Self-guided daily life after rebirth

Maybe it was impossible to eat from the beginning.

All the whitewashed peace is just a thin layer of snow on top of the bloody pain. After stepping on it, the truth below will be exposed, and everyone just likes that illusory but beautiful thin snow.

Ah.

Su Zhizi was a little disgusted.

So she lowered her head, put down her chopsticks, and said in a low voice:

"I'm stuffed."

Turn around to leave.

Old Su finally came to his senses and couldn't help frowning:

"Is this enough?"

Su Zhizi didn't answer any more, but she was already walking towards the stairs and preparing to go upstairs.

Being slapped coldly by his second daughter, Old Su felt a little upset, so he subconsciously frowned:

"Gardenia, why don't you eat more? Seeing that you young people know how to lose weight and lose weight. If you lose weight like a firewood stick, it will look good? Look how good your sister's appetite is, and I don't beg you and your sister Same, at least eat more..."

But Su Zhizi's attention was only on "I don't beg you to be like your sister".

She gripped the handrail of the stairs and lowered her eyes.

It was the deepest and darkest nightmare.

It has been like this since childhood.

Whether she was in the world as a child or in high school now, it seems that whenever and wherever she can hear her father's lessons full of expectations or disappointments for her:

"Look at your sister, she..."

It was the whisper of demons.

Everyone has a "child from someone else's family" in their life. He or she is smart and polite, has outstanding grades, is either handsome or beautiful. When you are young, you are compared with your academic performance. After the college entrance examination, you will be in college, and then your salary , It's marriage, it's children... That other person's child has always been entangled with everyone.

But for Su Zhizi, that "other person's child" is her sister.

Her biological sister.

Su Tong was her target when she was a child... Her older sister is a genius but she is just a mortal. She falters after her older sister, but her older sister can leave her far behind with just a single speed up.

She never wanted to recall that kind of powerlessness and despair in this life.

Until her sister fell into the rebellious period of youth, her life was gloomy, and she could hardly see the light.

Having an excellent sister is a good thing, but it is also a nightmare.

All the attention and energy from the father are concentrated on the elder sister, just like two small trees growing together, one of them grows vigorously, and gradually stretches its branches and leaves, it can snatch more sunlight and nutrients. Over time, a certain It's a vicious circle - the smaller tree that grows stronger gets bigger and absorbs more sunlight and nutrients to make itself stronger.

But the small trees shrouded in its shadow are gradually unable to obtain nutrients, and finally can only stunt, shrink, and finally wither.

This is the tragedy named Su Zhizi.

Su Zhizi once thought that after her sister rebelled in adolescence, she could breathe a sigh of relief and at least see the light.But without the shadow of her sister, what followed was the burden of being a father.

Lao Su completely gave up on his eldest daughter who was a rebellious youth, and the rest of his hopes turned to his second daughter who had always been obedient.It's just that he forgot that his second daughter's immature shoulders couldn't bear the heavy burden.

How can ordinary people shoulder the burden of genius?

The girl just walked out of hell, but fell into the abyss in a blink of an eye.

Su Zhizi closed her eyes.

She was suddenly very tired.

She should have struggled, should have resisted and resisted, but the final result has not changed at all... She sometimes thought about death, but in the end she was not willing to bear it.

tired.

"I'm going to bed."

she said softly.

Leave behind a series of shallow footsteps.

……

Old Su was dumbfounded.

He is not a fool, so he can naturally feel the sudden depression of his second daughter.

But he is indeed a fool, he can only feel his daughter's depressed mood but is at a loss as to why his second daughter is depressed...even angry.

He had no choice but to turn his head and look at Su Tong for help.

And Su Tong squinted her eyes and smiled, pretending to be stupid while laughing:

"Old Su, what do you think I am doing, what's wrong, what's wrong with me?"

Old Su could only sigh and smile wryly:

"Don't lie to me, I know you know what's going on... Good daughter, tell daddy quickly, okay?"

Ever since Su Tong ran away from home and came back that day, the relationship between the father and daughter has become quite subtle. In a sense, it can even be said that they have forgotten their friendship. He also stopped stubbornly putting on the airs of being a father.

