half thorns, half joy

"This..." The men looked at each other in blank dismay, not daring to vent their anger.Xiao Zihan arranged for them to investigate a woman named Tang Xuan.But no matter how they searched, there was no trace of this person.

Xiao Zihan flicked his hand, and the document slammed on the desk with a bang, which made several people shrink back in fright.

"Mr. Xiao, you told me not to say anything. We can only investigate in private. We have contacted our partners in the industry. Whether it is hotels or shopping software, there is no trace of Tang Xuan's use." The person who answered secretly glanced at Xiao Zihan, "This means... this person is hiding, or is no longer here..."

Xiao Zihan frowned, "What did you say?"

"..."

"I don't want to hear any reasons or excuses, and I don't care what method you use, you must find this person for me." Xiao Zihan suppressed a sneer, and swept across the faces of several people with a cold light, "Do you understand? ?”

"I understand!"

Xiao Zihan looked away, "Go down."

"Yes."

After a few people left, Xiao Zihan was the only one left in the huge office.His eyes were no longer indifferent and angry, but a little more fearful and uneasy.

"Tang Xuan... where the hell are you..." Xiao Zihan gritted his teeth and muttered, the veins on his forehead were bulging. If it wasn't for the good pine door on the desk, the corners of the desk would almost be crushed.

The secretary knocked on the door cautiously, brought in the documents, and hurriedly backed out after seeing Xiao Zihan's terrifying expression.

Everyone in the company knew that since the Xiao family's accident, the original gentle and jade-like prince had changed, became vigorous and ruthless, and even looked at people with murderous intent.

Those who dared to joke with Xiao Zihan in the past, now only report their work respectfully, and dare not say a single unnecessary word.

The name Tang Xuan became a taboo in the company.Especially after Xiao Zihan opened up two leaders who were gossiping about Tang Xuan in the tea room without saying a word, no one in the company dared to mention any related topics.

Xiao Zihan knew that everyone didn't like him now, but he didn't care.He gave his sincerity and was completely deceived. He no longer believed in the friendship between people.

As night fell, Xiao Zihan left the company alone with his exhausted body, and returned to Tang Xuan's rented house.

Ever since the landlord said that Tang Xuan had moved out, he couldn't help coming over every night, lying down all night.

It's not nostalgia, but unwillingness.

Every time he closed his eyes, he seemed to be able to hear Tang Xuan's voice in his ear, smell the breakfast Tang Xuan made, and see Tang Xuan walking around the room.

But when he opened his eyes, there was only him alone.

Xiao Zihan vented all his reluctance and sadness in this room. When he left this room, he seemed to be wearing a mask of ruthlessness and desire. Apart from work, it was work, and he didn't need entertainment, let alone joy.

Xiao Zihan lay on the dark bed, staring at a point in the darkness in a daze, his phone buzzed continuously, he glanced at the caller ID, and remained motionless.

Half an hour later, the sound of banging on the door came to Xiao Zihan's ears.

"Xiao Zihan, open the door!" Cai Jinyu shouted arrogantly outside the door, as if smashing the door panel.

Xiao Zihan couldn't ignore the annoying noise any longer, so he got up reluctantly, stumbling all the way to the door in the dark, and opened the door.

"I knew you were here, why didn't you answer my call?" Cai Jinyu pushed Xiao Zihan away and entered the room, "The lights are not turned on, why are you alone in the middle of winter?"

Xiao Zihan still put his hand on the doorknob, turned his head to look at Cai Jinyu, "You really are... a lingering ghost."

Cai Jinyu ignored Xiao Zihan's indifference, walked to the sofa, put the plastic bag in his hand on the coffee table, and sat down on his own, "Come over for dinner, I bought something delicious."

Xiao Zihan: "..." He stood there for a few seconds and then sighed. Finally, he closed the door and walked over to sit down opposite Cai Jinyu.

