my personal villain system

Chapter 222 The Trial of Fear

The darkness, the boundless darkness, covered my eyes like a curtain, and I could hardly distinguish the person in front of me now.

"Why?" I slowly spit out my doubts. "Just because the relationship between the two can't last long, so you have to abandon yourself?"

"I'm sorry." But the cold light in that person's hand in the darkness was still so sharp, and his eyes still seemed to emit light.I originally thought that he would always be my sunshine.

In the next second, Yin Hong's vision blurred, and the figure slowly fell to the ground.Black and red are intertwined, and only one cold light is still flashing.

I want to forget, but such a distorted scene becomes more and more impossible to forget.That person is everything to me, and the time we spent together is unforgettable.Now he took his own life with his own hands, and right in front of my eyes.

How could I forget it!
Originally he was my sunshine just like his name.But now, he is my nightmare.

(empty line)
As if I heard something in the haze, I woke up from my sleep.The scene just now is still imprinted in my mind.I have never forgotten this scene, I always remember it.

But now, that man's voice echoed in my ears again.However, no one can be seen.

Hallucinations...?For such a long time of torture, I have been struggling to support it.Maybe one day I will really go crazy?

Cosplay is done every day.Instead, his heart has been covered with dust.The person who was able to make me forget the role I tried to play and return to a little bit of authenticity is no longer there...

Like a doomed tragedy.

I yawned and got up from the bed.The cycle of life day after day seems to be frozen in a line of text in a novel.Once it's over, it's back to the beginning.So, even if it's a little perfunctory, it won't matter, right?
Unwilling to take care of personal hygiene, she hurriedly washed her face and left the house.The usually quiet street is a bit lively today, as if some people are watching something.

I also leaned up to see what they were looking at.Originally, I was dismissive of such excitement, but now that I have more and more time, I no longer pursue saving my own time, but only think about how to make time pass faster in the senses.

Watching the excitement is at least a way of pastime.

But this excitement is really not good, it's just a little car accident.Not even hurt.I have seen the wounded lying in a pool of blood before, and I have also seen people on the street suddenly bleeding from all seven orifices and falling to the ground.Perhaps these views are more able to arouse my interest.

"Senior!" I was stopped when I was about to leave.I already knew who it was just by hearing the voice.This person's name is Xiaoxue, and he has been going to school with me recently.reason?Not sure.Maybe it's just for fun.

"Hello." He replied indifferently.I have always been like this, only giving the bare minimum answer.I don't want to get involved with anyone.In case someone else sees something, then...I'm afraid I'll follow that person.

"Senior, I really got admitted to Noria University! From now on, I will really be your junior!" Xiaoxue reported the results of the college entrance examination excitedly, but I didn't take it seriously.We just chatted a few words, like people who were assigned together in the group stage.Once the relationship is over, it doesn't take long to become strangers.

After walking another two or three steps, Xiaoxue stopped talking, but seemed to be holding back something.Wanted to say something, but didn't say it.Ah, it seems that I suddenly understood something.But how should I tell her?How much does she know about this?
"study……"

"I'm sorry." Before she could finish speaking, I rejected her directly.I don't know what she's going to say, but I can already make a rough guess.

This is a meaningless thing, although I understand the pain of rejection better than anyone.

But at least she is not farewell to me.And me and him, no longer possible.

(empty line)
Day after day, the cycle never stops.That girl hasn't seen me for a long time.How many days?Or dozens of days?I don't want to count them in detail.I am doomed to deviate from the expectations of others, because I am in a quagmire of pain, unable to take care of others.

I wake up as usual, and every time I get to this time, I wonder if God was too careless and gave me the wrong body.

I used to imagine that if I could decide what I looked like, what kind of body would I want?But such thinking makes no sense.Reality will not change at will, and the so-called gods simply do not exist.Although I have such a wish, although I have been struggling, at least I still remember materialism very clearly.

What the eyes don't see is what doesn't exist, and that's how I've always seen everything.

But now, the sun disappears, and my world is only left with boundless darkness.My heart has long been cold, and no one can melt it anymore.

Yes, it can't be changed, right?

Yes, everything is doomed, right?
Yeah, it's no different,

This kind of life cycle continues until the moment when life ends, is this my destined ending?

If only life had changed a little bit, maybe I shouldn't have been born a boy in the first place.But these are destined to be irreversible, there is no choice.There is no room for passbacks.

Can only drift with the tide, and finally submerged in the times.

(empty line)
Is it bright?When can I see this in my sleep?Didn't I lose the power to dream a long time ago?

In the light, there came a voice, the voice of my sun.Has the longing for him reached an uncontrollable peak?In this chaos, he heard his voice again?

"I have heard your wish, and I will fulfill your wish. Of course you have to pay some price." Is there a law of reality in the dream, "But don't worry, you won't feel anything. When When you wake up again, you'll be someone else. Hope you're having a good time."

Haha, I'm still wishing for such meaningless things, I'm really hopeless.

"Huh? You still seem to be doubting?" The voice in the light showed a trace of disdain, "Human beings always doubt themselves habitually. Forget it, you should wake up soon, and you will understand when the time comes."

What... the words got stuck in his throat, and when he wanted to ask, it felt like he was dragged by some force.My body lost my balance and I fell to the ground.

Then, I found myself waking up.Did I fall out of bed?I wanted to stand up, and almost at the same moment I realized that something was not right.

"Eh------?!"

(End of this chapter)