A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

I was terrified to eat a meal, because I was driven by the depressive atmosphere of the scene, except for the two dishes in front of me, which had traces of me picking them up, I hadn't even stretched out my chopsticks for the rest.

After dinner, An's father went to the study, leaving An's mother alone in the living room with a few of us chatting about homework.

And An Jinnian sat quietly by my side from the beginning to the end, silent.

"Xiao Xi, when will you let your parents come to Jiangzhou for a walk, so that I can enjoy the friendship with your Uncle An as a landlord." An's mother smiled and took my hand, and raised the topic again.

I lowered my voice and shifted my position uneasily, "Oh, that aunt, my parents... may not have time now."

"What's wrong?" Mother An asked.

"My parents haven't retired yet, so it may take a long time to come to Jiangzhou."

"No hurry, we can afford to wait, then when your parents are free, let's make an appointment and meet up."

"okay."

"Also, Xiao Xi, Jin Nian will trouble you to take care of him in the future. This child is used to being independent since he was a child, and he doesn't like to be close to us."

"Auntie, you mean..." I looked at An's mother hesitantly, and my tone became a little excited.

For so many years, I always thought that An Jinnian's excellence came from his parents' teaching.Therefore, many times I wondered who his parents were to cultivate a perfect person like him.

But today, I heard his mother say in front of him that he was independent since he was a child and didn't like to be close to others.

When I heard this, my heart felt astringent, and I couldn't help but turn my head and stare at An Jinnian seriously for a long time.

Mother An wiped the corners of her eyes with self-blame, "It's all my fault..."

"Don't worry, Auntie, I will take good care of Jinnian." I held her back and said from the bottom of my heart.

"Okay, that's good..." Anmu murmured, her excitement not hidden on her face.

When I got home, Xu Yan left me to An Jinnian very shamelessly.

On the other hand, she dragged Shen Ke, who had always wanted to take me home with An Jinnian, into her car.

Before Shen Ke left, he still looked at me with sad eyes, mixed with loss, I thought, I understand him.

His attachment to me all these years cannot be explained simply with one point or two.

I just admire him for having the courage to do it all over again after being rejected by me so many times.

Therefore, many times I will conduct a deep self-reflection so that I can have a good coping strategy when I run into him next time.

After getting in the car, An Jinnian and I fell into a wordless silence.

He drove the car quietly, with the corners of his mouth curled into a line, as if he regarded my existence as air and ignored it.

I stared at his familiar, nearly perfect side face, and moved my lips. I wanted to talk to him several times, but I didn't know where to start.

At this moment, An Jinnian seemed to have returned, returning to his original indifference.

It's as if I was in An's house just now, the person who exudes strong hostility towards An's mother is not him, and the person who pretends to be alienated from me is not him.

"Have you seen enough?" An Jinnian said calmly after a long time.

"I..." I was easily seen through by him, so I had to lower my head shyly, not daring to face him in the driver's seat.

Is it familiar or not?

Such a diverse An Jinnian brought me back a trace of strangeness.

"Are you afraid of me?" He asked again, his tone still as cold as before.

"No..." This time I fully expressed my wish, and unconsciously leaned to the side.

The street lamps at both ends of the street shone brightly all the way, reflecting on his white face through the windshield, overlapping with the shadow of the lamps, softening his stern face a bit.

"Then why are you so nervous," the questioning tone came out of his mouth, full of displeasure.

An Jinnian like this still gives me a very weird feeling.

I can't tell if it's unfamiliar or familiar, I always feel that he is not...

It's not the An Jinnian I'm familiar with, not the An Jinnian who can't help but get close to me even if his back is turned to me.

The person in front of me is too strange, so strange that I lose my sense of security and feel more afraid.

"No, it's just that I haven't seen you for too long and I'm a little excited." I explained. "Besides, I've been worried about you since the last time you were hospitalized..."

"You..." He pondered, because my tone of explanation softened a lot, "You really like me?"

"What?" I was puzzled by his words.

I like him, didn't he know it all the time, what's more, my feelings for him are more than liking, it's obviously love.

"Jin Nian, is there something you're hiding from me?" I asked, shaking my head.

"No." An Jinnian shook his head.

"Really?" This time, the right to ask questions returned to my hands. "But I always feel that you are weird."

"You're thinking too much." An Jinnian's explanation was far-fetched, and it wasn't even enough to explain it.

The car stopped at the gate of the community, and I reluctantly leaned on the window to say goodbye to him, and asked, "Do you want to go up and sit?"

An Jinnian shook his head, and said flatly, "No, I have something else to do."

"Oh, that's fine." I nodded reluctantly and waved to him. "Then goodbye..."

