There’s a Dragon Girl in the Desolate Sea

The first chapter of the ninety-ninth piece: (1)

It's really back.

Fu Dang slowly raised his hands. He hadn't had a human body for a long time. He was about to forget this feeling.

In front of me is a familiar but unfamiliar place. It is the place he often dreamed when he was still alive. At that time, he was still young, in his early twenties, from scratch, just starting out, and a poor boy who came out of a mountain village. Little by little, relying on his own efforts to become the richest man in the country, he created an amazing business empire. It can be said that twenty years later, the daily life of Chinese people is closely related to his group.

But what Fu Dang wanted to return most was when he was 24 years old. This year happened to be 90 years. He passed through the most difficult period of starting a business. His career gradually improved and he began to gain a firm foothold. While being able to give his family a good life, his wife Jiang Yingxiu became pregnant.

Fu Dang in 1990 was really too busy. He was so busy that he didn't even have to touch the ground, let alone take care of his pregnant wife, so he invited his mother over, along with his sister. Fu Xia, he felt that he had no worries about the future, so he worked harder and harder, hoping to seize the east wind in this era of opportunities.

Facts have proved that he really succeeded, and his wife gave birth to a daughter for him.

Fu Dang is a workaholic. He always thinks that he has to work harder and be more successful in order to be worthy of being a local in the capital, and his parents doted on his grown-up wife, but he has forgotten that a wife does not actually need it. Too much money, and it was too late and too late when he understood this.

When Fu Dang was twenty-six years old, Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide.

At that time, Fu Dang, after a brief period of grief and despair, quickly devoted himself to work. The work paralyzed his pain. As long as he kept working, he would never think of his wife, and there would be no such piercing sadness. That's how he told himself that he could live the rest of his life without her for decades.

But this kind of sadness, after he became famous, can no longer be ignored.

He is a cowardly man. After his wife committed suicide, he didn't have the courage to look directly at her remains. He didn't dare to open those dusty boxes until after his middle age. Only then did he know how lonely and lonely she was during the years when he worked hard. ,pain.

In the 1990s, there was no such thing as postpartum depression. From outsiders, even from Jiang Yingxiu’s biological parents, they felt that she was groaning without illness—you said that your life is going well, and you’re working day by day. what? Although a man is busy, he is busy with his career. You don’t have to do anything. Just bring your daughter at home. There is no shortage of food, clothing, housing and everything. You can use everything best. You still don’t know enough. What kind of emotional mediation do you have? But come?

Yes, giving birth is very painful, but which woman did not come here? Since becoming a mother, she has to take her own responsibilities, but Jiang Yingxiu stays alone every day. She is always sick and can't feel emotional about anything. If it is decades later, Fu Dang will definitely understand She was suffering from postpartum depression, but he didn't understand anything in the 1990s, and he just wanted to make a career, forgetting his original intentions.

Everyone is accusing Jiang Yingxiu. They don’t understand that she has such a good man, such a good husband, and such good parents. What is she hypocritical? How much Fu Dang loves her. Not long after she became pregnant, except for taking her mother over. Take care of her, let her sister speak with her, and even hire a nanny, where can I find such a good son-in-law!

Even Jiang Yingxiu's biological parents are very embarrassed. They feel that her daughter is too spoiled, and she criticizes education secretly.

Everyone thinks that Jiang Yingxiu is too tricky, and there are many women outside who are looking at him. Fu Dang is not only highly educated and capable, he is also very handsome, has the means and courage, and is worth a million at a young age. If Jiang Yingxiu is I don't want to be this Mrs. Fu, there are many people who want to replace it!

Everyone is accusing her, and everyone thinks she is wrong.

Jiang Yingxiu was only twenty-four years old when he died.

It was the most beautiful age of a woman, like a fresh flower in full bloom, but before she could be appreciated by others, she withered herself and died.

No one thought she would commit suicide. Really, because no one can figure out why Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide, and where did she have a bad life? Fu Dang made money. The first thing she did was to buy her jewelry, buy clothes, change into a beautiful small house, buy a car, and hire a nanny. Why did she commit suicide? Had she forgotten that she was a mother, and that she ignored her two-year-old daughter?

No one can understand Jiang Yingxiu's pain. From everyone's point of view, she just groaned without illness.

Even Fu Dang didn't know why until he finally had the courage to open the dust-covered box of Jiang Yingxiu's relics after his middle age.

For Jiang Yingxiu, she doesn't need luxury cars, or flowers and jewelry. She just wants Fu Dang to accompany her, don't be busy with the phone, and don't see each other a few times a week. No matter how good her mother-in-law treats her, she can't relax herself in front of her mother-in-law. When she sleeps alone at night, she always wants to cry and want him to hug him. He never is.

