Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

Later, the rescue time and time again hurt him physically and mentally. He knew that he would become assimilated, and he also knew that he might eventually become someone he didn't even know.

But he still persisted.

How could he not see something was wrong, but when he saw it, it was already too late, or maybe he even noticed something was wrong at the beginning.

There was nothing he could do.

——It is a foolish thing to fight against the world consciousness, let alone be deprived of death.

He becomes a complete instrument of world consciousness.

Qian Yuanxi thought so, and then he got out of bed and came to the position of the curtain, and he looked out through the gap in the curtain.

The first thing that came into view was a ray of sunshine, and then the laughter of other patients and children outside, Qian Yuanxi reached out and fumbled for the curtains.

"Do you think I'm selfish?"

"I now know that that world is bound to me, and I also know that I should rush back as soon as possible, but I stubbornly refuse."

This time, Qianyuan Xi seemed to have gone crazy, rejecting those voices that gave him a headache in his heart.

He doesn't want to go back.

He's done everything he needs to do, even he's saved the world.

——It was the world consciousness who asserted to restore the memories of those people, and it was the world consciousness that collapsed those people's personalities.

Instead of asking for it.

He knew that someone might take the initiative to ask them to remember at this time, but Qian Yuanxi felt that if a person who obviously had happiness could finally survive well, he would be bound because of him.

That wouldn't be fair to anyone.

What's more, his goal from the beginning was to save, and when he saw those people were happy, he would also bless them from the bottom of his heart.

He doesn't need compensation, because he didn't save with a purpose in the first place.

If he had to say what his initial thoughts were, he could only say that he wanted them to be happier from the very beginning.

System No. 3 felt his host's thoughts, and he wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything in the end.

He no longer wanted to make his host uncomfortable.

——He wanted to say that his host should not have died, and he also wanted to say that the world consciousness was bound to the wrong person.

——He wanted to say that grandpa had already died once, and he hadn't been waiting for his host to return home.

——He also wanted to say that grandpa didn't die suddenly of a heart, but was distraught.

Elderly people have died in agony and despair.

Chapter 060 This time, go home with grandpa

System No. 3 thought he had concealed a lot of things, how could he tell those things, the treatment of his host had just improved, just a little bit better.

How could he say "Grandpa died once" without any expression on his face or even waves.

System 3 is very tangled, he should speak out, he is his host's system, he should not lie to his host about anything.

However, he felt that such a cruel thing should not be said at this time.

His host would collapse, would suffer, would be so heartbroken that he couldn't breathe.

And now he is just a mouse, he can't hug his host when his host is crying, and he can't comfort his host's emotions over and over again.

System No. 3 once again felt that he was so useless, and he thought that if he was more powerful, he would not have to feel so uncomfortable if he was his host.

If he was better, his host wouldn't even have to go through these painful things.

System 3 feels that after he has human emotions, the most he feels is heartache.

He felt sorry for his host's experience, he felt sorry for his host who hid in a corner and shivered in the middle of the night, and he felt sorry for his host when he went crazy and couldn't breathe.

He is a programmed machine that will repeatedly shut down forcibly when it feels pain. What about his host?

Qian Yuanxi looked at everything outside with more envy in his eyes.

Once upon a time, he also liked to run in the sun. He was told by his grandpa that he was still a child, and even his grandpa said that he would better not grow up all his life.

Because growing up is so hard.

If possible, his grandfather wanted to take care of his Xiaoxi for the rest of his life, but it was impossible.

The old man often feels lonely. He wonders what to do if his little Xi is bullied after he dies.

His Xiaoxi would find him immediately when he was bullied when he was a child, and then hugged him and said that someone bullied him.

……

Qian Yuanxi didn't know what his grandfather was thinking, but he didn't want to make his grandfather sad, and he didn't want his grandfather to look at his Xiaoxi strangely.

——Qianyuan Xi is letting him go back to his childhood, even if it hurts, even if he can't breathe, even if he goes crazy, but he thinks that as long as his grandfather is there, he can overcome it.

Thinking, Chihara Nozomi turned around, and then he was about to go out barefoot, this time he stopped and put on his shoes silently.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, that's great!I can wear shoes! 】

"I'm not really a kid."

Qian Yuanxi refuted very seriously with a small face, but System No. 3 didn't listen at all, which made Qian Yuanxi helpless.

"Are you really older than me? But I feel that you are also naive, more stupid than me."

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, the age of our system is growing rapidly. Although I just broke my shell when I first met Xiaoxi, I am hundreds of years old now! 】

"But I think you should be considered a child in the system."

Hearing Chihara Nozomi's joke, System No. 3 secretly let him hide some programs that he messed up because of shyness.

His host is getting better.

