathroom before she put down her hands and exclaimed in a low voice, "Didn't you notice that Tang Tang himself is back?"

Cui Jiaren reacted, showing the same shock as her: "That's right!"

Why is it so fast this time?

Fu Yujun was thoughtful.

She turned her head and looked at the neatly made bed, as if no one had slept in it, and the closed laptop on the table, and got the answer after seeing Tang Ruoyao's bloodshot eyes when she came out after washing.

"You didn't sleep last night?" On the way to the restaurant, Fu Yujun deliberately lagged two steps behind and walked side by side with Tang Ruoyao.

Tang Ruoyao looked ahead and hummed softly.

"Insomnia?"

"No, write something." Tang Ruoyao couldn't tell her from Han Zifei emotionally, but her greatest strength was reason.Including the period of filming on the set, how can Han Zifei's courage alone be enough?Her ability to impress Qin Yinong is inseparable from her calmness and carefulness.

So Tang Ruoyao spent the whole night sorting out every node in the progress of their relationship, and what factors promoted each progress.In the beginning, she had nothing to do with Han Zifei. After she joined the crew, Qin Yinong and Qin Yinong changed from lovers to colleagues, and they stood on an equal footing. That's why she decided to get to know each other again.

Later, Qin Yinong was rumored to be a scandal, and insisted on not clarifying it. Tang Ruoyao went to ask and was treated coldly.She didn't give up, even though Qin Yinong still didn't tell her the truth, she still learned the truth about Qin Yinong's scandal from others.when was thatAs soon as the movie started, Han Zifei didn't even see Shen Muqing's face, so what's the impact?

……

Tang Ruoyao will list everything and everything, and before the list is finished, she will hand it over to Qin Yinong. As for whether the other party believes her or not, Tang Ruoyao can only resign himself to fate.

She went to knock on Qin Yinong's door in the middle of the night last night, but no one answered, and no one answered Qin Yinong's message, probably the other party didn't want to talk to her.

"Where are the guests here?" Tang Ruoyao turned sideways to pass by the cleaning staff in the corridor, and turned her head instinctively, but saw that the other party opened Qin Yinong's room door, she turned and walked forward quickly, and asked in a deep voice .

Cleaning looked at the young woman in front of her strangely, and said, "I checked out."

Tang Ruoyao's expression changed, "When did she check out the room?"

The cleaner said, "I don't know, anyway, I came to clean in the morning."

Tang Ruoyao walked in through the wide open door. The suitcase left in the corner last night was gone. The wardrobe and table were empty, leaving no personal belongings behind.

She went to the bathroom again.

Cleaning stopped her and said, "What are you doing?"

Tang Ruoyao didn't care about it, and checked the inside and out with her lips tightly pressed together, and she really left, cleanly.

Her shoulders slumped slowly, looking at the empty room without making a sound.

To imagine is one thing, to see is another.Leaving without saying goodbye, it's the second time, is there any chance for her to find her back?

Fu Yujun came over and said, "Let's have breakfast first."

Tang Ruoyao calmed down, straightened her shoulders again, and said, "Okay."

A few people were seated in the restaurant, Fu Yujun's cell phone vibrated, she slid open the screen, and the news that had passed all night finally got a response.

Guan Han: [Let’s talk when you have time]

Fu Yujun: [Have you checked out?I saw cleaning cleaning your room in the morning]

Guan Han paused with his fingertips.

She expected that Fu Yujun would be with Tang Ruoyao, so Tang Ruoyao would definitely know the news she leaked.Guan Han looked at the unconscious woman on the hospital bed, gritted his teeth, and typed: [Retired at four o'clock in the morning]

Fu Yujun: [Catch the plane? 】

Guan Han: 【No, I guess I will stay here for a few more days】

Qin Yinong had an acute gastric perforation, and had surgery overnight last night. He would have to lie in bed for at least a week before being discharged from the hospital.

She couldn't say any more, she only hoped that Fu Yujun would convey her words, and that Tang Ruoyao would know that Qin Yinong was still here.Or think a little more and guess she's in the hospital now.

Guan Han stopped the topic: [I have something to do, I'll go to work first]

Fu Yujun put down his phone, put his elbows on the table, watched Tang Ruoyao eating slowly, and said, "I was chatting with Qin...'s assistant, she said that she checked out the room at four o'clock in the morning, and she is still here City."

Tang Ruoyao raised her head, and said in a tone of emotionless: "Understood." Since she was here, she would ask Qin Yinong to meet.

"What are you going to do?" Fu Yujun asked in a low voice.

"Make her trust me."

"Have you figured it out?" Fu Yujun asked.

"Ah."

"What if she doesn't believe it?"

"Until she believes it." Tang Ruoyao's expression and voice were calm, but there was indescribable firmness.

Fu Yujun sighed.

Most people fall in love in the difficult mode, while Tang Ruoyao's love is the Shura mode.

***

Qin Yinong finally woke up, and Guan Han, who was guarding the bedside, almost cried with joy.

Qin Yinong curled the corners of his lips and smiled at her. Guan Han straightened his face immediately and asked expressionlessly, "Is there something wrong? I'll call the doctor."

Qin Yinong: "No."

Guan Han: "I have to say even a little bit of pain."

Qin Yinong thought for a while and said, "It must be a stomachache."

Pain is pain, what is "that is"?Guan Han feels that she has been getting more and more anxious recently, and sooner or later she will resign and leave.She suddenly stood up and said, "I'll call the doctor!"

There were still two bodyguards guarding the ward, Qin Yinong smiled at the eyes of the two looking over, and stared blankly at the snow-white ceiling above his head.

The memory of last night slowly came back.

Her brows furrowed little by little, and annoyance flashed in her eyes. What did she do last night?

The author has something to say:

Although they are not in the same frame, they are not abused either. The feeling of the two parties is regret, but there is no medicine for regret in the world, let’s count it as sugar.