The Crucifixion Cross

It's only been a few days since he and Xilin got along with each other normally!

Although Su Fei also had the experience of falling in love with Qiyana at first sight, and got along very happily with Qi Lin, but... how could such an absolutely small probability event happen again to Xi Lin?

Even if it is explained by 'everyone in the Celestial Dynasty is white-haired', it should be that Su Fei's attitude towards Xi Lin has changed infinitely for the better!

However, the current situation is actually that Su Fei's own attitude towards Xilin has indeed improved. The two of them can occasionally quarrel and complain. It seems that they are in harmony, but... this is not the same as "love". How is it?

The desire to complain in Su Fei's heart almost broke through the sky, but Ying said seriously:

"Rita told me that when you mention someone, your heart beats faster, your cheeks turn red, your body heats up, your mind is confused, your reactions speed up, and your mind is full of that person, it's falling in love!"

She looked straight at Sirin, and delivered the final verdict:

"Please admit it bravely, another Miss Qiyana, you are in love with Su Fei!"

Su Fei is completely messed up, Rita?

Why Rita?

Why did the name of the black-bellied maid suddenly appear on this occasion, and the feeling when Sakura mentioned her name...it was you!Origami Master!

Thousands of muddy horses galloped past Su Fei's heart, but what left him speechless was Rita's description of "love" in Sakura's mouth - cheeks turned red, body became hot, reactions accelerated... Are you sure this is "love" and not love? Trams-AM? !

At this moment, Sirin, who was still unable to calm down just now, suddenly regained her composure:

"Another Kiyana... Although I am not satisfied with this title, I have to say that you may have hit the heart, Miss Monster."

Before the brow-browed Sakura expressed her dissatisfaction with this title, Sirin breathed a sigh of relief and pressed the aching brows.

"'Another Kiyana'...? I see, so this can explain my 'abnormality'... It seems that not only Kiyana is becoming more and more like me, but I am also changing I'm becoming more and more like Kiyana... If this continues, let alone separating me from her while my personality is still independent, maybe we will become "not my own self" - tsk , This kind of familiar feeling is really annoying from the bottom of my heart..."

Hua Ling's words: Has anyone watched "Shanghai Fortress"?Although I like the original work very much, I really don’t dare to watch the movie version... If the original work is destroyed, I will die. After all, it is one of my favorite novels in high school, second only to "White Night" and "Wandering Blade" ".

Chapter 96. Re-becoming your true self - Sirin

Su Fei didn't know why Xilin's mood changed so much, and she didn't know what Xilin's so-called "familiar hate" meant, and Xilin didn't mean to explain.

People remember pain more than happiness.

The memory of being hurt by others is clearer than hurting others.

Although the "God" once gave Sirin the power to avenge the destiny, and Sirin also regards the "God" as her inner belief and pillar, but with the boundless mana of Fuhua Shangxian's shocking, weeping ghosts and gods With an empty sword, the mysterious "God" directly disconnected from Sirin, which directly caused Sirin's feelings for "God" to undergo a transformation from piety to doubt.

——If 'God' is really 'God', why would 'He' be shaken by the power of mortals?

With the collapse of faith, the fact that Sirin once deliberately ignored caught up again.

When 'I' is no longer 'I', then who should 'I' be?

Is it Sirin?

Is it the Herrscher of the Void?

Or is it a combination of Sirin and Herrscher of the Sky?

Even if she finally walked out of the shadow of "God", Sirin still couldn't find the answer, because her real self had already been buried in the deepest part of her memory, leaving only a pale and empty echo in the gap in her heart.

The figure of 'God' disappeared and was replaced by Sirin herself.

People always need to believe something to live, don't they?

This is especially true for Sirin who once had everything and lost it all.

The queen who wakes up from K-423's body will become so arrogant and aloof, precisely because she replaced the belief in 'God' with her own belief——

No one was in heaven from the beginning, neither man nor beast, not even 'gods'.

Hail my proud queen, on and on on and on...  

When she kicked through the gate of hell and came back to the world, the throne of the sky finally ushered in a new owner——

This is what happened in a world where Su Fei didn't exist, but now that Su Fei has intervened, the world line will naturally undergo some 'small' changes.

Until the end of the second Honkai, Sirin was still the same Sirin, but after Su Fei and Qiyana met, Sirin was no longer the same Sirin.

No, to be precise, the real Sirin has not existed since the second collapse, and the difference between different world lines is only in the degree and direction of influence by others.

Now this Sirin is not like the Sirin in other worlds, her mind is full of Aizen speech.

Because of Su Fei's encounter with Qiyana, Sirin is getting better and better—from the standpoint of human beings, her direction of change is indeed more and more beneficial to human beings.

At least, the Sirin in front of Su Fei is not like the Sirin in the second collapse, who only thinks about taking revenge on human beings and destroying society.

