Tokyo Girlfriend Illustrated Book

"Wait a minute, what you mean is that Hojo Kyousuke doesn't know about your illness?" Yukinoshita Yukino frowned.

"Well, of course you can't tell him this kind of thing." Yamauchi Sakura said matter-of-factly.

"Then why did you tell me so directly?"

"Because Yukinoshita-san will keep it a secret for me, right?"

"Of course, I have no reason to reveal the client's privacy..."

Speaking of this, Yukinoshita raised her head and looked at Yamauchi Sakura in displeasure, and she understood.

Putting aside the fact that I would never tell anyone else's secrets, even if I wanted to, there would be no one to whom I could tell them. Yamauchi Sakura, this is what she means, right? And the most important thing is that to her, he is just a stranger who exchanges names.

No matter what purpose she hid, she was not in her consideration, which was why she sent Nishimiya Glass away.

"Before you tell me about your new commission, I have a question," she said.

"Please tell me." Yamauchi Sakura put her hands on the table to support her head. She really looked like an interviewer now.

"Why did you hide your illness from Hojo Kyousuke? Under normal circumstances, shouldn't you be afraid to seek comfort from those close to you if you find out about this kind of thing?"

Although she had never experienced anything like this, Yukinoshita Yukino still made assumptions based on past experiences. When she was bullied in elementary school, she immediately turned to her sister and friends to talk and ask for help.

The difference between the two is that what he encountered at that time was just isolation, his indoor shoes were thrown away, and his recorder mouthpiece was replaced... But in front of him, Yamauchi Sakura was facing death. According to common sense, You should be more afraid.

However, looking at Yamauchi Sakura who still had a bright smile in front of her, Yukinoshita Yukino couldn't come up with an answer.

"If the end of the world is to come in five years, will Yukinoshita-san choose to know the news today, or choose not to know until the end of the world arrives?" Yamauchi Sakura asked.

The light in her light blue eyes flashed away. She held her right elbow with her left hand and put her right hand into a fist on her chin:

"So that's it, do you choose to know the news in advance and live in the shadow of the fear of the countdown to death all day long? Or choose to spend five years carefree, and finally perish with the world without knowing it."

She looked at Yamauchi Sakura. If the doctor chose to hide it from the patient, it would undoubtedly violate the patient's autonomy and right to know. However, the other person's situation was different. If it would not hinder public safety, should he tell the patient? A person is free to speak out about her condition.

However, in this sentence, the person who did not know the news became Hojo Kyosuke. Would the news of Yamauchi Sakura's illness be like the end of the world to that person?

Yukinoshita tried to be a substitute. She had no friends and imagined that she had such a disease. She told her family what their reaction would be.

First, try hard to treat it, and then...it should be gone.

I am not the heir, no matter what.

Yukinoshita couldn't understand, so she asked.

"I choose to know in advance. Even if I can't change my fate no matter what, I would rather endure the despair than die in confusion."

"Haha, that's what Yukinoshita-san would say." Sakura said with a smile.

"But this is your own choice. It has nothing to do with your choice to hide it."

"Why?"

Sakura was stunned and looked at Yukinoshita Yukino with a look of astonishment on her face.

"Things have already happened. Concealing it will not make the situation worse, nor will it bring any benefits?" Yukinoshita continued.

Forehead……

Sakura became more and more stunned, her mouth slowly opened wide, and she didn't know what to say for a while. After thinking briefly she understood.

"Nothing is wrong, don't worry." Such words often appear in everyone's life. They are often used when something bad happens but you don't want others to worry.

But for Yukinoshita-san, who never lies, such a situation will never happen.

"Has Yukinoshita-san ever been in love?" she asked.

"No."

"Have you ever had someone you liked?"

"No."

"Soga, I understand."

Sakura clapped her hands together, and a certain idea in her mind became clearer.

"I don't understand what these two questions have to do with what happened before. If you are a lover, isn't it the right thing to tell this kind of thing frankly?" Yukinoshita was slightly unhappy.

"Ah, these are indeed words that someone who has never been in love would say." Sakura murmured.

"From a couple's point of view, this is a selfish behavior. Although I have never been in love, I have seen many couples and read many related books. This practice of concealing the illness from lovers is quite an old-fashioned plot ." Yukinoshita raised her tone and became more rude.

"Is it cliche..." Sakura chewed these two words.

"Yukoshita-san, have you ever thought about why such clichéd plots still continue to appear in various film and television literature?"

"Because of the lack of editorial creativity and the audience's connivance." Yukinoshita Yukino said categorically.

