presumptuous [entertainment]

Tang Ruoyao stood at the door, his heart stopped for a second, and a gust of cold air rushed to Tianling Gai.

She didn't dare to make a sound, for fear of disturbing her.He dared not keep silent, fearing that it would be too late if he did not.

Qin Yinong sat quietly, with her two slender arms leaning on the window sill, letting the strong wind toss her long hair, and remained motionless.

Tang Ruoyao held her breath, and manipulated her body filled with coolness to approach slowly, to a distance of two steps behind her, making sure that she could hug her immediately, and then said softly behind her with a dry voice: "Qin Yinong."

Qin Yinong turned his head and glanced at her.

Then she smiled, the corners of her mouth curved first, then her eyebrows, then her eyes.

She actually laughed.

Tang Ruoyao didn't know how to describe her smile. It was as if someone had punched her on the bridge of the nose. Tears flowed all over her face without warning. She stretched out her hands and made a gesture to pick her up. Her throat was choked and she said: " Are you coming down?"

Qin Yinong tilted his head, looking at her embrace that was close at hand, warm but seemed out of reach.

Ruoyao.

It seems very far away.

No matter how close it was, it will eventually be lost.So what has been experienced will be repeated, including loss. This is the fate that God has set for her, and she cannot escape or escape.

She wanted to shake her head, but her heart softened instinctively when she saw the crystal tears on the young woman's cheeks under the moonlight.

"Don't cry." She sighed and said softly.

Her heart ached from crying.

She has been in pain many times today, and if she hurts again, she feels like she is about to die.

Tang Ruoyao burst into tears, and cried even harder, and said, "Can you come down?"

Qin Yinong looked at her for a long time, then compromised and put his hand into the young woman's palm.Tang Ruoyao's palm was very cold, not as warm as before, perhaps because she was frightened by her, but it was still powerful.

Qin Yinong felt a strong force bring her down from the window sill, and then her whole body was pressed into a warm embrace and hugged her tightly.

Tang Ruoyao's bitter cry came from above his head.

Qin Yinong moved out a little bit, and when their eyes were at the same level, she rubbed Tang Ruoyao, who was crying miserably, into her arms, gently stroked her long hair, and coaxed: "Don't be afraid." She took With a little smile, he said, "This is the second floor, even if you fall down, you won't die. At most, you can break an arm or leg. Just lie down for a few days and you'll be fine."

Tang Ruoyao was not comforted by her, but just cried.

If she lived on the twentieth or thirtieth floor now, would she still be sitting on the edge of the window where the wind was howling, blowing the wind alone, looking blankly at the deep night, looking for a reason to continue living?Is it responsibility, or something else.

When the strong wind came, she was shaken by the blowing. Looking at the flat ground below, she might not have thought about it. She might as well jump down and die. She doesn't have to suffer in the world.

Tang Ruoyao cried not only for the scene in front of her, but also for every Qin Yinong who had been struggling alone in the dark for more than ten years.

Qin Yinong stopped persuading her and waited for her to stop.

Tang Ruoyao cried until her eyes were so swollen that she couldn't open them. Qin Yinong kissed her red and swollen eyelids, went to the small refrigerator to get two ice packs, and sat down on the sofa by pressing her shoulders.Under Tang Ruoyao's awkward expression, he covered her eyes.

"Don't move, sweetheart."

Tang Ruoyao showed embarrassment.

She obviously came to comfort Qin Yinong, but she cried herself like pears and rain, what kind of comfort is this?

Tang Ruoyao closed her eyes, enjoying the woman's care, her fingers touched Qin Yinong's icy wrist along the ice pack, and asked her with concern: "Is it cold?"

Qin Yinong answered irrelevantly: "An ice pack? Of course it's cold."

Tang Ruoyao said, "What I'm asking is, is it cold from the blower?"

"It's okay." Qin Yinong's signature reply went online.

"Why are you sitting there? It's dangerous."

"Looking for inspiration." Qin Yinong started talking nonsense, she no longer cared whether Tang Ruoyao heard that she was lying, or subconsciously hoped that the other party would see through her clumsy lies.

"What inspiration?" Tang Ruoyao asked in cooperation with her.

"A new script came to me, and I looked for the characters."

"What script, can you show me?"

"Secret." Qin Yinong said.

"Can't I even watch my relationship with you?"

"What's the relationship between me and you?" Qin Yinong asked knowingly.

"You do not know?"

"I do not know."

"I thought we had reached a consensus a long time ago." Tang Ruoyao took her right hand holding the ice pack, held it in his palm, stared into the woman's black eyes, and said seriously, "You are my girlfriend, and you will be in the future. My wife. For the rest of my life, never to be separated."

