President of the Buddhist Department: A loving wife must be teased

"Do you know how I met her?"

The words that Brother Snake said suddenly were really thought-provoking, but Zhen Hua didn't think too much about how the husband and wife met had anything to do with him. He was just a person who should be forgotten, and his sudden appearance might disturb Let's live their lives, should I leave, but after all they saved my life, it seems inappropriate to leave rashly, but now I seem to need to answer Brother Snake's question, but I really have no interest in understanding the relationship between other people and their husbands and wives Shi, who would be interested in the relationship history of his ex-wife, not to mention that Zhen Hua didn't have the slightest love for his ex-wife, it was just a formal couple, so he had no reason to care about his ex-wife's relationship, let alone It was they who knew such innocuous things.

"That was 14 years ago. I haven't retired yet. I was on a mission at the border. It was a barren forest. At that time, all my team members died. I barely completed the mission and was about to return to the base. Lu Jing was about to hang herself, I saved her, and then I fell in love with her."

Brother Snake was talking to himself, but this story didn't seem exciting, just like the performances in many TV dramas, and Zhen Hua clearly remembered that he and Lu Jing divorced 17 years ago, and there was a gap of three years in the middle , which means that suicide has nothing to do with him, as long as it has nothing to do with him, then what Brother Snake said later has nothing to do with him, but after all, he is his savior, so his impatience can't be expressed It's too obvious, but he can't talk to her. After all, in front of Lu Jing's husband, he can't show that he cares about Lu Jing, otherwise it will cause a rift between their husband and wife, and it will be death.

"For a long time, she was unwilling to tell me the reason why she chose to commit suicide. She didn't tell the truth until I confessed to her. After that, even after I retired, I only took on the role of taking care of her. She has never dared to disturb her emotional life. She has been like a puppet these years. If no one drives her, she doesn't know what to do. Sometimes she can spend the whole day sitting alone in the room in a daze. , making people look very pitiful, but I can't do anything, I think only you know why she is like this."

Zhen Hua looked at him in bewilderment, thinking that the divorce between herself and Lu Jing was a decision made after negotiation between the two parties. After years of healing, the pain should have improved, and the three-year vacancy has already shown that Lu Jing's suicide has nothing to do with her. As for Lu Jing's emotional bruise, it may indeed be her own. Reason, but what is Brother Snake going to do?Are you going to settle accounts with him?I am still a patient, and my life was saved by them, so I shouldn't be able to kill myself.

"I love her very much. I never thought that I would fall in love with a woman so madly, but this woman doesn't love me. She said that there is a person in her heart. Although that person doesn't love her, she can't let it go. That person, I have tried hard to replace that person in her heart all these years, but it was all in vain, do you know who that person is?"

Zhen Hua's intelligence has not reached that level. If he was facing a passer-by, how could Brother Snake say such a thing, so it is self-evident who that person is. Zhen Hua did not Thinking of how attractive he is, and how he can make a woman love him for so long, he doesn't know how Lu Jing persisted all these years, and he doesn't want to know, and he can say that he has no feelings for Lu Jing now, and he didn't love her before. , now even more impossible to love.Zhen Hua originally thought that Brother Snake and Lu Jing had been married for many years, but he didn't expect Brother Snake and Lu Jing to get along like this. This surprised Zhen Hua, but it made Zhen Hua quite embarrassed.

"I broke up with her for a long time, and this is the first time we met in more than ten years. If you think she still loves me, don't worry, I already have my own family. I can't be with myself. Has anything to do with your ex-wife. Any more cigarettes?"

Zhen Hua's hand was already burned by the cigarette butt, and before he knew it, a cigarette that he took only two puffs burned out, so he asked Brother Snake for another one, but he didn't know anything about Lu Jing. I don't want to continue the discussion.I don't know why, but there is a sense of guilt in my heart that can't go away, not to mention knowing that Lu Jing still loves him, which makes him feel more guilty, so he doesn't know what to do, he should run away as soon as possible This is right and wrong.

Brother Snake didn't continue to speak, because he had already heard what he wanted from Zhen Hua's words, and it was meaningless to continue to question, and he knew that Zhen Hua's face was already full of sorrow, so what he said must have been given to Zhen Hua. It caused trouble, so now he just lit a cigarette and sighed out of the window, and what Zhen Hua did was also surprisingly consistent.

