About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 157 Face to Face, Aunt Tells the Real Jiuliuli

"2 minutes and 50 seconds, amazing, Sakakibara."

"It's okay. Is there anything going on?" Sakakibara looked towards the distance of the playground, and her aunt had disappeared at this time.

"Not for now."

"Okay, I'm going to buy a bottle of water."

"OK."

Sakakihara Raku greeted Nishijima Oki, who counted the scores, and began to walk towards the atrium.In front of the shoe-changing area of ​​the teaching building, he saw Aunt Bertha and Principal Ju, who was in a suit and leather shoes, seemed to be talking about something.

Auntie and Principal Ju were already related, but Jiu Liuli and Qi Mingyue called the principal uncle in private.

"Just here to find the principal? No, that shouldn't be the case."

Sakakihara continued to wait and see, secretly observing the conversation between the two of them from a distance.

I could see Principal Tachibana looking a little embarrassed in front of his sister, but he still nodded.

Aunt and uncle are now in a state of opposition. Tachibana Qingyuan, as the uncle of the two little nieces, is caught between the sister and brother-in-law. It seems quite embarrassing.

After Mrs. Bertha said a few words to him, Principal Tachibana left and entered the teaching building.

In less than 5 minutes, Sakakihara saw Principal Tachibana walking down from the teaching building with Tianhai Jiuliuli.Jiu Liuli followed behind with her face down all the time, looking not in a very good mood.

This is not the same as Sakakihara Raku has seen her in the past few days.

Although Jiu Liuli avoided her these past few days, she would not answer her questions with a smile when she met her, but she always kept smiling to herself, which made her seem to be in a good mood.

nowadays.
what happened?
Sakakibara's gaze was always on Aunt Bertha in front of her. She had long flaxen hair, was so beautiful that she looked like a side face in a painting, with a confident mouth and sky blue eyes, all of them were quite familiar.

There are more or less shadows of Qimingyue and Jiuliuli.

Principal Ju brought Jiu Liuli to Aunt Bertha, Aunt Bertha smiled and nodded at him, and Principal Ju then left.

Facing her daughter, Aunt Bertha showed that gentle and beautiful smile.

The distance was a bit far, and Sakakihara could not hear what they were communicating, but Jiu Liuli lowered her head in front of her mother the whole time.

Aunt Bertha said a few words to Jiu Liuli and guided her towards the back garden of the school.

Sakakihara followed quietly.

"Have you been practicing at school recently?"

Hiding behind the bushes, Sakakihara heard these words spoken by Bertha Heikeya to her daughter by the back garden lake.

"No. I've been quite busy recently."

Sakakihara Raku looked through the leaf gaps in the bushes, and could only see two people standing by the artificial lake.The high-rise buildings in the distance are reflected in the lake of the school.

"Busy? So, what are you busy with? I remember I was contacting you by email recently. You have been practicing piano for almost 13 years. What could be more important than this."

"." Tianhai Jiuliuli was silent for a moment beside her mother, and then replied, "About the archery club, in the class, there is usually homework, and I have to cook in the morning."

"Liuli, you have to know how rare and unattainable talents you and Qiyue have in piano. I won't talk about Qiyue because of the previous incident, and Liuli, your talent is even higher than yours. Knowing that you Is it the weight of capacity?"

"I know. Mom has said it many times."

Tianhai Jiuliuli answered her mother's words in a very weak voice.

"You give the position of squad leader to July. You can just buy two rice balls for breakfast. You can quit the club too. There's no need for this kind of thing."

Tianhai Jiuliuli raised her head almost instantly, and explained to her mother, "But, that's not mom, you—"

"Are you still obsessed with the past?"

"But mom, you clearly told me—"

"Jiu Liuli, memory is inherently ambiguous. Don't you just feel naive when you recall yourself eight or nine years ago?"

"Do you really want to withdraw?"

"Return."

Bertha Heikeya held his forehead in trouble, and sighed, his tone could be heard trying to be as calm as possible,
"Liu Li, it's really unnecessary. Since you can't go abroad and put all your energy on the piano, you have to spend more time in China now. You know what I'm anxious about, Chopin's music every five years The International Piano Competition is not far away, if you miss this time, you have to wait until the next five years, the next five years, how much time will be wasted?"

"I, I know"

"Because of Maodian, I can't see you often, and I can give you limited guidance. Practice more, and everything else is not important. Do you understand?"

