About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 158 Jiuliuli Prays For One Day To Formally Reconcile With Her Brother

"Jiu Liuli?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli didn't respond to him, she just hugged her legs and shrank dejectedly behind the flower bed.

Just looking at her like this, Sakakihara Raku has indescribable emotions welling up in her heart.

This kind of appearance is very familiar to Sakakihara Raku, and it can even be said that he has seen it many times.

In the past, Ah Ling, who ran away from home and hid under the bridge when she was a child, was drenched in the rain. She was alone like this, no one approached, no one cared.

dislike?Hate?bored?

These emotions may have
But as a person, as a person who has been taken care of by Liuli, and who has seen her smile at him, he can see her now devastated.

Still can't help but go forward and ask.

Sakakihara tried to get close to her and squatted down beside her.

The two did not speak for a long time.

Sakakibara was so bored that he pulled a green leaf from the flower bed beside him, pinched the green leaf back and forth in his hands until it was completely out of shape, and then asked:

"You heard all the conversation between me and my aunt just now?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli didn't look at him, but still nodded slightly, but after that, she buried her face deeper.

Compared with the intimacy of the past.

Now the two are more like strangers.

Sakakihara Raku couldn't help but look at Tianhai Jiuliuli, who was crouching and burying her face while hugging her legs.It's hard to imagine that Jiu Liuli, who is usually tall, bright, gentle and majestic, will show this fragile appearance now.

Sakakihara Raku can't tell what kind of emotion he has towards her now.

"Jiu Liuli, you don't need to take what your aunt said just now."

"Brother. Needless to say, I know everything. I knew it a long time ago, and Qi Mingyue hinted to me many times a long time ago." Tianhai Jiuliuli's voice became softer and choked up as she spoke.

Jiu Liuli already knew?

Did you already know how your mother viewed you?
But even if she knew about it, if her mother really told her about it, she would still be hurt.

"Since you know all about Jiu Liuli, why do you still do this?"

"My brother thinks it's ridiculous. I know it. I know that my mother doesn't treat me like a daughter, but I still do it." Tianhai Jiu Liuli's eyes began to turn red when she said this, "I don't know why. I. I I always go back and think about the way my mother took me out when I was a child, and the way my mother took me out to play."

Sakakihara Raku looked at her sitting on the lawn like this, looked at her flaxen hair, and felt that she was a helpless little girl now.
Jiu Liuli was enduring, trying not to let her tears flow from her eyes.

She put away her emotions, and continued to bury her face and said:
"It's meaningless to do so, and I won't get the care I really want. But I still want to do it, and I want to respond to my mother's expectations, even though my mother doesn't regard me as her daughter at all.

"Brother. Am I stupid?"

"It's stupid"

".But, I don't do it. I really don't know what I should do. It seems that everyone doesn't need me, except my mother. I always seem to be the redundant one."

Bertha is right in saying that Jiu Liuli's tenderness stems from her need for the sense of security that others give her, so that she can feel that she is needed by everyone again.

The lack of a sense of security is somewhat similar to Ah Ling's cause.

Dad left, which caused Ah Ling to feel insecure for a long time.

Her mother left, causing Jiu Liuli to feel insecure for a long time.

The difference is that Ah Ling can still rely on herself.

Jiu Liuli, as an older sister, she must also show her identity as an older sister.

Uncle Tianhai is not good at expressing love, nor is he good at guiding children to grow up, and he is busy with work.

Under the circumstances at that time, Jiu Liuli only had a piano practice left by her mother as her future goal.

There is one and only one goal.

While she has to take care of her younger sister, she must also be strong and continue to practice the piano.

But the truth is, mother only cares about the piano.

It's not her daughter.

"Brother, am I useless? I'm hated by everyone, even my own mother doesn't like it."

Sakakihara sat next to her, sighed and said, "No, Jiu Liuli is so gentle and treats everyone very well."

"But everyone doesn't like me."

"You don't need others to like you, you just need to be yourself. As long as Jiu Liuli is a good person, someone will like you."

Sakakihara also understood why Jiu Liuli felt so light before.

