live with conscience

The young man lying on the wall, with a smile on his face, the starlight in his eyes reflects the purest love, as if the strong wind and snow can be melted by his smile, and he can also see a hundred flowers in full bloom, green shades .

Lin Lan finally couldn't hold back, and asked, "Yanyan, do you like me? Think..."

Kacha...boom~

The sound of something heavy falling into a thick snowdrift.

The people on the wall are gone.

The girl in the wall was left behind, with a layer of snow on the hoodie, struggling to complete the rest of the sentence: "Want to associate with me?"

As soon as she finished speaking, the sky and the earth seemed to be giving face, the howling wind suddenly stopped, only the white snow between the sky and the earth was getting bigger and bigger, as if the sound of the snow falling to the ground could be heard.

However, the boys and girls on both sides of the wall were angry and could hear each other's breathing.

Lin Lan wasn't nervous, but she felt that the people on the other side of the wall were all nervous and breathless.

Xiaogu, who was hugged by Lin Lan, shook off the snowflakes on his body in dissatisfaction, and was satisfied to see the doting eyes of his master who disliked him.

"Don't run, don't run!" Lin Lan keenly heard a voice from the other side of the wall: "If you run away, I will never see you again in this life!"

Yan Yan: ...

Because of Lin Lan's sudden questioning, he was frightened and stupid. At this moment, Yan Junqing pulled him out of the snowdrift, shaking the snow on his legs, and was about to run away, but he was a little too late, and he was threatened.

The point is, he is really afraid of this threat.

pat~

After hesitating for a while, the two brothers raised their heads and saw the head of a ladder protruding from the wall covered with sharp glass shards. After a while, a familiar cat's head popped out. Lin Lan in a festive red hooded cape.

Xiao Gu stood on her shoulders, the whole body of the cat spread out on her head like a boneless one, like a natural long-haired shawl. The eyes that look down on the world from a high place, and Lin Lan's thin body, pure eyes, one person and one meow, under the background of the blend of flying snow and blue tiles, form a vision that makes the corners of the mouth twitch like a Two-dimensional world The impact of the screen.

Lin Lan didn't know this, but said politely: "I'm sorry, I just eavesdropped on your conversation, but I didn't mean it, I just heard Xiaogu passing by... your voice is too loud."

It was found that the two students at the scene were stunned. They were probably shocked by her amazing words just now, and they were also surprised that she could climb the wall.

It seems that these two students probably failed to receive her sincere apology, so Lin Lan could only get straight to the point: "Well...I want to say...Student Yan Junqing, can you avoid it? I have some matters , I want to talk to Yan Yan alone."

What else could Yan Junqing do, he could only smile without losing his demeanor, desperately trying to dislocate his wrists and break free from Yan Yan's control, he said in a gentlemanly manner, "You...well, talk slowly."

Although he really wanted to stay, his sixth sense told him that if he didn't withdraw at this time, he would regret it for the rest of his life.

Gossip is cool for a while, and the crematorium afterwards!

For a better tomorrow, Baidong, I'd better withdraw first!

Seeing Yan Junqing who ran away in a hurry, Yan Yan could only turn around stiffly, looked up, looked at his sweetheart who was stepping on the ladder and lying on the wall: "Is there... what's the matter?"

Lin Lan's hand in a thick glove went over her head, and continued to wave the snowflakes that fell on Xiaogu: "You haven't answered my question yet, do you...do you like me? Want to pursue me?"

Snowflakes, an old house with blue tiles, a vegetable garden full of snowflakes, a boy looking up at a wall and a girl looking down at a ladder, and a mature cat expressing love.

When all the elements are called together, it should be a very romantic and beautiful picture.

It's just spread on the bodies of the two parties, there is no trace of romantic pink breath, only the coldness brought by the severe cold and heavy snow.

After Yan Yan looked directly at the girl who was watching calmly on the eaves, the coldness emanated from the bottom of her heart.

After realizing that the girl discovered his thoughts, he has been unwilling to let this day come so soon.

I feel in my heart that as long as there is one more day and a little longer, she will always change her opinion of herself.

Unexpectedly, there will be such a result.

Yan Yan No. 11 time wanted to escape, but the girl's persistent eyes told him that she didn't intend to give him any chance to escape.

He could only answer stiffly and with great reluctance with his snowy white face: "Yes... I, I like you, the first time I saw you in the school classroom, I fell in love with you, I like it very seriously."

He liked it so much that he transferred to another school regardless of everything, and brazenly joined her grandfather's family just to get close contact with her and get to know her better.

Thinking about it, Yan Yan suddenly felt that she was a bit perverted.

