i don't love you anymore [entertainment]

"A Jiang kisses:

It is three o'clock in the morning, and I have been sitting at this table for two hours. There is no heating in the room, Uncle Liu has already fallen asleep, and everything is quiet. I am trying to write my first suicide note in my life.

This is not an easy job, I spent half of the time looking for the object of the suicide note, after much deliberation, there is no one else but you.The grandfather and grandmother have gone to the other side of the world, and the mother has also gone. The relatives rarely move around, but there is only one father left, but he is a demon in human skin.In addition, among my friends who are enough to fill an airplane, I counted and counted them, but I couldn't find a real object of confidance.

I feel very alone.Seeing this, maybe you will laugh a few times in disbelief, or still suggest me to see a reliable psychiatrist.

In fact, you are quite right. I should have turned to modern medicine to cure those monsters in my mind.Today is my 22nd birthday, and they have been living here for 5 years, and they have almost eaten me out by now.I couldn't sleep, I was afraid of dreaming, and I kept my eyes open all night, afraid that I would see those bloody shadows and hear the sound of fangs chewing nerves when I closed my eyes.But they live in my brain, but they are my twin parasites. Even if I am in pain and can't sleep at night, I dare not forget them for a second.

I don't know how long I can last, maybe after 5 minutes, I will throw away the pen in my hand, take out the pocket pistol that I have hidden for five years from the bottom drawer, and hit my temple.

Just one click, and you can get complete relief just like your mother.

This is a very tempting choice, I can even hear the sound of Adam's apple rolling.I'm sorry, this will will definitely make you sad, and even make you extremely angry, wanting to grab my collar and beat me up, but, Ah Jiang, pity me this lonely person in the end, except you, I can't even find the object of my will.

I have some assets that are not too much. The part of the studio is left to Lin Lin, and the rest is left to you. It doesn't matter if you invest it or donate it to charity.I still have many fans, they may be sad, I must comfort them for me, tell them not to be like me, they all deserve a better life.

The main house of the An family, please give it to Uncle Liu for me. For those unfinished works, please help me find a reliable actor to take over.

And you, you are my only and best friend, you must find a lover who can treat you sincerely, and live happily ever after.

I've already (a messy and unclear scratch)

Bye, my friend (smudge), bye. "

Yu Chu was taking a bath in the bathroom, and the sound of rushing water was heard, mixed with his damp voice: "Ah Ze, help me hand over my underwear, it's in the second drawer of the closet."

Bai Yueze's hands were trembling, he said "OK", refolded the suicide note from six years ago, and put it back in the fairy tale book that he opened casually.

They lived in Anjia tonight, and Yu Chu's room remained the same as when he was a little boy, with airplane models hanging from the ceiling, fairy tales under the tall bookshelves, obscure literary works in the middle, and comic books on top.

The bed sheets are gray stripes in warm tones, there are Gundam figures on the desk, and a photo of him and An Qingqing is placed on the bedside. The woman in the photo has braids and eyes that are almost exactly like Yu Chu's, and she smiles crookedly at him. crescent.

"Didn't you find it?" The man in the bathroom urged him.

Bai Yueze returned the fairy tale books to their original places, opened the drawer, and picked out a pair of underpants from the pile of folded underpants, and was about to send them over when the person inside had already come out wrapped in a bath towel.

Yu Chu glanced at the clothes in his hand and said with a smile, "You like this?"

Bai Yueze said: "It looks good no matter what you wear."

Yu Chu moved his eyes to his face, stared at him for a few seconds, then reached out to rub his cheek, and said, "What's wrong? His face is so bad, it's cold."

Bai Yueze suppressed the boiling emotions in his heart, threw his underwear on the bed, opened his arms, and said, "Brother Chu, let me hug you."

Yu Chu walked over with some doubts, Bai Yueze pressed the man into his arms forcefully, rubbed his wet hair carelessly, and buried his face in his collarbone.

"What's wrong?" Yu Chuhui hugged him, "Are you crying?"

Bai Yueze said in a muffled voice, "No."

Yu Chu held his face up and looked carefully at his beautiful eyes against the light.