"Preserved egg porridge is back. Zhen Hua, why did you get out of bed? Brother Snake, why didn't you stop him and let him smoke. The doctor said that he can't get out of bed during this period, let alone smoke and drink. "

When Lu Jing returned to the ward, she didn't have time to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes. The clear tears made it clear that she had cried just now, and why she was crying didn't seem to be what Zhen Hua should care about. Really returned to the hospital bed, took the porridge from Lu Jing, and at the same time declined Lu Jing's kindness to feed him.

Love is the most unreasonable thing in the world. It is not a reward from God. It is not that you will get [-]% return through hard work and dedication. It is not a math problem. As long as the calculation method is correct, you will be able to find the right direction and exit. Seek the correct solution; it requires two people to agree with each other and work together to continue - but because of the unilateral abandonment of either party, it will be fragile and paralyzed to the end.That's how they were back then, maybe Zhen Hua ended the relationship unilaterally, but there was one person who was unwilling to let go, so he didn't know how to deal with it.

People who can really let go will not spend energy explaining the past, but face the present, live happily in the present, and tolerate past love and relationships.A relationship should be cherished with kindness and goodbye with gratitude.It's a pity that Zhen Hua is not such a person, and neither is Lu Jing. Perhaps it is this same view of love that allows them to barely pass the year, but they insist on their view of love after all. , so we separated in the end, but in the end there was one person who persisted, the other party, so the end 17 years ago was a relief and a new beginning for Zhen Hua, but for Lu Jing, it was just a period of separation. .

Maybe it will take a long time, but Lu Jing doesn't care. Missing is a kind of happy sadness, a kind of sweet melancholy, and a kind of warm pain; missing is the long precipitation of yesterday and the longing for the beautiful future.Of course, no one wants to be lonely, but loneliness is also a helpless choice. Loneliness is because there is no suitable companion. Loneliness is for the relief behind loneliness. The process of loneliness is a process of finding true love.For Lu Jing, true love appeared in her life as early as 17 years ago, and she also spent her happiest year with that person. Of course, happiness cannot be satisfied, and the short years only wait The smoke disappears, the back is thin, and I can only see my face getting old, the pain in my life, travel to the depth, those unspeakable stories, those intoxicating poems, all the words are weathered in the creases of the years, the dreams are barren, and the samsara is more vivid. The promise is long, the silent cloud window, the light step rhyme, the duckweed is scattered, remembering the past.

Perhaps, there are always some things that will remain in the deepest part of life, deep and shallow traces, when the heart brushes gently, you will no longer feel pain, only a sense of numbness.Drinking coffee, bitter taste.Happiness and sadness, everything has become the past, and the truth and touch, hypocrisy and sadness can still be felt.Tears dripped quietly into the coffee.This is Lu Jing's life for these years. Brother Snake wanted to tell Zhen Hua, because these Brother Snake saw it all, but why tell Zhen Hua this?A person who doesn't love you, no matter how miserable you are, can't arouse any sympathy and pity from him, and Lu Jing doesn't need any pity.

When the longing is too accumulated, as deep as a burden, it will make some words in the distant memory float to the mouth, and people can't help but want to listen to it again.Because no one can send it, so I can only borrow a pair of ears and tell myself.Lu Jing thought that one day, she would completely forget love and Zhen Hua, but one day, suddenly, she saw Zhen Hua's dying appearance, and her tears came down, because this appearance made people feel distressed .I thought that when time passed, I forgot that I loved someone without hesitation, forgot his care, and forgot everything he did.It's a pity that she is inexplicably strong, strong enough to survive the erosion of time, but it seems to be even more miserable.

Don't just say that you leave everything to time, time is too lazy to clean up the mess; nothing lasts forever, and nothing lasts for a long time.Anyone who makes an excuse can go first.Zhen Hua only knows to leave everything to time, it seems that this is already his habitual thinking, but he doesn't know that he has withstood the ravages of time and insisted on the love in his heart, so why can't others do it?
In everyone's life, there will be some traces engraved in the heart, which are difficult to erase; there are always some past events parked in the memory, which cannot be let go.So I learned to pretend, even though I am not an actor, but every time in the dead of night, I gently take off the mask of disguise, and then weep silently at the pale face in the mirror.Meeting, leaving, many years later, after meeting, suddenly there is a feeling that is hard to let go.The wound may heal with time, but the knot may not be relieved.Therefore, her life is not necessarily a chaotic fork in the road, she must let go and cherish possession.This is what Lu Jing has said to herself every day and night for more than ten years, but she simply can't do it.