Qin Yinong felt the burning heat in her eyes in an instant. She was always reserved, but she couldn't hold back at this time. It wasn't until Tang Ruoyao gently wiped the tears off her cheeks with her thumb that she suppressed her sobs and said in a cold voice: "I didn't promise."

"You agreed." Tang Ruoyao was very calm.

"I do not have."

"You agreed."

"No."

The two are arguing like children, childish, repeating monotonous conversations.

Tang Ruoyao smiled and asked, "Then why did you record voice navigation for me?"

Qin Yinong no longer ignored logic, and said, "I recorded it for fans, everyone can listen to it, don't be too sentimental."

Tang Ruoyao took out the phone from his pocket, and searched the chat records under Qin Yinong's gaze.

Qin Yinong pressed her hand.

Tang Ruoyao looked up at her, raised his eyebrows and said, "Admit that it was recorded for me alone?"

Qin Yinong said: "Then, can I change my mind now?"

Tang Ruoyao thought for a while, then said with a smile, "No."

Qin Yinong couldn't say no to her, and couldn't bear to hit her, so he turned his face away and stopped looking at her.

Tang Ruoyao approached her, hugged her from behind, and put his arms around her waist.

long time.

She tilted her head and rubbed Qin Yinong's temple hair affectionately, pressed against the woman's ear, and softly called: "Baby."

Tang Ruoyao splashed a drop of warmth, and Qin Yinong's tears fell out.

Qin Yinong shed tears silently, his heart pierced like a knife, and begged: "Can you stop being with me?"

Tang Ruoyao felt a dull pain in his heart, and hugged her even harder: "I can't."

She didn't know what happened to Qin Yinong, and the other party was not someone who would easily tell her.Now that she pointed the sharp knife at herself again, Tang Ruoyao could only move forward against the sharp knife with her heart, because she knew that Qin Yinong would only hurt more than her.

She wants to bring her out of the abyss of pain, even if she can't, she is willing to sink with her.Be it on earth or hell.Live together, die together, never let go.

Qin Yinong took a breath, forced back tears, and said cruelly: "I saved you at the beginning because you look very similar to your mother. You may not know that I was a neighbor with your family when I was young, and I like you very much. Mom, she gave me the motherly love I longed for, so I always remember her. Then I met you, I recognized you at a glance, and I was with you only because you were her daughter. I never really loved I have loved you, but I have never loved... Tang Ruoyao."

Blood came out of Qin Yinong's lower lip biting.

Tang Ruoyao said: "I knew it a long time ago. I went to Hengjia Garden and found our former neighbor."

A cruel smile appeared on the corners of Qin Yinong's lips, and he said, "That's just right, so I won't have to prove it to you again."

Tang Ruoyao said calmly, "But I don't believe a word of what you said."

Qin Yinong said indifferently: "Believe it or not is up to you."

She got up to leave, but was dragged back by Tang Ruoyao, and fell into her arms. Tang Ruoyao held the back of her head with one hand, tilted her head and kissed her.

When her lips touched, Qin Yi's numb heart, which was so painfully painful, strangely recovered a sliver of consciousness, beating vividly, like a tired bird finally found a long-lost warm nest, she almost couldn't wait to throw herself into it, without thinking about anything, Don't care about anything, just close your eyes and fall asleep peacefully, sleeping in the dark, daydreaming with warm spring grass to your heart's content.

But she can't.

At the very moment, Qin Yinong pushed her away and raised his hand high.

Tang Ruoyao didn't avoid it, and looked from the palm three centimeters away from her cheek to the woman's mournful eyes.

There was a dull pain in the heart.

Qin Yinong slowly put down his hand, the waves in his eyes returned to calm, and said: "Miss Tang, please respect yourself."

She was determined to refuse, and she refused to accept it.

Tang Ruoyao stared at the woman for a long time, and decided to push back and break through from another direction. She asked, "You don't want me to be with you, is it because you are afraid of hurting me?"

The most important problem has been solved long ago, Tang Ruoyao can't think of any other reason.With Qin Yinong's character, it is very likely that it will bring him danger.

Qin Yinong didn't say a word.

Tang Ruoyao asked again: "You don't want to see me for a while, does someone want to harm me?"

Qin Yinong's expression was calm, without even the slightest fluctuation.

Tang Ruoyao thought: Probably not.Since she had made an agreement with herself for three months, it meant she was sure to resolve it.Although Qin Yinong is a little girl with a strong appearance and a weak heart in her heart, her strength is not a bluff, she has capital, and there should be no one who can make her fearful enough to make herself give up without hesitation.

