There’s a Dragon Girl in the Desolate Sea

The thirty-third piece Chapter 1: (1)

Zhu Wan woke up from hysteria and smelled the rotten food-this was the twenty-seventh day when she lived alone. She slept for a long time, and now she finally woke up.

Zhu Wan got up from the ground and looked around. The ground was full of garbage of food and various other sundries. The instant noodle bowl was moldy on the table. In such a hot weather, there is no food that can keep intact.

She walked to the bathroom, the mirror was mottled, reflecting a very haggard, pale, sick face. Zhu Wan couldn't recognize who the person in the mirror was. She felt like she was crazy, and she felt awake again. It seemed that she wanted to collapse and scream in the first second, and then swallowed all her grievances into her stomach in the next second.

She was a complete failure.

Zhu Wan started to clean up slowly. First, she sorted the garbage, filled several large garbage bags, and then dragged it downstairs to throw it away. She lived on the fifth floor, and the highest here was the fifth floor. There was no elevator, so she lived. The fifth floor is because the rent on the fifth floor is the cheapest. Zhu Wan has lived here for several years. After throwing away the rubbish, she went back to the house, cleaned the floor again, and started to mop with a mop. After she was done mopping, she lay on the floor and wiped it with a dry mop.

All the pots and pans were cleaned again, the dirty screen windows and curtains, as well as the sheets and quilts that hadn't been changed for a long time, were removed and cleaned. It took Zhu Wan a whole day. Finally, she took off her clothes that were smelling of sweat and other peculiar smells, opened the shabby shower head, and poured cold water down. In the hot weather, Zhu Wan finally got a sense of being alive.

She finished the shower, dried her hair, and sat at the table in the bedroom. On the table, there are inferior and cheap pink head flowers that little girls like, as well as tin tanks that little boys like. They were all bought by Zhu Wan from the street stall. They are not valuable, but they are all she can bring out. .

Zhu Wan is a lunatic.

They all said that to her.

Unreasonable, hysterical, morbid. This was the term they gave Zhu Wan a qualitative term. She was a mad and unreasonable mad woman, so in the end she lost everything.

Zhu Wan looked at herself in the mirror. That person had the most bleak and hollow eyes in the world. There was no burning soul in them anymore. There seemed to be a thin layer of doctor covering her eyes, making her pupils show a kind of Off-white. It looks more like the eyes of a dead person. Zhu Wan touched her heart, there was a heartbeat; she tried her breath and breathing; she probed her pulse again, and it was beating.

She really came alive.

From a carrion, came alive.

What should be done on the first day of resurrection? Zhu Wan cleaned the house, took a shower, changed into clean clothes, and then sat in front of the dressing table all night without closing her eyes. By the morning of the next day, she looked more like a living person.

It’s been a long time since her home-made mobile phone of more than 1,000 yuan was charged. Zhu Wan was a little bit useless. It took a long time to find the charger. Once she turned it on, many news and calls came out. She stared blankly, her slender fingers fumbled a little bit, and there were pictures of children in the dialog box. The little girl in the princess dress and the little boy in the suit were holding hands. They were well-behaved and beautiful.

——Mom, my dad took me and my sister to the amusement park today, but I think it would be nice if my mother was there.

——Mom, grandma said you were sick. Are you ill? If it's all right, can you take me and my brother home? We miss you so much!

——Mom, do you think my dress is pretty today!

——Mom, I went to a museum, and I want to be a scientist in the future!

...

I wish Wan tears like rain.

The children are still young, most of them are voiced, milky and milky, and sometimes slurred. Zhu Wan was crying and couldn't help laughing. Her dry and exhausted heart finally got a little redemption. , She touched the siblings in the photo, and sent them a message in the blurry sight: Mom missed you too.

Almost immediately, the children's phone calls came. Zhu Wan picked it up, her mouth was open, but she didn't know how she was going to speak-she was a little strange if she hadn't spoken for too long. The children were pleased with their innocent voices, so she listened quietly without interrupting. It was not until half an hour later that the excited children refused to hang up, and then she changed.

That was the person Zhu Wan loved deeply, but at the moment his voice was cold and he didn't have much emotion, "I will take the children over this weekend. I hope you clean up and don't scare them again. I will take them to breakfast first. "

Zhu Wan said, and hung up the phone over there. She put down her phone, turned her head and looked out the window where the sun rose high, shining all the filthy souls.

Today is Thursday, and the children will be back in two days.