Then he lowered his head, kissed his forehead, and said with a smile: "Don't cry, brother Chu loves you."

Bai Yueze put his arms around his waist, and with a sudden force, he was brought to sit on the edge of the bed. He was surrounded tightly by him, so that he couldn't even breathe.

On a certain night eight years ago, the person in his arms almost ended his own life... Or in the past eight years, he had tried to give up countless times. He lost him forever before.

And they have known each other for so long, Yu Chu has never shown the other side, he is always enjoying life seriously and taking work seriously, even if Bai Yueze mentioned it on his own initiative, he would probably just smile casually and tell him it's nothing important Small problems.

He missed him for ten years.

The fear of being cold to the bone marrow still remained in his body, even at this moment Yu Chu was moving uncomfortably in his arms, reaching out to push his chest away.

"Don't move," Bai Yueze said, "let me hug you for a while."

Yu Chu turned his head and looked at the expression on his face: "Tell me?"

Bai Yueze bit his shoulder hard, leaving a red mark.

Yu Chu hissed, and slapped the back of his hand hard: "It's almost done, it hurts."

"Du Mingjiang is a bastard," Bai Yueze said in a muffled voice, "he's not worthy, he's not worthy."

Yu Chu was bitten inexplicably, and he couldn't laugh or cry when he heard this, and said, "Are you going to fight with him today? I haven't gone to see him yet."

Bai Yueze leaned his chin on his shoulder, pressed it against his ear, and called out "Yu Chu".Yu Chu said "Huh?", but he didn't have any more to say. He just turned his head and kissed him tenderly.

Yu Chu decided to be considerate of his young, adolescent, and sensitive boyfriend, and put his arms around his neck, actively curling his tongue.

The heater was turned on in the room, but Bai Yueze's breath was even hotter than that. After that, Jinjiang wouldn't let me write, even if I took a single stroke, and had to make me complete the words until almost midnight.

Yu Chu's hair was still a little dry, Bai Yueze wiped it gently with a towel, looked at his lover's gentle face under the sleeping light, and carefully rubbed his side face with his fingers.

"Sleepy," Yu Chu said with his eyes closed, "don't make trouble."

"Well, you sleep," Bai Yueze put away the towel, "Do you want to..."

Yu Chu breathed steadily and didn't answer for a long time.Bai Yueze swallowed the following question back. He kept sleeping pills in his bag all the time. He followed the doctor's instructions. He could only take half a pill at a time, and only used it when he couldn't sleep.

The person in his arms has fallen asleep.

Bai Yueze's shoulders and arms started to feel numb when he hugged him. He carefully covered him with a quilt, got up, and pulled out the fairy tale again.

He found the suicide note inside, walked quietly to the shredder, watched it turn into small pieces, and then stuffed the fairy tale book back as if nothing had happened.

Yu Chu left the person beside him, slept a little restlessly, and frowned slightly.Bai Yueze lay down next to him, and hugged him into his arms again.

Yu Chu muttered something, Bai Yueze lowered his head and kissed his forehead gently: "Good night."

Yu Chu slept until dawn.

After returning to China for a short time, Bai Yueze also had some things to deal with. The official photos of "Butterfly Transformation" had to be processed into a film, submitted for review, finalized the release time, and then made a publicity plan. There were a lot of trivial matters.

Yu Chu was going to Qingyuan to open the board of directors. In order to welcome the new largest shareholder, the board of directors moved forward a full month in the middle of the year.

Bai Yueze didn't go anywhere, so he accompanied him to Qingyuan.

While in the car, Yu Chu said, "You can't trust me that much, huh?"

"It's not that I can't trust you, it's that I can't trust Du Mingjiang," Bai Yueze said, "He has a negative credit value with me."

Yu Chu said, "He..."

The following words were gone, and Yu Chu looked out the window thoughtfully.

Bai Yueze said: "The cash in your hand is enough to build two green kites, and you can start from scratch cleanly."

"I know, baby," Yu Chu said, "I have a measure."

The driver parked the car in Qingyuan's underground parking garage. This is an entertainment company. The only thing that is perfect is the security, but Yu Chu still put on a mask and hat strictly. It leads directly to the general manager's office on the top floor.