"Understood, I will do as my mother tells me."

Sakakihara couldn't listen to this anymore, he knew that his aunt regarded Jiu Liuli's piano talent very important, otherwise his aunt would not have come to Jiu Liuli to mention this matter many times after the divorce.

But what is this?
As a "daughter", does Jiu Liuli only have the value of "piano talent" to her aunt?

"You understand. Are there any questions?"

"there is none left"

"Well, you go back." Bertha Heikeya glanced at the lady's watch on her wrist, "I still have work to do, this is a temporary meeting with you, if I hadn't told your uncle , I guess Maodian called me again, that's all right, you go back."

"Um"

Sakakihara Raku raised her head again, and looked through the bushes at Jiu Liuli, who was bowing her head beside her mother. She was usually gentle and generous, almost a perfect person.But now, she is just a little girl bowing her head beside her mother.

In this matter, have you considered your daughter's thoughts?
Jiu Liuli always wanted to say something to her mother but dared not say anything.

Sakakihara Raku inexplicably read her inner distress from this disappointed expression.

This feeling has nothing to do with what Liuli has done to him, but a sigh because of the nature of the matter after seeing Liuli being used by his mother in this way.

Qi Mingyue said that her sister was very sad on the day her mother left by plane.

Jiu Liuli has always regarded her mother as very important, because for her, her mother has always been the window to her soul, and she would take her out when she was very young, take her out to eat, and see the outside world .

After that, I even ran to my father's study in the middle of the night, looked through the window in the direction where my mother often came in, and waited all the time, hoping that she would come to visit me.

If Liuli lacks love and wants to trace the source of other people's good feelings, in fact, this mistake can be pinned on the mother who has been using her all the time.

Bertha Heikeya watched Jiu Liuli return to the teaching building before turning around.

However, when she shifted her gaze to the other side, she saw a person.

A slight smile suddenly appeared on her face, her head tilted slightly, and her blue earlobes sparkled:

"It's Xiao Le, don't you have class now?"

"Good afternoon, Auntie. I'm in class now, but my class just happens to be physical education."

"Oh, so you came out for a walk after warming up?"

"Walking?" Sakakihara shook his head. "It's not a walk, Auntie. I saw you entering the school on the playground just now. I was curious about your purpose and followed you all the way here."

"You mean, stalking?" Bertha Heikeya smiled.

"Yes."

"Why are you following me?"

"As I said just now, I'm curious about your purpose, but the answer is similar to what I thought. You really came to find Jiu Liuli."

Bertha Heikeya speculated with great interest the purpose of his appearance in front of her, "I came here just to let Jiu Liuli keep the piano practice. I didn't expect that the girl at the airport would make a mess of it. At present, I don't know. You may have taken Jiu Liuli abroad, from this point of view, you can rest assured."

Bertha Heikeya's tone was very gentle, but it was this kind of gentleness that made Sakakibara feel angry.

"Mrs. Bertha, I want to know what kind of existence Jiuliuli is to you?"

When Sakakibara asked this sentence solemnly, Bertha Heikeya hesitated slightly.

She guessed the purpose of Sakakihara Raku who came to her.

His expression quickly returned to normal.

"My beloved daughter." Bertha Heikeya's answer was very simple.

"Ma'am, do you know your daughter's feelings for you?"

"Let me think about it, reluctance, dependence... and the relationship built by the memories of getting along in the past. This part can be called mother-daughter relationship for the time being."

Bertha Heikeya's tone was very frivolous, as if he was talking about a very ordinary thing.

"So what did you do with this part of your relationship?"

Bertha Heikeya smiled gently: "You are so funny, you actually asked me this question. But I can tell you clearly, I am using this part of my feelings to let Jiu Liuli try my best to live up to my expectations. The direction is closer."

"You are too selfish." Sakakihara said in a normal tone.

Bertha Heikeya smiled even more: "Yes, I am selfish, but I don't think there is anything wrong with it, at least Jiu Liuli can get the happiness she wants by my side."

"You're just taking advantage."

Bertha Heikeya turned around, faced the mirror-like lake, shook her head and said, "Xiao Le, why should you care about using it or not? Isn't mutual benefit correct? You are happy, and I am happy too. Jiu Liuli hopes to be close to her mother, And I wanted her to shine in the piano world too, and that turned out to be exactly right."