Yamauchi Sakura originally thought that Kasumigaoka-senpai at home was already vicious enough, but she didn't expect that this one was even meaner.

"So, why call it cliche instead of classic?"

"Putting it in a nicer way can't change its meaning. I know that no matter which country's poetry it is, it was first used to praise love. From this aspect, it can really be explained by classics..."

"Wait a minute, wait a minute, we are not going to discuss that!" Seeing that the other party was about to start a long speech, Yamauchi Sakura's temples jumped and he shouted quickly.

"When everyone sees such a clichéd plot, they will get involved in the hidden male protagonist and angrily scold the heroine for being so pretentious and selfish.

However, even a nine-year-old child will bravely smile at his mother after falling and say loudly that I am okay. Even if the wound becomes inflamed later and the situation becomes serious, can you bear to scold this child? "

Yamauchi Sakura whispered.

When he was in elementary school, Kyousuke tried his best to brush off the dust on his clothes in order to save himself from falling down on the street. When he got home, he pretended that nothing happened. He sat alone in the corner of the living room and used a silver needle to remove the dust from the wound. The way she picked it out and then smiled to comfort herself and Aunt Mijiko was still as clear in her mind as a photo.

"Yukoshita-san, it should be unimaginable that you don't have someone you like.

The love in the eyes of the person who loves you deeply turned into despair and pain the moment he learned about my condition. The scoldings that I blurted out in the past turned into concern and pity the moment I thought about my condition.

When I picked up the strawberry cream cake, what was waiting for me was not "eat less", but the sound of turning books or making phone calls. He was looking to see if this would cause harm to my condition.

Whatever I say will be met unconditionally. Even if he wanted to start traveling around the world from today, it would be regarded as an item on his bucket list. He would immediately drop out of school and drop everything in his hands to satisfy me.

The most important thing is that in his eyes, the heartless Yamauchi Sakura, who is always silly and happy, and can perform three stage plays while watching ants move, will become a person with a death star shining above his head and a countdown to his life hanging on his head. Yamauchi Sakura. "

Speaking of this, Yamauchi Sakura exhaled heavily.

"My illness destroyed two people's lives."

Glass cannot study with Kyousuke or go to the sidelines to cheer him on; Eiri's dream of becoming a heroine will be postponed indefinitely, and their careers will be destroyed; Mitsuha's encounter after traveling through life, death and time will be separated again; Kasumi Yugaoka-senpai's ambition to monopolize Kyousuke will be shattered in an instant, and the novel she used to confess her love will become in vain; Yukino...

"Yunoshita-san, Kyosuke, what he likes most is my smiling face. He said that even if he doesn't sleep for three days and three nights, he will immediately become energetic after seeing it."

This is a lie... Yukinoshita Yukino reflexively wants to refute, this is just a man's rhetoric, there is no such thing in the world. But Yamauchi Sakura's words hit her heart like a heavy hammer, making her feel inexplicably uncomfortable.

“I don’t want to spend the last few years of my life being treated like a dying person.

At least as long as I can still support it, I hope that I can still be the energetic Yamauchi Sakura in Kyousuke's heart. "

"..."

Yukinoshita had a bunch of rebuttals in her head, but she couldn't say them out.

People who die calmly can always shock people's hearts. In the past, her understanding of this sentence was that people who understand life and death will understand the philosophy of life.

But now she knows that when a person sees death clearly and decides to do something with the little life he has left. No matter how ordinary things are, they will be given extraordinary significance.

However, even so, she still wanted to ask:

"If there is such a love, shouldn't we cherish the time we spend together? Is it really good to hang out in school like now?"

This girl as pure as snow didn't know that her face was already covered with deep sadness at this moment.

"Huh? I thought you could understand, Yukinoshita-san." Sakura said in surprise, and then she said happily:

"Whether it's you or me, everyone will die."

Yukinoshita was stunned. This was an expression that rarely appeared on her face. She has always moved forward bravely, without any confusion in her heart, and it is impossible for her to remain in a daze.

But at this moment, Yamauchi Sakura's bright smile became unfathomable in her eyes. This sentence that sounded like nonsense came out of her mouth, and it seemed to be full of philosophy for a moment.

Yes, I, the people who died in car accidents, and the people who were eaten by sharks in the sea were all still alive yesterday, no one looked like they were dying, and no one knew whether they would die the next day. Everyone has a 50% chance of life or death, and from this point of view, everyone has the same value "today".

