Why Ignorant Harems Are Dangerous

13 – #03. Definition of Happiness (4)

My eyes hurt.

My throat was sore and sore, and I couldn’t tell how much time had passed. The moonlight was still shining on this clearing, and I couldn’t help but realize that there was no one to see the scenery with.

When I suddenly turned my head, I saw Mea and Lauren behind me.

I couldn’t tell what kind of expression he was making.

I just feel the cold.

“Thank you for crying for the owner.”

Lauren came over to me and bowed her head slightly.

I couldn’t help but ask.

“Why, you are Jinjo. But why…….”

I couldn’t bring myself to say it.

Why did you die?

The moment I said that, it really felt like Neira had left this world forever. I couldn’t bear to say it because I felt like I was admitting that I was someone I would never see again.

He closed his eyes for a moment.

“Answer me.”

“If you know, you may regret it.”

“It’s okay, answer me!!”

At this, Lauren put on a bitter expression.

Beside her, Mea blocked him and shook her head, but Lauren, who was looking at me all the time, eventually removed that arm and took a step forward to say in silence.

“Because I didn’t vamp.”

“…… What?”

My neck was itching.

“Since I met you and some time has passed, Jinjo has not sucked the blood of a single person. So it must have been destined to be like this one day.”

“That… ….”

At the moment, the nausea was intense.

Unbearable nausea.

My stomach hurts and my head hurts, but Neira was still in my arms with her eyes closed with a comfortable face, so I tried to hold back the upset.

He didn’t vamp a human at all.

At those words, memories of the past flashed by.

Neira killed several lives by blood-sucking humans.

Even so, I felt her sense of alienation and fear while looking at her, who did not feel any guilt about her, but more than that, I felt sorry for her for not understanding her human nature.

She’s sucking her blood to death.

It’s a bit sad to see her not knowing that she’s human.

So I said let’s fix it little by little.

“…… The true ancestor’s vampirism isn’t just about consuming blood. In order to construct that mighty existence, we have no choice but to touch the human source.”

I couldn’t understand everything, but I knew one thing.

Humans who are blood-sucked by Jinjo die.

I just hoped that she would understand humans and be a bit restrained, but her vampirism alone would kill a human.

Then I am.

Everything she said and did to her I ever told her.

“…… It’s because of me.”

I killed her by her.

Her act of wanting to understand her humanity, her innocence through her ignorance killed her. An insignificant being like me killed a strong person who was the true ancestor vampire and rose to the strongest ranks on the continent.

“I killed Neira.”

“He was happy until the end. He understood that his life was not long, and he tried to value time with you more than anything else.”

But I left her like that, her her.

She is not only her.

I left them.

“Why? If only I had told you earlier…….”

I couldn’t speak any more.

Because I know that those words have no meaning.

It was unbearably disgusting.

It seemed that my cursed ability, or perhaps me as a human being, had ruined everything. Her guilt that I had killed her because I was nothing weighed on her shoulders.

Why should I live and she should die.

Isn’t it usually supposed to be the other way around?

My country is meaningless, wouldn’t her life be much more valuable than a worthless human being? The ending of dying while being swung by this damn curse, isn’t that too much?

“…… Yet.”

Humans who are blood-sucked by Jinjo die.

They said the reason she died was because she didn’t vamp a human, but if that’s the case, she might still be able to get it back.

Yes, that’s it.

She is a true vampire.

She is a being with life force that is far superior to other beings, so she might be able to live if you give her blood. For now, it’s just a pause, if only blood is given.

She drew a knife from her waist.

If I could save her through her death, what would be more valuable than this?

“What are you going to do?”

“…… You have to live.”

I can’t let her die here.

It’s still okay.

She is the strongest life on the continent. There’s no way she could die from something like that. So, if she drinks my blood, she will definitely be able to come back to life.

Yes, this is the correct one.

Nara has finally found the usefulness of a worthless human being.

Maybe I was born for this.

“Stop it.”

“It’s not too late.”

As she put the blade to cut her arm, she felt a throbbing pain in her hand.

The sword I was holding fell far away before I knew it.

“You told me to stop!!”

She kicked my wrist.

Why?

I couldn’t understand that fact, and I didn’t want to understand it.

“I have to live. I can’t let it go like this.”

“Please stop.”

“…… Are you okay. If I think this is my punishment, it’s to the point where I’m left with a change.”

It seemed that I had finally found the value of existence.

My mistake.

It’s her chance to correct her mistakes that have driven her to this state.

“Yes, you can eat blood. If she stopped her vampirism and became like this, it could be reversed in her blood. Yes, that’s it. She’s a vampire, so my blood….”

At that moment, my neck turned.

Enduring her sore pain, I turned her head to see Mea glaring at me with her fresh red face.

“What are you going to do with that? Will you die?”

“…… That’s right.”

“If you save it, what will you do from then on?”

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Dark tears formed around Mea’s eyes.

“You said you wanted this woman to live. So what if she gets this woman back to life? She has no choice but to take human lives in order to continue living. Are you going to force it on a woman who refuses to do so and dies in nobility?”

I couldn’t answer.

If it was my life, I could have answered it casually.

“Calm down. Neira is already dead, and saying she wants her to live is like saying she wants someone else to die.”

“…… Then what should I do?”

“Please come to your senses, please…… !!”

Then what should I do?

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Do you really have no choice but to let Neira go?

So vain? Through my fault?

That’s so sad.

This shouldn’t be happening. I just wanted Neira to think about humans and not kill them.

I didn’t expect this ending.

“…… He came to love man.”

Lauren came up to me and touched her shoulder.

The thick hand of the man we had been arguing with a while ago pressed heavily on my shoulder.

