half thorns, half joy

Zhao Suizhi couldn't stop crying, Xiao Zihan had no choice but to text the doctor and ask him to come over.

Xiao Zihan used to think that the family doctor was convenient, but now he realizes that it is not only convenient, but also more able to keep secrets.

Perhaps this is the reason why many wealthy people must have family doctors.

After all, there are too many shameful things in their lives.

The doctor lives nearby and will be here soon.

Zhao Suizhi was very resistant, unwilling to let the doctor examine her body, but she hadn't eaten much for nearly two days, she was dizzy, and she didn't have much strength to resist.

After the doctor's examination, Zhao Suizhi was given an injection and a fluid infusion.

"Madam's mental condition is very bad, and she has been greatly stimulated. If she doesn't treat her well, she may..." The doctor didn't dare to finish speaking.

He could only suggest: "Just now Madam kept talking about the two young masters. If the two young masters could be with her, her mental state would be much more stable."

Xiao Zihan clenched his fists and said nothing. He also knew that if the two children were still there, the mother would never collapse like this.

After all, after the father left, Xiao Yuebai and the little baby were the mother's last spiritual support.

However, there was nothing he could do about it.

It's not that he's not filial, but he can't take the two children over. He doesn't have the qualifications. Even if he doesn't love Tang Xuan today, he can't do it.

If he used his power to oppress others by force, how would he be different from his own murderer father?
"Besides this method." Xiao Zihan asked the doctor: "Can it be treated with medicine, or divert your attention or something."

The doctor nodded: "Yes, but the effect is hard to say."

Xiao Zihan: "Let's treat it like this first, the two children can't be brought here for the time being."

"Okay." The doctor has worked in Xiao Zihan's family for many years, and he is smart enough to know what to ask and what not to ask.

He could see that there must be something serious wrong with the Xiao family, but since Xiao Zihan didn't say anything, he didn't ask any more questions.

And Xiao Zihan was not a character who would confide in the doctor. After he told the doctor, he asked the doctor to stay and take good care of his mother, and then went back to the bedroom.

Cai Jinyu didn't go home, but slept in the bedroom. He was really tired after working all night, even though there was so much noise outside, it didn't wake him up.

Xiao Zihan was also tired, he walked to the bed and lay down on the other side which was empty.

As a man, the way Xiao Zihan expresses his emotions is not to cry or shed tears, but to be silent.

From last night to now, he was unwilling to say a word unless he had to.

His father killed his beloved's parents. Xiao Zihan didn't want to accept such a thing, nor could he accept it.

If the father is still alive, he must stand in front of him and ask him: why are you so cruel, why are you such a person, why are you my father!
Yes, what Xiao Mingyuan did has already made Xiao Zihan not want to recognize his father.

He used to think that his father was a serious, dignified and respectable man who loved his family, but later, he found out that his father had a woman who had an illegitimate child outside, and his father was not a man who loved his family.

It took him a lot of effort to persuade himself to accept the fact that his father was not a good man, but it wasn't long before he accepted this fact, and even before he fully accepted it, he knew that his father was a man who went out for profit. Those who acquiesce, even trample on the lives of others.

A few years later, his father passed away in prison, and he slowly let go of his resentment towards his father, let go of his knots, and even took Tang Xuan to visit his father's grave.

He has tried his best, done everything he can, defended the group that his father established, maintained a family, and resolved conflicts.

However, all his efforts were completely negated by a decision his father made easily back then.

In order to maintain the integrity of this family, all his painstaking efforts and efforts were in vain.

Xiao Zihan, who was lying on the bed, had two lines of tears overflowing from the corners of his eyes.

He is really tired, really tired.

It is said that the predecessors planted trees and the descendants enjoyed the shade, but the mistakes his father made for planting trees, he had to make up for, were much more than the shade he got.

Xiao Zihan was extremely exhausted mentally and physically. In order to deal with Tang Jieshan's curse words, he had been tense for several days, and his nerves were tense all the time.

From yesterday when he found out the truth of the matter until now, he has been on the verge of emotional collapse. If he hadn't reminded himself not to collapse, he would really want to vent and cry unscrupulously like his mother.

However, he can't.

At this moment, Xiao Zihan finally couldn't hold it anymore, he closed his eyes, with tears still hanging from the corners of his eyes, and fell into a deep sleep.

In the dream, there was darkness, no father, no cruelty, and no hatred.

……

Tang Xuan's sleep was very restless. She dreamed of when she was a child, when her parents were still alive.

