21. The problem is the personality of committing and seeing.

It wasn’t like Judas did this because he liked it.

It wasn’t that I didn’t like it either.

The shame I feel now is a slightly different matter from likes or dislikes.

She just thought it was something she had to do, and so she did.

As long as she acted, she had no intention of biting.

I did it, so I’m going straight.

I lived without a back anyway.

‘What are you going to do? What else can I do besides executing them for blaspheming the nobility?’

Elijah’s eating habits will not be temporary.

I’ve probably been eating like that for a long time.

Therefore, you should feed them easy-to-digest foods first.

Avoid foods that are large in quantity, hard to chew, or have a strong taste.

That’s why I chose bland porridge.

She took care of it, but Elijah didn’t seem to want to eat it herself.

It was within the expected range.

Judas scooped the porridge with her own hands, and she intended to cool it before feeding it.

“Oh, do it.”

It was more of an extremely obligatory act rather than an expression of affection.

Elijah couldn’t react. She

Is right that she couldn’t react.

Her hair turned white.

It feels like being in distress in the middle of an empty snowy field.

Where should she go? What should she do now

She didn’t know.

My mouth opened unconsciously.

Judah hesitated for a moment.

Did she follow her own words, or did she go crazy?

She

The next time she put the spoon in, she realized she was growing up.

Elijah’s mouth did not close even after he put the porridge in her mouth.

“Then shed it. You have to chew.”

Judas grabbed Elijah by the chin and shut her mouth.

“… ….”

Only then did Elijah move her chin slowly.

“Don’t just swallow it, chew it properly and swallow it.”

Judas said as he opened the next spoon.

Elijah obeyed like a squeaky puppet.

Chews food.

Warm and sticky.

It doesn’t taste like anything.

As for whether it’s delicious or not, of course not.

She doesn’t even compare to the simple soup she usually throws away with a few spoonfuls.

Still, Elijah steadfastly ate.

Gulp, she finally swallowed.

Judas waited a moment before she held out the next spoon.

“Ah.”

Elijah did as he said.

Opens her mouth small.

Eat the food given to you.

Like a baby bird.

‘How could this happen to me….’

It is rare to think about the difference between Judas and her own status.

Especially since Judas said that she only saw him as Elijah, she had erased it from her mind.

She didn’t really say that, but that’s what she accepted anyway.

But at this moment, I couldn’t help but reflect on the difference.

‘How dare the lowly people take me….’

Even in the midst of the absurdity and absurdity, her mouth moved steadily.

Once they gave it to me, I ate it.

Judas, unaware of what was inside, watched as Elijah chewed and swallowed.

The convex cheeks seemed to be eating well.

That act was repeated several times.

The white and empty consciousness of Elijah.

A mirage-like figure floated above it.

She engraved images of Judas and herself into the landscape as if drawing on her blank sheet of paper.

In that picture, she resembles her past, which she has forgotten.

‘Mom….’

There was a time when we ate together.

At that time, Elijah also had a good appetite for his age. She

She spilled food.

Each time her mother comforted Elijah by wiping her mouth and feeding her instead.

The feeling of being taken care of.

Feeling protected.

Unlike the present, when there were only enemies all around, and thorns had to be wrapped around the body, those days when he depended on his only family and side.

Judah often reminded me of that past.

She clenched her fists, fearing that she would burst into tears.

She sometimes revealed her bare face to Judas, but she couldn’t show her weak side.

She had already been seen a few times while sleeping, but it was a fact she was oblivious to Elijah.

She chewed hard, suppressing her emotions.

She was having trouble breathing, so she spilled food uncharacteristically and even got it in her mouth.

Then Judas silently wiped her mouth.

Even at the touch of her hand close to her face, Elijah remained calm. She

She didn’t like it.

To have someone take care of you.

‘I miss you….’

She resembles herself with black hair.

And black eyes.

Elijah only goes to see her mother once a year.

To be precise, her grave.

Always promise in front of the tombstone.

She holds back all her will to be weak, and engraves her goal back into her mind.

I will destroy the Bebel family with my own hands.

I will avenge everything.

She doesn’t visit often because standing in front of him distracts her.

Come to think of it, her mother passed away soon.

“One more bite?”

Judas asked, and Elijah gave her a small nod.

A quiet mealtime continued for a while.

This has not happened in the past few years.

From a corner of her restaurant, Anna watched with her anxious eyes.

And beside him, Leah’s sunken black eyes captured Elijah.

*

Elijah spat out words she never thought would come out of her own mouth.

“I’m full….”

The satiety that filled her stomach pushed her voice out.

There are a few spoonfuls of porridge left in the bowl.

Judah immediately put down his spoon.

She shouldn’t have been forced to feed more.

