My youth love story can't be so scumbag

Chapter Two Hundred and Six

The long black hair was like winding thorns, lying flat and scattered on the head of the bed.With the movement of the body climbing up, the hair flowing in all directions also slipped over the soft silk quilt.Using slender fingers to stroke the bangs in front of his forehead, he opened his eyes in a daze.After blinking a few times, An Xin's vision was completely clear.There are familiar walls in front of me, familiar furniture all over my body, but a completely unfamiliar self inside my body.

"I slept unexpectedly smoothly..."

An Xin originally thought that after waking up, her vision would be pitch black, and she would also burst into tears because of the oppressive darkness and the lonely atmosphere.As a result, no.It seems that he overestimated his infatuation, or underestimated his ability to bear it.After all, even if something that was completely impossible to imagine happened before, I don't feel suffering at all, at most it's a little...

hungry.

Get up from the bed and wash up in the bathroom of the bedroom.An Xin combed her long black hair that reached her waist, and then used a damp towel to wipe away the lethargy left in the morning.

Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror, take off the pajamas and pajama pants, and put on underwear, school uniform petticoat, school uniform shirt, small leather shoes...

"It's not like classmate An Xin who is going to die after falling out of love."

An Xin, who wanted to poke fun at herself as a tragic heroine, still failed to take on the role smoothly.Because she can't feel the tragedy at all now, and she has no intention of dying for comfort.

Everything is so quiet.

It turns out that the smell of my bedroom is fresh lemon; it turns out that after opening the curtains, the sunlight can fill the whole room; it turns out that a brown orange cat climbed on the tree outside the window...

"Snapped!"

The orange cat was too heavy, broke the branch and fell down.

An Xin could use her ears to feel everything before she couldn't feel the tranquility.

The wise man enjoys the mountain, the benevolent enjoys the water, perhaps this kind of broad-minded attitude is what we are talking about?

Well, those scumbags who can't pass fifty Chinese, it's better not to think about praising nature.

An Xin stopped feeling alive, then left the bedroom and went to the living room downstairs.

Oddly enough, both parents are sitting at the dining table, waiting to have breakfast with themselves.

"This is?" An Xin looked at the two of them dully, with a dazed expression on his face.After all, this kind of leisurely breakfast time is purely a waste of money for the two executives.

"Oh. By the way, Xiaoxin, let's have breakfast with you this week!" Mom took the initiative to speak with a virtuous smile.

"And again..." An Xin combined her common sense and her parents' habits to make a guess, "Have you been abroad for a long time?"

"Ah? No... No!" The originally enthusiastic smile on my mother's face suddenly became stiff.Then, after knowing it, I felt ashamed, "Sorry, I didn't accompany you well before. But in the future, we will reduce the workload!"

"Yes, from today onwards, we will take good care of your life!" Dad also promised in agreement.

Real, yet unreal.

What is real is the illusory fragrance of birds and flowers in the morning.

What is illusory is that the real parents are short-sighted now.

"Why?" Whether it was real or unreal, An Xin didn't want to face it with complaints.Because it feels very comfortable now.So, she pulled out the chair and sat down at the dining table. She asked curiously, "Aren't you very busy at work? If this continues, won't it affect the company..."

"It won't affect it!" Dad replied with a smile, then touched his chin, and said with a little complacency, "Dad, I just got promoted, so I don't need to interfere in specific matters, hehehe."

"Yes, yes! Live a leisurely middle-aged life ahead of time." Mom said with a smile.

"Oh? So it's just incidental to accompany me." An Xin asked seriously.

"No...no!" Dad was flustered by his daughter's sudden finding fault, and quickly changed his response, "Of course it's also..."

"Hee hee." Narrowing her eyes, An Xin said mischievously, "Just kidding, let's have breakfast."

"I was really scared..."

Touching the belly, Dad said in fear.

"Hurry up and have breakfast, will you have class later?" Mom said with concern.

"Yeah." An Xin smiled and nodded.

It turns out that the people who care about me are always there.

"Let's talk..." When An Xin was eating in peace, her father hesitated for a while, and asked embarrassedly, "The date that Xiao Xin mentioned before... are you still dating now?"

"Huh?" An Xin raised her head curiously.

"...I don't mean to object to your falling in love, we're just... just asking out of curiosity!" Because she didn't care about her daughter before, my mother is now embarrassed to intervene in such things that are inconvenient to communicate with her parents.