"I just felt that your program was chaotic for a moment. Are you shy? I didn't expect that one day you would be ashamed by me."

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi!I'm not shy!I'm just... not shy anyway!Ahhh Xiaoxi, stop laughing at me! 】

"You're cute too, and you're so cute when you're shy."

After Qian Yuanxi finished speaking, he put on his shoes and planned to wait for his grandfather at the gate of the hospital.

——Gradually there was a cheerful expression on the boy's face, and there was a smile hidden in his eyes, and he was very energetic when he ran.

At that moment, the boy felt from the bottom of his heart that his life was getting better.

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In the following time, System No. 3 still did not tell the situation of that world.

He just silently accompanied his host to receive treatment, received psychological counseling, and encouraged him from the side that the host was great, and he even started to praise his host with his grandfather.

Qian Yuanxi's condition is visible to the naked eye, and everyone is amazed at this young man's strong willpower, but only System 3 knows.

His host has always been a strong person.

Even if his host fell into despair, a miracle would still happen to him in the next second.

Moreover, his host just used his strength to save him this time, and his host can recover so quickly.

——One is that I don’t want people to worry.

——The second is to enter a new life.

The young man seemed to have seen hope, the familiar hope that belonged only to him this time.

So the boy didn't want to give up this opportunity, he saw hope, so he held it tightly in his hand and stood up.

He has already done everything that should be done, so he has to recover obediently, take medicine on time, and actively treat him.

Without showing a little bit of negative state, how could such a state not improve.

——The young man did not give up hope, he even grasped the long-lost hope, and after he grasped it firmly, he crawled out of the abyss with all his might.

Even though the process of climbing out was painful, the boy was still stubborn and did not let go.

The boy's active treatment attitude surprised the doctors in charge. They had seen all kinds of survivors, but it was like the boy who struggled to get out and recovered.

They have only one feeling after seeing it.

——What happened, even the process of getting the boy to stand up was so painful.

Of course Qian Yuanxi knew that the encounters he experienced would not go away, no matter how much medicine he took, it would not make him forget those people and those things.

He just let him take it all in peace.

He transformed that pain into peace, he chose to accept it, he chose to let that pain go away.

It was because of the boy's eagerness and not giving up that the long-term treatment ended early.

Seeing the smiling young man who had no barriers with others, the doctors didn't relax at all, and even hesitated.

——The boy's problem still remains.

Although it was cruel, the doctors still had to admit that the sequelae left by this young man were very serious.

Maybe it will be painful for a lifetime, or maybe it will go crazy in one person's place at a certain moment.

When they told the boy's grandfather about this, the old man was at a loss. In the end, he couldn't find his way and could only ask the doctor for help.

"Then what should I do to make my little Xi feel less uncomfortable, even a little less."

The old man asked, the doctor opened his mouth, and did not look at the pleading on the old man's face.

He felt that the more he looked at it, the more panicked he felt.

But he still said, "You can take him to integrate into the society. The process should not be too rough, and you can take it slowly."

"Let him get in touch with more flowers and plants, and if conditions permit, keep a pet, but I think that child has a mouse, and the mouse is quite cute."

"If the child is interested, you can also ask. The child's condition is too serious, but so far we have not been able to find other problems."

After the doctor said this, the atmosphere in the air was a bit heavy.

And Qian Yuanxi, who was waiting in the corridor outside, leaned against the wall with the mouse in his arms, and looked at the tightly closed door in front of him.

He tilted his head with a confused look on his face.

"I feel like I'm fine."

"You said why the doctor is so nervous."

When System 3 heard this, he hesitated for a moment, and felt a little distressed when he saw that something was obviously wrong with his host.

System No. 3 knew that his host's symptoms could be cured by only taking medicine or even active treatment.

At best, these treatments can only turn his host into an ordinary child, and make his host start to have emotions, and no longer be so closed.

But the stress response can't be solved.

——Temporary treatment cannot save the pain engraved in the bone marrow.

Those worlds he experienced, even those times, when System 3 thought of this, he felt helpless and bitter.

——His host has more experience than his grandfather, and the pain he has experienced is even innumerable.

If the age of a world is added up each time, the age of his host cannot be calculated at all.

His host just keeps the appearance of a child.

But the bones are already rotten, and it can no longer be cured.

His host understands this very well.

So his host never said it, but used the healing effect in other aspects.

Since the root cannot be cured, then treat the surface.

At least it can make him live like a person.

Qian Yuanxi thought this way, and the next second he saw the door open in front of him, and then he saw his grandfather's red eyes, and he was still not comforted.

He just saw his grandpa coming to him, and reaching out to hold his hand.

"Let's go, Xiaoxi, go home with Grandpa."

He heard his grandfather say this.

"Go back to our home."