My stomach may hurt.

If she were herself, she would have dumped it into her stomach in about a minute, but for Elijah, it would be like food for several days.

Anna crept up and put away her bowl.

After bowing her head and thanking her, Judas said to Elijah,

“I don’t know what else you have left today, but if possible, don’t lie down right away. It’s good to sit and spend time or take a light walk.”

Even after that, she continued to do things that should not be done right after a meal.

In the midst of talking, Judas met Elijah’s eyes.

She looked at herself and smiled happily.

I was embarrassed by the clear smile without a shadow.

She scratches her cheek and hastily concludes her words.

“Ah, anyway. People who are busy like this will get sick if they don’t eat properly, so be careful… Do.”

Elijah smiled, tilting her head slightly.

The answer that came back was a little excited.

“Yes. I will.”

That action made Judas’ heart little by little critical.

“Well then, I’m done…. Sorry about today….”

Elijah cut him off.

“Don’t apologize.”

Her face was still full of a smile.

A smile that feels benevolent at first glance.

“Because I don’t have to apologize.”

She didn’t want to hear his apology. She

What she doesn’t have to apologize for, what she doesn’t want to hear.

There was a big difference between the two, but Elijah didn’t try to tell them apart.

She didn’t have anything to give back, so Judas gave an absurd answer.

“Oh, um…. Thank you?”

Despite her absurd answer, Elijah just laughed.

Judas noticed a small but not insignificant difference in her smile.

The red blanket and cat doll that I always pack were not there today.

Judas also felt a sense of alienation from herself.

She couldn’t understand why she cared about that.

Whether you carry it or not, well, it’s Elijah’s heart….

Noticing that gaze, Elijah grinned.

I ask in a playful voice.

“Why?”

“No, nothing…” .”

“Do you care?”

“That, it’s just, it’s something I gave you, so a little….”

“You didn’t tell me what bothered you?”

“… ….”

Judah thought.

She said she wanted to die by sticking her nose in the leftover porridge.

Elijah laughed as if he was having fun watching Judas ripening red.

“I left the laundry for you. Rest assured she didn’t throw it away.”

Judas tried to answer that she wasn’t particularly worried about that, but she stopped.

She has to say that she only makes herself miserable.

She just thought she would have to leave this place.

She’s finished eating anyway, and it’s time for bed.

“Well then! I’m sorry, excuse me first.”

Seeing him flustered, Elijah smiled softly.

“Yes. Good night.”

“Have a good night too, lady….”

After barely answering, he hesitantly left.

Elijah smiled contentedly at the closing door.

She leaned back on her back with a pleasant feeling of fullness.

Think in comfort.

‘Angra….’

Bishop Angra.

The person who brought Judas out of Giudecca.

I do not know the name of Judas.

That response was not false.

Distinguishing authenticity from Judas’ reaction is as easy as picking and eating the fruit on a cake.

She figured out, Judah didn’t really know Angra.

‘The number of cases in which such a thing could be possible.’

Not impossible at all.

First of all, if Angra didn’t reveal her identity.

I don’t know why, but if it did, it’s plausible that Judas didn’t know Angra’s name.

However, it does not completely clear the question.

The person I brought from Giudecca.

Judas reacted as if the object itself was unfamiliar.

‘In other words, he doesn’t know that someone took him out.’

The second case.

Currently, it is the most powerful.

‘I used magic related to memory.’

However, it is not a magic that anyone can learn.

It is not a matter of learning difficulty.

Memory/mental interference type magic was designated as ‘prohibition’ under the leadership of the Empire and the Mage Tower.

In other words, it is officially forbidden magic.

If you use it, you will be punished.

Before being severely punished, learning itself is close to impossible.

Materials related to the magic are being stored very strictly in the ‘Catacom’, a joint underground storage owned by the Mage Tower and the imperial family.

However, being banned does not guarantee that no one knows about it.

Just as you don’t break the law just because you don’t know the law.

Usually because they know the law, they break it more subtly.

The possibility that someone secretly tampered with the magic cannot be completely ruled out.

Or, it might have been handed down by someone who learned it in the era before it was banned.

There are also warlocks.

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Criminals living outside civilization.

Those who sacrifice their lives to realize magic.

With their own magic system, it is possible to create magic that interferes with the mind.

Due to the nature of black magic, it’s difficult to use.

‘A force that can do such dangerous things. Also, the force that needs to be done.’

The answer will come soon.

‘Imperial family supporting the Moonsin Church.’

Question again.

Why did you do that?

‘Because there is something in Judas’ memory that he shouldn’t know.’

According to Elijah’s understanding, Judas is a kind of skirmisher sent by the Moonsin Church.

It’s like an expendable chess piece to see if they can get to you.

