The First Development of My Goddess

"Really, after having me, does mother still want to have more children?" His eyes were full of satisfaction, Wu Zai asked her angrily after hearing Chu Lian's words, as if he was very dissatisfied with her .

Of course, from Chu Lian's point of view, or her original intention, she seemed dissatisfied, but she was just acting like a baby.

"You are my first child, but I can't be the only child like you, right? I'll count for you, there are Chuchu's, Xiu'er's, Yanran's, Ya'er's, Qi's, Sansan's , Nabe’s, Hongling’s, Qiong’s, Luodie’s, and Luanxue’s…so many people want children, so I can’t just let you alone, that’s not fair to them.” Her words also made Wu laugh, her mother's image was reflected in her pupils as magnificent as amethyst, "I know, that's why I won't stop you."

"It's just that no matter how many children you have, I'm your oldest one, do you understand?" She seemed to have only this request.

"Well, if there are no accidents, you are my oldest child. After all, I was the first to be born. I don't know yet? As for whether it was there before, I really don't know, because it might be... "She wanted to give an affirmative answer, but Anna's appearance flashed in her mind at this moment, and then she hesitated, giving this not very sure answer.

"Okay, okay, I know the responsibilities that my lord mother bears, and I also know that your past cannot be erased so easily. There are too many unknowns in the past, and it is normal for my lord to be unclear."

"It's good if you can understand." Seeing her slowly withdrawing her hand, the three pairs of wings spread out in the mirror and then slowly disappearing, she knew that she had gone through the most difficult situation at the beginning, and gradually recovered calmed down.

"How does your body feel?" Seeing that her wings had been retracted and her clothes had changed into a long red evening dress, Chu Lian asked with some concern.

"I don't have many problems anymore, but I don't have much fighting ability yet. But as long as I'm here, mom won't have to worry about conviction in the future. I was born with the energy of conviction, and it's also the best weapon against conviction..."

She stretched, saw Chu Lian's worried face, smiled and comforted her.

"Okay then, tell me what's going on now." Seeing that she said she was fine, Chu Lian stopped worrying about anything and wanted to know her current situation...

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PS: Two updates, 5500 words per chapter, 11000 words in total.

Chapter 140 Nine: You are a collection of their thoughts

Memories will change with the passage of time, whether they are deep or shallow, or they will gradually disappear, or they will become like a shadow.

But as long as a memory is formed, unless there are some external factors preventing it, the words will not be forgotten and will not disappear.

But the memory that is not recalled for a long time will slowly sink into a very deep place, and will eventually become the "forgotten" past.

Such things are brought about by the characteristics of the soul, and no one can stop or change them.

"So what is this...?" After Wu said so much, Chu Lian was still a little dazed, she didn't know why she said these words.

This is memory from the soul, which is not the same as memory in scientific theory.

But in fact, they are all connected, and they all have an unforgettable past, so she was very surprised why she said that, was it because she had so many things that she couldn't remember, or...what's wrong?

"My mother's memory is naturally not so easy to forget, but the past memory, that is, the memory of the different Chu Lian, they have all condensed on you."

"It's just that you've noticed that compared to your memory, their memories are like stars revolving around the sun. They are very small, less than one percent of yours."

"This is absolutely impossible because their experience is not as good as yours. On the contrary, their memory is far beyond your reach."

"This happens because their memories have gradually faded away. If they don't recall them anymore, they will become truly forgotten people."

"Would you want them to be forgotten, would you want yourself to be forgotten, would you be like this...?" Wu pursed his lower lip, and the words he said were very strange. After hearing that, Chu Lian froze for a moment , and then smiled softly: "Of course it's impossible, whether they are me or not, whether I have anything to do with them or not, they actually don't want to be forgotten."

"Well, the memory you see is actually part of their memory, not all of it, just a part of it. This part of the memory is what they have passed through and what they have done. It is also what you want to recall. To commemorate, to recall."

"Even though it has become the past, they still want to leave something for you. Their memories include both their experiences and their abilities."