"You are just trying to satisfy your own selfish desires. Have you ever thought that Jiu Liuli wants these things for herself? Cultivate an excellent daughter and add a beautiful footnote to your unfulfilled dreams. Compared with my mother, I think Mrs. You're more of a broker."

Even though, even if Jiu Liuli did something wrong, he was still angry with her, but things were one thing at a time.

What makes Sakakihara Le feel angry is that the woman in front of her is holding her daughter in the name of her mother to do something she doesn't want to accomplish. What is this?Is this also a mother?
For her, Jiuliuli is just a tool, a tool to achieve her desired goal.

The corners of Bertha Heikeya's mouth turned up, and she didn't respond to his offensive words. She was flat, and she could only use the flatness that sees through everything to describe her taken-for-granted tone, "Xiao Le, it seems that you still don't understand what I mean, Through these things, Jiu Liuli gained her mother's closeness, and this is the happiness she needs."

"Even if all this is a hypocritical illusion?!"

Bertha Heikeya faced him again, put her hands on her shoulders, then stretched out an arm, and continued to say to Sakakihara: "It's not an illusion, Jiu Liuli got what she wanted, this is the truth."

"You keep telling the truth, don't you care about your identity at all?"

"You mean 'mother'? Xiao Le, I think I've already said that to Jiu Liuli, I'm still her mother, no matter what I do."

"Mrs. Bertha, Jiu Liuli doesn't know that you are no longer the mother she remembers, Ms. Bertha."

Bertha Heikeya's face froze when she was told.

Sakakihara continued to refute: "In Jiu Liuli's view, mother is the one who gives her care and love, her mother's love for her, and the warmth her mother brings to her. Now that Jiu Liuli was a bird in a cage when she was a child, and Madam, you are the one who cares about Jiu Liuli. It is the wings that take her out of the cage, the window to peek into the world. The current you are at best a liar who is using your past self to deceive your daughter."

Bertha Heikeya also laughed, her shoulders moved and she laughed. She stretched out her hand and covered the corner of her mouth lightly, and the jewelry on her left ear seemed to be shining with her laughter.

"So, Xiaole, do you think I did something wrong?"

"No doubt, wrong."

Bertha Heikeya raised her beautiful chin, and the single earring on the left was reflected by the light of the lake, shining brightly, "Xiao Le, I don't deny what you said, whether you say I'm a liar or selfish Well, it doesn't matter if you don't deserve to be a mother. Your purpose is nothing more than to let me take care of Jiu Liuli's affairs, but if she loses me, do you know what it means?

"She will lose her goal and lose the happiness she wants. Even if this is my deception, it is also the goal she needs. For her, whether it is the piano or the bow, it is all because of me. She is just responding to my expectations. Losing me, what does she have? Who can give her anything? Mao Dian owes her and Qiyue in the first place, and with the current situation, it is impossible to ask her to do anything!
"She is different from July, she has nothing she wants, all she can do is to spread her tenderness, let everyone feel her goodness, and then gain the sense of her presence that is needed.

"At the end of the day, Xiao Le, you don't know Jiu Liuli well enough."

Sakakihara felt an indescribable dullness in her heart, and a fire of ignorance was slowly rising in her heart.

He knew he was angry, and he tried his best not to tremble.

"Mrs. Bertha, even if what you said is true, even if Jiu Liuli needs you to give her a goal, as a mother, as a mother, don't you think you are going too far?!

"As a mother, is Jiuliuli just a tool for you?!"

Bertha Heikeya's expression is still calm, so calm that she seems to be fully aware of her mistakes, and can continue to carry out these mistakes:
"If my news is correct, you don't have a good relationship with Liuli right now? You even moved out on purpose. That child Jiu Liuli said it was his fault, that child Jiu Liuli would definitely run to apologize if he made a mistake. , and you haven't come home yet, this proves that you haven't forgiven her. In this month, Jiu Liuli should have apologized to you countless times? Compared to me, aren't you also hurting her?

"As a 'persecutor', I can still give Jiu Liuli the target and give her the sense of existence she needs.

"What can you give Liuli?"

What can I give Jiu Liuli?
Bertha Heikeya's words pierced straight into his chest like a sharp knife.

Yes. Yes, what can I give Jiu Liuli?
Aren't you still angry with her and hate her?

In the face of her sincere apology, he also said such cruel words as "don't pester me again".

The words were very heavy and unfeeling, and Jiu Liuli cried because of it.