"See you……"

No emotional words came out of An Jinnian's mouth, and before I even had time to stop and take a good look at him, he had already sped away in the car and quickly disappeared from my sight.

The wet ground can still clearly reflect the silhouette of the roadside under the dim light of the roadside.

In the dead of night, after the lights of Wanjia slowly fell, I stood quietly at the intersection, staring at the direction An Jinnian was going away, and lost my mind for a moment.

Tonight is the first time he has had dinner with me since he returned to Jiangzhou, and it was with his family.

I thought I should have been happy.

Because he finally let go of the estrangement in his heart and was willing to let me integrate into his life and share the wind and rain with him.

But his performance has exceeded all my expectations. He no longer has tenderness and doting towards me, and even the thoughtfulness that once belonged to me has never been seen in him.

All that can be contained in his eyes is the trace of hatred hidden under the emotion.

"Why don't you go back..."

A familiar voice came from behind, and I turned around, only to see Shen Ke slowly walking out of the shadows.

"Shen Ke." I said in surprise, "Why are you still here, didn't you go back?"

Shen Ke came over and stood in front of me, with the corners of his mouth raised, showing a faint smile, and said, "I'm a little worried about you, so I just waited here."

"I have nothing to worry about. It's late at night, you'd better go back early." My subconscious mind already understood the reason for Shen Ke's visit.

Are you trying to draw a line with me?Still old and dead!
"Jiangzhou is different from the north. It will be extremely cold after it rains, so I don't wear more clothes." Shen Ke ignored what I said, and took off the coat he didn't know when he got back from Yu Sheng. Gently put it on for me.

I saw it in my eyes, but it warmed my heart, "Shen Ke, thank you."

I think, as far as I am now, the only thing I can express to him is thank you.

"Fool." He raised his hand and rubbed my head lovingly, and asked me in a gentle tone he had never had before, "How do you feel tonight, are you nervous when you meet Jinnian's parents?"

I grinned "Are you going to tell the truth?"

"Hmm." Shen Ke raised his eyebrows.

"Well, I'm still quite nervous." I, who is not good at lying, told the truth.

"Lin Xi, I don't want to let you go..."

"Ah..." I couldn't remember Shen Ke's sudden confession, and I couldn't help but scream out.

Before I had time to take precautions, Shen Ke suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged me into his arms, and said softly and seriously, "I don't want to hand you over to Jinnian, Lin Xi, do you know? I love you, yes Love, not liking..."

Is it a confession?

I cautiously poked my head out of his arms and looked at him seriously, not daring to make too much movement.

"Shen Ke, I'm sorry." I hugged him back and apologized.

At this moment, all I can do is give him a hug back while he hugs me.

"What I want is never yours. I'm sorry, Lin Xi, seven years, what will you give me in exchange for the sincerity that I have wrongly paid you for seven years?" The air suddenly became quiet, and Shen Ke hugged my hands tightly, tightening them again. .

Lying in his arms, I could clearly hear the throbbing heartbeat in his chest due to the excitement, which was louder than louder at that moment.

"Shen Ke, I'm sorry." But all I can give is still sorry.

In the world of love, there is no right or wrong, only meeting the wrong person at the right time.And my encounter with Shen Ke was wrong from beginning to end.

It's just because, on the rainy night of that year, our encounter was too sloppy, and the beauty left behind was too lonely.Even now, I still feel that my first meeting with Shen Ke was a rare joke.

"I'm sorry, is it useful? Lin Xi." Shen Ke let go of me and said, "If I'm sorry, it's useful, I'd be happy to fulfill you and An Jinnian."

"But feelings can't be forced, can't you? Shen Ke. You understand this point better than me, but why are you more persistent than me? Obviously there are people waiting for you by your side." At this moment, my mood is also Terrible.

"Aren't you also persistent for so many years?" Shen Ke asked back.

"Shen Ke, I'm different from you." I tried my best to argue, hoping to persuade him to regain some sense in my words, "For so many years, I have loved cleanly and purely. From the beginning to the end, I only loved Jinnian. But you are different , The flowers and plants around you prove the distance between you and me, as well as our identity gap, and the difference in the way we treat our feelings. And these are doomed from the beginning, we will not have results."

"How do you know that we won't have any results." Shen Ke asked stubbornly.

"Because I love An Jinnian..." I closed my eyes, and said the answer bluntly again.

"I see." Shen Ke nodded repeatedly.

Shen Ke's face was gradually covered by shadows and disappeared into the darkness.

I looked up at him, hesitant to speak several times.

"Jinnian didn't like to be close to others since he was a child, but he is the most special to you. So I hope you can get along well with him in the future." Shen Ke turned his back and changed the topic to An Jinnian body.

I recalled the meaning in his words, and after a long while, I came back to my senses, and looked at him happily, "Shen Ke, you..."