They also called last night, and Qin Yinong said "Yaoyao good night" to her very gently, so the accident could only have happened today.

What's the matter today?

Ning Ning was exposed, surrounded by reporters, and there was another thing Guan Han didn't tell her.

Tang Ruoyao thought of Ji Shulan's hazy teary eyes, looking upstairs full of guilt, and Guan Han's vague hostility towards Ji Shulan just now downstairs.

"Did your mother do something?"

Qin Yinong twitched his eyelashes very quickly.

"What did she do?" Tang Ruoyao asked.

Qin Yi lowered his eyes and let go: "She was the one who told Qin Hongjian of Ning Ning's existence."

Tang Ruoyao thought for a while, then turned around, and was furious immediately.It was not enough for Qin Hongjian to sell his own daughter once, even his granddaughter!

She didn't rush to get angry, and fought against Qin Yinong together. She probably understood that what Qin Yinong was sad about was not Qin Hongjian's behavior. After all, she never had any illusions about that person, but Ji Shulan when she needed the support of her relatives When he stabbed her again.

It used to be a father, and now it is a mother. The history is so similar.

No wonder she would lock herself in the room alone.

Tang Ruoyao hugged her and said softly: "It's okay, they don't love you, and I will love you, and I will always stand by your side."

Qin Yinong lowered his head without speaking, and slowly pushed her away.

She issued an order to evict the guest: "You go back."

Of course Tang Ruoyao didn't leave.

Qin Yinong avoided her gaze, stood up, and silently walked towards the door.

Tang Ruoyao stared at the woman's back, and suddenly said, "I learned something a while ago."

Qin Yinong kept walking.

Tang Ruoyao continued: "The cousin you mentioned is actually not your cousin, but your own sister. Her name is Qin Lunong, right?"

Qin Yinong paused, her steps were only a little slower, and she didn't stop.

"Ning Ning looks so much like you, she should be your sister's daughter." Tang Ruoyao closed her eyes, pressed her heart hard, took a deep breath, and let herself recall the words that lingered in her heart Asked, "How...how did she die?"

Qin Yinong didn't move at all, her limbs stiffened inch by inch.

The blood, the blood in the bathtub, the lifeless face, and the cold corpse came back before her eyes.

She opened her mouth and tasted the salty taste of tears.

The moment Qin Yinong stood up, Tang Ruoyao suddenly understood what she was afraid of.

What she is afraid of is not anyone, but fate.

In the first half of her life, she was played by fate in the palm of her hand.Her childhood was unlucky. After entering the industry, she was stabbed by her biological father. She had been in the entertainment circle of Longtan and Tiger's Cave for several years. She finally gained a foothold. When her relatives left, she was hit hard. She lived a life of walking dead for three years. Reborn.She is so looking forward to the future she will have with her lover that she will pay all the price for it.

However, history is repeating itself, how ironic.

First, Ning Ning was exposed. She faced the aggressive media alone, and faced the betrayal of her relatives again after returning home.What's next?Is it the departure of the beloved?It's okay if it's just a simple departure, but what if it doesn't stop?What if it was the same... death as Qin Lunong?

Don't say that fate will not be so ruthless, fate has been ruthless to her once, why can't there be a second time?

She is the cursed one.

In her life, she was doomed to be unworthy of affection and love. She was born unknown.

Qin Yinong opened a bottle of wine, took two wine glasses, and sat side by side with Tang Ruoyao on the floor in front of the window, the moonlight was pale, her cheeks were also pale, without a trace of blood.

"My sister committed suicide." Qin Yinong took a sip of her wine, her cold white fingers pressed against the cold glass, her hands were trembling and her voice was trembling, but she continued, "Postpartum depression, wrist cutting , died in the bathtub, and I was the first to find her."

A few words made Tang Ruoyao difficult to breathe and out of breath.

She wanted Qin Yinong to stop talking, she was digging out her own heart, but Tang Ruoyao understood better, that only by telling everything can the rotten flesh be scraped off, the blood flow out, and be bandaged again, Heal the wound.

"For a long time after she died, I was in a trance, afraid to accept the reality." Qin Yinong hugged his knees tightly, curled himself up, put his chin on his knees, and said, "Obviously life is in a Every day is getting better, I made a movie, I made a lot of money, I divorced Qin Hongjian from my mother, I bought a big house, I had a niece, and I... fell in love with someone. "

Tang Ruoyao was deeply moved, and turned his head to look at her. When Qin Yinong said this, there was a bright light in his eyes.

She could imagine that Qin Yinong was full of hope for life at that time, it was the light of hope, and it was also the light of death.

