Time-traveling Bastards Are Politics

Chapter 444 Unbelievable

Back in the mansion, seeing the millet porridge brought up by the servants, Feng Yong was stunned: "Pumpkin and millet porridge?"

"Yes. Didn't you say you wanted to eat this?" Bai Lan was a little surprised.

Feng Yong looked at the golden pumpkin and millet porridge with a thin layer of rice fat on the surface, and sighed deeply: "Lan'er, my father died because of this."

"You're talking about..." Bai Lan frowned and asked, "Then you want to eat this... Forget it, don't eat it, let me ask someone to do something else?"

Feng Yong shook her head: "No need. My father is a top chef locally and even in the whole country. Not to mention this kind of millet porridge, even if he is not good at it, he is also very good at it. He doesn't know how to do these things, but he can't stand his diligence, and gradually, he has gained some fame in this industry.

But the cook industry is not that simple.Sometimes, whether it is delicious or not, does not depend on the cook, but on the guests.The most delicious dish is what the guests like to eat.But my father doesn't think so. When many guests have special requirements, my father will still follow his own way.

So many people are very dissatisfied with this, and even very dissatisfied with their father.Because of this, my father had no room for advancement and could only work as a cook in a famous local restaurant.Before I came, it was because of my father.

My father was wronged. The pumpkin and millet porridge he made killed people.But no matter who I am or who I am, I know that since my father became the chef, he rarely cooks these things himself.But no matter who made the millet porridge, the chef is responsible, so my father had no choice but to admit his mistake.

No one expected that my father would plead guilty in the end. He admitted that he did it on purpose. I was also anxious and wanted to help. No one would have thought that I would come here suddenly.At that time, I was told that as long as I followed suit, my father would be safe and sound.

Who would have thought that once this happens, there will be no going back.I have also implicated so many people.After I finished those things, they told me that my father had confessed and was dead..."

Bai Lan was a little surprised when she heard this: "You said that what you did before was all ordered by someone?"

Feng Yong nodded: "You won't believe it if you say it, since the death of the young prince, I have never received any news from these people, so I don't know what happened, maybe I have already treated them. There's no use for it.

Or, they thought that after my father died, I had nothing to control, so they let it go and stopped embarrassing me.But to be honest, after all, I'm still helping the evildoers, and I'm still sorry for you. "

"What are you talking about, you don't want to do that, don't you? Don't you have anything to do? No one blames you, but, you can't tell Mr. Jingmo about these things." Bai Lan said with a frown.

Feng Yong pretended not to understand: "Why?"

"Look at Master Jing Mo just now, and you told him what he thought? Besides, he believed Feng Yong because he was his nephew. If he knew your identity, you can guarantee that he will not Would he think that you killed Feng Yong and killed you in a fit of anger?" Bai Lan asked with a frown.

Feng Yong nodded: "You are right, but, aren't you afraid of these things?"

"Why am I afraid? I am not Bai Zhi, and besides, do you think I have anything to lose? No more. What am I afraid of? Besides, I am not Bai Zhi, and you are not Feng Yong. Fair enough, isn't it?" Bai Lan smiled.

Identity has always been a matter that Bai Lan cares about very much.

"You seem to be more lively recently, and you didn't think you knew so much before."

"In the past, things had nothing to do with me. Whether I spoke or not was just a matter of mood. Now things are related to me. How can I stay out of it? Besides, I just said some things that everyone knows."

"I don't mean anything else, it's good like this, I just feel a little fresh."

"You just don't know me. You always think I should be like Baizhi."

"No, that's not what I meant. In fact, I've never met Bai Zhi. The first person I knew was you. You don't have to worry too much about this matter."

"Really? But even if you have never met Bai Zhi, at the beginning, I followed Bai Zhi's habit of speaking and acting."

"Lan'er, do you know a saying that good-looking skins are the same, but interesting souls are not the same. Even if you have the same face and speak the same words as Bai Zhi, I can still recognize you, because you are different from her after all. It was the first time I saw you in Wanqingju, among so many girls from aristocratic families who were punished, only you, covered in scars, dressed in white, and with stubborn and unyielding eyes. You, it is you, are different after all."

"Oh, I know, you have always taken the matter of Bai Zhi to heart. I don't have to tell you this, but I don't want you to keep looking down on this matter. Not to mention that I have never seen Bai Zhi, even if I have seen Bai Zhi and How? The one who is by my side now is you after all. I am not the Feng Yong who opposes Bai Zhi's poems, and you are not the Bai Zhi who faces Feng Yong's tearful eyes. We are neither, so why think so much? Lan Er , the one who likes Bai Zhi is Feng Yong, not me."

"Lan'er, we still have to do a lot of things together. I don't want to make you sad because of those unnecessary things. I admit that I really wanted to fulfill Feng Yong's last wish at the beginning. I wanted to rescue Bai Zhi and take care of her, like It's the same as my sister. But later, when we got to know each other better, I realized that I not only regard you as my sister, but also you, no matter who you are. I also thought that if one day, Wei Huaqing finds you Things, but now, I understand, I can't give him this chance, I can't give up on you."

"Why are you crying? Did I say something wrong?"

"No, no, I was excited."

In fact, I have said this question more than once.

"Lan'er, do you still hate me to this day?"

"What? Why hate you?"

"I sympathized with Concubine Rong back then, do you still hate me?"

