Marriage with a child: the second wife is too popular

Song Yichen and I are already having our second child. If this child can't be saved, then I don't know what to do with the rest of my life.

"Heart..."

After I finished speaking, I left the living room without looking back. When I returned to my bedroom, besides crying loudly, I also knew how to vent my inner emotions.

I don't know how long I cried, but when I cried again, I actually fell asleep. When I woke up again, the scenery outside was pitch black, just like my current mood.

I used to think that God was very fair to me. Although it made me lose my previous memory, at least it gave me a very good marriage, but I didn't expect that my child would get such a disease.

Why did God treat me like this, I have never done anything harmful to the sky, why can't it give me a healthy baby, why does it punish me like this.

In the next period of time, I basically stayed in the hospital with the baby.

But Song Yichen was desperately looking for a donor for bone marrow allocation. After more than ten days, Song Yichen lost a lot of weight. Looking at me, I feel very distressed.

I thought that Song Yichen was the only one who knew that I couldn't be matched with my child, but what I didn't expect was that everyone knew it, and I was the only one who didn't.

This made me very sad. In the next period of time, I often sat there alone.

In fact, I know that they are all thinking about my body, but I just can't get over this hurdle in my heart.

Seeing the baby's body getting worse day by day, I felt very self-blame in my heart. I couldn't figure out why, as the mother of the child, my bone marrow couldn't match.

I also checked a lot of information on the Internet, and the answers are very unclear, but I have to accept this reality.

No matter what, I will always be by my baby's side. No matter what the ending is, I believe I will bear it.

At this moment, Song Kaixin walked over with the thermos box in his hand, it seemed that it was time for lunch.

Since I knew I couldn't match my daughter, people in the family were very worried about my situation.

In fact, I'm fine, I just want to be alone and don't want to talk too much, but in their eyes, it seems that I will commit suicide at any time.

Even Song Kaixin, who doesn't understand anything for a day, will come to see me every day, and she will personally deliver the food to me every time. Although I can't eat much of the food delivered every time, she will still insist on serving me. send it.

This kind of careful care made me very touched.

"Sister-in-law, it's time to eat."

After speaking, Song Kaixin put the lunch box in front of me, and put the dishes he brought in front of me one by one.

Today Song Kaixin brought these dishes that I like to eat. Every time Song Kaixin brings delicious food for me, but I just can't eat it.

I know that Song Yichen personally cooked these dishes for me after get off work. Although Song Yichen took good care of me, every time I think of him hiding from me, I feel very angry in my heart.

Since that day, I haven't spoken a word to you again. I also know that Song Yichen is very sad in his heart, and now the whole thing is on him, but I just can't forgive him.

"Happy, you can put it there first, I don't want to eat it."

After I finished speaking, I turned my head and continued to look at my daughter in the isolation ward.

This little girl is cute and loving. Since she was born, she seldom cries. No matter whether the nurse takes a bath with her, or even if the nurse gives her an injection, the baby does not cry. She always looks at others with big eyes , as if these things had nothing to do with her.

This kind of strength makes me very sad as a mother. If the baby cries, maybe I will feel better in my heart.

"Sister-in-law, don't be like this. You should eat a little. Look at how thin you are now. Even if you can't do a bone marrow transplant for your baby, you can't torture yourself like this."

When Song Kaixin said this, there was a cry in his voice.

"I believe that if the baby can understand now, the baby will not feel good in his heart. Sister-in-law, you are not sad now, you have to take care of your body now, so that you can have a healthy body and take care of the baby, right? ?”

Hearing what Kaixin said, my eyes became moist involuntarily.

"Why do you torture yourself like this? Don't tell me that if you torture yourself like this, the baby's illness will be cured. If it can be cured, then I am willing, and I will not eat with you."

Saying that, Song Kaixin sat beside me with an aggrieved face, and reached out to secretly wipe away the tears on his face.

"Sister-in-law, I know you are sad, and our hearts are also uncomfortable. I believe that Yanran will get better. Not only you have tortured yourself, but even my brother has become so skinny. Are you really Is it because of this incident that people are not human and ghosts? Where is the sister-in-law I knew before?"

Seeing happy so sad, in fact, I really want to comfort her, hope she won't be so sad, but I really can't tell.

