Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

At that time he agreed, he stroked the child's head and agreed.

Or another world gin showed a fragile look, and then told him that he was tired, and convinced him that he had difficulties.

Although he was numb, he still couldn't bear it. He took Qin Jiu's hand and said yes.

His heart is pathetic, he can't see anyone telling him to save his life in front of him, and he can't see anyone asking him to protect him.

Sometimes he wonders if there is something really wrong with him, otherwise why many people say that he deserved what happened to him because he is too easy to trust people and soft-hearted.

- Everything is his own fault.

……

Qian Yuanxi still fainted.

He fell into a nightmare, this time he was deeply trapped, surrounded by figures, but no one reached out to hold Chihara Kina's sinking body.

The expressions on their faces were so indifferent, their eyes silently watching Qianyuan Xi's sinking, Qianyuan Xi was in the center of the vortex, looking up at the people around him.

There was no hatred or resentment in the eyes.

He calmly accepted the idea that he would die, and he just looked at the people around him with a gentle smile.

"Live well this time."

"I can't hold on anymore to save you."

As he said this, he was about to lower his head, but someone in the crowd knelt on the ground and stretched out his hand.

Qian Yuanxi couldn't see the man's appearance clearly, he just felt distressed, he really made people worry until his death.

The man opened his mouth, as if he was saying something, Qian Yuanxi couldn't hear it, and couldn't see the man's appearance clearly.

He just stared blankly at the man's dropped hand, which was very close to him.

He felt like he could just reach out and grab it.

Qian Yuanxi thought about it, but didn't move. He just shook his head and rejected the good intention: "I don't care."

"I am used to it."

He was really used to it, used to calling for help again and again and being ignored, used to someone grabbing his hand again and again and then releasing his hand severely to make him fall harder.

He's used to it, really.

In this nightmare, Qian Yuanxi didn't show fear like before, he just showed a gentle look, but those eyes were full of sadness.

Qian Yuanxi thought to himself, it is really embarrassing for the savior to live like him.

——He is not very good.

He wasn't very good at fighting, and it took him a long time to fumble with guns before he could barely keep up with a third of Gin.It took him a long time to learn his driving skills before he got his driver's license, but he still failed to drive on the road.

He also made many mistakes at the beginning of the mission. The reason why he is powerful is because he died too many times, not because of his ability.

——He is too soft-hearted.

He is emotional, and he is soft-hearted towards the undercover agent who is discovered, obviously he shouldn't be rescued, but he betrays the organization time and time again to save the undercover agent.

——He has too many weaknesses.

There are so many things that the savior is afraid of. He is afraid of ghosts, the dark, even heights, and he is also motion sick and bloodsick.Sometimes he is terribly afraid of pain, and his head is so stupid that he can't learn things.

No matter what it is, he will always lag behind everyone by a large margin. He desperately wants to catch up, but he is still not as powerful as Gin.

How could he be worthy of a savior like this.

What's more, he didn't want to be the savior at first, he just wanted to save people.

That's it!

Even if it is a stranger who has never met before, it is still a fresh life, and it is impossible for him to remain indifferent.

Grandpa told him that he can not be a good person, but he can't do bad things at all.

But at that time he refuted his grandfather, he said he wanted to be a good person, he wanted to be good to everyone.

He said the world was a good place, and he said he met good people.

Grandpa just smiled and said nothing, then put his hand on the top of his head and rubbed it, "Xiaoxi, live happily, being a good person is too difficult."

At that time, he didn't understand why it was difficult to be a good person, so he started to be a good person since he was a child.

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He thinks it is not difficult to be a good person. When someone is in trouble, he will help them. When he encounters stray cats and dogs, he will feed them and find a home.

Sometimes he would work in an orphanage, and he would also say that the nursing home took care of his grandparents.

He will also step forward to help someone who falls on the road, greet uncles and aunts politely, and help students who encounter difficulties.

Everyone likes him.

Everyone said that he was a child loved by the world.

At that time, he felt that the things of good people were very simple.

But now, Qian Yuanxi only feels very tired.

He wanted to tell his grandfather that he knew it was not easy to be a good person, and he didn't want to be a good person anymore.

Nor do I want to be the savior of the world.

He wanted to escape from this world despicably, he wanted to hide in the sewer like a sewer rat.

He wants to die.

He doesn't want to live.

It's too uncomfortable to live, but if he can, he wants to die in a corner where no one cares about him.

He thought that as long as he died in a corner, he would not be found, and the person who found his body would not cry.

He didn't want the sight of his death to frighten people.

Qian Yuanxi sank into the nightmare, this time he didn't struggle, his body sank slowly, slowly falling into the dark world.

The pain in his body and Gin's words filled his mind, making him hesitate in his struggle.

He thought about it.

If Qin Jiu attacked him, would he kill Brother Jing Guang and others as before?