Qi Mingyue also said that her sister went home and cried for a long time
But the next day, Sakakihara saw Jiu Liuli with a smile on her face as before. She took out the bento she made early in the morning and handed the biscuits to herself.

I was still angry at the time, and the first thing I thought about when I got the things made by Jiuliuli was to just throw her biscuits into the trash can.
Thinking about it now, hahaha, it's really naive.

Sakakihara Raku is not only angry at Bertha Heikeya's motherless attitude, but also angry at her childishness in the past.

He said that he had let go of the previous things and was able to calm down.

But in the face of Jiu Liuli who wanted to apologize sincerely, he still said such unfeeling words "don't pester me again" to her.

It's no wonder that Jiu Liuli immediately and decisively agreed to her request to make bento all the time.

Not only her own guilt for what she did wrong, but also the sense of existence that she is being needed.

I can't understand her mother's behavior, and she took the initiative to stand up and point out the other party's mistakes. But after all, Bertha can still give Jiu Liuli a target, but she can't give her anything.

What the hell are you doing.?

Bertha Heikeya had a gentle expression and shook her head: "If there is nothing else I want to ask, I will leave first. I am not hostile to you, Xiaole. I even understand what you are saying, but the reality That's it, that child Liuli is very lacking in love."

Very lack of love.?

It's no wonder that Jiu Liuli, who has always been gentle and generous, thanked herself for cooking for her at the very beginning.

No wonder Jiu Liuli always wanted to help herself, and didn't want herself to be too tired.

No wonder Jiu Liuli tried to take care of herself when she was sick.

No wonder Jiu Liuli cast a different look when she let Ah Ling act like a baby.

No wonder he ran to buy a set of clothes for himself after interacting with him, and put them on himself.

In the final analysis, Jiu Liuli lacks love and a sense of her own existence.

That's why she thinks for everyone, for the only sister who understands her.

and made a mistake
Sakakihara Raku got complicated again, she made a mistake, why should I care about her mood?
Why stand up for her to refute my aunt after she can't understand what she said?
Jiu Liuli felt uncomfortable, wasn't it exactly what he wanted to see?

No no no, absolutely not.

deceive
Sakakihara Raku, as if suddenly cheerful, figured it out.

Yes, I have been lying to myself all the time.

Don't care about what you say, just face it calmly.

Say that you will never forgive Jiu Liuli, just live your own life well.

This is completely contrary to his own heart.

In fact, I have been evading all the time, even when Kiyozawa Otoba suggested that I take the initiative to face Jiu Liuli, it was all evasion.

The real face should be to face your own heart.

Bullying others, taking advantage of others, and making others feel uncomfortable is never something I would like to see.

"Aunt," Sakakibara raised her head calmly after thinking everything through, and looked at Bertha Heikeya again, "I will not admit what you did."

"Oh? Then what do you want to do? Our relationship is closer now. Let me think about how to say that word. By the way, accomplice."

"Auntie, we are completely different from the beginning. I am deceiving myself, but you are deceiving others, and you are still using your own daughter. No matter from any point of view, we are far from being accomplices."

"As a result, we're all doing the same thing."

"I always believe that the process is more important than the result."

"There is no result, the process is dispensable, only the result can explain the problem."

Sakakihara smiled relievedly: "I'm not denying the theory of consequences, and I don't intend to correct your thinking. I think I have gained enough from you, thank you."

"what?"

Bertha Heikeya watched him bow slightly to herself, then turned and left.

"Get the most enough things in me.? What do you mean?"

Sakakihara turned and left the artificial lake in the back garden, and Bertha Heikeya also turned around and walked towards the school gate a few seconds later.

Stepping on the cobblestone road of the Islamic building, Sakakihara carefully recalled the conversation with her aunt just now to correct her right and wrong. It is no longer meaningful. What is important now is how to make Jiu Liuli realize her aunt's true thoughts.

The respected and loved mother said that it was just a tool to be used. Anyone would feel uncomfortable, right?
So how to make Jiu Liuli understand and accept this calmly?
When Sakakihara Raku was thinking about it, he suddenly stopped.

He put down the hand that was pinching his chin, and looked in surprise at a girl who was crouching behind a flower bed with her legs crossed.

The girl in the western-style school uniform was leaning against the flower bed, with her head bowed, her flaxen hair hanging down her small face, her face was indescribably haggard and gloomy.
Sakakihara Raku subconsciously opened her mouth and called out her name:
"Nine Glasses"

(End of this chapter)