President of the Buddhist Department: A loving wife must be teased

If a moment can be turned into eternity, maybe the moment of the two of them is eternity. They don't interfere with each other, and they are in the same space. Their way of getting along is just like this.The helpless person is Zhen Hua, and the persistent person is Lu Jing. Most of the time, no outsiders can interfere with them, just like an invisible magnetic field, and no one can enter, so one is smoking a cigarette at the window, and the other is melancholy at the door , no one could intervene, and it ended with Lu Jing's departure in the end.

Zhen Hua can't leave the hospital yet, so the door of the ward is locked. Zhen Hua heard the sound of the door being locked, but he doesn't want to do anything other than light a second cigarette. He is a bird in a cage. It doesn’t make much difference to him whether he is locked or not, because he has already been locked here, and the guilt towards Lu Jing has imprisoned his heart. Maybe it is the end of his life, and he hopes to restore the things he discarded at the beginning. Conscience, he has no choice but to stay here, of course he has nowhere to go, in this place, he only has two places to go, the inn and the ward, and it just so happens that there is Lu Jing in these two places, and he cannot escape .

Life will inevitably encounter ups and downs, sadness, guilt, confusion, helplessness and other unsatisfactory things. If you are not careful, you will be imprisoned by the inner prison you built yourself.That's why Zhen Hua never expects others to save him. The shackles of his soul are put on by himself, and only he can open it.Even if you have nothing, even if you are alone, even if you are in a difficult situation, you must live calmly and smile at life, even if life is so short that there is almost no fun to speak of, but there are countless guilt and self-blame, I hope I can make up for it.I also hope that there will be no regrets and regrets, and everything will be fine.

I hope things don’t backfire. In fact, Zhen Hua knows that once he has done some things, he should not regret it, let alone say sorry, because from the moment he decides to do it, he deserves guilt and self-blame.The sad thing is that when you are selfish, you realize your own selfishness, and you are tortured beyond recognition by the burning guilt.There are always regrets in life.Every time I look back on the past, I will always blame myself deeply, sinking into the lost and missing, the pain tortures the expectation, and fantasizes that there will be a new start next time.Missing the person who may be with you for the rest of your life will be a lifetime of regret, the pain of loss will be deeply engraved in your heart, and you can only swallow the tears, flow in the bottom of your heart, slowly Hide the scars.

A piece of guilt in the past, a piece of kindness now, is owed to Lu Jing after all. Whether it is guilt or kindness, Zhen Hua can't make up for it. He can't afford it. The only thing that can be exchanged is his own feelings, but It is impossible for him to offer his feelings in exchange, just like the years hidden in the bottom layer, never mentioned, but the pain from season to season, terrified, awakened by nightmares, self-blame, naivety left behind Not much.In the grayest moment, thinking about the end of life, the kind of heart-piercing will never be forgotten in a lifetime, very sad but helpless.The things that he has said and done that hurt other people's hearts may be completely forgotten in a blink of an eye, but it may also be unforgettable for a lifetime. The reason why he doesn't mention it is because he doesn't know how to say it. In fact, he can't tell whether it's guilt Is it self-blame, regret or helplessness.

Some of the mistakes that have been made are because it was too late, some were deliberately avoided, and most of the time they stood aside blankly.Just like this, I made mistakes again and again, but never knew how to learn from them and do some introspection.The greatest difficulty for man is to know himself, and the easiest is also to know himself.Many times, Zhen Hua never recognizes himself clearly, just because he put himself in a wrong position and gave himself an illusion.So, don't be afraid of the bumpy road ahead, just go in the wrong direction from the beginning.Many people fall in love with the wrong person because of loneliness, but more people are lonely all their lives because they love the wrong person.It is impossible for them to love each other, but they are also destined to be unable to stay together.It's not that Lu Jing doesn't love enough, it's just that Zhen Hua can't accept it. This love is definitely not correct, but love can never be absolutely wrong.

Zhen Hua has been imprisoned in this ward, and has no intention of escaping at all. He is willing to stay here, as long as he has enough things for his entertainment. Before Lu Jing left, he put down two cigarettes on the bedside table, which should be enough for Zhen Hua. Hua passed the time, maybe when he was bored, only the burning of cigarettes could bring him a little joy of being alive.The past events took away the sandalwood that remained on his fingertips, which made his cool heart a little more melancholy.Those familiar pictures in the past were scattered thousands of miles away by the wind, the lonely city was singing, the wind was waning and the moon was waning, leaving deep thoughts in vain.The passing years are finally coming to an end.

