Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

"Grandpa, please hug me, it won't hurt if you hug me."

—He was struggling, in pain.

"The person who died should be me, not you, Grandpa."

"Grandpa, you can't die in such pain. Did God find the wrong person again? Why didn't you come to me."

"Grandpa, Xiaoxi will be obedient and won't go crazy. Xiaoxi will try her best not to worry Grandpa."

Qian Yuanxi struggled in pain, he stretched out his hand to grab his heart and gasped heavily, his eyes widened as if he would die in a second.

System 3 He senses the emotions from his host.

——It is the emotion of collapse and despair, that is the shroud of bottomless depth, that is the darkness that the sun cannot penetrate.

System No. 3 began to choke. He wanted to comfort him, but he didn't know what to comfort. He could only carefully control the energy so that his host would not feel so uncomfortable.

Qian Yuanxi's body twitched in pain, he clenched his hand into a fist, and then hit his heart.

He felt that there was a panic in there.

"Why...why didn't anyone save Grandpa..."

"I'm obviously already so obedient, and I'm so obedient, why..."

Qian Yuanxi was muttering to himself, asking questions over and over again like a lunatic, and then suddenly woke up and warned him not to go crazy.

The young man gave up his reason time and time again and became a madman, talking madly.But he will wake up again and again, so that he will not go crazy and do things he shouldn't do.

That was the ultimate struggle.

But no matter how the young man struggled, he still lowered his head and pressed his forehead against the urn. He forced his madness down, and he spoke obediently.

"Grandpa, I'm not crazy, I'm obedient."

"Xiaoxi will always be obedient, okay, don't worry."

When System 3 saw this, he froze for a moment. He watched his host's brain waves and the changes in his heart.

He was in pain, his emotions were breaking down, and he was crying.

System No. 3 was like a helpless child, he comforted him softly after crying.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, the floor is cold, let's go to bed, okay, let's cry on the bed. 】

[System No. 3: If grandpa is still here, he will definitely not let Xiaoxi lie on the floor, and grandpa is looking at Xiaoxi now, Xiaoxi, let's go to bed obediently, okay? 】

System No. 3 clumsily persuaded him that he didn't have any figure, so he bent his waist down.

Coaxing in a low voice, begging.

But what he got was not Qianyuan Xi's consent, but Qianyuan Xi's "expulsion".

"Do you want to leave my side? I don't want you to follow me. You leave me to find a gentle host who treats you well."

"I'm hopeless, I can't be saved, don't waste your energy."

……

Chihara Nozomi said, he was lying on the floor, looking at the ceiling.

He let the tears flow down, "I am very familiar with the taste of salvation, and I am also aware of my own situation."

"I don't think I'll be saved, I'm rotten, there's no way I can be saved."

"So...don't save me, just go."

The young man begged the only remaining ray of light to leave, he no longer wanted the light to come to him.

However, System No. 3 shook his head frantically.

He has no entity, but Qian Yuanxi saw that someone seemed to be shaking his head crazily, with red eyes like a rabbit.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, don't drive me away, I don't want to leave Xiaoxi, Xiaoxi, let me stay!Xiaoxi, what will you do if I leave!Don't chase me away. 】

The voice of System 3 was full of panic and heartache, he thought how could he leave his host and his savior at this time.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, I'll stay with you, okay? How could I give up on Xiaoxi? Xiaoxi, don't be like this... Look at me so cute, don't you? 】

Hearing this, Qian Yuanxi let out a long sigh, and he seemed to calm down again, but the more this made System 3 more nervous.

"I'm not worth it."

"My current health is so poor that I'm dying, and my bones are rotten. I have to rely on drugs to maintain my mental state, so as to prevent me from going crazy."

"My personality has long been distorted, and I can't even save myself."

"I'm terrible, it's not worth your wasting too much energy to save me, I resist everything, I close my heart, and I don't even have a normal life."

Having said that, Chihara Nozomi lowered her eyes, "You will be in pain, and you will feel the despair of failure to save."

"That feeling is very uncomfortable, and I don't want you to experience those feelings."

[System No. 3: I only want Xiaoxi!I don't want anyone else!Don't chase me away!Xiao Xi!I can keep quiet without talking!I can still accompany Xiaoxi. 】

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi...]

Chihara Nozomi listened, but didn't speak, he closed his eyes as if feeling tired.

This time System No. 3 did not speak, he kept quiet and silently accompanied him.

The room was pitch black, and the moonlight did not shine in.There is no joy and laughter in the past, only darkness and coldness.

System No. 3, he listened to the calm heartbeat of his host, but he heard his host's words in the next second.

……

"I've made up my mind, you let me die."

