Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

As Qianyuan Xi said this, he blinked in Qianyuan's direction, which caused Qianyuan, who had already prepared a defense line to reject Qianyuan Xi's request, to collapse in an instant.

Really, it's too foul.

Qian Yuan sighed and nodded in agreement, then he stood up, and when he looked at the two people opposite, he gave a warning look.

When the door slammed, Qian Yuanxi glanced at the two people opposite, and he knew why they didn't speak.

Because they have nothing to say, right?

He said goodbye, but now it's messed up again.

Chihara Nozomi was thinking, Fugu Ling stood up, "It's a little stuffy for me to go out to get some air."

Seeing Fugu Ling's obviously flustered movements, Chihara Nozomi still didn't intend to remain silent, he said, "I didn't blame Brother Ling."

"The first time I died at the hands of Brother Ling, I was an undercover agent at that time, and at that time only by killing me could I survive and get rid of suspicion."

"That death was painless."

"And I'm ready when I'm undercover, when I take the oath, when I choose to be with you."

Chihara Nozomi said it, but it made Fugu Rei, who had been jumping up and down, red-eyed, and he lowered his head.

"And compared to dying at the hands of other people, dying at the hands of Brother Ling at that time was already very good."

Chapter 094 Undercover is the existence of carrying forward

Fugu Ling couldn't cry. After Chihara Nozomi finished speaking, he heard Jiang Gu Ling crying. He fumbled in his pocket, got up after finding a tissue, and walked to Jiang Gu Ling's position.

"And the moment we went undercover, didn't we all think about the worst outcome?"

Saying that, Qianyuan Xi turned Fugu Ling around, then he stood on tiptoe, raised Fu Gu Ling's chin with his hand, and wiped his tears.

"They're all grown-ups, if they are seen by children, they will probably laugh at Brother Zero."

Jiang Gu Ling was amused by such words, then he looked at Chihara Nozomi in front of him, he bent down, "Xiaoxi, I'm sorry."

"Brother Ling, I have already said that I never blamed you, and if it were me, Brother Ling, you would definitely let me torture you severely and let me survive."

After Chihara Nozomi finished speaking, he patted Fugu Ling on the shoulder: "So Brother Ling, it's time to let go."

After saying this, Qian Yuanxi turned around and walked slowly towards Zhu Fu Jingguang's position. After Zhu Fu Jingguang felt it, his body became a little stiff.

He lowered his head at a loss, Qian Yuanxi once made a summary when he was in the police academy.

……

Matsuda Jinhei looks carefree on the surface, but he is actually a very careful person who can sense emotions immediately.

Hagiwara Kenji and Matsuda Jinpei have the same personality, but on the contrary, they seem to be able to get along with anyone on the surface, but there are not many people who can get to the heart, and those who can be in the heart must be important people.

The squad leader, Ita Hang, is a loyal and honest person with a strong sense of responsibility, and he can stand up when he senses something is wrong.

Jiang Gu Ling is a person with a strong sense of justice, who does not hesitate to take action when encountering danger, but is also good at disguising emotions.

At that time, Qian Yuanxi made a special point, and that person was Zhu Fu Jingguang.

At that time, Zhu Fu Jingguang lost his parents, and his childhood experience doomed Zhu Fu Jingguang to be very emotional, but this is also a fatal point.

So when he knew that Zhu Fu Jingguang was going to be an undercover agent, he was confused for the first time.

A particularly emotional person acts as a cold-blooded and ruthless undercover agent, and even shoots his teammates when necessary.

Qian Yuanxi had no idea what the people above were thinking, so he was most worried about his brother Zhu Fu Jingguang, let alone when he knew that his brother would die in the organization.

He even put almost all his focus on Zhu Fu Jingguang.

But he didn't succeed.

Every time Zhu Fu Jingguang treated him like his younger brother, and he saved Zhu Fu Jingguang like his brother.

——They entangled each other, rescued each other, and even held each other's hands tightly to prevent each other from sinking into the darkness like a bottomless pit.

When warm people meet together, it is the ultimate warmth.