"It's just that many 'you' have the same abilities, and there are many differences, but the combination of these same and different you has become the current you."

"Even if there is no system, you can rely on these memories to become a perfect person, a person that no one can achieve. The system is just to stimulate your abilities and let you master them."

"This is the gift they left you, and it's the last thing they can leave behind."

"Every memory represents every one of you who failed and died in battle. Their weapons and their bodies have disappeared in the void."

"So you can be said to be a single individual, or you can be said to be the mental body that they condense together."

"These are the secrets I discovered when I was conceived in the body of my mother."

Wu's tone was a bit embarrassing, perhaps for her, such a past was really an uncomfortable thing.My own mother is obviously so powerful, why did she encounter such a thing.

"Is it the mental body?" Opening her hand, she looked at her palm, a little stunned, and also had some inexplicable strange thoughts.

"Then do you know what happened to the dream that I entered when I was sleeping next to Xiu'er, and the continuous dreams after that? It seemed to be the experience of a very important person to me. Watching him, I'm waiting for him, I'm waiting for him to come back."

"It's like... It's like a daughter's expectation for her father. And I also believe that that is the experience of my real parents, and my "Lingshen Jue" is also a gift from them... It must be like this, Right."

She looked up at nothing, wanting a real answer.

"Maybe yes, maybe no, whether it is true or not, the answer is actually in your heart."

Wu didn't answer directly at first, but talked about him from left to right.But Chu Lian didn't want such an answer. She clenched her fists, looked at her daughter seriously, and said softly, "No, if you don't want your mother to have these regrets, just tell me."

Turning his head away, he muttered slightly, Wu seemed a little unhappy: "How big is it to threaten your daughter in this way, it's really shameless."

"Huh?" He asked in a drawn-out voice, as if he was asking her what was going on, and also as if he was wondering what she was thinking.

Knowing that he could not be found out by his mother, otherwise he would be in trouble later. After coughing, he still told the story.

"This is just my guess, and I'm not sure if it's true, so whether you believe it or not is a matter for my lord, not me."

Before saying that, she seriously said something to Chu Lian, so that she would be mentally prepared.

"I'll judge for myself whether it's true or not, just tell me what's going on."

No such words seemed to shirk responsibility, but more of a seriousness towards Chu Lian, she didn't want her mother to take the speculation as real.

"That's indeed your parents' experience, it's just that they... they may have become a part of the condemnation..." Without opening his mouth, what he said made Chu Lian's hands so tightly that his nails would be pierced The kind in your own palm.

"I... know." Wu didn't say hate to be specific, but just this one sentence has already made Chu Lian understand a lot of things.

"So this amnesia, to be precise, should be arranged by myself. I am going to use my empty soul to carry those countless memories and reshape my own?"

She was able to restore her memory, not that she really remembered the past, but because she was in her own memory, so she knew this.

If she didn't choose to fuse her memories after going out, then she would still be the same person who didn't know the past, but at least she would have a lot more, the truth about what she should know.

"I don't know about your arrangement, my lord, but I can be sure that your memory loss, my lord, is not because of sister Cai Ya, but is really probably your own arrangement. As for the effect of this arrangement in the end , you have to ask yourself this.”

Nothing nonsense, just telling Chu Lian what she should know.

"So, I probably understand what's going on." She lowered her head and thought for a while, then she looked up at Wu, and said in a low voice, "So, after I go out, should I fuse my memory?"

"I don't think it doesn't matter whether it's fusion or not. Mother, your arrangement is actually to let yourself relax completely. During the three years in that world, you did what you should do, and you didn't do anything. Arrangements are made. As long as SAO is defeated, you can leave and return to your own world."

"Under such an arrangement, it doesn't matter if you don't fuse the memory with yourself, because your mother is working hard there, isn't it?" I can see a lot more.

Of course, this may also be because she is not a player in the game. If she is a player in the game, she will be blinded by many things.