Judah would not know that.

If he had known, he wouldn’t have dared to make eye contact with him on the first day.

‘Identified as Judas, tried to assassinate a second person named Treditor, but failed. After that, I grab the tail, and Angra disappears.’

If Judas is used in this situation, Elijah can, conversely, gain access to the inside information of the Church of the Moon.

The reason I bothered to touch his memory was because, at least indirectly, there were things I shouldn’t have known about.

Elijah grinned involuntarily.

‘He’s a good boy in many ways.’

She is a child born with a temperament that even quenches her own fire.

Thanks to that, Elijah was able to handle her magic more easily and skillfully than she expected.

If she was the same as before, she would have had a hard time suppressing the urge.

According to the first Bible, the sun absorbs the moon, so it may be the influence.

Didn’t you know that temperament in Moonsingyo?

Or, she might be a temperament that was manifested after meeting herself.

‘I have to find the memories of Judas, too.’

Even Judas must have a childhood.

He also has memories of someone as precious as himself.

It would be very regrettable if such things were forgotten because of the Wolsingyo.

Even if you don’t have such memories, you shouldn’t lose them by others.

Elijah wanted to find out the correct past of Judah.

‘Approaching sobriety…. It’s a tough area for me alone.’

At a time like this, there is only one force to reach out.

I don’t like it.

Elijah has done all of her work, preferably alone.

Help is synonymous with debt.

Debt again becomes a liability or a weakness.

So even if it’s hard, it’s better to do it alone.

But for now, there is no other way.

‘I have no choice but to contact you.’

Elijah decided to turn to outside forces for help.

Information Guild.

Among them, to the ‘blind star’ who is in charge of himself.

Elijah woke up first.

It’s time to go to bed.

As Judas commanded, they rested as much as they could.

The moment she arrived in the bedroom, she forgot all the serious things she had been thinking about.

I came to a realization close to shock.

Her fingertips trembled involuntarily.

‘A doll and a scarf… !’

You shouldn’t wash either.

You should have one….

Today, I slept alone without anything.

That fact made me sad.

But soon she regains her stability.

I think it’s rather good.

‘Isn’t it okay if I hug Judas?’

She goes straight to his bedroom and freezes.

Aren’t you trying to rely on Judas?

Take a step back from the situation for a moment to organize her thoughts.

Why should I sleep with Judas?

Is it necessary?

She shakes her head.

Her current own fire is stable.

She doesn’t even need his cold aura.

In other words, embracing Judas is not something that must be done.

Then why, then, did she welcome and rejoice at a job she didn’t even need?

‘This, so, is just for use….’

She’s just taking advantage of the child.

However, if uncontrollable use is repeated, how is that different from dependency?

Elijah took a step back from his guard.

Some lines, once crossed, cannot be undone.

I don’t know what lies beyond, but Elijah decided not to cross it.

I lay down on the bed lonely.

No dolls, no blankets, no Judas.

I stared blankly at the potted plant on the window sill.

The flowerpot that Judas picked out.

Anemones must be growing.

No matter how much she tossed and turned, she couldn’t sleep.

Elijah raised her body.

She started to rationalize and she did.

‘This is for my sleep. Now that we have entered the realm of need, there is nothing we can do….’

She went straight to Judas’ bedroom.

Judas was asleep with her limbs outstretched freely.

It was an attitude of contempt for the significance of the pillow’s existence.

It’s a while to admire the mysterious posture.

As Elijah was about to crawl into bed, he hesitated. She

If she gets inside, she seemed like he would also prove her own weakness.

She was unaware of the rationalization, but she was aware of the rationalization.

‘… Can’t depend on We have to stop using it for temporary needs according to the fluid changes in the situation.’

If you depend on it, it will only become a weakness.

Elijah took his hand instead of hugging him.

Apart from her cold aura, the mere touch of her hand softened her heart.

Yuda did not wake up and slept well.

Elijah calmly fixed her hand and put it to her face.

The time when he was almost killed by Ramek’s assassin.

Judas tried to raise her hand.

I don’t know what his intentions are.

It just seemed like he was trying to touch his face, so he did.

On impulse.

What was Judas thinking at that time?

Why did she laugh at herself in the dying yard?

His own feelings at the time were indescribably terrible.

He didn’t even dare to laugh.

‘… ….’

Elijah quietly rubbed his face in his hand.

Her hands, slightly larger and warmer than her own, were caressing her own face.

Suddenly, his face caught my eye.

I remembered her pinching her own cheeks on her own accord.

This is an act that is difficult to understand.

Elijah is not inspired by touching her own cheeks.

But wouldn’t it be different if it was someone else’s cheek?

Elijah slowly reached out to her.

Be careful not to wake him up.