He always said that he worked so hard for her and to enable them to live a better life, but Jiang Yingxiu didn't want it!

She just wants him to accompany her more. She knows he is busy, but can't she even make a phone call? Obviously he was not like this when he was in college. At that time, he worked part-time for living expenses and tuition. No matter how busy he was, he would come back to have dinner with her. But since he started his business, the family has grown bigger and more luxurious. More and more deserted.

No one even told her, because she married him when she just graduated, her former friends were always speechless when they heard her say this, saying that she had been soaking in a honey pot for a long time, saying that she didn’t know the blessing in the blessing. No matter how Jiang Yingxiu explained, everyone thought she was showing off.

I told my parents that they were criticized and reprimanded. She felt that she was so old and squeamish like a little girl, she was still ignorant and didn't understand her husband.

Slowly, Jiang Yingxiu said nothing.

And when she realized that she was emotionally wrong and tried to talk to Fu Dang, he was always so busy, finally returning home and falling asleep. No matter how much she had to say, he didn't have time to listen.

This is not the most painful, the most painful is having a child.

The mother-in-law treated her well not because of Jiang Yingxiu, but because she was Fu Dang’s daughter-in-law, because she was pregnant with a fat grandson in her belly. During pregnancy, the mother-in-law took Jiang Yingxiu's attention to death and obeyed everything. When it was time to give birth, Jiang Yingxiu had a dystocia at the beginning. The doctors recommended a caesarean section, but her mother-in-law was convinced that the baby would become stupid by caesarean section.

And after giving birth, it is not the end of the nightmare.

She felt that her life had been terrible, and she had completely declared it over at this time.

She kept lochia and her stomach hurts terribly, but Fu Dang, who was busy with work, didn't come to the hospital until she had finished giving birth.

She had no milk, and was forced by her mother and her mother-in-law to drink the greasy soup with milk. She spit it out, but she still had to drink it. The newborn was really painful when she was breastfeeding. The pain made her cry. For the next month, she was not allowed to get out of bed, nor was she allowed to take a bath and wash her hair. Even if she changed her clothes, she always smelled of milk.

Finally out of confinement, Jiang Yingxiu found that her stomach was left with ugly stretch marks. In addition, there were circles of loose fat, which looked simply disgusting.

When she was looking at herself in a full-length mirror, she could hardly recognize the haggard, obese and ugly in the mirror, as if the old teenage woman was the famous school girl in the university.

Because she was born as a daughter, although her mother-in-law didn't say anything, she was still a little dissatisfied. After all, their family was in a rural area and they were conservative in their thinking. They were not as good for their granddaughter as for their grandson. In many cases, Jiang Yingxiu had to take care of her daughter by herself.

She was crying and changing the baby's diaper. The diaper she pulled down was dirty and smelly, and it was very disgusting, but the mother-in-law said that this was your daughter, so how could anyone dislike her as a mother?

This child is very difficult to take, crying all night, he needs someone to hold him all the time, and breastfeeding is also very fierce. Jiang Yingxiu was bitten and bleeds many times.

She felt more and more that there was no end to the despair of life. Every day she stayed in a big house and looked at her crying daughter. She became more and more dull, and her brain started to be difficult. What should I do in the last second? I can't remember it in a second.

She also began to lose her hair frantically, forcing herself to eat food that was good for her child but she didn't like to eat at all. From the reflection of the clean transparent glass, she saw herself who was extremely bad.

Jiang Yingxiu couldn't control her emotions, and she often cried and screamed. The more she was like this, the more people bothered her, the more they felt that she was acting and didn't know what she wanted. Fu Dang was too busy, and when he went home , Jiang Yingxiu always wants to pack herself up a little decent, she never said to him that it was okay, I'm fine, don't worry-he actually believed it all.

Why are they so happy when they are not married, but only torture and pain are left after marriage?

Jiang Yingxiu couldn't understand.

She herself didn't know what was wrong with herself. She was obviously a very quiet girl, but she became like this. She felt that if she continued, she would really become a madman.

She was afraid that that day would come, so she couldn’t worry all day long, but when she found out that there was a lipstick mark on Fu Dang’s shirt, there was a long hair in her pocket, and a woman would answer when she called him... After this series of things, The last fluttering straw finally crushed her completely.

Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide by swallowing sleeping pills. She has been suffering from insomnia since she gave birth to her daughter, but because she had to breastfeed, she could not take medicine, so she often wore two huge dark circles and looked very haggard. When her daughter was one year old After she was weaned, she received sleep aids from the doctor.

At first, the medicine was still effective, but later it had no effect at all. Jiang Yingxiu stopped taking them and put them all away.