"I see you all suffering so much, and I feel very uncomfortable in my heart. If I can exchange my life for Yanran, I will not hesitate to exchange my life for Yanran's hope of surviving. I only hope that you and your brother will be together. All will be fine.”

When talking about this, Song Kaixin burst into tears.

I have never seen Song Kaixin so sad, it made me feel like I did something wrong for being depressed for a while.

In fact, I really want to be strong, so that everyone feels better, but I really can't do it, although I know that my current state makes them very worried.

But I never had the idea of ​​committing suicide, I just want to stay in my own world alone, I don't want them to enter my world, I just want to stay alone quietly.

"Happy, don't be like this, okay, I'm fine, I'm just not hungry, I'll eat when I'm hungry later."

Suddenly Song Kaixin stretched out his hand and held my hand tightly, looking at me with a begging expression.

"Sister-in-law, I really can't take it anymore, can you go back to the strong and cheerful you before, I don't want to see you like this, I don't like your negative appearance now, even if Yanran's illness cannot be cured in the future, I will I also hope that you can face life with strength, not like you are now. You have to understand that you have the support of your family behind you, and you are not alone."

I always knew I had everyone's support behind me, and I also knew they loved me so much and I loved them so much.

"Do you know that your current behavior makes us very worried. I don't know what you think in your heart. I just hope that you can face this matter correctly. I believe that anyone I don't want such a thing to happen, but since it happened, we should face it correctly, not like you."

I didn't expect Kaixin to say such a thing in a few days.

I still remember that when I had a heart-to-heart talk with Kaixin, she still did whatever she wanted like a child. I didn't expect that this period of time would actually change her so much.

"Thank you! I will definitely become stronger. Don't worry, I won't be overwhelmed. I just want to be alone."

In fact, I really want everyone not to worry about my affairs, but the more I think about it, the more they worry about me, as if I am a child who can't grow up.

"You want to be quiet and no one will stop you, but I hope you can eat on time every day. Do you know that my mother has fallen ill because of you!"

Godmother is sick, why no one told me about this.

"Actually, I don't want to tell you about this, but I just want you to know that your current body does not belong to you alone, you belong to all of us. If something goes wrong with you alone, I believe no one will feel better Yes, I hope you can take care of your health, just for my parents, okay?"

No wonder the godmother didn't come to the hospital for a couple of days, it turned out that she was sick.

A few days ago, the godmother came to see her every day, but she didn't come to the hospital at all in the past two days. I was still wondering if something was delayed, and I fell ill after a long time.

"What's wrong with Mom? Is Mom uncomfortable? Did she go to see it?"

During this period of time, the godmother's body itself was very bad. I didn't expect her to really fall ill.

"I've seen it. It's nothing serious. The doctor said that you should not be too angry. If you get angry again, your mother's body won't be able to take it anymore. So I hope sister-in-law, because your mother treats you so well, you will be in front of your mother." It’s okay to pretend, but you must not be like this, if you continue to do this, this family will really collapse.”

Only then did I realize the seriousness of the matter.It seems that my mood is really messing up the house.

I used to think that my own emotions would have little effect on them, at most it would be just a few days of sadness. I didn't expect that I would make my godmother angry. This was something I never thought of.

No, I can't stay in the hospital. I have to see my godmother now. I can't cause any problems with my godmother's body because of my selfishness. If this is the case, then I will never be able to forgive myself for the rest of my life .

"Happy, where is mom now?"

He was happy while sitting on the sofa, and said with a sad face.

"Mom is resting at home."

After getting the answer, I ran out without looking back.And at this moment, Song Kaixin's voice came from behind.

"Sister-in-law, where are you going! Don't you eat?"

How can I still be in the mood to eat now, I just want to see how the godmother is doing.

"I'm not going to eat. I'm going to see my godmother now. You just give that meal to your brother." After I finished speaking, I turned my head and ran out of the hospital.

When I hurried to the house, my godfather was busy in the kitchen, and he was very surprised when he saw me.

"Xinxin, aren't you in the hospital! Why did you come back? Is something wrong with the baby? I see you so anxious."

Talking about the godfather, he hurried out of the kitchen. When the godfather came to me, he looked at me worriedly.

"Dad, the baby is fine. I heard from Kaixin that my mother is sick. I'll come back specially to see how my mother is doing now?"