"Here, it will be cold if you don't eat any more." Cai Jinyu forcefully stuffed a pair of chopsticks into Xiao Zihan's hands, and said in a rambling voice, "I'm really annoyed that you don't answer the phone, I just ran to your house just now , if it wasn’t for such a detour, this dish wouldn’t be cold.”

Xiao Zihan didn't speak, ignored Cai Jinyu's accusation, and silently served food.

Seeing that Xiao Zihan had started to eat, Cai Jinyu's attitude improved a lot, and he kept adding vegetables to Xiao Zihan's bowl.

Regarding Xiao Zihan's insane and abnormal state, Cai Jinyu would persuade him at first, and would try to make Xiao Zihan happy, but after finding that it didn't work much, Cai Jinyu could only let Xiao Zihan go.

As long as Xiao Zihan doesn't hurt himself, he believes that Xiao Zihan will connect one day.As Xiao Zihan's friend since childhood, the only thing he can do now is to take care of Xiao Zihan as much as possible, at least let Xiao Zihan eat on time.

After a meal, Cai Jinyu collected the trash on the table, put it in a plastic bag and tied it.Looking up at Xiao Zihan, seeing Xiao Zihan in a daze, he said without thinking, "By the way, my girlfriend has something to do tonight, so I'll stay here with you."

"Oh." Xiao Zihan didn't respond, let out a breath, closed his eyes, and leaned on the back of the sofa.

Cai Jinyu wanted to find something to say, but didn't know what to say, so he hesitated several times.

After a while, when Cai Jinyu was racking his brains to think of something to say, Xiao Zihan spoke by himself.

"My dad's verdict of the first trial has come down, no time limit."

Cai Jinyu clenched his fists nervously. The reason why he came here in such a hurry today was because he was afraid that Xiao Zihan would feel uncomfortable after hearing the news. "Isn't there still a final trial? It's not sure yet. Let's try to see if we can be more accommodating."

Xiao Zihan shook his head, his face was stagnant, "A few lives are on his back, and indefinitely is the most lenient sentence."

"But... Uncle is judged according to economic disputes and bribery, a few lives..."

"Human life is on someone else's head." Xiao Zihan finally opened his eyes, and looked straight at Cai Jinyu, "But you and I both know, in the final analysis, whose fault is it."

Cai Jinyu pursed her lips tightly and did not reply.

There are some things that cannot be discussed at all, too much darkness, too much filth, counted one by one, the filth is so dirty that it is impossible to imagine.

Xiao Zihan lowered his eyes, and steam appeared in his eyes, "The night before my wedding, my dad said something to me. At that time, I thought that his business was not clean. But I didn't expect that there would be so many lives behind it." ..."

"Zihan..."

"Really, even today, I still can't accept it, I can't accept it at all. I used to respect him so much, I admired him so much, who knew that he was actually an executioner, a complete double-faced man."

Xiao Zihan's tears flowed down the corners of his eyes.

It is said that men do not shed tears lightly, but for a boy, the person he respects the most all the time is actually a person who is even worse than the bad person imagined. This kind of blow is tantamount to destroying a person's faith.

When Xiao Mingyuan was first arrested, Xiao Zihan was still running around for Xiao Mingyuan, looking for the best lawyer, and trying his best to control negative public opinion.Xiao Zihan believed from beginning to end that his father's crime was not that serious.

Therefore, when the police's evidence and witnesses were all in front of Xiao Zihan, Xiao Zihan was completely dumbfounded.

He never expected that his father had really done so many evil things.

So much that he can no longer speak for his father, and he can't violate his conscience.

Seeing Xiao Zihan weeping, Cai Jinyu felt very uncomfortable. He sat quietly, and waited for Xiao Zihan to calm down, before slowly asking: "This verdict... Auntie shouldn't be able to accept it, right?"

"Yeah." Xiao Zihan sneered, "She wants me to spend a lot of money, find some way, and find a way to get my dad out."

Cai Jinyu sighed, "Auntie is also eager to protect her husband, after all, she has been with uncle for so many years."