So when Boben died in front of Zhu Fu Jingguang, when Zhu Fu Jingguang's emotions collapsed, Qian Yuanxi took the initiative to stand up, and then he took the initiative to speak the first sentence.

——"I didn't protect him well."

He knew that Zhu Fu Jingguang would put all his anger on him, and that's what he wanted. He didn't tell Zhu Fu Jingguang that he was already suspected, and what Qian Yuanxi wanted to do was to help Zhu Fu Jingguang relieve his anger. Suspect.

So he stepped up.

He provokes a madman who is out of control.

But when torturing him, Qian Yuanxi clearly saw the struggle and pain in Zhu Fu Jingguang's eyes, it was a last resort, it was a must.

——What is an undercover agent!

——An undercover agent is a person who devotes himself wholeheartedly, makes great contributions to the country, and puts his life behind him, even if there is an abyss in front of him, he will still jump into it!

——Sometimes they will kill their teammates to prove themselves and become mentally ill, they will also be permanently disabled for missions, and they will be smashed to pieces in order to protect their country.

So when he died under Zhu Fu Jingguang's hands, when he ate the bloody cake, he heard Zhu Fu Jingguang's sobs.

But Zhu Fu Jingguang can't rush up, once he does, his identity will be exposed, and all their efforts will be in vain.

So Zhu Fu Jingguang was sober and confused, watching Qian Yuanxi in pain and numbness after eating the cake, he slowly raised his pistol.

He could barely hold the pistol steady because his fingers were shaking.

But Zhu Fu Jingguang still fired.

……

Qian Yuanxi thought of this, and he came in front of Zhu Fu Jingguang, Zhu Fu Jingguang raised his head.

Sure enough, is she already crying badly?

Seeing this, Qian Yuanxi sighed, and then he said slowly: "Hug me, Brother Jing Guang."

Saying that, Qian Yuanxi was hugged tightly by Zhu Fu Jingguang, and then Zhu Fu Jingguang's voice sounded.

"I became an undercover agent, and it was the first time I killed the target of the mission assigned to me by the organization. I don't know that person, but that person must die by my hands."

"The second time I killed my friend, I killed Xiaoxi. I'm sorry Xiaoxi, I shouldn't have done that. I should have stretched out my hand to stop Xiaoxi the moment you stood up."

"But I couldn't calm down. The moment Zero fell in front of me, I really couldn't keep calm. I even felt like I couldn't hold on."

Zhu Fu Jingguang was crying bitterly, he was crying loudly, the experience of being an undercover tortured him.

Those dead people came to him over and over again, trying to drag him to hell.

He struggled for a long time every time, and every time he was exhausted, he wondered if the decision he made when he was an undercover agent was the right one?

At the same time, he also understood a truth.

——Being an undercover agent is a painful thing.

Qian Yuanxi hugged Zhu Fu Jingguang, and he comforted gently, "I never blamed Brother Jingguang, Brother Jingguang, I am an undercover agent."

"If there's an opportunity like this to happen next time, I think I'll do it again.

"There is no way, isn't that the duty of an undercover agent?"

——Undercover is a group of lovely and brave people.

——They knew that the abyss in front of them would be smashed to pieces, but they still jumped without hesitation.

When faced with revealing their identities, they would beat their teammates to death under the consoling eyes of their teammates, and would be severely tortured by the enemy when their identities were revealed, but even so, they would not open their mouths to reveal information!

They can't go back!

——Behind them is the country, family, friends, and even career.

They must be worthy of the vows they have made, the badges on their shoulders, and their responsibilities.

——An undercover agent is an existence that carries a load forward.

——It is an existence worthy of respect.

Qian Yuanxi patted Zhu Fu Jingguang's back, and his eyes showed relief. Sometimes it is a good thing to cry like this, because it will make all the grievances cry out.

"Cry, it's okay, Brother Jing Guang."

——Being an undercover agent is more painful for the person who survived than the person who died.

Because he has to face the corpses of his teammates and face mental damage, even if the undercover mission is completed, the probability of recovering from the trauma in his heart is almost very small.