In fact, the way she has always been is not her real self.

She, like herself, is a person who needs to be cared about.

Most of her gentleness and grandeur are to hide the weakness in her heart.

She is actually very eager to be loved, very eager to be recognized.

Nothing, even the identity of the only remaining daughter has to be denied by the mother, she is just a poor little girl.

Sakakihara sat beside her, and couldn't bear to look at her beautiful face.

Jiu Liuli probably knew that there was still a gap between him and Sakakihara Raku.She suppressed her emotions, didn't erupt in her, but just endured silently.

She was uncomfortable, and Sakakihara Raku also felt uncomfortable.

Even if he has not completely reconciled with her, as her brother, Sakakihara Raku still can't bear to see this scene.He gently stretched out his hand, gently embraced her delicate shoulders, and let her lean against his side.

"elder brother."

"Let's say it first, I haven't forgiven you yet. It's just that as a brother, I really can't bear to see you like this, so I will lend you a temporary loan."

Sakakihara didn't know whether it was her words that made the difference, or the action of hugging her shoulders.Jiu Liuli followed her movements and leaned on her shoulders, and Sakakihara Raku immediately heard a choking sound from her side.

Sakakihara didn't look at her, but just looked up at the blue sky.

But even though he didn't go to see her, he could still imagine Jiu Liuli's weak and helpless expression at this moment.

Not required.

Even the mother who has always liked her just used herself as a tool to be used.

Jiu Liuli is currently in such a mood.

Gradually, Jiu Liuli seemed to think of some sad things before, and her sobs became heavier in her ears, and her little hands also began to pull on the clothes on her shoulders, pulling very hard, as if she was struggling to find so-called support generally.

But even so, she was still enduring, enduring to prevent her feelings from erupting.

The support that I have not been able to find for more than ten years, the role of sister that I have been trying to play for more than ten years.
Sakakibara sighed, took the initiative to embrace her slender shoulders, and buried her face in his arms.

Doing so was obviously very effective. The moment Tianhai Jiuliuli was hugged into his arms, she couldn't help crying against him, pulling on his collared clothes and sobbing softly.

"I'm really, really, really, really sorry."

Hearing her weeping choking, Sakakihara Raku didn't mean to blame her now, and patted her delicate back with his hand, so that she could relax more and express her suppressed emotions better.

Jiu Liuli kept saying that she was useless, but in fact, Sakakihara also thought so.

Apart from being able to cook and run, I don't have anything that girls like about me, right?
From this point of view, he and Jiu Liuli are also in the same boat.

Thinking of this, Sakakihara felt that Jiu Liuli's body became smaller and softer in her arms again.

Smelling the fragrance on her body, hearing the sadness in her voice, and feeling the touch of her grabbing her neckline, Sakakihara raised her arms to cover her face, trying to help her cover as much of her weak side as possible.

It's really strange. Obviously, I haven't forgiven her yet.

But why. Sakakihara Raku figured it out as she touched Jiu Ruri's loose hair with her fingers and stroked her back trembling from sobbing.

In Ah Ling's words, she is a central air conditioner.

He is the most uncomfortable kind of guy.

Jiu Liuli's choking sound became smaller and smaller in her arms, and her strength in grabbing her clothes also decreased a lot.

"feelling better?"

Feeling that Jiu Liuli wanted to raise her head, Sakakihara let go of her arms around her back.

"sorry"

".Well, don't say sorry."

Tianhai Jiuliuli lowered her head, her eyes were flushed, but her condition seemed to be much better, she smiled bitterly: "Obviously I have done something wrong to my brother, but now I have to rely on my brother to vent my emotions. Isn't it strange?"

Her voice was weak, with a hint of self-mockery in it.

"When people are mentally weak, they always want to grab something, I think"

Sakakihara paused for a moment, "As an older brother, it really doesn't matter for me to rely on you. It's like the thing that Ah Ling also wanted me to comfort her when she was crying. This is consistent."

"Um"

Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded lightly, wanting to say many things, but in the end she just said softly, "Thank you brother."

