life and joy

He Huan is actually a person with relatively dull senses. He can bear it more than others in the moment, and his emotions are more intense than anyone else afterward.

At the dinner table, he didn't say anything. Yao Qi thought that he would keep the matter in his heart like every time before, and wait for the day when the stones grow enough to have to be removed.But this time He Huan didn't, this time his despair was deeper and more thorough than every time.

Because he couldn't hold it anymore.

In the early morning of that day, Yao Qi stood in front of the window with He Huan in his arms for a long time, watching the sky turn from jet black to deep blue, the street lamps went out one by one, and the east turned pale.

He Huan raised his hand, covered his eyes and remained silent for a while, then took a step back to avoid Yao Qi and said, I'm going to take a shower.

Tears are reserved for late at night, during the day, he is still the aggressive and proud academic elite.

That autumn, the maple leaves fell early, and the treetops fluttered in the air, and the swaying feet fell, and the streets of Daicheng were crimson.

In the afternoon, just as the sun was slanting across the corner of the office building, He Huan looked away from the computer screen, looked up, and suddenly remembered something.Today is Mother's Day.

Following the acting secretary's errands, he ran out in a hurry, and on the way to the Western Suburb Cemetery, he stopped by a flower shop to pick up a bunch of marshmallows.

The owner of the flower shop said that the sales volume is good today, and the shop will be closed if you are later.

He Huan stared blankly at the bouquet in his hand, smiled slightly and said, yes, I always know it later.

He hasn't seen his mother for more than half a year, and he has a lot of things to say in his heart, but when he actually arrives, he realizes that he doesn't know where to start.

There was a handful of daisies on the ground, which was a proof that they were a match made in heaven, even if they didn't try to guess it, they would know who it was.He Huan had mixed feelings in his heart. He put down the flowers and stood silently for a long time before finally opening his mouth and saying, "Mom."

He doesn't really care what the truth is, or if someone really wanted him dead or if it was just a coincidence.He just wondered if he'd been the one who wasn't welcome by anyone and didn't bring any joy or inclusion from the moment he was born.If he hadn't met Yao Qi just by chance, no matter how far he traveled and how high he stood, he could only be alone and always be alone.

After coming out of the cemetery, I found that the car was out of gas and only enough to start the engine.He Huan twitched the corner of his mouth and greeted the doorman, then left the car and walked to the city alone.

The fallen leaves creaked underfoot, and the street lamps stretched and shortened He Huan's shadow.That day, he walked more than ten kilometers alone in the desolate night on the outskirts of Daicheng and finally walked back to his residence.

Yao Qi was lying on the bed with his clothes on, leaning against the head of the bed and already falling asleep.He Huan turned off the light, climbed into bed in the dark, and half hugged Yao Qi to keep warm.

"Huh? Are you back? Are you hungry? I'll tell the cook or heat up the leftovers myself." In the darkness, Yao Qi woke up with a start and lifted the quilt to get out of bed to prepare meals.

He Huan didn't answer him, but just tightened his arms and rubbed against his neck, and said in a hoarse voice, don't go.

Yao Qi turned around and hugged the person in his arms, pulled up the quilt to wrap He Huan completely, and said, sleep when you are tired, I won't leave.

He didn't say a word about the paternity test and He Huan's disappearance all afternoon.It is tacit understanding and self-cultivation.Although he never asked, Yao Qi understood that this matter would not pass in such a peaceful manner.

In fact, He Yikun already knew.The secret that he had been hiding for so long was easily exposed in this way. It is impossible to say that there is no panic and no anger, but such a result is actually expected.Paper can't hold fire, it's just a year early and a year late.

He Yikun returned to the hotel after coming out of the Western Suburb Cemetery, lying on the bed tossing and turning without sleep all night, with his eyes open until dawn.Scenes from more than ten years ago kept flashing in my mind.My wife came out of the child's room and closed the door behind her back, leaning against the door with a tired face. I will pour all my love for the child in this life into Xiao Huan, and it is impossible to have another one.

What she thinks, the membership card understands and even understands.But he wanted a child of his own so much at the time that endless quarrels broke out later, and the two tried their best to express themselves and finally parted ways.

It would have been fine if the two of them had sat down and had a talk, and if he had taken a step back then, it would have been fine if... It's a pity that there is no if in the world, and neither regret medicine nor Mengpo soup.

When he was leaving for Yaocheng the next day, he unexpectedly ran into He Huan at the airport.After looking at each other in silence for a while, the two chose to sit down in a teahouse.

The teahouse is located on the corner of the street, but the decoration is very elegant. The tables and chairs are all high-quality solid wood huanghuali.The tables are separated by celadon screens.Restricted view, but not sound proof.

It's just that it's working hours now, even if you yell out loud, not many people may be able to hear you.

He Yikun wrapped his hands around the steaming teacup, looked at He Huan, and narrated everything.