The only one who needs revenge is actually Otto.

It is wrong to overturn a boat of people with one shot, and it is even more naive to arbitrarily judge the entire human society as worthless because of the existence of rubbish in human society.

In the past, Sirin hadn't realized why she was becoming more and more inclined to the side of "good human nature"-in the words of the animation industry, it was "whitewashing"-but after Sakura reminded her, she understood.

It turned out that all of this was influenced by Kiyana, but...

For some reason, Sirin unexpectedly doesn't hate herself now.

It's really boring to hate and go all day long, isn't it?

What she needs to hate is not all human beings. There are more than 60 billion human beings in this world. Sirin can't hate all of them alone, okay?

Instead of wasting energy in unnecessary places, it is better to do what Su Fei said, honestly hate the people you should hate, kill the people you should kill, and completely separate from Qiyana before the personality changes qualitatively. Be true to yourself again...

What's wrong with Sirin like this?

Sirin asked herself, but couldn't get an answer other than 'I like this to myself very much'.

Whether it's because of Kiana's influence, or because Sirin is slowly regaining the "human kindness" that she once lost after the influence of the "god" disappeared, this fact will not change in the slightest.

Now she is no longer the Second Herrscher in the past whose heart was overwhelmed by darkness and pain.

As long as the last ties to the dark past are cut off, Sirin can usher in a future that truly belongs to her.

Even if this 'self' is no longer the original 'self', it doesn't matter, because at this moment, the fact that 'she' is standing here is so clear.

So, 'Sirin' finally chose to accept 'Sirin' - not the 'Sirin' that has been lost in memory, but all the 'Sirin'.

It is precisely because she accepts all of her 'past' and 'present' that she has the possibility to embrace the future.

Otherwise, even if she managed to separate from Kiyana in the end, she would be nothing more than a sad ghost separated from the past.

Even though she said something like 'unpleasant memory', after seeing everything clearly and accepting everything, Sirin felt a lot more relaxed.

Sirin, who finally recognized herself, couldn't help showing a faint smile, which caused a flash of surprise in Su Fei's eyes.

This smile was not used for sarcasm, ridicule or coldness in the past, but instead had a relaxed and relieved feeling, as if some heavy burden had finally been lifted.

Because of this smile, the temperature in the room seemed to rise slightly.

Su Fei really didn't want to use overly simple words like 'warm like spring', but...the fact seems to be exactly the case.

This faint, warm smile is so comforting, it seems that even the ice and snow will melt without a sound.

So, Su Fei couldn't help asking:

"Sirin... what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing." Sirin shook her head and said softly, "I just figured out some things... I don't know how this little girl with white hair and blue eyes thinks about what is happening to us, but at least, this time, I Choose to accept."

It was no surprise that Su Fei would have misunderstood Xilin's words:

"Wait, you mean...you want to give up the separation?!"

"How is it possible?" Sirin gave Su Fei a sideways glance. At this moment, her eyes seemed to have returned to their usual coldness and indifference, but for some reason, Su Fei felt a sense of warmth from it...

"I don't intend to lose myself just like that, I just want to... become my real 'me' again!"

Hua Ling’s words: It took nearly three hours to delete, delete, modify and modify... I know that someone will spray me, but I can’t help it. I’m writing a novel, not creating a character for a game character. The second herrsrscher became the queen, and then turned the queen into the herrsrscher of the void with one sentence, which is not logical.

These few chapters have clearly written the game plot and the changes in the personality and mentality of the two Xilins in the novel. If there is anything you don’t understand, you can private message me as a penguin~

Chapter 97. Your girlfriend's body has a part of mine!

Be yourself again?

Su Fei couldn't help frowning. The total number of these sentences is less than ten characters, but in this short period of less than ten characters, there are at least three important points that need to be emphasized with the favorite bullet points of script writers in the extreme east. word.

And the combination of these three words is really easy to make people have a strange association-since it is "re" becoming the "real" "self", doesn't this mean the past Sirin and the present Sirin Not actually the 'real' Sirin?

Su Fei was at a loss.

During the second collapse period, Sirin's mental retardation and the "betrayal" of the first Herrscher Walter Joyce made him conclude that "the second Herrscher's personality may not have completely changed from Sirin's." Instead, it has been fused with Sirin's own personality', but this does not mean that Su Fei can guess how many times Sirin's personality has undergone destruction and remodeling in the process.

After all, reality is not a game. The screenwriter of the game script can write three sets of seemingly unrelated settings for the same character under the requirements of R&D and planning, but the real world is different.

(Benhua is still looking forward to MHY coming to slap me in the face, but judging from the current plot, aside from the ass that Benhua wiped MHY herself, Xilin from Erbeng, Xilin from the main plot, and Xilin after boarding the ship Xilin is basically three completely different characters who have no connection except for their abilities and appearance. MHY, if the turning point is written in a natural way, why should Benhua take the risk of being sprayed with water and make great efforts to reshape it? Sirin's character change process?)