"Don't say thank you, just lend you a shoulder."

Sakakihara smiled, changed to a more comfortable sitting position, and sat on the grass next to the same flower bed with her, "Jiuli, why do you think you are practicing the piano?"

"Just...for Mom's request."

"I don't think it's right. If you are just asking for your mother, why are you still smiling when you receive flowers from everyone on the day of the concert?"

"this."

"I think this is the recognition Jiuliuli you have worked so hard for, and it belongs to you. Don't worry about what your aunt said that you have nothing."

Sakakihara found that her little hand was shrinking inward intentionally or unintentionally, so she took the initiative to go up and squeeze her half palm with half palm.

Tianhai Jiuliuli also raised her face and looked at him.

Sakakihara Raku looked seriously at her angelic face and said:

"Actually, Jiu Liuli should regard herself as more important. She can be caring and gentle to everyone, but don't take this as the meaning of her own existence. The meaning of existence should be more self-centered and independent. The usual Jiu Liuli That's it, no matter when and where you are confident, generous and gentle."

"That's just an appearance"

"Don't worry about whether it's an appearance, since Jiu Liuli can do it, it means that this is not completely false. I don't think there is anything wrong with loving others because I want to be loved, and being gentle with others because I want to be gentle.

"The reason, because I am also like this, of course there are some achievements, isn't that what Ah Ling is, and now she has become a tsundere brother. Haha"

Amidst the relaxed laughter, Jiuliuli's small hand seemed to tighten a little under his own words.

She listened to herself very carefully.

Sakakibara knew that she was very patient and listened carefully, and laughed at the crying girl in front of her, "I am also very naive, I just figured it out. I am obviously the most shameful person because I am uncomfortable, but I still want to Saying that to you, seeing the text message you sent, and acting like a child, pretending not to see it."

".Brother, that's my fault"

"I'm not talking about the right or wrong of the matter, but that I was too naive in the face of your apology. It doesn't make much sense to say these things. By the way, aren't you and Qi Mingyue celebrating your birthday in two days? 16 years old is considered half an adult, don't look at me still angry with you, but I am also preparing gifts for you."

Tianhai Jiuliuli looked very embarrassed under his relaxed and soft words.

On the one hand, it was because he still felt guilty towards him, but he still said these comforting words to himself.

On the other hand, she didn't know why, but in this situation where the two of them were alone, she wanted to be shy when she heard him say this to herself. Perhaps, it was a little girl's mind?
She wanted to say something, but she hesitated, her words stuck in her throat, and she didn't know what to say.

After running his head for a long time, in the end he could only say another word of apology because he was kind to him.

"It's all said, there's no need to talk about apologizing now."

"Brother won't think I'm stupid?"

"It's a bit silly," Sakakibara laughed, "but she's definitely smart, otherwise why didn't I pass you in two semesters? Besides, Jiu Liuli like this is also very cute, at least, I like it very much. "

The praised Tianhai Jiuliuli was even more at a loss under his words. She wanted to shrink her hand, but found that her hand was half held by him, and she didn't dare to shrink back. She could only sit in the original place in a panic. land.

Sakakihara noticed her strangeness, and then realized that when he said comforting words, he actually comforted her enough to praise her for being cute.

Doesn't this mean that he likes her?
You must know that the two have not completely reconciled yet, and it is more or less strange + embarrassing to say these words.

Sakakihara Raku subconsciously glanced at the time and found that there were still 10 minutes before the end of get out of class.

"Why don't you use the remaining time to talk about Jiu Liuli, what gifts do you like? I've thought about it for Qi Mingyue, but to be honest, I haven't fully understood what Jiu Liuli you like."

".What do you like? Me, I don't know."

Tianhai Jiuliuli's simple "don't know" touched Sakakihara Raku's heart for a while.

For it proved that what Bertha had said was roughly true.

Jiu Liuli is a person who doesn't even know her own needs.

No wonder Qi Mingyue asked Qi Mingyue, but Qi Mingyue didn't say anything.

The root cause is that Jiu Liuli doesn't even know it.

