half thorns, half joy

"I'm sorry, in my heart, I can't hold other men except Xiao Zihan in this life."

All the expressions on Zheng Yifan's face froze. He never thought that Tang Xuan would say such a firm word in person, without leaving him a chance.

He couldn't believe it, "Why... You didn't approach him for revenge, why did you..."

"Yes, I approached him for revenge." Tang Xuan smiled faintly, "But, I also really fell in love with him."

"Why?" Zheng Yifan gritted his teeth, he let go of Tang Xuan, and almost ran away in anger, "Why? Why?"

Tang Xuan apologized again, "I'm sorry, I don't know why, if I knew, maybe..."

Maybe it won't be so painful.

Love is the most unreasonable thing in the world.There is no first come, first served, no right and wrong, as long as you fall in love, you will be defeated.

"No, I don't believe it, I don't believe it..."

Now that the conversation has reached this point, Tang Xuan didn't want Zheng Yifan to have unrealistic hopes anymore, she continued to say to Zheng Yifan, "Yifan, I have always treated you as a friend, even if Xiao Zihan and I are together again It's impossible, the two of us can only be friends."

Zheng Yifan's face was full of injuries, "Why? Is there anything wrong with me? What do you want from me? I can change whatever you don't like about me?"

"It's not for this reason..." Tang Xuan was exhausted by this question. "I've already said that my heart has been given to Xiao Zihan. I don't have the energy to fall in love with others. Especially you."

"What...what is especially me?"

"Because, I have always regarded you as a friend, always."

A series of unfeeling words, Zheng Yifan finally couldn't bear it anymore, he stepped back with a wry smile, opened and closed his mouth, unable to say anything.

Tang Xuan wanted to say more, but Zheng Yifan suddenly turned around and ran away.

Looking at the back of Zheng Yifan running away, Tang Xuan supported her sore waist and sighed heavily.She knew that her words were too serious.But if you don't say anything serious, Zheng Yifan won't give up.She can't just waste Zheng Yifan and waste Zheng Yifan.

If you really want to answer Zheng Yifan's question about what he doesn't like about him, Tang Xuan probably dislikes the most about Zheng Yifan liking her too much.

Because she clearly knows how serious Zheng Yifan's liking is, so she can't give Zheng Yifan hope casually, and she can't agree casually, because she can't afford so many likes.

After standing there for a while, Zheng Yifan was still nowhere to be seen. Tang Xuan didn't think about it any more, and wandered back home slowly.

Maybe Zheng Yifan can figure it out after hearing her words.

I figured it out and went back to City A, so I don't need to waste my life here with her.

The next morning, after Tang Xuan got up, she saw that the pillow and quilt on the sofa were exactly the same as the night before, and she was relieved that she hadn't been touched.

From the looks of it, Zheng Yifan didn't come back all night.

There are still some Zheng Yifan's things on the small cabinet next to the sofa. If Zheng Yifan doesn't want to pick them up, she can send them to Zheng Yifan's company.

Thinking of this, Tang Xuan simply made a bowl of oatmeal and drank it. She took her grocery bag and changed her shoes, ready to go out to buy groceries.

Now her stomach is getting bigger and bigger every day, and sometimes it is quite difficult.

Tang Xuan took the key and opened the door to go out. Just as she was about to lock the door, she realized something was wrong.

Looking down the stairs, Tang Xuan saw a person sitting on the stairs, Zheng Yifan.Looking at the disheveled and haggard face, it seems that he has been sitting here all night.

Tang Xuan looked at Zheng Yifan, not knowing what to say for a while.

It was Zheng Yifan who spoke first, with self-mockery mixed in his smile, "Do you want to say that you can't get away with scolding like this, how cheap this person is."

"Of course not..." Tang Xuan couldn't bear the fact that she was a friend for many years, "I didn't mean that, and I didn't think you were cheap..."

"Really?" Zheng Yifan smiled, "But I think I'm pretty cheap. Even if you say that, I still don't trust you. I still want to visit you, even if I stay by your side as a friend."

Tang Xuan didn't speak, but just looked at Zheng Yifan quietly.

She despises herself a little, despises herself as worthless.Zheng Yifan is so nice, why doesn't she like it?Why is her whole heart firmly tied to Xiao Zihan?

Zheng Yifan stood up while leaning against the wall, and walked up to Tang Xuan step by step, "Don't drive me away, anyway, I'm so thick-skinned, no matter how hard you drive me away, I won't leave."

Tang Xuan looked at Zheng Yifan puzzled, "Yifan, you really don't need to be like this..."

"I know." Zheng Yifan shrugged, "I know it's shameless to pester you like this. But can you let me take care of you for a while, and I will leave when your child is born. Is that okay?"

Those so-called thick-skinned and mean words were just to cover up his worry about Tang Xuan and want to protect Tang Xuan's heart.

Tang Xuan is not stupid, she understands.

"Thank you..." Tang Xuan was really touched, her nose was sore, "Yifan, thank you very much."

"Thank you for what I did. Why don't you fall in love with me? Let's get the best of both worlds." Zheng Yifan said without waiting for Tang Xuan's reply, "But I also know that love is something that cannot be controlled. You don't need to feel pressured. I'm an adult and I can Be responsible for yourself. From today on, let's get along as friends, okay?"

Tang Xuan was moved and nodded deeply, "We... have always been friends."