Then she swallowed them all at once. This time, she finally went into long sleep as she wished. She would never wake up because of her daughter's crying, nor feel sad because of self-disgust, nor miss Fu Dang.

No one can criticize her for being a bad mother, a bad wife, a neurosis of too many good days and not knowing how to enjoy Fu.

After Jiang Yingxiu's death, Fu Dang never remarried. Even if there were more women who admired him than the crucian carp in the river, he was not interested in them.

Slowly, people changed. As he got richer and more famous, his parents began to worry that leaving his daughter with such a large family property would be equivalent to leaving it to outsiders. His sister felt that she had a The son can also get a share of the pie. His parents-in-law feared that he would suffer if he had a son and granddaughter if he remarried.

He is undoubtedly in love with Jiang Yingxiu, otherwise he would not try so hard to try to get a personality and not let others say that she was married to the wrong person. In fact, others didn't say that she married the wrong person, but they started to talk about her being bad. Is this what Fu Dang wanted in the first place?

Is not it?

He wanted her to be happy, not that this marriage would slowly turn into a tomb, trapping his loved ones to death in it.

For many years since Jiang Yingxiu's death, Fu Dang lived in a fairly peaceful life. He didn't act like he was suffering from it at all. He himself felt that he might have walked out, otherwise the familiar pain in his chest would have disappeared when he thought of her. not see?

It wasn't until he got older that he realized that love hadn't disappeared, but was covered by his cowardice and avoidance.

He has no way to fall in love with anyone other than Jiang Yingxiu, just as he has to spend the rest of his life in regret.

"Fu Dang? Is that you? How come you sit in the living room at night?"

A woman’s soft voice came from behind, Fu Dang slowly turned his head, and with a snap, the living room light was turned on. The young woman wearing a nightdress and her belly visibly bulging stood behind him, because it was turned on as a night light. The dim light made her look good. "Quickly don't sit in the living room. It won't be good to wake up Mom and Xiaoxia in a while, let's go back to the room."

She thought for a while, and then asked, "Is it because I have a bad sleeping posture, or I said in a dream, so you can't sleep anymore? Or let's sleep in separate rooms, in this case—"

She stopped before she finished speaking, because Fu Dang rushed over and hugged her tightly.

Obviously she was standing at the entrance of the living room, and he was sitting on the sofa, but when she spoke, he really rushed over, supported her with both hands on the back of the sofa, turned over the sofa, and suddenly hugged her. It's so tight that Jiang Yingxiu feels a little bit painful. "Fu Dang, take it easy...I hurt."

Hearing this, Fu Dang relaxed a little, but still hugged her arms tightly. Jiang Yingxiu had forgotten the last time he hugged her like this, because he was too busy and she was pregnant again, the mother-in-law said During pregnancy, you can't cuddle and bump into the child. Therefore, the two people who have spent less time together have no physical contact. If she is not hugged by him, she doesn't know how much she misses her husband's embrace.

Fu Dang still hugged her tightly and refused to let it go. Jiang Yingxiu patted him on the back and he refused to let it go. She was helpless: "What's the matter with you? Is there any trouble at work? Can you tell me? Although I don't understand, I will listen to it well."

The corners of Fu Dang's eyes were moist. At this time, she was in fact emotionally wrong, but she never showed it in front of him. She always smiled at him, obviously she was very uncomfortable-he is worthy of her. Husband?

"Fu Dang? Xiuxiu? That night, what are you doing?"

Mother Fu was awakened when she heard something outside. She wore her clothes and got a look. Her son was holding the pregnant daughter-in-law and didn’t let go. She hurriedly stepped forward to pull the two apart. She still said: "Look at you. What are you doing at night? I let you two sleep in separate rooms long ago, so that you won’t bother Xiuxiu when you come back late, and you can sleep well and have to go to work tomorrow! So does Xiuxiu, why is that so? immature?"

Fu Dang put his arms around his wife and avoided his mother's hand. He raised his eyes. In his memory, there was only the lustful look of his mother when he was last allocated the property. He said lightly: "I woke you up? Sorry? ."

Jiang Yingxiu tried desperately to poke Fu Dang with her finger, meaning to let him go. It is not good to be seen by her mother-in-law. Tomorrow Fu Dang will go to work. She may be slapped again. She doesn't want to sleep in separate rooms with him!

Mother Fu looked at the time: "It's so late, what are you tossing about? Xiuxiu is pregnant and can't stay up all night, you--"

Without finishing speaking, Fu Dang interrupted: "Okay, you go back to sleep, you don't need to take care of my business."

Jiang Yingxiu quietly opened her eyes wide.