A small, short hand gently grabbed the tip of Judas cheek.

‘Mmm…. I’m not sure.’

Elijah tilted her head and touched her a few more times.

She seems a bit funny.

At that time, Judas tossed and turned, and it hardened as it was.

“Elijah…. No…. My neck….”

Elijah almost burst into laughter at the stupid drool talk.

She said the same thing the other day, and she seems to dream of herself quite often.

Elijah laughed softly and she pressed her face further into his hands.

Her first compulsion not to depend on her has faded, but she hasn’t crossed her line.

After she went back satisfied, she was able to sleep comfortably.

*

Yuri Dike opened her eyes at dawn.

She burned the misunderstandings and emotions accumulated so far with her husband, whom she had reunited with after a long time, and barely fell asleep, but had to wake up because someone came to visit her.

After she got dressed, she went out the door.

The person who came was a delivery man from the Information Guild.

As the master who runs the guild, I had to have a dedicated courier to deliver important matters.

After Yuri received her letter, she opened it on the spot.

The recipient is himself. It was a blind star.

My eyes wide open when I see the sender.

‘Chariots of Rising Fire?’

It was the first request she received after signing the contract.

I remembered the day I first met her client.

A small girl who wants to come up to her own thigh.

She rolled her red eyes anxiously, pretending to be proud.

At that time, Yuridike thought.

She says she’s not going to be big.

She was less aristocratic than any aristocrat she had ever seen.

It was a mistake.

A few years later, all the rumors about that child were unusual.

She has recently fully blossomed her mage qualities, and it is said that she will cause a cataclysm in the battle for her next headship.

It was also not difficult to come up with her real name.

‘Elijah di Bebel….’

She took an interest in the Information Guild once.

She is not only because of Elijah’s magical talent.

She is because of her biological mother.

She was very suspicious of her death.

She never found out anything.

Yuri Dike finished reading her request.

‘The path to learn forbidden magic and mental interference. Or maybe she’s been wanted for the last 13 years she’s been able to handle that sobriety. No limitation period…. As much as you want.’

Information contains something other than information that is simply conveyed.

For example, the background that Elijah had to touch on this week.

‘Where do you want to use it? She recently captivated the Duchess. Are you trying to tamper with her memory?’

As a more extreme example, it is also used to erase one’s self through amnesia.

It will be the most terrible revenge.

Anyway, it was a pretty welcome request.

No one knows how the structure of the Bebel family will change.

Because of the unpredictable magician named Elijah.

Therefore, she had better create some debt with Elijah.

‘It just went well. It’s because we’re having a hard time too.’

Apart from trusting Judas, his past has been steadily investigated.

He just happened to receive a request from Judas to find her family.

But I was blocked by the character ‘Angra’.

After that, there is no clue at all.

I could have quit there.

The original origin of street slaves is not clear.

By the way, the origin of Judas was a little different.

There were many circumstances that someone intentionally covered up their identity and identity.

‘What lies behind it….’

I have no intention of abusing this.

Rather, Eurydice wanted to help Judas.

Isn’t she the lovely messenger who made me meet the Orphe I’ve been looking for so much?

Abandoned slaves.

An orphan who does not know his parents.

How curious are you about your origin?

If you cooperate with Elijah, you may be able to reach the information faster.

‘Worth a try.’

Yuridike accepted the request with a light smile.

*

Hearing Anna wake up, Judas opened her eyes.

For some reason, I felt that her arms and hands were empty.

She felt ashamed of herself.

From the beginning of the morning, it is excellent.

Anna said as she was tidying up the curtains.

“The lady is calling.”

“… Me? From this time?”

“Yes. He told me to bring him to the restaurant.”

Judah simply washed his face and followed Anna.

A delicious smell wafted from the restaurant.

Judging from the food on the table, it seemed like they were about to start breakfast.

Elijah, who was sitting in her seat of honor, looked at Judas and laughed.

“Did you sleep well?”

“Yes….”

Before the dreamy Judas had time to say hello, Elijah knocked on her chair.

Her tock, her seat right next to her own.

‘Sit down? What do you mean, you want to have breakfast with me? .’

Judas approached her first.

There was so much food on the table.

‘Do I even need to sit next to you? Besides, the chair is a two-person chair. Was there ever such a chair….’

When he finally sat down next to her on his shoulder, Judas intuitively realized that something was fundamentally wrong with this situation.

Elijah smiled at Judas and said,

“Feed me.”

I thought I heard it wrong.

She hoped she had heard it wrong.

No.

Elijah smiled and she was waiting for him.

I fell asleep.

“… ….”

Today, it was Judas’ turn to lose his sense of reality.

A word popped into Judas’s whitened consciousness.

Karma.

‘… Ah.’

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