Even if Zheng Yifan really left because of Tang Xuan's words, in Tang Xuan's heart, Zheng Yifan was still her friend.

"Okay, good friend!" Zheng Yifan took out the key to open the door, and said to Tang Xuan while opening the door, "Wait for me, I'll wash my face, let's go shopping together."

Tang Xuan was puzzled, "Isn't today Monday, you don't go to work?"

"I'm asking for leave." Zheng Yifan walked into the bathroom, and his voice came out intermittently, "Anyway, I'm here on a business trip this time, so I have free time and nothing to do."

Tang Xuan didn't believe that being sent on a business trip had nothing to do, but just as Zheng Yifan was in a better mood, she was too embarrassed to say any more disappointing words, so she could only hold back the preaching words, and waited for Zheng Yifan to come out after washing his face, and went to the vegetable market together to buy vegetables.

Maybe it's because Zheng Yifan's attitude towards Tang Xuan has changed a lot because he opened his mouth. It's no longer the kind of ambiguity that seems vague, but he treats Tang Xuan generously. I'm a friend, don't think too much about it as an excuse to cover up the past.

As a result, Tang Xuan had no other choice.

Time passed quickly. In the blink of an eye, Tang Xuan was nine months pregnant and was about to give birth.Because Zheng Yifan has been procrastinating for various reasons and did not return to the company in City A, he was ordered to go back and write an inspection.

Seeing that Tang Xuan would give birth soon, Zheng Yifan was unwilling to go back no matter what, and even planned to resign.

Tang Xuan didn't want Zheng Yifan to lose his job because of her, so she earnestly persuaded Zheng Yifan to go back and ask for leave later.

Zheng Yifan couldn't hold back Tang Xuan, so he had to go back by car.However, he had already made up his mind that he would stay for a day or two at most and then come back. He was really worried about leaving Tang Xuan, a pregnant woman with a big belly, here alone.

At this time, neither Zheng Yifan nor Tang Xuan thought that their peaceful life would come to an end.

Because of Xiao Zihan, he knew Tang Xuan's whereabouts.

This matter started with Zheng Yifan insisting on dragging Tang Xuan to an amusement park.

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Mr. Xiao, Mr. Xiao, in the group office, Xiao Zihan was wearing a black suit, sitting lazily in the president's chair.

"Mr. Xiao, we have some clues about the person you want us to look for." The subordinates respectfully reported, "However, there is a slight discrepancy between the person we found and the information you gave, and we are still not sure if it is the same person."

Xiao Zihan's pupils shrank, and the muscles all over his body tensed, "Be specific."

"This is a photo." His subordinates stepped forward, put a photo of Tang Xuan in front of Xiao Zihan, and explained, "She was noticed when she went to play in an amusement park we cooperated with and registered with her ID card. Afterwards, we immediately Going to match the information, I found that it is very consistent with what you explained. But she seems to be...pregnant..."

Needless to say, Xiao Zihan could also see Tang Xuan's big belly from the unclear photos he secretly took.

Such an eyesore...so...hateful...

Xiao Zihan was so angry that he wanted to kill someone, but in front of his subordinates, he restrained his emotions and asked blankly, "What's her current address?"

"Here." His subordinates immediately handed over another note with Tang Xuan's address on it.

Xiao Zihan stroked the string of words one by one with his fingers, and a cruel smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "So...you didn't hide very far, right under my nose..."

Hearing Xiao Zihan's chilling voice, his subordinates didn't dare to breathe.

Xiao Zihan withdrew his hand, pinched the note in his palm, and ordered without raising his eyelids, "Since the person has been found, I won't pursue it anymore, you guys go down."

"Yes." The subordinates breathed a sigh of relief in their hearts. It took so long to find them. They were really afraid that Xiao Zihan would ask them.

It was only after his subordinates withdrew and closed the door that Xiao Zihan showed his true expression, with longing, hatred, jealousy, and a hint of rejoicing.

God knows, Tang Xuan's whereabouts have not been seen for so long. He was so afraid that something happened to Tang Xuan. When he saw Tang Xuan's photo just now, he was so happy to know that Tang Xuan was still alive.

However, when he saw Tang Xuan's unsightly big belly, he was filled with hatred and anger.

Why, he was worried and missing here, but Tang Xuan was with someone else and had a child so soon?

Why?
He, Xiao Zihan, cannot allow this to happen.

Tang Xuan has already provoked him, and she has been toyed with by him all her life, instead of living happily with others after toying with him!
Xiao Zihan couldn't wait for a moment, so he immediately called the driver and ordered the driver to drive the car out. Holding the note and photo tightly, he went downstairs to get in the car.

"Go to Yanfan." Xiao Zihan ordered coldly, "Drive faster."

The driver glanced at Xiao Zihan's face in the rearview mirror, swallowed nervously, and started the car.

Xiao Zihan lowered his eyes, and his fingertips landed on Tang Xuan's smiling eyes in the photo. Those eyes were once Xiao Zihan's favorite.He likes to see Tang Xuan's gentle smile. Every time Tang Xuan smiles like this, he feels very beautiful and peaceful.

However, Xiao Zihan's teeth itch when he thought that this smile was for other men.

The happiness that he can't get, he will never allow others to get.

"Tang Xuan, why are you still smiling so happily?"