Black Cat Development Program

I always thought it was because of the atonement for Alice, but it doesn't seem to be the case.

Because of work, there are people other than Alice, because they have become orphans.

If you just want to get rid of the guilt, just take care of those guys.

However, not doing so left Alice alone.

How, why?

Don't know, don't know why it does this.

At that time, there was a lot of money and there was no place to spend it, and there happened to be a poor man in front of him.

Maybe it wasn't atonement, it was just a whim.

Just when he was thinking this way, a few words came to his mind.

If no matter what kind of person has meaning to live, does that mean I have no meaning?

The memory that is almost forgotten, this sentence did come from Alice, and it was seven years ago, right?

When did you hear this voice?

"right...."

Recalling the past scene for a moment, it was the night when Lilium met Alice and heard her say these words.

Mumbling like a puppet, overheard.

At that time, although I knew that Alice was the daughter of the couple, I didn't feel sorry for her.

However, when he heard this sentence, without any warning, he felt sympathy for her suddenly.

It's like touching a metal doorknob in the middle of winter, why is there any magic in Alice's words?

And this thing that you don't even need to think about makes Li Le tremble.

Probably not, Li Le's memory came flooding back.

At that time, before the Great Crash, I lived in the lower floors with my brother and the current three.

My brother who is 2 years older than me is better than him in every aspect.

The young self was inferior to his elder brother in every aspect, including appearance, personality, and intelligence.

At that time, Li Le felt that she could surpass him in terms of physical strength without any basis.

So challenge him to run to the big tree on the hillside first.

Although they started running at the same time, the back of my brother soon appeared in my field of vision.

Then there is no chance to keep pace with him, which means a complete defeat.

The outstanding ones are the sons the mother is most proud of.

For children, especially for Li Le of a single-parent family, maternal love is the most precious treasure.

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Chapter 239

However, that was monopolized by the older brother.

The young Li Le was full of hatred for him, if that guy wasn't around.

As a result, the sky heard this wish, and a disaster called the Great Crash devoured my brother.

The self who proposed to run the race as usual, and the older brother who ran ahead as usual, that guy will be praised, and I will be criticized.

Damn it, at this moment, the Great Crash swept over.

When he came back to his senses, he was leaning out from the edge of the cliff and grabbing his brother's hand.

Why would you save this elder brother whom you have always hated to the bone?

For Li Le when she was a child, it was very difficult to bear the weight of her brother's body with one hand.

Along the ground, I began to slide slowly towards the entrance of hell. I basically don't remember the conversation at that time, only one sentence that I can't forget.

"You must live with my share." My brother said, "Live with my share and become a great man, promise me."

At that time, he should have nodded, as evidence, when the weight of his brother disappeared from his hands, the guy had a satisfied smile on his face.

My brother used his life to impose the promise of becoming a great man on himself.

Great people are defined by introductions.But remember at that time, my mother would say it every day.

She said: People must have a meaning to live, and the most important task in a person's life is to try to live for themselves and find out the meaning of their own life

In the end, the elder brother imposed the task of becoming the person your mother wanted.

In order for him to inherit the role that his brother has always played, it is a pity that everything has been lost at that time.

After that, Li Leliu fell to this place, and there was nothing to remember about those things.

After that, he became an assassin and survived desperately.

After experiencing so many disgusting things, Li Le, who survived, realized how naive the teachings he had heard were.

If you want to survive in this chaotic place, you must abandon everything except life.

It doesn't matter whether you live hard for Wei Ziyi, or the meaning of it, you don't have time to care about that kind of thing.

The most important thing in life is food!

When I was living a bad life here, I often fantasized about what it would be like to switch sides with my brother?

Died in the Great Crash, made my brother swear to be a great person, and then what would happen to my brother when he was exiled in this ghost place?

The kind-hearted brother who thought about it was not much better, or even more miserable, and realized the meaning of his own life.

It will become a joke, and like Tia, she insists that she has the so-called meaning of living, so as to escape from reality?

My brother is already a person from the past, so I don't feel guilty about him.

If no matter what kind of person has the meaning of life, then I am not human.

It was the reaction to Alice's words, the oath that I thought had disappeared, still existed in my heart.

It is because of this that Alice was helped and adopted.

Saying no, I am more concerned than I imagined that I have not been able to complete the matter agreed with my brother.

Find all kinds of excuses to escape.

Maybe, trying to make Alice behave well is to let him complete the agreement with his brother on his behalf.

That is to say, just like my brother rescued himself from the big collapse, after I got Alice out, I pushed the promise to her.

You must live freely or something, just a nice way of saying it.

If you think about it this way, it makes sense, the title of hypocrite is really worthy of the name.

Li Le looked up at the pitch-black ceiling, but she really didn't think about Alice seriously.

He has always lived for himself, and just pushed the promise to Alice.

That's why Alice's own wishes are ignored, and Alice is forced to become a free living person.

Then by personally changing Alice's face, she can reduce the guilt of failing to keep the agreement.

In this respect, Alice is indispensable to herself.

So while feeling troublesome, he has been entangled with her till now.

This is really an extremely ironic thing.

If it's just for Alice's beauty, then it's justified.

But he didn't think about that guy's affairs at all, he just wanted to fulfill the agreement wholeheartedly.

In other words, Alice was shaped by herself as a double.

Never really thought about what Alice wanted, or what was best for her.

"It's a pity Bernard."

Thinking of what Bernard scolded him, now it seems that he is even worse.

While refusing to treat Alice as an object, he used her as a substitute in actual actions.

I'm sorry, Alice, this may be the first time I apologize to her from the bottom of my heart.

The most difficult thing for people is to have self-knowledge. They think they understand themselves, but the result is not as deep as imagined.

. . .

I had insomnia that day, and the next day, the sky was slightly bright.

Li Le has to send Jike to the lower level today.

Now the backbone of Jinsuo may be convicted of fleeing, so it would not be surprising to leak any information.

In the worst case, today would be his and Jike's memorial day.

After tidying up the equipment carefully, contrary to yesterday, the sky was covered by clouds and the wind full of moisture passed by Li Le.

It was also a rainy night when Jike was attacked, so just don't make the same mistakes.

Came to Lillium.

Jike has sorted out his mind, it seems that he attaches great importance to it.

"Did you see Lukius's hands? His fingers are very clean. Rich guys like to pay attention to such small places."

Jike changed his words while looking in the mirror.

"I noticed."

"Maybe it's a habit. That man always likes to put his hands crossed on the table, so he can see it even if he doesn't want to."

"Speaking of which, how are you doing?"

"How many people have taken refuge in Fengqing."

"3 is done."

In other words, there is now an overwhelming advantage in style.

"I also said yesterday that I don't know what kind of information will flow to Bernard. It is very dangerous to go to the lower floors."

"There are still people on the 7th floor who believe in me and must go even if it is dangerous."

"Last time I was lucky enough to be saved, but this time it might be."

"I can't die, I'm not alone."

Jike moved his gaze over, and the two looked at each other.

Looking at each other with a smile, Li Le said: "It's up to you."

"Then it's up to me."

"Okay, I'm done preparing, it's up to you to make up your mind."

"I've been waiting for you."

"That really kept you waiting."

As he spoke, Jake took out a bottle of wine and poured 2 glasses of wine.

Li Le silently picked up one of them.

"It doesn't matter whether it's life or death, today is the last time we meet, please."

"Ah."

The two clinked glasses and drank in one gulp.

Chapter 240

The clouds were getting thicker and it was going to rain soon.

Walking near Fino with Jike, Li Le looked at the familiar shop and asked: