half thorns, half joy

Tang Xuan didn't dare to think too much at first, she just thought it was because she had encountered too many messy things recently and was in a bad mood, so she postponed it.

But after a whole month of delay, Tang Xuan finally panicked.

Later, she interviewed several advertising companies, all of which were small stores with low wages, so she searched and searched. Tang Xuan still felt that the first one had the best comprehensive conditions, so she joined the job after a few days.

Right now, she has been working for nearly a month.

"Xiao Tang, I'll go out for a while, and you can lock the door back when it's time, so you don't have to wait for me to come back." The boss swung the bag on his back and instructed Tang Xuan.

Tang Xuan glanced at the time, there was still half an hour before 05:30, she nodded, "Okay."

This small advertising company has only four people including the boss and Tang Xuan. One of them is going to have a baby, that's why the boss recruited Tang Xuan. Basically half of the front desk and clerk.

Half an hour later, Tang Xuan turned off the power, locked the glass door of the company, and prepared to go home.

She walked along the street for a while and saw a pharmacy. She hesitated for a while at the door of the store, until a passer-by looked at her curiously, and then mustered up the courage to go in.

"Hello, what do you need?" A little nurse in a white coat in the pharmacy immediately greeted her warmly.

Tang Xuan bit her lip, and nervously picked at the strap of her shoulder bag, "Well...I want...I want to buy a pregnancy test..."

"Oh, pregnancy test sticks, over here, which one do you want?" The little nurse was much more generous than Tang Xuan, and led Tang Xuan to the shelf.

"...Anything is fine." Tang Xuan was so shy that she had the nerve to pick and choose.

The little nurse saw that Tang Xuan was shy, so she casually took one and put it in Tang Xuan's hand, "This one, there are many people buying this one."

Tang Xuan hummed, and tightly held the pregnancy test stick in her hand, "I'll go to pay the bill."

After leaving the pharmacy, Tang Xuan went to the vegetable market again, bought a few vegetables and a spare rib, and cooked for herself when she went home.

She was too afraid of the result of a certain conjecture, so she didn't dare to test it. She could only calm down as much as possible, deliberately pretending that she didn't care that much.

After cooking two dishes and washing the dishes, Tang Xuan took out the pregnancy test stick from her bag and went into the bathroom.

Her hands were trembling, and her heart was trembling along with it.

After taking a dozen or so deep breaths, Tang Xuan bit her lips tightly, opened her eyes and looked at the pregnancy test stick.

Two red lines suddenly appeared there.

Tang Xuan trembled. Looking at the two clear red lines, her mind went blank and she almost couldn't breathe.

"How could it be..." Even though she had thought of this possibility a long time ago, when the facts were in front of her eyes, she found that she didn't know what to do, and was completely stunned.

If she really had a child, then the child must be Xiao Zihan's.

The only possibility is that the day before she left, Xiao Zihan treated her like that...she had this child.

but……

Tang Xuan's nose was sore, and she couldn't help reaching out to touch her lower abdomen. She had clearly decided to leave Xiao Zihan far away and bid farewell to the past. Why did she suddenly become like this?
Could it be that her entanglement with Xiao Zihan was destined by heaven?
Tang Xuan sat on the toilet in the bathroom for a long time, until her legs went numb before limping back to the bedroom, lying on the bed in a daze.

She is only in her twenties. If she really has a child, how should she be responsible for the child? If the child is born, what will she do in the days to come?
Tang Xuan was confused, so she took out her mobile phone and searched for relevant information on the internet. Pregnancy out of wedlock, single mothers, these topics had a high number of clicks. Tang Xuan found hundreds of them in a random search.

After clicking in, most of them are telling their own experiences and opinions from others. Many opinions are answered seriously and are quite useful.

Tang Xuan watched it for a while, and couldn't help but post a post herself, asking for help from strangers on the Internet.

In the post, Tang Xuan described herself as a poor girl who was abandoned, she had no chance of reuniting with her ex, she did not plan to find someone new in the future, and planned to spend the rest of her life alone, asking netizens what to do in the future.

Different from the previous posts Tang Xuan read, the netizens who answered her this time all advised her to get rid of the child.

Tang Xuan was angry, and argued fiercely with the netizens: The child is innocent, so why take it away if you say so.

Netizen A replied: The child is indeed innocent, so you shouldn’t bring her into this world to suffer. Judging by your tone, it’s quite sick. Don’t harm the child.

Netizen B replied: That is, you have this kind of thought about spending the rest of your life alone. Why do you have a child? After the child is born, you get sick again and say you want to be alone. What about the child?
Netizen C replied: It is because there are so many irresponsible people that ZG has so many abandoned babies...

The more Tang Xuan watched, the more angry she became. Netizens completely misinterpreted her meaning and imagined her as a depressed woman with mental problems. In a fit of anger, Tang Xuan deleted the post and threw her phone aside.

If she was still hesitating whether to bring this child into the world, at this moment, she made up her mind completely that she must give birth to this child and raise it well.

Maybe it's because of her motivation again, Tang Xuan's mental state has improved a lot, and she is no longer as sluggish and muddling along as she was a month ago.She went to the hospital to make a diagnosis, consulted the doctor about the matters needing attention, and bought pregnancy-related books online.

But there were also times of trouble, that is, as the pregnancy got longer and longer, Tang Xuan started to have morning sickness.Some people have mild reactions to morning sickness, while others vomit to death.Tang Xuan is the type who vomits to death.

At first, the owner of the small company didn't care. Although his company is small, it has been in business for several years, and it is not the first pregnant woman under his staff.