"Hee hee, what you said is tantamount to talking in vain. In fact, you also know..." Chu Lian said here, his eyes lowered slightly, covering his star-like pupils, and said softly: "What really should be done?" It is Chu Lian who made the decision, not me. I am Bai Chulian, the goddess of life. The real Chu Lian is sleeping in this memory, and she is watching or waiting silently somewhere."

"If one day she can appear in front of me by herself and tell me what to do, I will do it." Her words fell into Wu's ears, making her silent for a while: "You are my mother, Chu Lian is also my mother, and Doria is also my mother. I only know this is enough, let you handle the rest yourself. It's just..."

She said this at any time, but the turning point of stopping while talking made Chu Lian's eyes widen and look at her, waiting for her answer.

"It's just that, no matter what you do, mother, you actually have your own ideas. So just follow your inner thoughts. If you achieve what you are in your heart, you are the real you."

Wudi's answer was still playing Tai Chi, but what she said was indeed the truth.

She is her daughter, but she is only her daughter, not herself.

In the end, no matter what she wants to do, Chu Lian's inner thoughts are truly correct, and all she has to do is to follow her inner thoughts.

"So, I know." Looking up at her, and then looking at another place, Chu Lian's lips curled up into a very strange smile: "Maybe there is really some secret here that I don't know. "

"Hmm... um... Mom, I'm sleepy and I'm going to rest first. The time here is completely different from the time outside. You can choose how long you want to stay. I look forward to the day when you can solve the problem, and I look forward to the day when you can choose your own The day when things should be done.”

"I'm going to rest first, and I will help my mother do a lot of things after I recover, good night, mother..." Leaning out of the mirror, she kissed Chu Lian's cheek lightly, and then stretched Waist, after showing the beautiful curve of the body, she lay on her side in the mirror.

The mirror in front of him slowly rippled, and the girl's figure disappeared. Chu Lian looked at the mirror, then at his hand, shook his head and chuckled: "The so-called choice is more of a kind of vacillation."

The appearance of Wu is a surprise, because she is her own daughter. Her arrival gives Chu Lian more and more things to do.

It is definitely not to do it now, but to do it later when the memory is restored.

But at that time, how to explain it to other girls and how to calm down their "anger" was also a problem.

But, thinking about it, it seems that if everyone has a descendant, it would be a good choice.

Close your eyes, every different voice and smile of your own in your mind is fleeting, and their experiences are glimpsed in an instant.

Many, many selves, after knowing their mission, even chose to be alone without even finding a partner.

Those who found a partner either separated from their partner or left no offspring.

The number of "self" who really left offspring is very, very small.

Probably it is precisely because most of the "selves" have no descendants, and as a collection of their thoughts, I have such a deep attachment to the "descendants".

Maybe every descendant is the reincarnation of one of the powerful hers.

But no matter how powerful he is, he is now the person in his memory.

"So what am I going to do?" She whispered to herself, but there was no answer to this question.

"Chu Lian, are you okay?" When she was in a daze, a girl's voice came from the door.

He bent down and turned on the faucet, picked up a puddle of clear water and splashed it on his face, wetting the long hair on his cheek.

The girl cleared herself up, then looked back at some people who were panting heavily, and said softly: "Why don't you go and play with them, why are you here?"

The person who came was Xiu'er, her face was flushed after exercise, her breasts rose and fell with her breathing, she was a delicate girl, arousing pity.

"I'm worried about you. You've been here for more than ten minutes. I'm worried that something unexpected will happen to you. It seems that you are just in a daze. It's really worrying." I am very afraid of contact, and I am also a timid person.

But in the eyes of Chu Lian, who only knows everything, it is not at all. She quickly solved the fragrance of the girl's autism, making her a shy person at most, but there is no problem with normal communication.

This is the same as her before. She has always changed her passively. It was not until she almost died again that she risked her life to save her and finally changed her process. It was as simple as cheating.

But in fact, is it as simple as before? For things like fate, if you change the route a little bit, it will become completely different again.

