you are a star

Yanxi woke up in a trance from drunkenness. It turned out that almost two years had passed, and Yin Shisan had never contacted her for more than a year, nor had he returned to China once.

She hurt him, in fact, she shouldn't have extravagant expectations, isn't this exactly the result she wanted?Let him stay away from himself and live a brand new emotional life that a normal person should have.

Even if she can live like a normal person now, the nightmare of the past can no longer affect her.

When exactly did you fall in love with Yin Shisan?
Yanxi couldn't speak for herself.

Maybe during her menstrual period every month, he would make brown sugar water for her, prepare a warm baby for her in winter, and buy her a foot bath bucket online.

The time she kissed him drunk, maybe it was out of instinct, maybe it was the guilt of being misunderstood as a couple every time she went shopping, maybe it was the heartbeat that happened at the illuminated stadium, maybe it was earlier.

She liked him more than she knew.

But she pushed him out of her own world with her own hands, wounding him with bruises all over his body, and cutting down his wound one by one.

Qiao Nan said that he was going back to China. It should be the time to be an exchange student as he said before, and he will graduate from university in half a year.

According to Qiao Nan, the position of chief network engineer of Liang Feicheng's company was reserved for him.

However, none of this has anything to do with her.

Yanxi went back to the room to sleep in a daze, only to realize that she was sleeping in the guest bedroom when she woke up the next day.

She got up to wash up, had some breakfast casually, and went to work.

She returned to work a year ago. At that time, her colleagues threw a party for her to celebrate her return, and someone mentioned Chen Ming.

Half a year ago, she and Yu Wenzhou went to Country Y on a business trip, but she did not expect to run into Chen Ming in Country Y.

At that time, Chen Ming was walking with his wife, and heard from his colleagues that Chen Ming's wife was a wealthy daughter in country Y, and he found the shortcut he wanted.

It was also a year ago that she told Qiao Nan to forget it, and to give Chen Ming a way to survive was also a good deed for herself. Perhaps God, for her kindness' sake, let her recover from her illness and there is no possibility of recurrence.

When Chen Ming saw Yan Xi, he just nodded his head as a greeting.

Yanxi smiled faintly, but he didn't expect that Chen Ming called her that night and asked her if she wanted to go out for a drink.

Yanxi readily agreed, and when he arrived at the coffee shop, Chen Ming sat opposite him in a well-dressed manner, and he asked Yanxi how he was doing recently.

"You don't blame me?" Yan Xi smiled. With Chen Ming's intelligence, he should be able to guess why he couldn't get along in Yanjing City.

Chen Ming stirred the coffee and said lightly: "Isn't it your own fault?"

Yanxi didn't speak, and took a sip of coffee.

"Yanxi, I'm sorry for the past."

Yanxi looked out the window, diagonally opposite was a flower shop, the owner threw a large bouquet of roses that were supposed to be dying into the trash can, she blinked and looked away.

"You also said it was a thing of the past, and I don't care much about the past anymore." If she still broods, she can't get out of the shadow of the past.

"I didn't know that it would have such a big impact on you." The self-blame and guilt in Chen Ming's eyes were not faked.

Yan Xi smiled lightly, "Forget it, Chen Ming, forget it."

She didn't mean to forgive him, but to forget it.

Forget it means she doesn't pursue it and doesn't care.

Coming out of the coffee shop, Chen Ming said to Yanxi that he could speak up if he was needed in the future, but Yanxi smiled and said, "My friend is much more reliable than you."

"What about him?" Chen Ming asked suddenly.

It was raining outside, and the weather here in Country Y was like this. Fortunately, Yanxi put a folding umbrella in her bag, and she paused when she opened it.

Then he said calmly: "As you wish, I am not with him."

"Yanxi, I didn't mean that." Chen Ming frowned.

"But Chen Ming, he and I are not what you said, not because he has nothing. Besides, he is richer than you imagined. You don't understand the world of those people. But even if he really has nothing, I would I won’t dislike him because of this, it’s my problem that I can’t get together with him.”

Yanxi opened the umbrella, turned around, said goodbye to Chen Ming, and left.

After that, Chen Ming never contacted her again, and even if she could still hear a sentence or two from other people occasionally, she didn't fluctuate at all.

……

Yanxi came to the company with a hangover. Even though she put on light makeup, her colleagues still saw her red eye circles, "Yanxi, what's wrong with your eyes? You still smell a little drunk, did you drink last night?"

Yanxi frowned, "I've been drinking, I can smell it, I've already sprayed mouth freshener."

It's just that she didn't say that her eyes were red from crying when she was dreaming. She seemed to have dreamed everything about the past and Yin Shisan. She didn't know how many times she woke up or cried.

But after waking up, she didn't feel any sadness at all, as if those things happened in her previous life.

During the lunch break at noon, Yanxi did not take a break at the company, but drove to the mall to pick out Christmas gifts. Christmas would be five days later, and she was going to buy gifts for An An and Sui Sui. She told the children that she was the emissary of Santa Claus and asked What gifts do they want, she can convey to Santa Claus.

Sure enough, the child was only two weeks old, so the gift he asked for was not too simple.

After Yanxi bought presents, she thought about buying gifts for her aunt and uncle. The family of her aunt and uncle are now in Yanjing City, but they did not live with Yanxi, but in her aunt's previous house.

Just as she was getting on the escalator, she glanced casually, and saw a tall boy on the first floor below, wearing a long black coat. Nowadays, such boys are very popular, and they are clean. Looking over from the back, I knew it must be a very handsome boy, because the girls who passed in front of him all turned their heads and covered their mouths in surprise.

But most of these boys have girlfriends, because Yanxi saw a girl holding the boy's arm.

Just as they turned the corner, Yanxi saw the boy's profile.

But when she wanted to confirm again, they had already entered the elevator and there was no one in sight.

Yanxi withdrew her gaze, the escalator arrived, she almost tripped over her, the people around thought she was frightened, an old lady told her: "Little girl, don't be distracted by the elevator, don't do that next time."

When he left, he murmured: "It doesn't look too small, and I was scared to cry."

Yanxi raised her hand and touched her face, her face was cold, she seemed to be stunned for a moment, and stood still.

is it him?