Hearing this sentence, System No. 3 didn't have time to speak, and then he heard the next sentence from his host.

"You made me struggle in pain and die in despair."

"I want to be like grandpa. Grandpa is in so much pain. I want to empathize with him. I can't let grandpa suffer alone."

Qian Yuanxi opened his eyes after he finished speaking, his vision was hazy, and then the corners of his mouth lifted, and he was smiling.

"I beg you."

"Can you let me die in pain, no matter how much I struggle, don't save me, can you satisfy my request?"

The teenager is crazy.

System No. 3, he watched his host's pleading, saw the exhaustion in his host's eyes, and saw his host's sober eyes retreating.

At the same time, he also saw the abandonment of his host.

At this moment, the boy gave up the hope he had held tightly.

He voluntarily returned to the bottomless abyss, voluntarily became a madman.

System No. 3, he can't speak for a long time, he can make his host die without pain.

However, his host is begging him.

Please let him die a painful death.

Even if you are struggling, don't reach out for help.

After Qian Yuanxi didn't hear the answer, he showed a wry smile, "Is it still not possible?"

"I just want to feel the pain of my grandfather at that time. I want to feel the pain of saying four words in that situation."

"It's so painful, but it still keeps me from crying."

Qian Yuanxi was a little disappointed, he closed his eyes, and then he started to speak: "I'm going crazy, I'm in pain."

"I should have struggled in pain and died in despair. I had no choice but to die. I didn't have a good end."

"Are you saying that because I didn't go back and caused chaos in the lives of people in that world, God thinks I did something wrong so he treats me like this."

"However, I have saved so many times before, I just didn't save it once."

Qian Yuanxi whispered, and then he looked at the ceiling expressionlessly, humming the nursery rhymes his grandfather sang to coax him when he was a child.

——The young man gave back the hope he held tightly, uprooted the withered sunflower, and put himself in shackles who should have died easily.

——The boy is crazy.

Or maybe... the boy was finally driven crazy.

Chapter 064 Patronus He Hates Everyone

Neighbors who know Qian Yuanxi will say that the child is very sunny, and he will help them with small favors every time, and every time he calls them grandpa and grandma with a smile, it makes their hearts tremble.

Students who know Qianyuanxi will say that Qianyuanxi is sunny and cheerful, and gives warmth to everyone. They will help solve any difficulties they have in their studies, and never dislike them because they are not good.

No one would think Chihara Nozomi would be desperate.

Because they know that a boy grows up with love, he is surrounded by love, and people around him will take care of him from time to time.

No one wanted to see such a teenager fall into despair, crying out in pain and choked up.

Even the grandparents in the nursing home can remember Chihara Nozomi's appearance. They will say that this child is very kind to them and makes them happy every time he comes, and when they leave, they say they will come again next time.

——Qianyuanxi, from the very beginning, it has the meaning of hope and warmth.

He should be born facing the sun and grow wantonly.

He was originally a vigorous young man, a child favored by the sun.

……

On System 3, he carefully put away the information about his host's past, every time he saw his past host happily running in the sun, happily walking hand in hand with his grandfather on the side of the road.

In the evening, I will also sit and chat with my grandfather in the yard.

The teenagers in the past were happy every moment, happy every moment, and loved every moment.

So when did it change.

——It was the moment when he was bound by the consciousness of the world!

——It was the moment when I was thrown into the world and saved many times by the world consciousness!

——It was the moment when he was tortured to death by those targets again and again!

System No. 3 can't calm down, he hates those people, he can't wait to kill them, he hates everyone!

How could he not hate it!

It was the torture of those people that made his host feel pain!

It was the repeated mistakes and concealment of the world consciousness that paralyzed his host!

It's the use time and time again that makes his host feel miserable!

He cannot forgive, nor can he understand!

Why should the operation of a world be borne by his host, why should his host be pushed to the position of the savior!

Why!Why!Why!

System No. 3's program messed up, but he didn't want to affect his host, so he obediently pressed on.

But he was so wronged, he was so wronged.

His host was gone, his host who would comfort him with a smile, joke with him, and love sunshine was gone!

System No. 3, he choked up softly in Qian Yuanxi's mind, he was aggrieved and used energy to care for his host's broken soul fragments little by little.

He tinkered again and again, he used the little claws created by his energy to mend with a needle and thread.

He comforted the uncomfortable soul fragments while mending, but he still couldn't stop the tears from falling down.

— he is an incompetent system.

——He couldn't even protect his host.

It would be fine if he was a little stronger in the beginning.

But he is not strong, he can barely protect his host, his ability is not enough.

Even grandpa he only protected once.

Chihara Nozomi outside seemed to be asleep or a puppet, he just looked at the ceiling calmly, blinking from time to time.