"It's okay, I'll go back now, let everyone prepare well, today's party will be until evening." Pulling out a handkerchief to wipe off the water stains on his face, Chu Lian turned around and took her little hand, and took her little hand without any explanation. Follow her out.

Looking at her back, Xiu'er pursed her lips and wanted to say something, but in the end she didn't say anything.

She should have something on her mind, but I don't seem to be able to change her mind. This is the biggest trouble.

With such thoughts in her heart, she still had nothing to do.

Chapter 150: So I've been ignoring them all this time

After returning, everyone was still so happy, only those girls who were already very close to Chu Lian looked at her with a little worry, worried that something might happen to her.

After seeing her as if nothing happened, everyone returned to their normal state of mind and continued to hold this party.

If it were the original Chu Lian, even if he was familiar with everyone, he would not do such a thing.But now she is completely different, and she knows what to do sometimes and how to do it is the best.

"By the way, do you know Chu Lian, the first prize of our school celebration is to travel to the whole world, to go on a school trip."

Standing beside her, Yan Ran looked at Chu Lian, who had erratic eyes, and after thinking about it, she found a topic to focus her attention on.

"Huh? I know, but I don't know the exact route yet. I hope this trip can be arranged better."

Whether the previous route was good or bad, Chu Lian knew it well.She didn't know what happened after that, but she didn't know about it, but in the front, almost every place had something that changed her qualitatively.

It was the accumulation of those things that gave her the ability to impact a different future.

And now, it's going to happen again, so she doesn't know whether she will take those routes again, but she is looking forward to it.

"Where do you want to go?" Yan Ran didn't seem very interested in seeing her, so Yan Ran continued to ask.

"As long as you are with me, it doesn't matter where you go." With a soft smile on her face, Chu Lian's answer didn't know whether she was answering her question or teasing her.

"Very sweet words, but Chu Lian, we can't be together forever, you need to detach yourself from this seemingly beautiful life now, or you will easily go wrong."

Yan Ran didn't say anything arrogant to refuse, nor did she agree gently, instead she looked at the girl very seriously, and said something that could be said to change the atmosphere suddenly.

Covering her lips gently and laughing, Chu Lian was very happy: "I don't know how long this kind of happiness will last, but I know that you will be with me for a long time."

"That's not necessarily true." In front of others, Yan Ran is a quiet and classic image of a beautiful girl, but in front of Chu Lian, she is very relaxed, she is like the person who can let them take off all the disguise , It feels extremely comfortable to get along with her.

This comfortable feeling is even more peculiar than when a person can say whatever they want when they are alone. The atmosphere with her and without her is completely different.

So she doesn't need to pretend to be herself, and she doesn't need to change herself, she just needs to be herself well.

"Okay, I can't say enough about you. After all, looking at you, it seems to be~" At this point, she pointed her finger at her lower lip, and she didn't know whether she was using a kind of teasing or a very inexplicable emotion. He spoke: "It's like the emperor in ancient times, who opened the 72 concubines of the Sangong Sixth Courtyard. We are just one of your favored ones. There are also people who are more important than us, and there are people who are more beautiful than us, but what about you... ...It's all... strange how they think of us."

The relationship between Chu Lian and them was just friendship at the beginning, and it will become what it will be in the future. It is purely because of too much experience, and all kinds of life and death. After understanding each other's hearts, it will accumulate and change to that degree.

But now she has to skip this process as much as possible from the beginning, even if her charm is high, the girls are still unacceptable.

The current stability is due to the fact that everyone seems to be friends. If such a person really embarks on another path, this kind of hidden danger will explode.How will Chu Lian deal with it then? How can she deal with it?

Strength cannot be encouraged by seedlings, otherwise deep hidden dangers will be left.How can feelings grow seedlings?Her so-called love was only forged by her past life, and now that she is back, how could it be her?

"Sorry, maybe it's because I think too much." Chu Lian didn't quibble, and she also knew that no matter what she said, the current Yanran and the others couldn't accept it.