"Ah? It's okay." After taking a bite of the Tangxin poached egg, An Xin said indifferently, "I don't think about such things anymore."

"I didn't think so? Oh...you can just do it if you think it's good. It's okay to be in love or not. Just don't hurt yourself." Mom said seriously.

"Ah."

Actually, An Xin, who originally thought she would be hurt, didn't feel any mental pain now.When Mingming drove home with Tang Yi yesterday, the fear of being unable to face the long night was so real and repeated.However, when I woke up, I felt more cheerful and relaxed.

Maybe, I am not afraid of losing.

Perhaps, what I am afraid of is just losing.

After really losing, I am really not afraid anymore.

"I..." Stopping the knife and fork in her hand, An Xin's lips rose and fell slightly.

Unable to catch the daughter's hesitation, the parents continued to bury their heads in eating breakfast until they heard that particularly sudden confession.

"I love you, Mom and Dad."

"..." At the same time, the two raised their heads blankly, staring at An Xin who stood up, dazed for a long time.

"Congratulations on your promotion, work hard."

After carrying her schoolbag and saying goodbye with a smile, An Xin went straight to school.

"...Go to school well!"

Behind them was the care of the two of them, and An Xin finally understood.

Because I was afraid of losing, I missed a lot of things...

In countless nights of insomnia, just after I fell asleep tiredly, I was awakened by the nightmare of "lost", looking around the dark bedroom, tears from the cold, unconsciously blurring the eye sockets.

However, after the real "lost", what wakes me up is the first ray of sunlight penetrating through the window in the morning...

It turns out that when there is only one person in your eyes, the behavior of constant pursuit is not attachment, it is called getting lost.

Recalling that time carefully, An Xin realized what she had done.

For Tang Yi, he deceived himself.

For Tang Yi, blame others.

All changes are to cater to, to please.

But aren't these things the last thing he wants to see?

When transferring the infamy to himself, what Tang Yi did was to let himself know: you don't need to cater to anyone.

because……

I can transform into a better me.

……

"So, when you put on a pair of two-dollar store glasses, you look good at studying?"

Wang Ze, who was still wearing short-sleeved sports shorts, sat in front of An Xin in the library with a dull expression.

"Of course, according to my observation, all the girls with good academic performance in the class wear glasses. So, good grades = wear glasses, and I wear glasses = I have good grades."

An Xin pushed the plain glasses bought in the binary store, and An Xin looked serious.

"So, student Xiao Xin who wears glasses, how are your grades?" Wang Ze asked casually, propping his cheek.

"All subjects..." Picking up the test papers of each subject that were handed out after the final exam just now, An Xin said unabashedly, "Low score."

"...Obviously a high school student without any hobbies or specialties, why can his grades be so poor?" Wang Ze's curiosity was aroused by An Xin.

"You're young and ignorant." Touching a strand of black hair at the base of her ear, An Xin said awkwardly, "Being obsessed with love and love, she has become unwilling to make progress and doesn't know how to improve herself. Probably, it's this kind of thing. It’s a normal situation for adolescent girls. However, I believe that it’s never too late to study, as long as I prepare well, the future will not treat me badly!”

"Really?" Wang Ze glanced at the textbooks on the table, feeling less and less inclined to complain.However, I couldn't help but said, "What about the future, your past is already terrible, right? Why are all of them textbooks for junior high schools!"

"..." An Xin didn't know how to explain to her.

"Wait, did you just say preview? You want... to preview junior high school courses? My God, how did you get into our high school?"

"Let's talk about other things..." An Xin pushed the glasses of the binary store and said, "For example, my new glasses."

"Then let's talk about something else..." Wang Ze gave in and nodded mechanically.Then, he changed the subject with difficulty, "For example..."

"Like what?" An Xin tilted her head and asked seriously.

"Tang Yi." Resting his chin on the back of his hand, Wang Ze said bluntly.

"Oh, Tang Yi. A good man with excellent grades, full of talents, and all-round sportsmanship." An Xin didn't touch the scene as Wang Ze imagined. Instead, he gave a thumbs up strangely and said seriously, " He is an example for me to follow."

"Hahaha? Follow an example?" Wang Ze was confused by An Xin's words, and even his voice became weird and sharp.Although it might be cruel and inhuman to keep asking, she still had to find out what happened to An Xin, "You learn from your ex-boyfriend? Do you want to learn how he scums you?"

