The hero of the female supporting role in fast time travel is highly poisonous

But when I face Chen Jiaming who also loves me like this, I can't give him anything. You must know that my love has been devoted to Xie Yan from the very beginning, so naturally it is impossible to give some to others, because that would be to Xie Yan. For me and Xie Yan, it is tantamount to betrayal.

Therefore, it is impossible for me to betray Xie Yan. Let alone I love him very much. As far as I am concerned, I have no way to violate my moral bottom line. For me, there are some things that I must defend. Loyalty is mine. The bottom line that must be adhered to, so I can't lose it no matter what.
But I am also very contradictory, I don't know if it is because of my own vanity that I care so much about whether Chen Jiaming can continue to like me.
Although I hate myself like this, there are some things that I can't control. Really, just like now, I force myself to explain the matter between me and him to Chen Jiaming, but in my heart, because Chen Jiaming is about to I feel very uncomfortable about leaving, and sometimes I wonder, is such an ending really what I want?For Chen Jiaming, what kind of feelings do I have for him in my heart?
If I really don't like him, how can I feel lost because of the current situation? If I like him, why can't I accept him? I don't understand myself, I think maybe if the emotional world could be a little simpler, I wouldn't be so troubled, I really can't handle these emotional problems well.
Although I know in my heart that some things must be done, but on the other hand, I feel sad and at a loss because of some things in my heart. I don't know what to do with such a self, because she is also a stranger to me. , I don't want to let myself sink deeper in this relationship, and I don't want to hurt anyone, I think maybe I need to think about what I should do.
Although there are some gaps between Xie Yan and me now, it seems that there are emotional problems, but these can be solved, and I love him very much, I believe that everything is not a problem, there is nothing between us that cannot be resolved Therefore, if these issues between us are mixed with outsiders, it is not just a matter of feelings, but a moral issue.
And it's also a question of loyalty. If things really develop to this point, it may really end badly. The problem between me and Chen Jiaming cannot be solved easily, and there is also a test between me and Xie Yan. We need more running-in between us, otherwise, our relationship will not last longer.
There are too many problems that can’t be solved in a short time. Let’s not talk about the distance between him and me, but our mutual concepts are very different. Sometimes he is too possessive, which makes me A bit unbearable, he said he loved me very much, but I didn't know that there were so many things between us.
Why did he like me at the beginning? I know that there are many things that need to be resolved between us. If we don’t handle them properly, we will have no future at all. I don’t want our long-term relationship to be wasted like this.
Although it is inevitable for most couples to have conflicts with each other, I was fully prepared at the beginning. You must know that no matter how good the relationship is, it is impossible for a couple to have no problems. , and the crux of the problem is whether these contradictions can be resolved, I think, for me, this is what I have to do now.
But the relationship between Xie Yan and I is now at a freezing point. I don't want to have any other incidents with him. Our relationship has already had many problems.
Just solving these problems is already very time-consuming. If Chen Jiaming's matter is mixed between us at this time, I'm afraid this matter will become more and more chaotic, and it will not end well by then, and it will also It will hurt both Xie Yan and Chen Jiaming, but I don't want to see all of this. I just hope that the matter between us can be resolved quickly, and no one will be hurt because of it.
For the two of them, I have love for one and guilt for the other. I can't let anyone down, so I have to think of a perfect plan so that I can feel at ease. I can not only protect my love for Xie Yan, but also be worthy of my love for Xie Yan. For Chen Jiaming's dedication to me, this ending is the best for us, so I must properly resolve my relationship with Chen Jiaming, and quickly resolve the problems between myself and Xie Yan.
Just at this moment, I felt my pocket vibrate suddenly. It seemed that my phone had it. What news?I quickly came back to my senses, took out my phone, took a look, and found that it was Penguin who had the news.
I guessed in my heart that it should be Jiang Qinqin, but I'm not sure.But no matter who?I have to take a look at it first, and it’s useless to think too much, isn’t it, the facts are the most important.
I took out my mobile phone to check, and found that it was Jiang Qinqin. It seems that sometimes my hunch is quite accurate. Jiang Qinqin is playing a game next door, but I have been thinking about this place in my heart. Maybe I can't even play games, so be so devoted, otherwise, how could it be?