There has never been love or hate for no reason in this world. Anyone has a corresponding source for any emotion towards anything, and Sirin is no exception.

Su Fei didn't know about Xilin's complicated and rough experience in these years, but he could see that the current Xilin was completely different from the past Xilin.

If it is said that she was still oppressed by the shadow of the past, and often unintentionally revealed her cynical side—such as the merciless talk when she was awakened by Su Fei for the first time—but now Xi Lin is different.

"You're cleansed."

Su Fei expressed her views on what happened to Xi Lin in the simplest way.

"Washing white? Maybe," Sirin smiled lightly. "At least, I think the current situation is not bad... What is lost is lost after all, just like grabbing sand with your hands. No matter how tight it is, in the end, what remains is only a few small gravels. It is tiring to always spend my heart on these things, why should I torment myself so much?"

"So, your decision is..."

"Didn't I say it? 'Becoming who I really am' - I choose to accept all of who I was and who I am now, but that doesn't mean I'm indifferent to the fact that I'm being influenced by Kiyana, The 'Flower of Hope' project will continue to be implemented, and my obsession with this body is not as big as you imagine, so don't worry."

Sirin paused slightly and continued:

"It's you, are you sure you can get the gem of desire?"

"It's just a matter of time," Su Fei shrugged, "With Mishima's current strength, it may be a bit difficult to get to the main branch of Destiny, but if it's just a branch, it can be taken down at any time."

"Very good," Sirin nodded lightly, "Remember to take me with you when the time comes, understand?"

"Bring you?" Su Fei frowned, "It's fine if you use your strength to research new moves, after all, it's for the safety of your new body, but if you go to the battlefield again...you're afraid that you won't be 'infected' fast enough ?"

After all, Su Fei has been an online writer for so long in her previous life, so she still has the acumen she should have.

After chattering for a while, he could more or less perceive what happened to Sirin and the true meaning of those seemingly endless words.

The word 'infection' might be more appropriate to replace it with 'pollution', but after all Qiyana is involved, Su Fei thinks that 'infection' is better to be honest and practical.

At this moment, Xilin and Su Fei had a heart-to-heart connection. She raised her eyebrows and looked at Su Fei with some amusement, but she still said honestly:

"Don't worry, neither I nor that little girl will use power casually in the future. Sirin is Sirin, and Kiyana is Kiyana. We have nothing to do with each other. I asked you to take me to the battlefield just because I wanted to Just to witness something.”*

"Witness something with your own eyes? Witness the destruction of the Destiny branch?"

"Because you can't reach the headquarters of Destiny for the time being," Sirin snorted softly, "I'm different from that silly girl, she lives too purely and too free, and finally waited until she really stepped into the society, and the result Falling headlong into your arms again... A happy person always loves too much and thinks too little, my 'infection' is nothing to her, Kiyana is still Kiyana , but Sirin needs some external stimuli to keep 'Sirin'... Do you understand me when I say that?"

"don't know."

"It's fine if you don't understand, as long as you let me stay on the bridge of your floating warship." Sirin didn't bother to explain, and said straightforwardly: "The mental problem is solved, and the rest is the physical problem... I We will start to use our genetic factors to form embryos in the near future, so during this period, you have to come to the laboratory to report every day, understand?"

"You haven't given up on that idea yet?"

Su Fei couldn't help taking a deep breath. He thought that Sirin had given up on the idea of ​​"synthesizing" the "Holy Son" with the highest-level genetic factors of the two. After all, Sirin's performance just now was really exaggerated, but now it seems , It turns out that Sirin hasn't let go yet!

"Why did you give up?" Sirin looked at Su Fei strangely for a day, her gaze seemed to be torturing Su Fei's soul—are you stupid?

In fact, Sirin did say this:

"Aren't you stupid? The ready-made material is here, why don't I use it? This is the combination of the most advanced genetic factors and the 'holy blood', and the final 'seed' may be even better than you!"

"But... this is the genetic factor of you and me! Yours and mine!" Su Fei emphasized emphatically.

"so what?"

Sirin closed one eye, and snorted softly, with a bit of playfulness and ridicule.

"Why can't I use your genetic factors? Don't forget, your girlfriend's body has a part of me!"

As she said, Sirin seemed to be showing off something, her slender white and soft fingers slid across the towering mountain peaks on her chest, drawing a curve that made people think.

Chapter 98. Daughter's daughter is... mother? !

There are many kinds of feelings of 'satisfaction', at least Su Fei doesn't think Xilin's pride before is the same kind of pride as she is now.

If the previous Sirin was more about making fun of Su Fei and being overly self-aware, then the current her...probably why she is really proud of it from the bottom of her heart?