The Shaman Wants Transcendence

39 – The Difference Between a Freak and an Uninvited Guest

Kenji didn’t wake up until Lise bowed and took care of herself.

From the headphones that were put on his ears, he heard a regular beep-beep sound, and it was only when the sound ended that he was able to open his eyes.

“Wow!”

Kenji also vomited as soon as he woke up. As he had closed his eyes for a long time, he vomited more violently than Rise. He vomited so violently that he wondered if not only gastric juices but also the internal organs were protruding from his mouth.

By the way, Kenji, who had been vomiting for a while, put on his headphones again and lay down with his eyes wide open. With his eyes closed and the sound of beeping, Kenji struggled as if he wanted to taste the sensation of that time once again, but unfortunately, Kenji’s struggles ended in vain.

“Why, why can’t I hear it!”

There was a beep-beep sound coming from the headphones.

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The sound was so loud that it was clear enough that even Rise, who was warming up from a distance, could hear it, but Kenji, who was wearing it, couldn’t hear it.

It was strange.

Kenji frothed at his mouth, saying he needed a sound, and he tried to imitate the beep-beep sound with his own mouth. But…

“Why! Why! Only this! This aaan!”

Kenji groaned and tore his hair.

The momentum was so intense that the hair he was holding was pulled out with a popping sound, and at the end of it, blood was dripping down Kenji’s forehead. However, Kenji didn’t care about the itchy feeling of the hot blood flowing on his forehead, and just screamed and screamed.

“Again! Need a sound again!”

He shouted.

I screamed to break my throat.

Even as the root of his tongue dried up and foam formed in his mouth, he craved only sounds, shouting and shouting madly and rolling on the floor.

And for a while.

He crawled on all fours and grabbed Jinseong by the crotch of his pants, shouting.

“I want to taste that ecstasy again, again!”

However, Jinseong only smiled calmly and never listened to Kenji’s request.

Kenji grabbed Jinseong and complained for a long time, tried to appease him, tried to put on the headphones again and listened, then put his head back on Jinseong and begged him, and in the end he grabbed Rise and said this.

“Rise! That ghost, no! Ask that nobleman! Please tell me to hear the sound, to hear the sound!”

“…Please?”

“Yes! Aren’t you a beauty! If a beauty like you asked, wouldn’t you pretend to listen!”

Do you know what I’m talking about?

Rise’s gaze, which had been looking at Kenji pitifully, gradually turned colder.

The warm gaze, full of pity and compassion, gradually hardened like an iceberg in the North Pole.

“…Now that’s what a father would say to his daughter?”

Because she’s a beauty, if I ask, she’ll be eaten?

It means like…

Like…

RiSe couldn’t bear to think of what happened after that.

She only looked at her father with a cold gaze and the most sorrowful expression on his face.

Jinseong, who was looking at the figure, opened her mouth.

“I will bless youDidn’t you say you came? This is what your father must have seen in the future.”

Rise looked up at Jinseong, shaking her head, as if she was repulsed by his words. However, he had no choice but to bow his head again, as if he remembered the oath he had made earlier.

However, Jinseong approached her as if to comfort her, grabbed her by the shoulder, and whispered to her.

“Do you know what you found in your father’s room?”

“…I don’t know.”

“There’s LSD, methamphetamine, and even ayahuasca.”

“If it’s methamphetamine… Is it meth?”

“It is true.”

“I don’t know what the rest is…”

Each and every one of them was terrifying.

If there is one thing in common, they are all hallucinogens.

“Methamphetamine is the most used among them, so catastrophe must have come.”

Jinseong looked at Kenji, who begged him for a sound in a Togeza posture.

There was a scratch on his chest, visible through Kenji’s disheveled collar, and it looked like a scratch from an insect bite.

“Look, that’s called a Meth bug.”

Mess bug.

It was a typical symptom of methamphetamine, and it was also a wound seen in drug dealers who started in earnest. It is said that when methamphetamine is ingested, it feels like bugs are crawling under the skin.

If you go further from there, your body will become skinny and nervous, and your teeth will become a mess. And for the sake of medicine, he becomes a madman who can do anything. The brain is completely destroyed, and it becomes a body that can never come back.

“Even drug addicts avoid methamphetamine, but I don’t know why I took it. Where did you drink hallucinogenic drugs like that and dream what you wanted?”

“The dream you want…”

Risse looked at Kenji as if he knew something.

However, the compassion he had for a while quickly disappeared at the sight of Kenji running wild and ugly.

“…Can my father return to normal?”

She asked with her earnest face.

The fear I experienced in the previous dream, the awe and obedience to my true nature, and even the ugliness of my father.

RiSe’s mind was already at its limit.

And Jinseong did not turn a blind eye to the spirit of RiSe, who was barely showing the floor.

“It is possible.”

He smiled like a rabbit and pointed his finger at Kenji.

“What do you think Qi would have seen with her eyes closed?”

Risé tasted her state of samadhi unconsciously.

There she saw the vast universe, saw the stars, questioned and answered, and tasted pieces of enlightenment.