"I know." Lin Lan, who was on the ladder inside the fence, breathed a sigh of relief, and responded affirmatively: "I also noticed it later."

Lin Lan's calm response made Yan Yan subconsciously speak with a hint of extravagant expectation even though he already knew that there was little hope: "Then... are you...willing to give me a chance? I promise, I will Always be kind to you."

Lin Lan shook her head. During the movement, her face accidentally touched the flying snowflakes. She couldn't hold back and shivered.

The weather is really cold, if it weren't for the small domino pair of unique shawls, Lin Lan would not have climbed so high stupidly, just to catch Yan Yan and solve these little conflicts between them .

For Lin Lan, the conflict between her and Yan Yan was just a small conflict, so she shook her head without dragging her feet, and said bluntly: "Thank you for your liking, but I'm sorry, I have nothing for you beyond the relationship between classmates and friends." extraneous feelings."

The most important thing is: "You deliberately approached grandpa, borrowed my house, and all kinds of behaviors that hinted at the relatives around me have already caused troubles in my life. Although it is a bit too much to say, I still have to make it clear. It doesn't matter if you like to be in M ​​City, or you want to stay here to study medicine, but please don't bother me with this anymore. Don't use the one-sided words of wanting to fall in love with me, or wanting to associate with me. Purpose or excuse, continue to do these things that make me feel very embarrassing, okay?"

The gust of wind came again suddenly, whirling and dancing with falling snowflakes, Yan Yan, who was looking up, saw the girl he liked shudder suddenly, and continued to speak.

"I don't know what you like about me, but I can be sure that you won't be the person I would like. My life is very simple. I have my grandpa, grandma, Xiaogu, Senior Sister Bingrui, and Yuhe."

"Your identity is different. Whether you decide to join the army or inherit the family business in the future, you are destined to have a wonderful and colorful life in the future. It has nothing to do with my simple and extreme life in the countryside. Moreover, I I don't want to get involved in any incidents that will break my current peaceful life, I hope you can understand Yanyan, thank you."

Even though the wind and snow were even bigger, against the background of the wind and snow, what Yan Yan saw in her eyes was firmness, peace and contentment.

This scene was deeply engraved in Yan Yan's mind, and that confident smile made him lose his mind for a long time.

"okay, I get it."

Yan Yan agreed with a drop of blood in his heart. He still remembered that when he fell in love with her at first sight, apart from the strong intuition, he was also moved by her talking eyes.

After Yan Yan secretly investigated everything about Lin Lan and found that the growth experiences of the two of them were extremely similar, this kind of love became even stronger.

The experiences of the two are really similar. Having parents is equal to not having parents. They both grew up under the guidance and education of the elders of the older generation.

The only difference is that Yan Yan has more grandparents, while Lin Lan only has elderly grandpa and grandma.

Yan Yan's parents, the first thing in their hearts is of course they are each other. After all, everyone knows how much they love each other; the second is work. They are ambitious and have spent countless efforts. What they build belongs to them The third place is the only son of his so-called crystallization of love.

It's just that they each other and their business kingdom have already occupied almost all the space in their hearts. Yan Yan, the third son, always felt that he was dispensable since he was a child.

Lin Lan's parents are on the contrary. Their first love is themselves, the second love is still themselves, the third love is the wealth that allows them to be independent, and the fourth is the one that occupies a small space Blood relatives.

Lin Lan, who doesn't match the two ends, probably can't even be ranked.

Growing up in such an environment, Yan Yan knew that she and herself must have a lot to talk about.

It's a pity that the two had never talked about this topic before they made their attitude clear. After they made it clear, Lin Lan probably wouldn't give him this chance.

Yanyan felt sorry for the girl he liked that she didn't pay attention to him because of his background and wealth like those girls around her.

But thinking about it makes me happier, the sweetness in my heart, the honeyed pride that she is really different from other girls arises spontaneously.

That is, at this moment, Yan Yan, who agreed to Lin Lan who rejected him so decisively and would never offend her again, did not feel so wonderful.

Yan Yan always knew that after his intentions were exposed, in her eyes, he was a scheming and timid person.

Those who dare not confess in person (because they know that they will definitely be rejected), but also want to invade her life circle by influencing the perception of important people around her, and have bad intentions towards her.

Just like Yanyan used to look at the senses of the peers around her.

He was popular from a young age, though for sure, he really didn't like the peers around him at all.