Or not at all.

This is no secret among undercover agents, but no one wants to admit such a cruel fact.

Chapter 095: The Beast and the Princess

[I really!Obviously they didn't say anything!But I remembered the things I had seen before, and I panicked. ]

[I will cry to death forever, undercover!Being an undercover agent is the most painful existence. You can't reveal your identity, you can't reveal your original appearance, and even everything before it will be hidden. ]

[I'm sorry, I'm guilty. I thought they wouldn't be able to do it before, and the subsequent changes were like a brain twitch, but now I understand that this is not the sequelae of various traumas! The survivors of TM are all undercover agents! ]

[Three of them are undercover agents!Xiaoxi was tortured the most, but the other two were also tortured, both in body and mind, they were all in tatters. ]

[So Xiaoxi said that she never blamed them, Xiaoxi understands!He understood it from the very beginning, and he also understood the duty of an undercover agent. I want to cry if I fail. ]

[I'm going crazy!I felt something was wrong before, and Gin is not the type to torture people for no reason, now I get it!During the torture, Xiaoxi was an undercover agent!It's undercover! ]

[No way!I want to cry!I really want to cry! ]

[It turned out that the undercover experience in the organization was like this. I finally understood Xiaoxi's despair before. I understand, I understand, kill me! ]

[So there were no cheats at the beginning, because undercover agents in real life don’t have cheats, they will die in the hands of the organization, they will be tortured severely, they don’t have pain shielding, they can’t die. ]

[This is reality. ]

[In a good life, there are always people carrying the burden. We can't see the suffering of those people, so we sometimes have fantasies. ]

[But we have seen this time that if you don’t have a golden finger, you will die even if you want to. As long as your body is alive, you will be tortured. If you look good, you will be forced to get Stockholm. ]

[If he is good-looking and smart, then death will not be allowed, and he will disappear in front of everyone. ]

[Mr. Undercover, please be safe and protect yourself. ]

[I directly hope that in this world, all pornography, gambling and drugs will die for me. ]

[Grumpy old man. ]

[that is!All the bad guys are going to die!Make our hero so tired! ]

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When Zhu Fu Jingguang calmed down, Qian Yuanxi used a paper towel and was about to kneel down to wipe it off, but he didn't bend down yet.

He was stopped by Zhu Fu Jingguang, who seemed to be frightened by something.

And Qian Yuanxi tilted her head in doubt: "What's wrong?"

"Xiao Xi, your waist!"

Hearing this, Qian Yuanxi remembered his physical condition, he didn't say anything, he knew that no matter what he said at this time, Zhu Fu Jingguang's doubts would not be reassured.

He was supported by Zhu Fu Jingguang and sat next to him, his face was as serious as he wanted.

Qian Yuanxi was amused by this reaction, and then he joked: "So Brother Jing Guang, are you feeling better?"

"Brother Jingguang, have you remembered everything?"

Qian Yuanxi asked, Zhu Fu Jingguang nodded, then he opened his mouth, but said nothing.

In the end, he bowed his head and apologized, and then said: "My appearance is actually not suitable for being a policeman anymore. My mental endurance is not that good, and I also feel that my state is not right."

"Sometimes when I close my eyes, I will dream that the target I killed before will come to me and ask for my life, which will send me to hell, and even ask me why I am with these people."

After Zhu Fu Jingguang said this, Qian Yuanxi fell into silence, and he looked at Zhu Fu Jingguang.

He knew that Zhu Fu Jingguang's condition would be bad, but it was still beyond his expectation, but he was not surprised.

After going through something like that, how could there be nothing at all.

Qian Yuanxi was silent just now, and then Zhu Fu Jingguang said: "I want to work part-time, or find another job. It's not good to sit in such a position in my state."

"As for Zero, he said he wants to be the same as before, but this time he wants to open a pet shop. If it goes well then, I think I'll go over and help."

Qian Yuanxi heard Zhu Fu Jingguang say this, and then he smiled and said: "This is also very good, as long as your life is happy."