This is a clear mental enhancement.

Although it was an unmanageable task for the young and untrained Lyse, it was a clear opportunity.

So what did Kenji see?

What did Kenji see and experience after hearing Cyber Drug, not the sound recorded by Jinseong himself?

It doesn’t know.

Exploring my own unconscious is also an unknown territory, but it was impossible to peek into the unconscious of others. However, Kenji must have felt bliss in the endorphin overflow secreted by dimethyltryptamine and cyberdrug.

Maybe you don’t know

Enough to get my hands on hallucinogensYou may have seen what you longed to see.

But that fleeting happiness is no longer there.

This is because it has become a scaffold for treatment and a leash in Jinseong’s hand.

“I don’t know what that chi saw. But without my permission, I’ll never be able to recreate it again.”

Jinseong smiled as he recalled the sparganum (spirometra plerocercoid larva) planted in Kenji’s body.

Rise stared at Jinseong for a while, smiling confidently, then lowered her head.

It was a different form of submission than Kenji, who was kneeling on the floor.

* * *

Nightmare day.

From that day on, the shrine began to change.

First, the shrine door was locked.

The torii, which welcomed the worshipers, was erected with a prohibition sign to prevent anyone from entering, and the color of the torii, which had been bright red, changed to a darker, dark red color. Instead, large candles were placed on either side of the torii, shining as if they were lighting the door.

And when I went inside, I saw the grounds of a shrine where not a speck of dust was visible.

There was not a single speck of dust to be found throughout the site, as if the dust was not being swept away with a broom, but as if it were being wiped away, and likewise, there was not a single drop of fallen leaves or trash to be found.

And when you enter the main hall, the body that was once cherished was immersed in blood and bubbling bubbles, and at the place where the body was supposed to be enshrined, there was a sphere made of white light.

The light of the sphere was basically white, but if you look at it still, the white light feels black and it seems like your mind will be sucked in. I could see things constantly changing, such as drawing the shape of a sphere while doing so.

However, it was always in the shape of a star at the tip, so this was the exact embodiment of the last star Rise saw.

Beneath the sphere of light was a polished bronze mirror, but instead of reflecting light, it connected with Risse’s mind and projected an image outside.

In other words, what is where the body is is the image that Risse projected into reality.

It was a memory brought to reality as a clairvoyance.

And around the sphere of light, two monsters were roaming around as if they were guards.

A childish ghost with a twisted and twisted appearance was running around within a certain distance as if to strictly guard the light orb, constantly monitoring the surroundings to see if anyone was coming. It reminded me of a child playing a role, and it looked cute at first glance.

The one in the form of a slime was constantly changing its shape and protecting it, bordering on the gold line that drooped around the body. They made a wall like a waterfall, wrapped it in the form of a dome, pulled out thorns and set it up like a barn, etc., Thoroughly protecting the sphere of light by moving in a dreamy way.

And Jinseong, who had been watching the scene, looked at Kenji and asked.

“Are you ready?”

Beneath Kenji’s eyes had turned black. He had dark circles so thick that it made me wonder if he had suffered enough for several years, and I couldn’t find any vitality in his pale eyes.

Its appearance reminded me of a zombie created by a witch doctor.

“Radish, Of course!”

The only time the gun came back to Kenji, who had changed like a living corpse, was only when he thought of cyber drugs. However, Jinseong had no intention of giving Kenji pleasure, and he made Kenji aware of it several times.

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Naturally, Kenji went mad.

To show heaven once and then take it away?

It was nothing short of ruin for him.

He begged

Banged his head until his forehead cracked.

He prayed until his palms peeled off.

He knelt to the point where his knees couldn’t straighten properly, and he cried and cried until he coughed up blood.

However, no matter how much he begged, the reality did not change, and Jinseong never had any intention of breaking his will.

If so, he would have tried to rebel or threaten, but even that was impossible for Kenji.

The horrors he had suffered before, and the sparganum in his brain, bound his body and mind tightly, and he could only lower his body like a dog with its tail down and beg and beg.

He repeated only begging and praying, eventually choosing to turn his longing into resentment.

And that resentment was directed to those who were in a horizontal relationship, not Jinseong, an irresistible existence.

“They, they too! They have to be just like me!”

People who are experiencing the pleasure that they cannot taste even at this very moment.

His old drug mates.

Kenji is a person who sold drugs to him and who enjoyed drugs with him. They all wanted to be in the same situation as themselves. Since he himself could not taste it, he wanted others to be brought down to the position he was in, and he wanted to experience this terrible reality as it was, having tasted paradise and then falling into hell.

This is a resentment created by a mixture of various emotions, but the most important among them was jealousy.

Jealousy.

Only that low feeling, was controlling him.

“I’m the only one like this…”

In a way, Kenji might be a really good drug addiction therapist.

He is so passionate about getting other people off drugs, what can I say, not a therapist!

“Others just like me! They have to be just like me!”

Kenji shouted with glistening eyes.

There was a madness and longing for his pleasure that could never be reached.