"Not only can I not understand my dad now, but I can't even understand my mother." Xiao Zihan wiped his face decadently, "My dad raises a lover outside, so it's okay if she didn't make trouble because of me, now my dad does it." After doing so many wrong things, does she still want to speak for my dad? What about the families of those who were killed? Only my Xiao family’s life is life, and the lives of others are not life? "

Cai Jinyu smiled bitterly, "Indeed, everyone likes to say that people are selfish, and people don't want to kill the world for themselves, but there are some bottom lines that should not be touched."

Life is the bottom line.

If a person's selfishness is based on taking other people's lives, no matter how many reasons he has, he is not worthy of sympathy.

……

Zheng Yifan checked out of the hotel room, carried his suitcase, and happily moved into Tang Xuan's rented room.

Tang Xuan is now pregnant, her heart is dead, she doesn't react at all.But for Zheng Yifan, let alone how happy he is.

Every day Zheng Yifan would run back from get off work as soon as possible to cook and eat with Tang Xuan, and wash the dishes after dinner.

Not only that, he also persuaded Tang Xuan to take a walk downstairs after dinner and go out for picnics on weekends.

Tang Xuan wasn't interested in these proposals at first, but after Zheng Yifan proposed to make them better for the baby in his stomach, Tang Xuan had no choice but to follow suit.

Sometimes when I meet other couples, I will be teased that the relationship between the husband and wife is good, and the husband loves his wife.At times like this Tang Xuan wanted to explain, but Zheng Yifan chatted enthusiastically with those people every time, making Tang Xuan unable to speak at all.

After this happened again and again, Tang Xuan finally couldn't bear it anymore.

On the way back from a walk in the square, Tang Xuan pretended to be in a good mood and joked with Zheng Yifan, "Just now, there was a girl in front of us who kept looking back at you, did you see that?"

Zheng Yifan snorted, "What girl? I didn't pay attention."

"It's just the girl in the suspender dress. I think she's interested in you." Tang Xuan said intentionally, "Didn't you see? She's pretty. I just wanted to ask you for a phone call."

Zheng Yifan immediately became upset, and looked at Tang Xuan with a droopy face, "I don't like her, why do I need her phone number?"

Tang Xuan smiled apologetically, "If you don't like it, you can get to know each other first. Let's develop slowly. You might like it someday."

Zheng Yifan stopped in his tracks and frowned, "Why do you say such things, you clearly know who I like."

Zheng Yifan's words were so straightforward that Tang Xuan couldn't stop laughing. She also stopped and looked at Zheng Yifan.

Tang Xuan: "I'm pregnant with Xiao Zihan's child. You don't have to do this, and you don't have to pay for me. I can't bear it."

"..." Zheng Yifan gritted his teeth, "No matter what I give, I do it willingly, and you have nothing to bear."

Tang Xuan originally wanted to tactfully persuade Zheng Yifan to let go, but hearing Zheng Yifan's resolute tone, she knew that tact would not work at all.

"Xuanxuan, even if you are pregnant with Xiao Zihan's child, I will love you well. I have liked you for so long, and I don't care about it at all. Can you give me a chance? I will treat this child as my own Child rearing, you stay with me, when the child is born, we live together and raise the child together, okay?"

okay?Sounds like a good suggestion.After all, for children, a complete family is very beneficial to their growth.

However, it is too unfair to Zheng Yifan to accept Zheng Yifan's kindness for the sake of the child's growth.

Tang Xuan couldn't bear it in her heart, but she still said the words of resoluteness.

"I'm sorry... Yifan, you are very good, but I cannot accept your proposal. Your life should be complete and should not be sacrificed for me. I am not worthy of you."

"You deserve it!" Zheng Yifan grabbed Tang Xuan's arm and shouted angrily.

Tang Xuan closed her eyes, and out of helplessness, she buried herself deeply in her heart, and said what she planned to never mention again in this life.

"I'm sorry, in my heart, I can't hold other men except Xiao Zihan in this life."