Because in his eyes, these little kids of the same age are not brainless second-generation ancestors who feel good about themselves through their parents' wealth and status;

It is to blame their parents for only giving them a rich material life, but not enough care for them, and then turn around and use these reasons as an excuse for not self-control and self-degradation;

Or else, it’s a group of people who haven’t grown up yet and have begun to know people with their eyes, but their minds are more than the eye of a needle. My most sober idiot...

In short, in Yan Yan's memory, among his peers, except for his cousin Yan Junqing, who is more pleasing to the eye, he is surrounded by a group of brainless idiots who he doesn't like.

He endured it until he was 16 years old, and he decisively left his family relationship and joined the army incognito.

The reason for choosing to join the army is very simple. I have this physical condition and ability, and the military camp is really a relatively pure place.

The point is that here, those who have been in control of him all the time, no matter whether it is the grandparents or the parents' generation, can't reach out. Not only can they get rid of the remote control elite education of their parents at home, but they can also get rid of the surrounding, People who make him feel like they're lowering his IQ.

He just likes this kind of free place, where he lives easily and comfortably.

Later, the reason for joining the anti-drug team without hesitation is even simpler. It is actually a very happy thing to be able to personally make those scumbags worthless, step on the ground and rub against them, and never turn over.

To be honest, Yan Yan really didn't care much about her own life.

The only thing that bothers me is that, given his calm reactions, after recovering from serious injuries, his parents have no intention of continuing to be "enlightened" on the grounds that they are worried about Yan Yan's life.

In order to keep himself away from the army, he actually thought of asking the psychiatrist in the army to tell him that he had mild depression and mania.

Although the so-called case notice was later withdrawn under Yan Yan's threat of violence, the psychiatrist tactfully withdrew it and said it was a misdiagnosis, but Yan Yan was still very upset.

Who would be happy to be called crazy?

Ok……

This is the state of mind before meeting Lin Lan.

Yan Yan was very fortunate that under the severe double standards of his parents, he met Lin Lan before he could hold back his temper.

After meeting her, Yan Yan, who didn't have any sense of importance to her own life, suddenly felt that if she could live with her and live longer, it must be a very happy thing. Life is neither long nor short, and it is too wasteful to die so casually.

This kind of feeling of joy and excellence just thinking about it, Yan Yan felt quite strange.

It's a pity that everything was screwed up by himself.

When Yan Yan regained his composure, the person he was thinking of was gone on the wall, and the ladders had been removed.

Looking at the snow on the ground, he seemed to have been standing for a long time.

She seemed very happy when she left, because she agreed to her request, by the way, what did she say?

"Thank you for your understanding, Yan Yan, dinner is about to start, you don't want to stay in the vegetable garden anymore, go back to the house to warm up!"

Twisting and maintaining the already stiff neck, Yan Yan felt the urge to cry for the first time since she could remember.

he……

Totally lovelorn.

Ok……

It should be said that the road ahead was completely blocked.

Even though he knew that the person he liked didn't have any special feelings for him from the beginning to the end.

Don't mention the meaning of being charming, I'm afraid in her heart, the perception of him as a suitor is at most a little higher than the strangers on the side of the road.

He also knew that it was best to keep his love for her in the bottom of his heart, because once he opened his mouth to say that he liked her, what he got would be a merciless rejection.

Knowing is knowing, only when you really experience it can you realize how painful it is.

"Cousin?" Yan Junqing, who had been hiding for a long time, came over and asked tentatively, "Are you... all right?"

Yan Yan's state, the final result, Yan Junqing can think of it with his toes.

My cousin is absolutely confused.

Yan Yan smiled wryly: "I don't even know if it's good or bad, but I just think that people who can live the life they want according to their own ideas are happy. You and I can't do it yet, However, as long as I take a step back, she can do it, so why should I continue to force it?"

I should thank myself for the good rapport these days, I didn't let her directly speak and sweep me out!

Slowly moving her arms and legs to make sure the blood had circulated, Yan Yan turned around and left resolutely in the opposite direction of the house.

Yan Junqing hurriedly asked worriedly: "Cousin? Where are you going!"

Yan Yan has returned to normal, um...it looks like: "I'll go to the nearby garrison to have a look, there are some things to deal with, you go back and tell the teacher, in the following days, I can only take time to attend classes during the day .”

As a manly man, Yan Yan feels that since he has agreed, he must do what he says, and if he procrastinates and still lives in someone else's house, what kind of trouble is it for others.

The girls didn't say more unfeeling words, it was to save face for themselves, and it would be too shameless for them to show shame.

Yan Yan's behavior of leaving calmly scared Yan Junqing: "Cousin, are you okay?"

At this moment, his mind was full of the news about being rejected to retaliate against the society, and he subconsciously stopped Yan Yan from leaving.