"Of course you can't learn about scumbags! What you should learn is also to learn from his excellent qualities." An Xin felt that Wang Ze's words were strange, so she added very seriously.

"Hey..." Lying on the table, Wang Ze's mind was in chaos, and he couldn't understand his friend at all.He could only start from his own point of view, and complained innocently, "Are you pretending to be open-minded, or are you really big-hearted? I think this is too scary... After all, you were politely rejected by the boy you like the most. , how could it be possible to become more and more obedient, you should vent your anger on me..."

"Well..." As Wang Ze said, when he was talking to her yesterday.She did look very sad, but after this sleepless night, An Xin felt that her sadness had naturally turned over.So, regarding this difficult question, An Xin put down the pen in her hand, and explained calmly, "Actually, the senior has never scorned me."

"...Eh? Here it comes again, An Xin's style of maintenance." Wang Ze shook his head frantically, expressing his disbelief.

"Let me tell you..." He raised his head and glanced at Hongxia outside the library window.An Xin started to explain bit by bit, how she became what she is now, "Senior, he is a shy person easily. However, this kind of shyness has not been shown to me... and, since I told you From the day he confessed, he never once said that he likes me. No matter what you think, he doesn't like me, right? "

"Why? He just wouldn't say that..." Wang Ze interjected.

"However, I never said anything about expressing my liking. Because I can see it, and I have always seen it." An Xin's memory is not good, but she remembers such details clearly, "Anyway , Ordinary liking, or the liking of only him in the world, and the liking of obedience, he didn't accept it. So, to this extent, the senior is not a scumbag."

"However, he didn't directly refuse!" Wang Ze thought he was a scumbag if he didn't make it clear.

"After he directly rejects An Xin, what will happen to An Xin?"

"Why use the third person..." Following An Xin's question, Wang Ze thought about it.Then, he said with fear, "I will get into a dead end and become dark and self-closing!"

"Totally." An Xin admitted without showing any shame.

"Eh..." Wang Ze didn't expect this to be the reason.

"Of course, it's not just for this reason." An Xin flipped through a textbook, and said while reading, "Tell me, when I pestered Tang Yi tirelessly, was it really bad?"

"Bad? No way." Wang Ze shook his head and said bluntly, "However, I really want to beat you up, many times."

"That's why..." Holding her arm, An Xin shuddered.Then, he smiled in relief, looked at the dazzling blood red outside the window and said, "Who would like that kind of girl?"

"..."

Wang Ze knew that there were many people who would like that kind of girl.However, the "who" An Xin talks about is actually directly equal to "he".He didn't reject "her", nor did he accept "her", just to keep a complete "her" tremblingly.

Ever since Tang Yi was infamous, An Xin has come out of the isolated campus bullying.However, she walked into another dead place where she lost herself.

That's right, the real An Xin has never been a girl who humbles, panders, and vents her anger for anyone.

As a collection of beautiful things, she should be cute, clean, free, and hardworking.

So, isn't it good now?

"Goal, a prestigious school." Wearing the 'hard work' scarf from the binary store on her forehead, An Xin began to write again.

"There's too much formalism..." Wang Ze didn't know where she got so many strange props.

"Well...you have to look hard first, then you will really work hard in the end!" An Xin Xuanxue explained, and boldly expressed his ambition, "My current task is to get admitted to a good university, and then master at least three specialty."

"Come on..." Wang Ze, who couldn't read books, could only verbally support An Xin.Then, when she got the word 'university', she suddenly became excited and said enthusiastically, "As far as I know, Tang Yi's grades are very good. So, you can wait for him to enter the university and then apply for the same school .In this way, the better you will be the closest to..."

"Why do you want to do this?" An Xin asked.

"Why? After you become better, don't you just..." Wang Ze lost his voice as he spoke.

"Yes, should I go to the same university as him? Well, it depends on whether their school has a good major for me."

There was no joke in An Xin's tone, her big eyes were thinking hard, blinking.

"...Well, it's a good thing I'm still giving you advice, but I gave up so quickly..." Because An Xin's mentality improved too quickly, Wang Ze had no choice but to complain to end this farce-like wingman plan.

After stroking Wang Ze's hair, she lay down opposite her, resting her chin on the table, focusing on her eyes, An Xin said softly, "A better person would not ask you to help chase Tang Yi." .”

"..." Wang Ze always regarded An Xin as a love idiot.

Because in love, she looks like an idiot.

Now it seems that what she knows...

Far more than it shows!