“Being in love with you made him see human beings differently, and being with you made him realize that they were not just scapegoats.”

“…… I am.”

“At least you gave him the happiest time of his entire life. I can tell from watching him from his side.”

I lowered my head and looked at Neira.

Pale skin.

It was so sad that I couldn’t see those red eyes again, but on the contrary, seeing her relaxed expression made me feel mixed.

Is this the real ending?

Should I be satisfied and convinced with this?

It seemed like the outcome of my ignorance.

I didn’t know that her true ancestor’s vampirism always killed her humans, and I just wanted her to look at the world from a slightly different point of view, sympathizing with the person who died in front of her eyes.

Because she saw humans as worthless prey, she hoped to understand the existence of humans with a slightly different perspective.

My thoughts killed her, are you satisfied with that?

“There are different forms of happiness. This is what the owner once said. He left smiling until the end, so I can dare to say that I was happy to see him.”

Tears flowed.

There are different forms of happiness.

Those words were like a kind of salvation to me, but on the contrary, I couldn’t forgive myself for putting my heart on the line.

So I cried.

She cried and cried at the top of her voice.

I saw the tears dripping down from me and soaking Neira’s cheeks, and it was all the more saddening that no matter how much I wiped them, they couldn’t be erased.

Time just flew by.

In the place where she left, in the place where she confessed her love.

Leaving behind the endlessly passing time, I cried.

I don’t even know how much time has passed.

Her voice was barely coming out now.

Lauren came over to me and grabbed her arm around her Neira and shook her head.

“…… Let him go now.”

“Why?”

“We must take him back to our hometown.”

At those words, I bit my teeth.

I didn’t want to break up, and I didn’t want to let her go.

Lauren looked at me and closed her eyes with a bitter expression.

“The true ancestor is immortal. Its existence is inherited and handed down forever, so maybe you can come back by dipping yourself in the fountain of life.”

“Really, hey?”

“Nothing is certain. There is no certainty that you will even be resurrected as the same existence. All I know is that the true ancestors naturally return to the fountain of life as their bodies last longer, and that they are reborn as different beings after that.”

Then, even if he returned after going back there, there was no guarantee that it was Neira himself.

“In all of our history, there has never been a case of a true ancestor dying like this. So everything is undecided, and no one knows the future.”

“…… How long will it take?”

“Generally, it is said that it takes more than a hundred years for ancestors to return to the fountain of life and be reborn.”

…… Is it.

There’s no way Neira herself didn’t know this.

Is that why she said she can’t be by my side from now on? Even if she came back, it made my heart ache that she might not be Neira herself.

“I understand your heart, but let him go now.”

Still, his words that he didn’t know kept ringing in my head.

I know it’s a negative probability, but maybe, just like he said, nothing is certain.

“…… When I come back, I want to greet her with her smiling face.”

“If such a day comes while you are still alive, we invite you to our hometown. It is a special service.”

He smiled and took Neira from my arms.

“Then I will excuse myself.”

“…… When that day comes, I will beg you.”

Lauren looked at me like that and left her last words.

“You are loved by Jinjo. It’s not very nice for such a man to droop his shoulders. So straighten your shoulders until the end.”

“I…….”

“I liked you quite a bit too. How far can a weak human body go? It’s a pity you didn’t get to see it, but I wish you the best of luck.”

With that said, Lauren kept Neira’s body in her coffin and then she slowly left us.

I just looked at the back until the end.

I didn’t know it would turn out like this.

I hated the ignorance of not knowing.

“…… Hey.”

I talked to Mea, who had been by my side until then.

I didn’t look back.

She just quietly brought out her words that had been building up inside her.

“I, Neira, couldn’t answer the words that I love you until the very last moment.”

She didn’t answer.

But it was okay.

I just wanted to pour out this resentment to someone.

“I don’t know what she was thinking when she came to me, and how she felt when she waited for me.”

Her head felt like it would burst at the thought that if I hadn’t left the imperial palace like I was running away, she might have been able to protect her what was left of her life.

Come to think of it, I always regretted it.

And now.

I always repeat only belated regrets.

* * *

Everything has been sorted out.

Watching the morning sun rise, Mea looked up at the sky.

“Bad b*tch.”

In this way, you have become forever.

Now I will live in him all the time.

She sighed and let out a sigh.

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During the battle with Neira, she remembered Neira’s words at the end that she asked her to take her Seo.

‘I will die soon anyway. That’s why she risked the rest of her life to get happiness, so it’s okay. I want to tell you that.’

Then what about me?

In order to stay by his side, I accepted the role of whipping him out of guilt. Because I wanted Seo to live even that way, and I wanted him to gain some peace of mind by rebuking him for his guilt.

‘I feel sorry for you.’

Bad b*tch.

‘I’m sorry for taking on a painful role. And please take good care of Mr. Seo.’

I didn’t want to take on a role like this.

But she couldn’t refuse the request.

‘Please protect him from now on. Because he will be hurt by words that affirm himself. Perhaps you are the one to save him.’

I didn’t like this kind of relationship.

A relationship that seems to set up thorns and stab each other.

There was no way Mea would not love him. He said it was all lies and faked by ability, but at least the feelings and happiness they felt were all real.

‘You are cold on the outside, but inside you are the kindest person. So, I hope you will support him with that kindness.’

A shameful year.

Mea swallowed her anger and looked up at the sky.

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Dawn broke and the darkness began to lift.

Today is about to start as if nothing had happened. The world has not changed even though the great man named Jinjo has passed away.

“A vampire who stopped sucking blood because he loved humans.”

She whispered and scattered the petals she held in her hand into the air.

It rides on the wind and flies farther and farther.

“…… Infinite respect to you.”

Far away.

The petals soon flew to a place where they could not be reached with their hands.