you are a star

In the past few years of suffering in country M, she spent every day in their memories. She recalled every detail of what happened when they were together.

Although the time is not long, they have been together for less than two years, and she is very cautious every time they meet, while he always laughs at her timidity and accommodates her.

They have done the most intimate thing, never even kissed, just holding hands, in a semi-old park with no people.

Even so, it was the warmest time for her, and it was her motivation to become better.

That was all the strength that held her up.

So much so that she couldn't help but came to him and asked him if he was really going to marry that woman?

Li Ruo's sudden appearance was not expected by Li Dongbai.

But after seeing her appear, he thought about what she would say, but he didn't expect her to say those words when she opened her mouth.

Li Dongbai leaned back in his chair, with a stern face and an obviously displeased tone, and reminded him in a low voice: "Li Ruo, her name is Chu Mo, she is my girlfriend, not 'that woman', don't be afraid of her in the future." Call her that again."

Li Ruo's hand holding the towel trembled suddenly, and the veins on the back of his hand trembled tightly.

These words did not have a tone of scolding, at best they could only be said to be a reminder, but to her, they were every word of punishment.

Every word was neatly and precisely inserted into her heart!
She let go of her biting lower lip, and the blood smeared away. She laughed dumbfounded, and after a while, she asked him back: "You never talk to me in this tone."

"Dong Bai, don't you have me at all in your heart?"

She looked closely at Li Dongbai, not letting go of any slight change of expression on his face, but after she watched for a while, there was nothing on his face except displeasure and indifference.

"It's meaningless for you to ask this question now. I only have Chu Mo in my heart."

Li Ruo was not reconciled when Li Dongbai blocked her with a word, her eyes widened, and big tears fell from her eye sockets.

She shook her head, her eyes were bloodshot and flushed, "What should I do to make you stop falling in love with others?"

"You tell me, Dong Bai, you tell me!"

Li Dongbai had never seen Li Ruo like this before, and frowned, "Li Ruo, calm down, the matter between us is over, why are you still obsessed with it?"

"Don't be so cruel to me, please, Dong Bai, I can't take it." Li Ruo's tone was almost pleading, she really couldn't bear being treated like this by Li Dongbai.

She didn't want to be like this.

She doesn't want to become what she is now!

After returning to China, she always behaved elegantly and maturely in front of Li Dongbai, even if she still had hope in her heart, she was not in a hurry to show it.

But since she saw Chu Mo at Qiao Nan's wedding banquet, she saw that Li Dongbai seemed different to Chu Mo.

She began to look less like herself.

It turned out that the inner demon had always been hidden in her heart. She broke through the boundaries again and again, got drunk in the clubhouse, called Li Dongbai for no reason, said some weird words in front of Chu Mo, and beat around the bush in front of her friends. Discredit Chu Mo.

She was not like herself, sensitive and mean, hideous.

In the past, she watched TV dramas and novels where women became crazy and hysterical after losing love. She always thought that she must not become like this.

That look is too ugly.

She must not...

But in fact, she couldn't control herself because...she still loves Li Dongbai.

Today in the hospital, she was stimulated by the affairs of him and Chu Mo successively, and all her forbearance finally couldn't suppress her inner demons.

She can't make it perfect, because she is not reconciled, really not reconciled!
Seeing her emotional instability, Li Dongbai sighed, and said: "This is not cruel, it's the truth, Li Ruo, we really can't do it anymore, if I'm indecisive towards you, it's true hurt you."

He even felt that he was not decisive enough, but this was the last time.

"This time I will speak more clearly, and I hope you can listen to it. If you are still like this, we may not even be able to be cousins ​​in the future."

"Is it because I was divorced and had sex with other men?" Li Ruo questioned him.

Li Dongbai shook his head, "It has nothing to do with this, I have no feelings for you for a long time."

Li Ruo lowered her head, covered her face with a towel, and sobbed: "I don't have feelings anymore... so your feelings disappeared so quickly? Is it because I got married that made you give up? Or have you never really Liked me!"

With the last sentence, Li Ruo raised his head, his bloodshot eyes stared at Li Dongbai with resentment and unwillingness!
It seems to penetrate Li Dongbai's soul and see the answer in the deepest part of his heart.

And Li Dongbai was obviously taken aback.

Really liked Li Ruo...

Seeing him hesitate, Li Ruo's face gradually turned pale, and then her face was like an emotionless mask, and a self-deprecating laugh came from deep in her throat.

It turned out that the most painful thing was not seeing him having sex with others, but her questioning, in exchange for his silence.

"It seems I guessed it right."

His attitude towards Chu Mo, and his attitude towards her before, are different.

Back then, she exhausted the greatest courage in her life to confess to him, she was timid and cowardly, she didn't even dare to look up at him, he was like sunshine, and she was like weeds by the roadside.

He smiled and said, you can tell if you like it, anyway, I don't have a girlfriend.

He pursued Chu Mo cautiously, and for Chu Mo's escape, he spared his life.

Whether she loves or not, she didn't see clearly until today.

There was an infinitely long silence in the carriage.

Her hands softened, and the towel fell on the carpet in the car.

She murmured: "Why do you all treat me like this? Why do you push me into a deep valley after giving me heaven? It would be better if you never gave me hope."

"That year, you shouldn't have praised my beautiful dress, Dong Bai. Without this beginning, there would be no subsequent stories between us."

skirt……

There seemed to be an electric current running through Li Dongbai's mind, and then frantically rolled up the fragments of those memories, and pieced them together into that bright and beautiful dress.

At the beginning he boasted that the dress was beautiful, but he didn't tell Li Ruo that she wasn't suitable for that color, but he himself couldn't say which one was suitable.

It was he who forgot at that time, forgot some things that shouldn't be forgotten.

That skirt was exactly the same as what Xiao Chumo wore that day in the orphanage.

Little Chumo was as beautiful as a doll, and she rushed into his heart all at once.

When he came back to his senses, Li Ruo had already opened the door and got out of the car.

She walked in the rain in a daze without even holding an umbrella.