In this world, there are places that cannot be reached, people that cannot be approached, things that cannot be accomplished, feelings that cannot be possessed, and defects that cannot be repaired.Time may be able to affect some things, but emotion is an exception, because it is not limited by anything, it is the most uncontrollable emotion, but when a person insists on this emotion, the erosion of time will also Turn into nothingness, because emotions will only gradually precipitate with the passage of time, but they will never dissipate because of it.

Zhen Hua knew how much he had condemned and felt guilty all these years, his love, Lu Jing was ruthlessly abandoned by him, who did he resent?The weak self?The decision from the very beginning was wrong, so when did his weakness start?Maybe it started from the moment he fell in love with Wen Zixin.If he hadn't made some achievements in his career these years, I'm afraid he would have collapsed a long time ago. He is a weak person with a distorted mentality. A weak person with a distorted mentality often bullies people who are more miserable than himself for pleasure, and releases his resentment in the misery of others .Although what he "bullies" is only his opponents in the business field, which is a reasonable competition, but he has to admit that only in this way can he let go of his timidity and cowardice. Looking at Lu Jing today, he can't give his love, but With remorse, that's all.

No one knows how their love will start and how it will end, but what if someone arranges everything and just waits for that person to enter the game?Zhen Hua can't choose the beginning of Lu Jing and himself, but their ending can be chosen, and they can even be rehearsed. Of course, their ending does not need to be deliberately arranged, because both parties know each other's intentions, so deliberate will appear false , The natural end is exactly what he hoped for, but it's a pity that no one will know the ending, because the ending set by Zhen Hua is not controllable at all, when he will face death, that is the moment when they end.

Of course Zhen Hua hopes that he can stay in this world for a longer time, but the longer they stay together, it will be a kind of torture for Zhen Hua and Lu Jing, but who doesn't want to live longer?Zhen Hua is also an ordinary person, and he is afraid of death. He has tasted the taste of death twice, so now he is only in awe. Even if the real death comes, it can no longer affect Zhen Hua, so What Zhen Hua has to do next is to live the rest of the day well.

In fact, he didn't expect that one day he would go to the end with Lu Jing, so thinking about it has nothing to do with him, and then he doesn't want to think about it, heals his wounds with peace of mind, and uses cigarettes to pass the boring time.The mobile phone has been turned off for a few days and nights, and Zhen Hua has no intention of turning it on. The current Internet information spreads too fast, especially for superstars like Wen Zixin, maybe they will see Wen Zixin's news inadvertently , So he didn't turn on his mobile phone, and he turned off the TV in the ward long ago. He refused to accept all outside news, just to persist in the current numb feelings.

After acquiescing that Lu Jing was with him, he didn't even dare to think about anything about Wen Zixin, because he knew that as long as Wen Zixin appeared in his mind, it would be impossible for him to hold Lu Jing in his heart. It is impossible for Lu Jing to have anyone, even if it is just a spectator position, but he has already acquiesced, so he can only avoid everything about Wen Zixin as much as possible.

The indifferent time and the ruthless years leave only a misty lovesickness and a silent silence.The pictures lingering in the memory are so sparse, the memory is a road that can never end with sadness, pick up the heartbreak all over the place, and hold a piece of elegant petals in your hand, the shallow sadness is like a cool breeze in the air Diffuse, stranded memory fragmented time, following her place, sharing those elegant and faint romances, may be the best caring, he and Wen Zixin can't be together hand in hand, they can only be Forgotten in the world.

In the vicissitudes of life, I like to walk in the dark night, boundless, bitter, those happy companions, a little affectionate, three-point voluntary, wandering in the world, no longer make everlasting promises for anyone.When the bustling recedes, wash away the lead dust, find a landscape, choose an elegant place, hold your hand, and watch the flowers bloom and fall, and the clouds unfold and relax.In the free world, love is not so important.

There are two admirable people in love, one is the woman who accompanied men to live a hard life when they were young, and the other is the man who accompanied women to live a good life when they were older. There is no lie or betrayal. From the heartbeat to the ancient times, I will show you the world Gentleness; happiness, there is no shortcut, and there is no perfection, only business, only rely on sincerity, Lu Jing belongs to the former, and Zhen Hua belongs to the latter.Lu Jing married Zhen Hua when Zhen Hua was the poorest, and almost regarded the company as her home that year, and left when Zhen Hua's career improved slightly.Now that Zhen Hua has a successful career, he is still willing to accept the current Lu Jing. Perhaps their relationship is already similar to love. Although it is not, it is already quite close. This is not easy at all.

Zhen Hua has always had a question in his mind, how far is the distance between hearts, and why they can't always see each other's positions.It's the end of the world in one thought, turning around is so simple, the barrier of a chasm has finally become an embankment that cannot be crossed.Just a cigarette, and his thoughts wandered thousands of miles away. Perhaps it was because he was fearless, so he stayed in the ward silently, except for the sound of smoking, there was no noise.