Zhu Wan looked for a passbook and checked all her savings. She used to work in an ordinary private elementary school. The salary was neither high nor low, but it was very difficult to support herself and her two children, so she didn’t save much. money. In addition, her mental state was very poor some time ago, and she was unable to do the teaching job at all, so the school fired her. In other words, Zhu Wan now has no source of income.

What does she compare with the children's dad? He can provide the children with a better life. I heard that he already has a stable girlfriend, and can give the children a more stable and happier family, instead of...following a woman who doesn't know when she will go crazy.

Zhu Wan started to look for jobs online. She selected several companies that needed long-term and stable recruitment. Because of her current situation, she was not suitable for continuing to engage in the education industry, so Zhu Wan set her sights on a coffee shop that only takes half-day classes. She has an educational background. He was tall and young, and he could see people even after picking up. Soon after receiving a call from the boss, Zhu Wan found clothes suitable for going out and changed her hair, and combed her hair again.

The boss is a middle-aged man with a gentle attitude. Zhu Wan is paid by the hour for the shift from 3pm to 9pm, with a tip of 20 yuan per hour. At this time when she needed to make money, Zhu Wan didn't care what kind of work she was, but she asked for five days off and two days off. The boss thought about it and agreed to her.

In this way, Zhu Wan waited until the weekend.

She was nervous and uneasy. She bought the food early and waited since early in the morning. There was a knock on the door at ten o’clock in the morning. Zhu Wan immediately ran to open the door. As soon as she lowered her head, she saw the one standing at the door. For children.

"Mother!"

Zhu Wan squatted down and hugged them tightly. The smell of milk and sweets on the children was so clear that there was no moment when Zhu Wan really realized that she was alive. She kissed the children on the cheeks. Who sent you here?"

"Dad from it."

But he didn't come up, Zhu Wan could understand that they should avoid suspicion, after all, they had nothing to do with each other except their children. So she didn't feel sad either, just took the children's hand into the house and gently closed the door.

Zhu Wan noticed that the children wore a collar on their wrists. She knew what it was used for-to prevent her from going crazy and scaring the children or hurting them. In that case, the children’s father would immediately show up. They take away.

Not anymore.

Never again.

Zhu Wan would rather die by herself than to make the children sad again.

"Toto? Why don't you come?"

When she asked this sentence, Zhu Wan was a little scared. She saw the joy of the children, but she was also afraid that she would leave a serious psychological shadow on them, especially the precocious Toto, who was a very smart child.

My younger sister Momo is more silly and sweet. She has been apart for almost a month. She has forgotten that terrible and scary mother, and just wants to roll around in her mother's arms coquettishly.

Toto walked over slowly and grabbed one of Zhu Wan’s fingers. Zhu Wan’s eyes were sore. She slowly took the children and let them sit on the chairs, and then she got up early in the morning to bake. Little cakes.

"Wow, it's a cake! Thank you mom!"

Zhu Wan kissed Momo’s little cheek, and the little girl laughed silly. At this time, Toto coughed twice, and after attracting Zhu Wan’s attention, he pretended to show one little cheek indifferently, and didn’t ask her. Pro, but the hint is strong. Zhu Wanwan smiled and kissed his tender cheek. Toto wiped his face pretendingly, and said disgustedly: "Mom is so naive, so she kissed him."

"Brother doesn't like being kissed." Momo shook her little feet. She also wore a beautiful princess dress today with a diamond crown on her head, which looked like a real little princess. "Aunt Fan wants to kiss her brother, but he doesn't want it."

Zhu Wan didn't ask Momo who Auntie Fan was. It didn't matter to her, she didn't care. She just wanted to see her children more and spend more time with her children during the stolen time. Besides, Zhu Wan asked for nothing. What justice, what love, what truth, what humiliation, it is too insignificant compared with children.

Zhu Wan almost wanted to give them the best she could have and compensate them. She now understands that the role of "mother" is not irreplaceable. If children can have a new and beautiful future, she should be happy and should let go, rather than selfishly keeping them by her side.

So when the agreed time comes, she will send them away.

Toto stood at the door and suddenly asked: "Does my mother want me and my sister?"

"How could it be?" Zhu Wan squatted softly and looked at him, her son's **** grape-like eyes made her heart broken. "Mom loves you, and this love will never change. But my mom did a lot of bad things before, which scared you, and my mom needs time to correct. You follow your dad and wait for your mom for a while, OK?"

Toto was precocious, he listened, nodded slowly, took his sister's little hand, and walked out calmly.

Zhu Wan only sent them to the first floor, watching the two little babies go out inside, and the car stopped in front of the building without her going.

She turned around slowly, her eyes were dead gray.