Could this perfect world be ruined by him again?

Is it this time that those people are going to die because of him.

—Is he about to become a sinner?

He was very clear about Qin Jiu's words and Qin Jiu's methods, and because he was clear, he couldn't be at ease.

Isn't it selfish for him to die like this.

Does he want to make sure these people live well before they die.

Is he responsible for these people, and can't let them go to a hopeless future because of his drag.

……

Qian Yuanxi opened his eyes, and what he saw was darkness, he blinked and then he wanted to move his body, but whenever he moved, his body hurt so much that he broke out in a cold sweat.

He gritted his teeth, and then he moved his arms, looking at the ashes he could no longer see.

He forgot that there was no light anymore.

It was a mass of ashes, and it was black.

Qian Yuanxi looked at him blankly, and then he propped up his upper body, the tear in his waist made him cry out in pain, but he still stubbornly supported it.

Then he groped slowly with his hands, and after he finally confirmed the location, he smiled, it was a small smile.

Then he lowered his head and swallowed the ashes of the fragments.

At that moment, Qian Yuanxi felt bitterness, and then the ashes clinged tightly to his throat, making him unable to breathe.

It even made him retch, and the acid water in his stomach spit out, but Qian Yuanxi just continued to eat stubbornly, his eyes were very red.

From time to time, his throat made a choking sound, he was very embarrassed, his head bowed like a dog looking for food.

And all this was recorded by the surveillance in the corner. After Gin saw it, he turned around and left the surveillance room with satisfaction. When he walked out the door, he glanced at the vodka, and then gave instructions.

"Vodka, do you think he's gone crazy?"

Vodka was stunned, not knowing what to say, but Gin glanced at Vodka's frightened look, and just laughed out loud.

"Pick off his tendons, bring him food and water once every three days, make sure he is alive, and don't talk to him when you go in."

When Gin said this, the corners of his mouth rose, and then he walked out, leaving only one sentence and the vodka in place.

"Have time to sew his mouth shut, I don't want him to eat dirty food and die there."

Chapter 039 Disagreement

The easiest thing to happen in the dark is to forget the passage of time, and the numbness of that feeling.

After Qianyuanxi woke up, he emptied his mind, no matter where he was, he was dying of pain. For a moment, he felt that he would die here, but he would not die.

The reason is simple, he has experienced this kind of death.

He can't die quickly, and now he doesn't know how much slow death is left.

And there is only one method of death that has not been tried, and that is death of old age.

But his current physical condition can't achieve old age and death at all, and if he wants to achieve old age and death, he must restore his body, and then wait for the normal death of old age.

Thinking of this, Qian Yuanxi showed a wry smile. He wanted to leave here, but his body couldn't use his strength, and Qin Jiu didn't intend to let him go depending on the situation.

If Gin was so gentle, he might feel that Gin had changed.

He even felt fortunate that Gin was in a good mood this time, he didn't mutilate him, and he didn't goug out his eyes, he could hear and see.

However, the only thing he didn't understand was why the world consciousness still didn't come to him this time.

Did you really abandon him?

Then why abandon him.

He thought, his head was in a mess, and at this moment.The voice of world consciousness sounded.

Without the usual tone, this time the world consciousness was full of anger, and then he listened to the annoyed look of the world consciousness.

[I remember that I said many times, as an outsider in the world, what you have to do is to save their lives, not to integrate their lives. 】

[We have received complaints that the world's human settings have collapsed, and you have crossed the line too much. 】

[I didn't stop Gin from doing this because the world allowed it. It is reasonable to do such a thing according to Gin's personality development, so you have to be considerate of me, Xiaoxi. 】

[It is very hard for me to maintain a world, and you have already allocated a lot of energy to Xiaoxi.And I can't stop Gin Jiu because of you, Xiaoxi, it's not allowed. 】

The voice of world awareness was high above, as if examining his faults, Qian Yuanxi was a little slow to react, but when he heard it all in his ears.

He opened his mouth, he wanted to say no.

He was already trying his best to avoid their tenderness, he didn't really treat them as family, he just pretended to reassure them.

The voice of world consciousness has not stopped.

[Because of Xiaoxi's crossing the line, someone complained about the collapse of the person's design, so I didn't stop Gin from everything. 】

【Xiao Xi, you are not used to the pain that gin has caused you, so this time there should be no problem. 】

Asked by the world consciousness, Chihara Nozomi's surprised eyes slowly became lonely, and he didn't know what disappeared or disappeared.

—Is he wronged?

He can't feel it.

—Is he angry?

But he understands the words of world consciousness.

—does he deserve it?

He knew he shouldn't be greedy for that little bit of tenderness.

The doubts in his heart and the reprimand from the world consciousness were mixed together at this moment, Qian Yuanxi did not refute.