What's the matter, my cousin was still seriously injured. It happened not long ago, and it was very windy and snowy. What if something happened on the way?

Yan Yan was really in a bad mood, he was stopped for a while, and he was so skilled that he directly pushed Yan Junqing, who came to the door to seek abuse, into the snow: "Wake up, I'm fine, I promised not to embarrass her , I'm going to do it, don't look like I'm going to die, I haven't given up yet!"

give up?

That is impossible!

Yan Yan just agreed and would not cause trouble to Lin Lan's life anymore.

never said give up...

It's too early to give up now!

Just like what Ji Yuhe said, now is the critical moment for her college entrance examination, so don't add trouble if you can, he is not a scumbag.

Unmarried men and women who are unmarried, it's not that there is no chance of turning things around, and the future will be long!

He had to think hard about what to do next.

"Remember to bring me a message."

When Yan Junqing, who was wrapped in a layer of snow, brought the words, it was already time for dinner.

He drank the ginger soup, still shaking all over.

Sure enough, my brother was never reliable.

All the people here are human beings. Not long ago, Lin Lan came back humming a song with ease.Now that Yan Yan avoided seeing him again, he could probably guess what happened.

Bao Banxia did not delve into it: "Then let's serve dinner!"

The only surprise was Lin Lan.

She really didn't expect that Yan Yan would do it so neatly.

Just like what Yan Yan thought, if it wasn't for his grandpa and grandma both liking him, Lin Lan would have had room to speak in the face of the two old people.

Otherwise, Lin Lan would definitely speak more heartlessly.

Because grandpa seemed to be very optimistic about Yan Yan and really wanted to teach him something, Lin Lan didn't say that he hoped he would move away and stop seeing him in the future to avoid misunderstanding.

Fortunately, Yan Yan, as a rich man, is also a soldier who has made meritorious service, and he is still a decent person when he does things.

From that day on, Yan Yan never lived in the Shi family's old house, but came to Bao Banxia to study every day.

The kind of learning without discount.

When I have time, I will help Li Jiawei to do heavy work.

Yan Junqing returned to City B because the New Year's Eve was approaching, so in the old house, there was only Li Jiawei, a strong man who could be squeezed.

After a round of transformation, the dandyism in Li Jiawei's body has finally subsided a lot. It seems that he looks very decent, even when facing Lin Lan and Xiaogu, he will still subconsciously coward him.

Although Yan Yan still subconsciously chased after Lin Lan's existence, he could no longer create that kind of behavior that would make people think about it.

Because Yan Yan's behavior was too normal, Lin Lan had no more worries. After Ji Yuhe learned that Lin Lan had rejected Yan Yan, he no longer confronted Yan Yan. The family is calmed down again, and the days are leisurely and leisurely, which is very pleasant.

Lin Lan thought that her life would continue to be so comfortable, including her relationship with Yan Yan. She felt that a relationship that was not far or close would be very good.

However, who would have thought that after she had taken care of everything and waited for the time to celebrate the new year happily, it would be her own mother, Ms. Shi Bingfu, who would make trouble behind her back?

It's only been a few days since Anwen, and this mother, whom she only met once, actually brought Yan Yan's parents home directly.

The appearance was very grand, with three luxury cars and a row of large trucks.

The bustling came back just like that, without any notice to Lin Lan.

Indeed, it seemed that there was no need to give Lin Lan any notice.

Long-sleeved and good at dancing, she brought enough manpower, ingredients, and tools, in order to invite the villagers to have a reunion dinner together.

This used to be Shi Bingfu's home field.

Seeing the young and mature generation of Shizhu Village returning from the city one after another, you will know it when talking and laughing with Shi Bingfu.

The words are also very nice: "Over the years, thank you for taking care of my two elders and my daughter. As a younger sister, I have done well. I also know that everyone is well-fed and well-fed now, and they don't like me anymore. So I will airlift a batch of ingredients, let's have fun together!"

Obviously, Ms. Shi is really talented in this area, but after a meal, the villagers who were still a little estranged from her have already smiled. It can be said that she did the right thing.

Lin Lan watched all these quietly without expressing any opinions.

The only thing is——

"Come on, girl, let me introduce you. This is your mother and my good friend, best friend, Yan Zhihui, the boss of the largest technology company, and next to her is her lover, Yan Hongtu, who is also a powerful person and the chairman of a listed home appliance company. , I heard that you know their young master, come on, call me uncle and aunt, why are you so shy! Hey, aren’t you with their young master?”

Lin Lan: ...

Your eyes saw that I was shy, and I was mad at you for being manipulated by your matchmaker.