Yukinoshita looked at Yamauchi Sakura opposite in surprise. She originally thought that the other party was an optimist with a weak brain, so she could say such things with a smile that looked like she wanted to compete with the sun. . But now, she had to admit that people who walked out of grief openly were really artists.

This made her even more curious about what kind of life it was like to create such a girl who was as free from haze as the sun.

"Sorry, I'm too arrogant."

Yukinoshita apologized sincerely and thought that she would definitely live longer than the other person. This was indeed an unreasonable arrogance. It is simply more arrogant than using your innate appearance to look down on others.

"Ah, it's okay. If you weren't really about to die, no one would think about it." Sakura waved her hand casually and said nonchalantly.

"..."

Although people who die calmly can always be shocked by the criticism of their souls, Yukinoshita felt that she had been criticized too violently in just a few minutes.

Even if she had read all the books in the world, until she could not see her own death, she felt that she would not be able to refute the girl in front of her, who could talk about her own death as casually as "the weather is beautiful."

"Although I can probably figure it out, I still want to ask, Yamauchi-san, why would you tell me such an important thing so easily? Most people would be greatly shocked when they hear such things."

While speaking, Yukinoshita finally realized that her voice was a little dry, which startled her, and then she realized how much of a shock she had received.

"Hahahaha, hey, I thought Yukinoshita-san wouldn't mind." Sakura laughed unscrupulously.

"I am neither a robot, nor am I born with emotional deficiencies. How could I remain indifferent to such a thing?" Yukinoshita tried to keep her voice calm.

"Hahaha~~" Sakura continued to smile: "But when I first came in, I saw you reading a book, and I felt that even if the end of the world came, you wouldn't have any reaction."

Yukinoshita Yukino felt slightly annoyed when she thought that she had chosen to know the news of the end of the world five years in advance without hesitation.

"Sorry, sorry~" Sakura put her hands together:

"But it's so comfortable to be able to say it. I've been holding these words in my heart for a long time. I'm really grateful to Yukinoshita-san. As expected of the head of the service department, I haven't even started a formal commission. Just talking about it has solved such a big problem for me. trouble."

Although she knew that the other party was saying nice things, Yukinoshita couldn't help but feel a little happy. But she soon became angry again. She wanted to change the weak side of people, but her own weak side was exposed instead!

She looked at Yamauchi Sakura, determined to hone herself.

"Now that I understand the previous things, I still suggest telling Hojo Kyousuke directly about this matter."

"Ah wu——"

Sakura's eyes widened and he groaned in annoyance. Normal people would be greatly moved after hearing what he said before, right?

"Yukoshita-san, you really should have a serious love affair and find someone to like you."

If "Yamanuchi Sakura Encyclopedia" were here, it would be translated as "Yukishita-san doesn't understand love."

"This won't work. Kyousuke will collapse the moment he knows this. You don't know how hard he has worked to prevent the emergence of pancreatic cancer."

"Prevent the emergence of pancreatic cancer?" Yukinoshita repeated blankly. Can this kind of thing be prevented?

"Since the third grade, Kyosuke has been taking me to exercise, eat food that is good for the pancreas, and be careful about my daily diet. Although I don't know why, he has known since I was a child that I will suffer from pancreatic cancer in the future."

"This kind of thing... is wrong. Regardless of whether it is true or not, why did you tell me so easily?" If it is true, can you tell others about predicting the future?

"Because you are Yukinoshita Yukino~~"

Sakura smiled unscrupulously, like a sledgehammer hitting Yukinoshita's chest, almost knocking her soul out of the body without any buffer. She finally understood why in this society everyone was rushing to be the bad guy. Should she, who never lied and was absolutely righteous, deserve to be treated like this?

"Assuming what you say is true, current medical research shows that there is no 100% connection between eating habits and the risk of pancreatic cancer. Whether it is overeating or smoking and drinking, it only increases the risk of the disease. .

In other words, even people who are healthy, eat regularly, and do not have any bad habits may develop pancreatic cancer. This cannot be stopped. This should be medical common sense, right? "

Yukinoshita Yukino frowned and said.

"This is not common sense!" Sakura shouted in surprise. She also asked the doctor in disbelief, and then the doctor said the same thing as Yukinoshita with regret on his face.

"In short, Kyousuke has been working hard on this matter since he was a child. If he knows that everything he has done is in vain, it will be a huge blow. The combination of the two makes me feel sorry for him. Before, Kyousuke also You excitedly said that you have the power to change a person's destiny, but now you don't have it anymore." Sakura whispered in a low voice.