He said that 20 years ago, two strangers suddenly asked to stay overnight, and for just one night, your mother didn't think much about handing over the keys to the apartment upstairs.No one expected that they would sneak into the neighbor's house to steal, and after being discovered, they would kill passionately.A family of five, only one child in swaddling.

He Huan stared at the person across the long table, feeling a little dazed.Just like an audience, sitting in the audience, can't figure out what the ups and downs of the story on the stage have to do with themselves.

After a while, He Yikun finally spoke again, Xiao Huan, you are a handsome young man who was born on the high loess slope in the northwest.Not Yaocheng, nor Daicheng.

He Huan experienced a murder when he was just born, and all his flesh and blood relatives died. If he had died in an accident at that time, his life would have been much easier.But he didn't.

For 20 years, he was raised in the family of an indirect murderer. He was happy because of his joy and sad because of his sadness. He used his small and thin shoulders to bear all the love and hatred of the other party, but it turned out that this was the truth.

If he didn't have the kindness of nurturing for many years, He Huan would hate him more or less when he mentioned this unintentional mistake, but now, his mother's voice and smile are still in front of his eyes.He Huan suddenly didn't know what attitude he should have.For an unspeakable guilt, two people with successful careers and a happy marriage actually did not have children.Even, for a latecomer, he ran counter to his originally loving partner.

If there hadn't been that accident or they hadn't chosen to adopt He Huan, it must be a different situation today.

After a long time, He Yikun said, Xiao Huan, Qiuju of Yaocheng University is open, come back and have a look when you have time.

As far as this is concerned, it has reached the limit of what can be said.

He Huan looked out the window, got up and said, it's time to board, don't miss the plane.

He was pulling a large suitcase in his hand, the rollers rubbed against the floor, and every step was as heavy as stepping into the mud.

"Xiao Huan."

Someone called him from behind, He Huan stopped but didn't look back.

"I am the father, as long as you admit it, I will always be. If...you treat me as an enemy and hold resentment in your heart, I will also..."

He Yaohua probably hasn't finished speaking yet, but He Huan has already walked out of the teahouse. His back is the unique determination of an adult man, but his footsteps are not as relaxed and firm as when he came.

While sitting on the bench waiting for the flight, He Huan took out his mobile phone and hesitated for a long time, and finally sent a message to Yao Qi, asking, what are you doing?

After a while, I received a reply saying that I bought two pots of flowers and planned to move them home.

He Huan stared at the screen for a while, then turned off the screen, and put the phone back in his pocket.

After putting the luggage in the check-in and preparing to board the plane with the boarding pass, He Huan looked at the colorfully pasted suitcase by Yao Qi from a distance, and sighed calmly.As a result, before he even moved, he was pulled back by his shoulders, imprisoned in his arms and kissed deeply.

Before he could finish his sigh, he held back his breath.

At Daicheng Airport that day, many people saw a slender man rushing into the lobby and hugging another man. They hugged each other without fear of worldly eyes, as if they could not be separated by anything.

He Huan's waist was held, and his whole body was tightly pressed against Yao Qi's body, all the air in his lungs was taken away.But he didn't resist, instead he hugged Yao Qi with his backhand, and when he had vented enough, he pushed him away, saying, why is he always as impulsive as a child at such an adult.No matter how impulsive you are, no one will celebrate Children's Day for you.

Yao Qi ignored his teasing, but stretched out his hand, gently wiped off the glistening saliva from his lips, and asked with deep resentment, why didn't you tell me when you were going out, even if you didn't take the plane at home? Don't you want to escape from me again?

He Huan looked at him calmly, and said helplessly, the time is too fast, and it takes time to approve the route.

"Every time you encounter any problem, you have to run away from me. Thinking that you can solve it by yourself, and come back to me when everything is calm. If this is the case, why do you want me to be a burden for you?"

He Huan grabbed one of his wrists hastily and motioned him to keep his voice down, so that everyone could hear him.But Yao Qi didn't care, and said to himself, when did I leave you behind to fight and let you worry about your phone all by yourself?

He Huan felt guilty, but still retorted in a low voice, saying, over the years, you have encountered problems that cannot be solved, do you need me to share it?

Yao Qi blurted out, saying, that's not true.

The guilty smile on He Huan's face became stiff, suppressed his emotions, and said, missed the flight.

Yao Qi's unexpected appearance caused He Huan to miss the plane and disrupted his southbound plan.In the end, traveling alone was changed to two people, and the plane was changed to a train.

Yao Qi held the box with one hand and He Huan with the other, and said, since you can't let it go, you want to see where your sister-in-law died.I will accompany you, accompany you to experience the loneliness in every step of life, and let you recall the most unforgettable loneliness in every moment with me.

Yao Qi was still Yao Qi, nasty and firm.For the first time in his life, He Huan did not change the subject, but squeezed Yao Qi's fingers, and said in a low voice, "Yes."