The Nth Disappearance of My Wife

Tian Xiaoxiao chose to write a report for his magazine, probably anonymously, and he didn't know why he suddenly wanted to write about a clumsy girl.

I always find that I am really not very gregarious, it seems that nothing is right, it seems that I am out of place everywhere, it seems that I don’t like it here, but it doesn’t matter, I know there will always be mosquitoes chirping in summer, I also know that no matter what season or day, some people will think you are not good enough.

"You see, that girl doesn't look very good-looking, but what kind of jk uniform is she wearing? It's disgusting."

"It's so old, and it's wearing a child's clothes. Is this Lolita? With all due respect, it's really ugly."

"Clothes are so beautiful and expensive. People who are so ugly really don't deserve the clothes. It's really better to wear them for me!"

I have heard these words many, many times, what is good-looking, what is really in line with the aesthetics of these people.

But beauty will never be defined. I think I look good in these clothes, because these clothes are all clothes I like. Don’t these clothes suit me?

Even if it's not suitable for me, I bought these things with my hard work. I didn't harm anyone or hinder anyone, but why do you always think I'm ugly? Why do everyone think I'm different?
But I am really not a different kind, I really think I am not a different kind, I am also a normal person, but why do you look at me with that kind of eyes, I know that I am really not good enough.

But I really don't like your rolling eyes, and I don't like you saying those nasty things about me. I don't seem to have ever said a bad thing about you.

Why do you hate me so much? Is it because I'm ugly?But am I really that ugly?
Why do people feel that my clothes are not worthy of me because I am ugly, but my clothes are not good-looking because of me?

You use the most vicious words to trample on a girl's self-esteem, am I really different from you?Don't I also have two eyes, one nose and one mouth?

Why do you always have to set up a line of defense between people? I really did nothing wrong. I insist on what I like, but why do you all think I am bad.

Although I know that I am really not good enough, but I really want to tell myself that you are really not good enough, but you are already working hard, you are already very good, you are already very good, so you must work hard .

Sometimes I really keep thinking, why don't they like me, am I really wrong?Should I be the same as them, but if I insist on what I like, is it different?

But I still hope that I can always wear the clothes I like until I am old. It is just a piece of clothing. It cannot deny me, but I believe that I will definitely look better in this dress. Because I am good-looking, this dress The clothes look good.

I like jk uniforms, I like Lolita skirts, I also like Hanfu, I also like cosplay, no matter how many times you ask me, I will say I like them, because I really like them, really really I like it, it's not fake, I think I will like it for the rest of my life.

I really wear it because I like it, even though many people think I'm a monster, but I really don't think I'm a monster, I think I'm just a good-looking person.

Hee hee, maybe a little narcissistic but for me I am really good-looking, because I will try to be confident, I really feel that what others say about me is not the real me, but I think I am Be the real me, because no one knows me better than myself.

I have been wearing the clothes I like for three years. During this period, I have encountered countless people, and I have also encountered many people who do not understand, and have encountered all kinds of cynicism.

If someone asks me whether it is hard work to like these things, I will tell him that it is not hard work.Because I love it so I don’t work hard, even if everyone thinks that I look bad, it doesn’t matter. I know that it’s hard to agree, so it may not be my fault.

I didn't do any moral or legal mistakes. I just insisted on myself and my authenticity. Is it really wrong?But I don't think it's the same mistake. Instead, I think those who put on a hypocritical mask and bully others because they think others are different are the most disgusting.

I'm not RMB, not everyone likes it, but it doesn't matter, even if it's RMB, some people will say it's vulgar and some people won't like it, so there is nothing that anyone will completely like. , so sometimes you really don’t want to force something.

Please don't take those words that he is a monster, so bully him with confidence.

What those people say is nothing more than some words, some gossip, some words that I don’t like, some words that I hate people, and some words that I don’t like. I know that I am far from enough now.

I don't live for these people, I know I live for myself.

I've been trying all the time, all because I don't feel like I'm enough right now.

But I will not hate my useless self now, but maybe I just feel that I am really not good now, but in my heart I still like myself.

I am actually pretty good, at least I have a sense of justice, at least I will try my best to stick to the things I like, even if these things seem strange to outsiders.

But I'm used to being weird, I know that many people don't want to contact me, so I don't want to contact those people, because those people hate me, so I hate them too.

If you like me, then I will definitely like you even more. If you hate me, then I will hate you too. I will remember everyone’s kindness to me, even if it’s just a little bit, I will also remember it. Come down and repay it well, because I believe that I can double the goodness and return it to those I like.

The person I like must like me. There is no reason for the person I hate, because she hates me, so I have to hate her too.

If she doesn't hate me suddenly, then I won't hate her suddenly, if she doesn't hate me suddenly and likes me suddenly, then I will definitely like her suddenly, very simple feelings.

The feelings between people are mutual. We have different personalities, different thoughts and many things are completely different, but we should respect each other.

I know that my voice is not good, maybe in the eyes of others I have a false voice, but I really don't have a false voice, but if you insist on calling me a false voice, there is nothing you can do about it.