Yukinoshita Yukino looked at the girl across from her speechlessly. There was no consideration for herself in the other person's words. Just like the example of a child wrestling in the previous example, if the child chooses to hide it because he is afraid of being scolded by his parents, it is undoubtedly wrong and should be severely criticized.

But if it is done without any selfish motives and considers the other person wholeheartedly, then no one has the right to criticize.

Feel sorry for yourself before you feel sorry for others.

At this moment, she truly felt that she would be able to improve her mind control skills through this club called "Service Club", but she began to worry about whether her future clients would all be as shocking as Yamauchi Sakura. .

"But what about yourself?" Yukinoshita never hides her thoughts, and is always honest with others and herself.

"Me?" Sakura asked confused.

"As it is now, Hojo Kyosuke's life has certainly remained peaceful. But as for you, don't you feel unwilling that all your hard work in the past was in vain?"

"That's it."

Sakura whispered something, then put her hands on the table and leaned her upper body towards Yukinoshita:

"Hey hey hey~~"

Looking at Yamauchi Sakura who looked stupid, Yukinoshita leaned back in disgust. There was an expression on the other person's face that she couldn't understand, and she guessed it was called "happiness."

"Xiao Yukino, you don't understand. Even if the other children are sleeping every morning, I have to be pulled up to run. Looking at the fried meatloaf in front of the school, I can only swallow my saliva and calculate how many portions I have this week...

All of these are Kyosuke’s full love for me.

In order to save my life, there will be people who drag me out of bed every day, stare at my job every moment, and block me in the back when walking on the road...

Even if the final result is not beautiful, the process is enough to make people feel happy, Xiao Yukino. "

After saying that, Yamauchi Sakura seemed to be drunk, smiling crimson cheeks.

Yukinoshita raised her hand with difficulty to support the other person's face, but for a moment she felt that the temperature on that face was astonishingly high, as if her hand was going to be set on fire. Of course, this is definitely not because the happiness on his face is too enthusiastic.

"Please call me Yukinoshita. If you're not used to it, you can call me by my full name. Calling me by my full name suddenly seems like a gift from someone with a superior status."

He clearly didn't have this idea in his mind, but Yukinoshita still said it, but his tone was no longer as cold and mean as it was at the beginning.

"I retract my preamble. Yamauchi-san's behavior is not selfish, and I am not qualified to comment. And now, what do you want to change the commission to?"

"Hey, Yukino-chan is shy."

"I admit that I am interested in your affairs, but it is impossible to be shy." Yukinoshita flatly denied it.

"So Yukino, you don't understand." Sakura laughed again.

"Please explain the content of the entrustment."

"Well, let's change it to 'Let Kyousuke forget about me'."

Yukinoshita Yukino subconsciously wanted to complain about the old saying, but a flash of lightning immediately lit up in her head, and several previous questions were answered.

"This kind of thing..."

"Hey? Isn't this okay?" Sakura muttered.

no?

Yukinoshita seemed to have been touched by some switch, and she made a decision immediately after biting her silver teeth:

"No problem, I will accept this commission. However, the Service Department only provides help and does not guarantee the success of the matter."

"Um?"

Yamauchi Sakura looked at the other party suspiciously. He obviously wanted to refuse, so why did he agree all of a sudden and look like he was being provoked.

provocative?

Hmm... Could it be that I used the provoking method unconsciously? But ordinary people shouldn’t be fooled by such a provocateur, right? Not to mention a rationalist like Yukinoshita.

"But after thinking about it, let's forget it. Even if you are smart, Yukinoshita-san, you can't win against Kyosuke."

"Before the game, everyone's winning rate is 50%." Yukinoshita's voice was as sharp as cutting through gold and stone, making everyone who heard it feel the high desire to win.

confirmed! This is a fool who will fall for any challenge!

Sakura looked at Yukinoshita Yukino as if she were looking at some rare treasure. He really didn't expect her to be such a person.

"As a condition for completing the commission, I need you all to join the service department." Yukinoshita said.

"Huh? Is there still such a condition?"

"Isn't this what you wanted?"

"Ah, yes, then I will bring Kyosuke over tomorrow." Sakura said happily.

Yukinoshita said nothing and picked up the book-covered book on the table.

"See you tomorrow, Yukino."

"See you tomorrow."

Although his eyes were on the book, Yukinoshita didn't turn a page for the past five minutes. She stood up and came to the window, looking at the cherry blossom trees below and Yamauchi Sakura who happened to walk there.

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