Qin Yinong lowered his voice, and the light in his eyes gradually dimmed: "I don't understand why my sister died. Did I do something wrong?"

Just as Tang Ruoyao wanted to deny it, Qin Yi shrank her arms tightly, and said in a low voice, "Yes, I was too careless, I was too busy, and I didn't go home early that day. If I go home early, can I save her?"

Tang Ruoyao said, "It's not your fault."

Qin Yinong buried her head in her knees.

"After that, she appeared in my nightmares, repeating the scene of the day over and over again. Sometimes I dreamed that the person lying in the bathtub was me, and the red blood flooded my mouth and nose little by little. , I desperately called for help, desperately calling for help, but I couldn’t make a sound. I watched myself suffocate bit by bit, my face swelled into purple red, and my long hair floated on the water like messy weeds. The dream woke me up I don’t know if I’m alive or dead, what’s the difference between being alive and dead? Maybe it’s easier to be dead.”

Tang Ruoyao found Qin Yinong's twisted hands, took her left hand and held it firmly.

Qin Yinong raised his head from his knees, and gave her a comforting smile: "I'm fine, it's all over."

Tang Ruoyao's eyes were calm: "Is it really over?"

Qin Yinong was silent for a long time.

Tang Ruoyao asked again: "Then what are you afraid of?"

Qin Yinong opened his mouth, and with his free hand, he firmly grasped the fabric of his trousers.

"Yes..." Tang Ruoyao exhaled softly, stared into the woman's eyes, and stabbed cruelly into her heart, turning the handle of the knife with every word, dripping with blood, she said in a hoarse voice, "Are you afraid that I will die like your sister?"

Qin Yinong's eyes were filled with blood in an instant, even the eyeballs were red, and two lines of blood tears were about to flow out.

She was breathing heavily, staring at Tang Ruoyao with red eyes, tears filled her eyes.

Tang Ruoyao pressed her head and pressed hard in front of her.

Tears instantly wet a large piece of clothing, Qin Yinong buried his face in her arms, and grabbed her skirt, surging from silent to heart-piercing.

"I've obviously worked so hard to survive, why can't I still do it?"

"I have never done a bad thing in my life, and I even helped so many people, why did I get such a result?"

"How far does God want me to go before it will let me go..."

"Is it because I die that I can be freed..."

"why……"

Tang Ruoyao raised his face, bit his teeth firmly, and burst into tears.

She couldn't answer any of the questions.

She could only keep tightening her arms and hugging each other tightly, and use her meager body temperature to fight against this world that is too harsh on women and even imposes on her body.

Qin Yinong burst into tears, as if she wanted to vent all her grievances and resentment for half her life, and flow out all the tears she had held back.She cried until her whole body trembled, choked up and couldn't speak, and couldn't say another word.

After a long time, the crying in my arms gradually subsided.

Qin Yinong sniffed, and slowly withdrew from her arms, looking for the wine that had been put aside earlier.

Tang Ruoyao reached out to hold her hand that was going to take the wine bottle, and said, "It's late, you should go to bed."

Qin Yi lowered her eyes and said, "You should go back." His attitude was not as tough as before.

Tang Ruoyao said, "You pay for my clothes."

Qin Yinong raised his eyes, his eyes couldn't hide his astonishment.

Tang Ruoyao pointed to his shirt, which was so wet that it looked like it was fished out of the water, and said confidently, "You have to pay me for a new one."

Qin Yinong said helplessly, "I asked Guan Han to buy you a new one."

She remembered that her mobile phone was broken, she propped herself up on the floor and asked, "Is Guan Han downstairs?"

Tang Ruoyao moved faster than her, and ran to the door in a few steps, locked the door, walked back and said, "They are all asleep, I will stay here tonight, I am about the same height as you, and I also wear your clothes." can wear."

Tang Ruoyao opened her closet, glanced back and forth, took a nightgown without asking, and said, "I'll pay for this, I'm going to take a shower. Is the bathroom in this direction?"

Qin Yinong stared dumbfounded at the bathroom where she chose to enter the bathroom without asking again after taking it by herself.

There are only Qin Yinong's personal toiletries in it, shampoo and shower gel are okay, toothbrushes can't be shared.Sure enough, Tang Ruoyao asked as soon as he entered, "Where is my toothbrush? And where are the towels?"

Qin Yinong: "..."

She was thinking about where to put the spare toothbrush, when Tang Ruoyao leaned her hands on the door, and suddenly poked her head out, it was mischievous and deliberately mischievous, it didn't match her usual image, Qin Yinong suddenly smiled.

The woman cleared her throat and said, "I'll get it for you."