But Tang Xuan's morning sickness reaction was too severe, almost to the point where she couldn't go to work normally.

The boss really couldn't stand it, so he could only persuade Tang Xuan, "Xiao Tang, you should stop coming to work with your body. You have just joined the company, and our small company doesn't have maternity leave or insurance. If you insist on going to work, what will happen to you?" Accidents, I can't afford it."

Tang Xuan knew what the boss was worried about, but hearing what the boss said was too straightforward, she always felt a little uncomfortable.

"Why don't you go back and have a good baby first, and then come back to work after you have finished giving birth. I'll save this position for you, how about it?"

"Thank you..." The boss said so much, it would be too disrespectful for Tang Xuan to insist on leaving.

She simply packed up her belongings and left the company with her bag on her back.

In fact, it's okay if she doesn't go to work, she still doesn't lack this little money for the time being, but if she doesn't go to work, she is afraid that she will be alone and think wildly.Especially recently, she herself can feel that her hormones are out of order, and her emotions are inexplicable.

But... hey...

Tang Xuan didn't go home directly, but went to the hospital again. She used to not care about her health, and when she was sick, she just took some medicine to deal with it. But now, she dare not be sloppy at all.

The doctor asked Tang Xuan about her situation, took her pulse and did some checks. Finally, she told Tang Xuan to rest well and eat well. She must be happy and not depressed.

Tang Xuan could do the above points, but the only thing that made her feel happy was too difficult for her. She couldn't think of anything that would make her happy.

There was no other way, Tang Xuan could only go to the video store and rent funny movies and cross talk sketches to watch at home.

By the fourth month, Tang Xuan's stomach gradually appeared, and it would be obvious if she wore tight-fitting clothes.

Since Tang Xuan left City A, she never used her old phone number or communication software. She uninstalled those things from her phone and changed to a new number.

Sometimes she misses, but no matter how much she misses, she will restrain herself.

Loneliness does not last forever. As long as she gives birth to the child well, she will have new relatives and life will have new goals and meanings.

Originally, Tang Xuan planned this way.

But she never expected that Zheng Yifan would actually find her.

Coincidentally, Zheng Yifan lost contact with Tang Xuan because of an accident at Tang Xuan's wedding. He made frequent mistakes at work and angered his boss. He was sent to Yanhui, a small county, for a business trip. In fact, he taught Zheng Yifan a lesson. .

Zheng Yifan didn't have any objection to this arrangement, and came decadently carrying a bag.

Originally, Zheng Yifan planned to let himself be in despair for a while before recovering himself. Unexpectedly, when he was cooperating with a small advertising company to produce a brochure, he saw Tang Xuan on the attendance sheet on the wall of the dilapidated small company. name.

Zheng Yifan's first reaction was that he was wrong.

He closed his eyes deeply, and opened them again, sure that he was right.Then he laughed at himself, thinking that he didn't expect to see the same name in this kind of place.

"Tang Xuan..." Zheng Yifan stared at Tang Xuan's words and recited them impatiently.

The boss who was ordering brochures with a stapler heard his voice and asked curiously, "Why, do you know Xiao Tang?"

"Hmm..." Zheng Yifan murmured, "Of course I know him." He was immersed in his own world, not answering the boss's question.

However, the boss thought that Zheng Yifan really knew Tang Xuan, and ordering brochures was boring, so he chatted casually, "Xiao Tang from our company, you did a great job making this brochure. Next time you still need it, I will Ask Xiao Tang to do it for you, and I guarantee that you will be very satisfied after reading it. This time you let me change it again and again, and I am exhausted."

Zheng Yifan's eyes still fell on Tang Xuan's words, without any deviation.

"Speaking of which, Xiao Tang is the same as you. She came from City A. She graduated from the Normal University. Don't think our company is small, but the employees are actually of a high standard."

Only then did Zheng Yifan realize that something was wrong. He turned his head to look at the boss, and asked a little uncertainly, "You said... this Tang Xuan graduated from Normal University?"

The boss thought that what Zheng Yifan said meant that he was lying, so he said seriously: "Of course, I have nothing to brag about, I can do whatever I want. People also want to come back home to accompany their parents, so they came back."

Going home with my parents...sounds like someone else again...

But, is there anyone else named Tang Xuan in the Normal University?
Zheng Yifan didn't give up, and asked one more question, "Boss, this Tang Xuan, do you have her photo or information?"

The boss was surprised, "Huh? Why do you want these?"

Realizing that his request was too abrupt, Zheng Yifan quickly explained: "I also graduated from Normal University, and I have a classmate named Tang Xuan. I want to see if this Tang Xuan of yours is my classmate."

The hundreds of brochures that Zheng Yifan ordered this time are already considered big customers for this small advertising company. If they can get in touch with big customers, then there is no need to worry about future cooperation.

The boss put down the stapler in his own mind, "Okay then, I have a resume that she printed out when she came for the interview. There are photos on it. You can see if it's your classmate."

Zheng Yifan's heart suddenly hung up.

"Here, this is it." Not many people came to this small company for interviews. The boss opened the drawer and quickly found Tang Xuan's resume, and handed it to Zheng Yifan. "This little girl looks pretty good in person, just like this photo, there is absolutely no P picture."

Although the boss didn't say these things in front of Tang Xuan, but when introducing his employees to outsiders, of course he would praise them vigorously, so as to show that his company is great.

Zheng Yifan took the thin page of resume, his eyes fell on the color photo on the resume, and he was stunned.