After shedding the strict father's shell, he also began to become a gentle, understanding and good father.

After Su Tong's bad fun was over, she finally nodded:

"I probably understand the situation... Just wait here, I'll go buy it... Oh, I was wrong, I'll go upstairs to check on Zhizi's situation."

Old Su instinctively felt that something was wrong, but Su Tong got up and went upstairs before he could react.

She slowly came to the door of Su Zhizi's room, and gently knocked on the door:

"Gardenia?"

Su Zhizi inside did not reply.

The girl was lying on the bed, hugging the shark doll, her face was buried in the doll, her long hair was loose and scattered faintly.

She would not answer.

So there was another light knock on the door:

"are you asleep?"

Su Tong asked a very idiotic question.

It's just how long, no matter how sleepy the girl is, she can't just fall asleep, so the biggest possibility is that she can only pretend to be asleep or don't want to answer.

Su Tong understood.

The storm of ambivalence is still brewing and is on the verge of exploding.

It's just that there is no fuze, which is not enough to achieve the conditions for an explosion.

She smiled:

"If you are in a bad mood, go to bed early, rest early and don't think too much."

After speaking, she didn't miss it and went downstairs with peace of mind.

……

Su Zhizi raised her head from the doll, looked at the door quietly, then lowered her head again.

She hugged the doll tightly.

Does she hate her sister?

not necessarily.

Does she envy her sister?

inevitable.

It's just that the feelings are too complicated, and countless chaotic emotions merge together to form a brand new appearance.

The girl couldn't tell what it was.

She just curled up, thinking about her sister in her memory.

Su Tong used to be a little sun, although it was far away, but the warmth was real, Su Zhizi missed the carefree time when she and Su Tong were young.

only……

Can't go back anymore.

[To be continued]

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Why do I need to add more, I don't have a single drop left!

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Chapter 63 Embarrassment

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Su Tong woke up early in the morning and began to recite English words.

I still feel drowsy. Although I have adjusted my work and rest time, my body is not fully used to it. Sometimes I still feel in a trance when I get up so early to memorize.

But all can be overcome.

Su Tong memorized books for a while, and when he was too sleepy, he went to the bathroom to wash his face with cold water.

Immediately after being stimulated by the cold water, you will be refreshed without any feeling of sleepiness.

But Su Tong raised his head and looked at the mirror in front of him.

The boy in the mirror was a little haggard, with drooping eyebrows, and only a pair of bright eyes, embedded in the sky like stars.

Eyes flicker.

He was a little confused as to why the girl insisted on helping him... He was not a fool, he could feel the girl's kindness towards him from the beginning to the end, and everything she did was to save him from the abyss of self-abandonment pull out.

But why?

They are not relatives, not even friends, they just met each other a few days ago next to his house, and the two bumped their heads... Could it be that that made Su Tongren stupid?

Of course not.

Because the girl used to say.

She helped him just because she saw him pitiful, like seeing a pitiful little dog covered in bruises on the side of the road. She has the ability, the conditions, and also love, so she can naturally take him in as a puppy.

But really... is it really that simple?

Is the love of the rich really so rampant?

Su Tong didn't understand.

Just a faint unease.

Because he has heard a sentence - that is the famous quote written by Zweig in "The Queen of the Dead":

"All the gifts given by fate have already been secretly priced."

He took a deep breath.

So what is the price... Su Tong?

The boy lowered his eyes.

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At noon, Su Tong ordered a portion of clear noodles and dealt with them casually.

Start studying mathematics in the afternoon.

Mr. Zhao Daixiao deserves to be the overlord who monopolizes the number one age all year round. Both the wrong question book and study notes can be called golden legendary artifacts, especially the wrong question book——Zhao Daixiao has all the questions he missed, including major types of questions. After doing the analysis, I even summed up a set of easy-to-understand general-purpose formulas. The so-called one-size-fits-all, as long as you understand one of the example questions, you can understand most of the same question types.

Su Tong was studying while eating noodles, and was indulging in it, but suddenly there was a jingle jingle ringing in his ear.

He subconsciously took out his phone and looked at it.

Unfamiliar number.