You must know that Fu Dang is a very filial son. His family conditions are not good. Fu's mother used to be an educated youth who went to the countryside. Later, she married in the village and gave birth to two children. One is Fu Dang and the other is Fu. Xia, because she has read books, she values ​​her children's grades very much. Fu Dang was admitted to the best university in the capital, which won Fu's mother a lot of honor in the village.

It is not easy for his parents in the countryside to support him in school. Fu Dang has been trying to make money on his own since he was admitted to college, and he has hardly reached out to the family. Knowing that he is working hard, Jiang Yingxiu has always been a good and sensible girlfriend. No gifts or go to some luxurious places, even if she can afford it.

Fu Dang...When did you talk to your mother-in-law in this tone? It sounds like a stranger, with no emotion at all.

It may be due to pregnancy. Jiang Yingxiu is very sensitive to these small emotional changes, but Fu's mother did not notice. What she was about to say, Fu Dang had already taken Jiang Yingxiu back to the room, and even dropped a sentence before leaving: "Work is going to be exhausting, so stop nagging."

After returning to the room, Jiang Yingxiu carefully observed his face, and tentatively asked, "What's wrong with you? Why did you talk to mom like that just now?"

Fu Dang faced her with a different look. After Jiang Yingxiu left, he had a nearly fatal illness. All he saw was that his parents and his in-laws were arguing about how to allocate the family property. It was very strange that he was at that time. He was not disappointed or angry. Both sides had a wife, brother and nephew, and wanted to share as much as possible, but Fu Dang divided all of his fortune into two, leaving half to his daughter, and half donating it.

The last thing he couldn't lose was her. He didn't understand this truth too late.

"She is always in charge of everything, and I am not a three-year-old kid, so I don't need her to point out my life anymore."

Jiang Yingxiu listened and looked at him in disbelief. Fu Dang's round eyes were so cute that he couldn't help but kiss her. It was only when he had a skin blind date that he realized how much he wanted. .

He was used to forbearance, and was finally able to hold her in his arms again, almost out of control.

Jiang Yingxiu was kissed obediently by him, but he quickly stopped him when his hands became restless: "No way, no way, this way..."

She was frightened by the appearance of Fu Dang about to eat her, and she was flustered, but there was an indescribable joy, so she wouldn't show him how she is now! The belly is bulging, the body is degenerate, and there are many spots... ugly! She herself looked in the mirror extremely anxious.

Fu Dang knew that this birth had left a huge psychological shadow on Jiang Yingxiu. If he came back earlier, he would not choose to make her pregnant. "Well, I won't be any good, go to sleep, I'll be with you."

"You come back so late every day." Jiang Yingxiu muttered, "You said it yourself, stay with me, but I wake up every morning and you have already left. Why are you so busy."

When she was a child, she lived in the south with her grandmother for a few years, and she learned a bit of Wu Nong's soft language, occasionally with a tail sound, soft, especially in need of someone's care.

Fu Dang kissed her on the forehead, "This time I lied to you to be a puppy."

Although she might be criticized by her mother-in-law tomorrow morning, she said a lot to Fu Dang tonight and kissed him. Jiang Yingxiu felt that tomorrow she could also be full of power.

Pregnant women are more lethargic. She fell asleep very quickly, but occasionally her legs cramped, so she slept unsteadily and often talked in sleep. For Fu Dang, who was so busy at work, she couldn’t sleep even when she went home. It's very bad, so in the last life, he slept next door with the comfort of his wife and mother.

He thought she really didn't want to sleep with him, but that was not the case. How could she not need his care when she was vulnerable?

The big hand gently covered Jiang Yingxiu's calf, a faint light flashed across the palm of her palm, and Jiang Yingxiu's frowning brows slowly loosened, sleeping more soundly.

Fu Dang just looked at her like this, watching her all night.

The next morning, Jiang Yingxiu opened her eyes, and she was greeted by her husband's still handsome face. She hurriedly covered her face and did not show him, because she did not wash her face and did not brush her teeth. It was a terrible image. After marriage, she changed from an elegant and beautiful school girl to a haggard and obese pregnant woman, but Fu Dang was more mature and handsome, men and women. It's really unfair. Look closer. Fu Dang doesn't even have pores on her face. Unlike her, she was pregnant. Her mother-in-law took away all the cosmetics and skin care products, saying that it was not good for the fetus.

She hasn't dressed up for a long time.

"Good morning."

Jiang Yingxiu dared not look at him, and said dullly, "Good morning."

She tried to stand up and think of going to the toilet. Fu Dang stretched out her hand to help her. She was embarrassed. Although she got married as soon as she graduated and had been in love for several years before graduation, Jiang Yingxiu has been working hard to maintain her image in front of her lover. Dare to relax.