"Well, how about I take you out on your birthday?"

"Go shopping?"

"That's right, let's just relax during the usual holidays. Anyway, it's your birthday. You can decide everything else. As a brother, I will still fulfill your little wishes. Wait, why are you Are your eyes red again?"

"It's nothing. I just feel that my brother is very good and will carefully choose gifts for his birthday."

"If you think I'm fine, then be happy and have a smile."

Under his encouragement, Tianhai Jiuliuli showed a smile that didn't quite look like a smile, her eyes were red.

Sakakibara made fun of her expression at this time, and Jiuliuli really put away that strange smile in a shallow smile.

Jiu Liuli felt that what her brother said to her was very relaxed, with a happy mood, obviously she was sorry for him, and obviously she hurt his feelings. But he still smiled and said these things to himself.
As soon as Jiu Liuli thought about it, she became nervous again. She wanted to see her brother's expression now, but found it difficult to raise her gaze.

Whenever she was about to lift it up, she lowered it quietly again, always trying to dodge.Thinking that she was really embarrassed to look at him, she could only bury her eyes and only stared at his hand on the grass by her side.

Sakakihara was happy to see that Jiu Liuli hadn't spoken, thinking she wanted to be quiet, so she stayed aside without saying a word, holding the grass with both hands and looking at the blue sky.

But soon he looked back, because he felt a small hand holding himself.

Before he had time to ask, "Brother." came to his ears.

Turning his head again, Tianhai Jiuliuli moved his position towards him, and stared at him for a long time.

A novice in love will never understand the meaning of the girl's gaze.

But Sakakibara is happy to see a lot, so he can understand it naturally.

She is looking for dependence.

——When Ah Ling wanted to be coquettish but was too embarrassed to say so, she had this kind of look.

Compared with Ah Ling, Jiu Liuli's eyes are softer and more sincere.

Everyone has sad times.

And Jiu Liuli must not have fully recovered from those sad words just now.
Sakakihara felt that, at least, she should let go of something today and take the initiative to meet her helplessness and weakness.

Sakakibara smiled and said, "Do you want to lean on for a while or hug for a while?"

If you ask this question to Ah Ling, when she is arrogant, she will definitely say, "Who likes to hug you, but since it is what you want, then... just give it a hug."

When it was changed to Jiu Liuli, she just nodded in extreme shyness, indicating that it was the latter, and after getting permission, she moved her legs and leaned up.

Sakakihara Raku watched her slowly approaching him, wrapping her arms around her neck and hugging herself.

The skin on her hands is very delicate, and the moment she came over, there was a girl's fragrance permeating the air.

I don't know if it's because of her crying just now, Sakakihara felt that when she hugged her, her body suddenly relaxed, and even her breathing became smooth and comfortable.
She buried half of her face under her shoulders, and closed her eyes heavily while breathing.

It seems that the whole person is relying on himself.

Her body is very warm, even through the school uniform Sakakihara Raku can feel the temperature from her body.

Sakakihara didn't want to spoil the snuggle she wanted to seek to relax on herself at this time, but in terms of the result, it was completely different from when Ah Ling hugged her.

When hugging herself, Jiu Liuli's whole body was soft.

"elder brother."

"Ok?"

"I like my brother. I didn't lie to you about this matter, because my brother really likes me. Obviously, I am such a miserable person."

"How could it be. So you said that you would try to pursue me afterward?"

"Um"

"But don't talk about such things now. I also have something to tell you."

"brother said"

"Please don't hate yourself, at least, I don't think everything about you, Jiu Liuli, is fake."

"...um...um...thank you, thank you brother," Tianhai Jiuliuli was quiet in his arms for a while, "I know that I don't have any qualifications to ask my brother, but I still have a request to tell my brother, brother, listen, okay?"

Hearing her voice so small that it was almost inaudible, Sakakihara Raku immediately felt the girl in her arms getting closer to her on a deeper level. The fragrance of her body and the petiteness of her body seemed to hit her chest.

"Well, tell me, what request."

"Just... hug me for a while longer."

(End of this chapter)