She couldn't see the faces of her parents clearly, but she could feel the smell of the food and the layout of the house clearly, and she could even feel the hot tears sliding down her cheeks.

She dreamed that she was sitting at the dining table, her mother was cooking in the kitchen, and her father was fiddling with a problematic fan in the bedroom. Fix the fan before mom goes to bed at night.

Although a fan is not worth much, my father has always been economical and is used to repairing broken electrical appliances by himself, which also saves a lot of money.

What moved Tang Xuan was that her father, who was extremely economical in this regard, never cared about how much money he spent when buying gifts for his mother.

A silk scarf is several times the price of the fan, but as long as the mother mentions it several times, the father will always find a way to buy it for the mother to please the mother.

And whenever my father bought this kind of thing and came back, he would inevitably be scolded by his mother for a few days.

Of course, the corners of the mother's mouth were always raised.

And my father was happy to listen to my mother's nagging.

Too much time has passed, and Tang Xuan doesn't remember much about her mother and father, but she remembers the ones she remembers very deeply.

Because she doesn't remember much, what she can remember, she will think about it over and over again, imagining her mother's coquettish emotional expression at that time, imagining her father's helpless and doting smile, imagining herself sitting happily on the side, watch them.

In the dream, Tang Xuan was shedding tears, listening to the voices of her mother and father almost greedily.

She really wanted to go over and hug her mother from behind, and she really wanted to lie on her father's shoulder again and tell them, Dad, Mom, I miss you so much.

Really, I miss you so much.

After so many years, I am still not used to being alone. I really hope that you can accompany me. Our family of three lives happily.

Tang Xuan could feel that she was dreaming, and she even knew that she was in the perspective of God, looking at everything that ever existed.

But she was reluctant to wake up, if she could, she even wanted to have a long dream, wanted to continue to be that carefree girl, and wanted to stop time before the tragedy happened.

Perhaps it was subconsciousness that kept Tang Xuan asleep in a dream, but she didn't really wake up. Even the baby woke up and cried, but it didn't wake her up.

The nanny outside the bedroom heard the baby crying, came in and carried the baby out to change diapers and feed milk powder, Xiao Yuebai also got up, obediently went out to play by herself.

Tang Xuan lay on the bed alone and slept until dusk.

When she woke up, looking at the white ceiling, she was still a little dazed for a moment, feeling that her soul was still staying in that small house of tens of square meters, and the smell of food was still lingering at the tip of her nose.

After several minutes of reaction, Tang Xuan slowly regained her composure.

When she turned her head, she found that the two children beside her were gone, and the room was quiet. She was a little panicked and ran out before she could put on her slippers.

It wasn't until seeing Cai Lin holding the baby, walking back and forth outside the bedroom door, that the hanging heart fell back into her chest.

Seeing Tang Xuan, Cai Lin smiled slightly and said, "Sister, you're awake, dinner will be ready soon, wash your hands and let's have dinner together."

"……it is good."

Tang Xuan returned to the bedroom and went into the bathroom.

Looking up at the mirror, she was taken aback by her unkempt face, her eyes swollen into walnuts, and a few wet tears on her face.

The woman in the mirror looked several years older than her former self.

Tang Xuan turned on the faucet, bent down, splashed the icy cold water on her face, and washed her face several times before turning off the faucet.

"Huh—" She took a long breath and took out a tissue to wipe off the water droplets on her face.

She really didn't dare to imagine that Xiao Yuebai would be frightened by her ghostly look just now in Xiao Yuebai's eyes.

However, Xiao Yuebai had already seen her swollen eyes from crying in the morning.

Maybe Xiao Yuebai was so obedient in the morning, she didn't say a word because she was frightened.

Just after washing her face, she suddenly wanted to cry again. Tang Xuan forced herself to hold back her crying, and left the bedroom to have dinner.

The dining table in this villa is not as big as Xiao's house, Cai Lin asked the nanny to sit down and eat together, the few people sitting together, it is not deserted at all, on the contrary, it feels more lively than eating in Xiao's house.

The two children sat on either side of Tang Xuan, one on each side. The little baby couldn't eat the food that the adults ate, so he just hugged his own bottle and sucked it.

As for Xiao Yuebai, she sat upright, stretched out her hands to pick up vegetables, didn't talk much, and wasn't picky about food.

Seeing the two children so well-behaved, Tang Xuan felt sad again.

But she didn't want to cry in front of the child, so she sniffed and started eating with the bowl in her hands.

Seeing this, Xiao Yuebai picked up a piece of braised pork and put it in Tang Xuan's bowl: "Mom, eat meat."