"Hate you? What do you hate? Do you sympathize with her? Maybe I did hate her once. At that time, I thought, you actually sympathized with an enemy who ruined my family, and you actually felt sorry for our common enemy. But afterwards, I I just figured it out, you are not Feng Yong, so you don’t understand my feelings. You help Feng Yong live the rest of her life out of a sense of responsibility, maybe I shouldn’t have so many demands on you. Sometimes I stand by you Thinking about it from a different perspective, you are also very pitiful, you somehow became this Feng Yong, and experienced a lot that you shouldn't have experienced, sometimes I even thought, if you were not like this, maybe you would live a very comfortable life now. Perhaps, it is Feng Yong who has failed you after all. If so, why should I ask you, like me, to hate Concubine Rong?"

"Lan'er, you still don't understand me after all. I sympathize with Concubine Rong not because I am not Feng Yong. I have never felt that I have lived such a life because of Feng Yong. I know in my heart that I have today's Today's life is all about myself, trusting others, and taking the blame. I can't blame others, but myself. I sympathize with Concubine Rong because I deeply understand her difficulties. Although she has done many wrong things, However, what she is thinking about is nothing more than the glory of her Dong family. If she is not the daughter of the Dong family, if she is not selected during the draft, she may marry a high-ranking official and live happily by her parents. this life.

But because she is the daughter of the Dong family, her life has never been dominated by her alone. Although she lives a life of luxury and wealth, she has always been fighting for her family. Just love.She has never received the love she deserves from her husband like a normal woman, and she even has no control over the future of her own children.All she can do is to let her family, her children, and her future be decided by herself through her own intrigue.Although many things were wrong, but in the end it became like that, I really pity her.But Lan'er, just because I pity her doesn't mean I can forgive her.

Although I pity her and I don't hate her, I can't forgive her.Even though she is my aunt in name, even though she is Feng Yong's mother's sister, I still cannot forgive her.She made Feng's family, Bai's family, and Sol's family panic all day long, homeless, and their wives and children separated. How could I forgive her?She kept saying that it was for the glory of the Dong family, but she never thought that Feng Yong's mother was also from the Dong family!What she did with Dong Liangyu cannot be forgiven, let alone anything else.It's just that, seeing her radiant face become like that, I not only feel that she deserves it, but I also feel sorry for her.I'm just pitiful, she could have been her favorite concubine, blowing the wind around her pillow, and making her family more prosperous, but she did what she shouldn't do and shamed herself and her family. "

"Feng Yong, Feng Yong, stop talking. No matter what you think, I won't blame you."

"Lan'er, you have to understand that no matter whether I am the real Feng Yong or not, no matter whether I have Feng's blood flowing in my body or not, I am the person you first met. I have never felt that these are things I shouldn't It was Feng Yong or you who did it, and made me suffer. Even if, as you said, I am not Feng Yong, I should not bear these, of course it is true, but now that I have you, how can I Maybe keep yourself out of it? Lan'er, Lan'er, I'm still the same person, do you understand?"

"I see."

"Lan'er, you know, how long have I wanted to tell you these words? Actually, I wanted to tell you that day, but it was delayed. Now, I finally said it."

"Even if you don't say these things, I never blame you. Because I know that no matter what you say, you are helping us to avenge from the beginning to the end. Whether it is Uncle or Lord Jingmo No matter how they look at you, it is impossible to change my opinion."

"I know, you have always believed in me."

"Lan'er, going to Saul, the shortest is a few months, the longest is a few years, are you really willing?"

"Why don't you want to? Now, I don't know who is left in the Bai family. I have no one to rely on. Besides, my identity can't be made public. Even if I find any relatives, I can't recognize each other, right? Why don't I do something for the Bai clan? I'm not that guilty. To be honest, I sometimes feel that if I didn't believe in the so-called parents when I was young, the things that happened later might not have happened. I indirectly Killed them, didn't it?"

"The affairs of the Bai family have nothing to do with you. To be honest, the main reason for the affairs of the Bai family is that people are too greedy, so they will be pushed along. No matter what status you come back from, the Bai family is like this. Why do you bother yourself?" blame?"

"No, that's not the case. If I hadn't appeared that day, you would have known the news of Bai Zhi's death. Then you wouldn't have tried everything to save me, and what happened later wouldn't have happened, right? Maybe, It shouldn't be there, it should be me."

"Have you still not understood? In fact, the reason why we are where we are today is not because of ourselves, whether I am Feng Yong, whether you will show up or not, whether Bai Zhi is dead or not, none of them can change today's ending. Do you understand? We are just pawns on the chessboard, or useless pawns, our reduction or increase will not change the overall situation at all, do you understand?"

"Then why are we going to Sol here? Since we are useless, why are we still doing this?"

"Whether we are useful or not depends on what we do. In Wei Huaqing, we are of course useless, but here we can do a lot of things. Besides, if others say we are useless, we will Is it useless? We need to let him know that even if everyone is rounded stones, we will be the sharpest ones."

"En! We will definitely be the top one!"

"Okay, we won't stand here anymore, we still have a lot of things to sort out, what are we doing here, thinking about it? Anyway, it's already like this, it's better to take one step at a time, it's useless to underestimate yourself too much."

"Well, let's go back then."

But after so many things, Bai Lan still cares most about this matter.

In fact, I don't know whether Bai Lan cares too much, or I don't care too much.

I don't know whether I care about my identity as Feng Yong, or whether I care about the misunderstanding of myself by the people around me.

It was Feng Yong who committed suicide first, so that she would fall on him, but such a fantasy, such an unimaginable result, who would believe it?
Plus Jingmo like that, really, would he believe his own words?

Without Feng Yong's identity, would Jing Mo still help him?

Many things, I really can't explain.

It can even be said that I dare not think about it.

(End of this chapter)