Just message me less than 10 minutes later?
It seems that she does have a deep affection for Chen Jiaming, and she always pays attention to his movements. Hey, there is a constant relationship between the two of us. If Chen Jiaming liked Jiang Qinqin in the first place, Maybe there will be no such things anymore, but there are some things, just like this kind of accident, we can't escape the arrangement of fate, some things are already doomed.
We can't change these things, but we can also use our own power to make our own world different, just like I always believe that even if Xie Yan and I have different paths, the relationship between us is still precious Love is not over, even if love can't solve all problems.
But at least some problems can be solved, and I also want to believe that as long as we can persist, then one day we can get the results we want, even if we need to wait for a long time, we will have an ending.Hey, let's talk about Chen Jiaming.
He has paid a lot to me, but he doesn't seem to be interested in Jiang Qinqin, but Jiang Qinqin has been working hard. Although some things can't be changed, I believe that maybe one day, Chen Jiaming may find that Jiang Qinqin is good. God, they tied the knot.
I don't know how Jiang Qinqin would feel when Chen Jiaming came to see me, but one thing Jiang Qinqin might not have imagined was that Chen Jiaming did not leave like before this time, but unexpectedly left so soon. How long has it been without staying in my home?
Could it be that he really had no other intentions, or that he was really in a hurry, so he had to leave?Maybe I really think too much. It is not impossible to say this. Although Chen Jiaming has always had different feelings for me, the relationship between us is not everything to him. The world is big, and his heart is not all about me. Apart from me, he has his own career and his own life, and this is precisely the difference between him and Xie Yan. Xie Yan is too possessive of me. I also care too much.
Although I understand it in my heart, I also think this is a good ending, but if it is really put on the table, it is too shocking. This makes my heart a little dark. Of course, this is a joke. , I think Jiang Qinqin knew about it.
She must be very happy in her heart, and maybe this is also a symbol of Chen Jiaming slowly letting go of the relationship in her heart. This kind of thing happens is the situation I would like to see the most. If the people I care about can get happiness, I will feel the same way.
I hope that everything can go smoothly as we expected. Now I hope that Chen Jiaming can accept Jiang Qinqin slowly, so that there will be no more two sad people in this world.
Actually, it's not just my case, women's minds are so strange, although they don't want to have any real relationship with each other in their hearts, but they always want to continue the relationship with each other unclearly, but like this Your thoughts will only hurt the person who loves you, and it will also make the person you love sad.
Obviously you have nothing to do with each other, so why bother to get entangled, the longer some feelings exist, the greater the chance of being hurt.
Just like yellow cotton wool, if you don't want to take it out of your body with pain, then after a long time, if you want to take it out again, it will be a sharp pain.
At that time, the yellow cotton wool has grown into one body with your body, the pain is like digging out your own flesh alive, that kind of heart-piercing pain.
I think it's unbearable, so sometimes you should stop when you stop, if you don't stop, you will suffer from it, so it shouldn't be for your own selfishness.
Just let irrelevant people get trapped in your own emotional world, and don't keep thinking about even if you can't give the other party a real commitment.
But you must also let the other party care about yourself. That is unfair to everyone. If you can’t give him a response, don’t let him be fettered because of your love for you. A short-term obsession is not a permanent relationship. If you have been unclear I don't know, I think there must be something between you.
If you feel comfortable in your heart, then one day in the future he may feel disgusted by your feelings. What kind of feeling will you have in your heart at that time? Don’t let yourself be addicted to this perverted mentality all the time. Next, otherwise wait until you understand later.
I always feel so uncomfortable in my heart, thinking that I have not only hurt others, but also hurt myself all over the body. You must know that everything you do now is not worth it, and it is also hurtful. Sometimes, we should give up some things in a timely manner , Only in this way can we have the opportunity to obtain our own happiness, don't let ourselves regret one day in the future, feel that we have wasted too much time doing these useless things, sad, why bother, our life is too much It is short, there are not many springs and autumns, we have been chasing.