Tang Ruoyao asked, "Where is it? Downstairs?"

Qin Yinong nodded.

Tang Ruoyao was afraid that she would change her mind as soon as she went out, so she made up her mind that no one should step out of the room tonight, so she said, "Just ask Guan Han to bring it up?"

"But my phone..."

"Mine is not broken." So Tang Ruoyao called Qin Yinong's assistant very naturally, and Guan Han also naturally obeyed the order to bring up spare toothbrushes and towels. When Tang Ruoyao opened the door to take them, she asked Tang Ruoyao thanked her.

Tang Ruoyao smiled back at her, but she didn't accept her thank you.

Qin Yinong is her person, it's called duty.

Sitting on the sofa, Qin Yinong watched Tang Ruoyao enter the bathroom with a toothbrush in one hand and a towel in the other, followed by the sound of water in the shower.

It wasn't such a beautiful sound, it could even be called a noise to a certain extent, but she fell asleep just like that.The head was lowered, and the person was still sitting, and there was a sound of even breathing.

Perhaps she was tired from crying, or she had finally arrived at a place of peace of mind.

Tang Ruoyao stepped out of the bathroom door, with long black hair all over her back, steamy all over her body, just raised her eyes, and swallowed back the word "Qin" halfway out of her mouth.She walked lightly to the sofa, squatted down and looked up at the woman's sleeping face.

No frown for a while, that's fine.

She was afraid of waking Qin Yinong, who was sleeping lightly, so she didn't dare to reach out to touch her, but when she squatted until her legs became numb, Qin Yinong didn't show any signs of waking up.

She wrapped her arms around Qin Yinong's knees, trying to hug him up, but as expected, Qin Yinong woke up with dazed eyes.Tang Ruoyao let go of her hand and asked her, "Do you want to take a bath?"

Her clothes were all wrinkled.

Qin Yinong obediently said: "Yes."

Tang Ruoyao immediately said, "I'll get you some clothes." The closet was full of Qin Yinong's clothes, and it was easy to distinguish between sleeping and sleeping. Tang Ruoyao took a white silk nightgown, held it up high, and asked Her: "Is this okay?"

Qin Yinong nodded.

Tang Ruoyao put her in the bathroom.

From the bathroom door, Qin Yinong saw her squeeze toothpaste for herself in front of the sink before coming out.

"Okay, let's take a shower." The young woman walked up to her, smiling like a flower.

Qin Yinong took a few steps, looked back at Tang Ruoyao, and pursed her lips.

Tang Ruoyao was stunned for a moment, then suddenly understood and followed.

Qin Yinong closed the bathroom door, and Tang Ruoyao's shadow was cast on the door, always at the door, never leaving an inch.Qin Yinong stared at the figure from beginning to end, and came out after taking a shower.

Tang Ruoyao took her hand and sat on the edge of the bed, dried her hair, shook the soft quilt, and wrapped the woman in.

The corners of the shoulders on both sides were tightly tucked in, Tang Ruoyao continued to press tightly, a helpless smile flashed in Qin Yinong's eyes, and he said, "Okay."

"No." Tang Ruoyao almost wanted to wrap her into rice dumplings, one left and one right, "You have been blowing the wind for so long, if you don't sleep warmer at night, you will catch a cold tomorrow."

Qin Yinong couldn't help but said: "Aren't you..."

She stopped talking halfway, closed her eyes, and her ears were light red.

But Tang Ruoyao understood, she smiled and said, "I have to lie down for a while before I get hot, and it's cold now, I'll hug you when I sleep warmer. You wait first."

Obviously she wanted to hug herself, and she spoke as if Qin Yinong was impatient, Qin Yinong opened his eyes, and wanted to say something, but his eyes dimmed, and then brightened again, the soft and warm touch on his forehead was clear.

Qin Yinong completely forgot what he had thought up.

She moved aside.

The bed was huge, and she was already lying on one side, which was a hint that couldn't have been more obvious.

Tang Ruoyao lay down knowingly, with a distance of one person away from her, the small stove started to heat up silently.

Qin Yinong's slender knuckles were slightly curved, moving slowly under the quilt, touching the back of the warm hand, without moving.Tang Ruoyao turned her palms over, clasped her fingers, covered her cold fingers, and looked at her with a smile in his eyes.

"When you were arguing with me just now, when I asked you what was my relationship with you, what did you say you didn't promise me?" Tang Ruoyao said suddenly.

Qin Yinong's memory is not that bad, she can forget what she said just now, she said, "Be your girlfriend."

Tang Ruoyao let out a long breath, and smiled lightly, revealing the dimple on her left cheek.

"Okay, I promise."