About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 237 Sakakihara Suzu's troubles and the changes she wants to make
Study, review, study, review.
Suzu Sakakibara straightened her waist, staring at the homework and textbooks that her brother and teacher had arranged for herself one by one with a very reluctant expression, she was in a daze that was about to despair.

Why, why write so many things!
And there is still yesterday's homework in it.

The girl's heart was roaring, but because she was in the classroom, she had to maintain the expression on her face.

Calm down, Ah Ling, you have to calm down.

She kept repeating this hint to herself in her heart.

But at the end of the hint, she found that it was useless.

Why write so much?
Can't you not write?
Are you failing if you don’t write about your life?

I really want to be lazy, I really want to go home and sleep, I really want to eat beef curry rice.
Sakakihara Suzu fell into a state of extreme despair.

Otherwise, should I give up?
I don't know how much it will be comfortable to give up.

"Bing Jiang, you really worked hard"

Accompanied by the soft voice, it was Sakai Chieno, my friend who was sitting next to me and had just gone to the toilet.

She saw the homework spread out in front of Suzu Sakakihara and the gel pen in her hand, and she sighed from the heart for the hard work of her good friend.

"No no."

This.!

Well, in order to maintain the image, it seems that I have no choice but to continue writing.

It's obviously lunch break, okay?
About 10 minutes later, Sakakibara Suzu finished writing a paper and was going to rest for a while.

As soon as he turned his head, a piece of sausage went straight into his mouth.

Sakakihara Suzu was taken aback for a moment, then turned her head to look, and found that it was Sakai Chinano who smiled and fed herself the contents of her bento box.

"How does Bell Sauce taste?"

"Very, very good."

"Hey, right, my mother's craftsmanship has always been very good." Sakai Chienno moved the stool to Sakakihara Suzu's table, and brought the bento box and the cloth for wrapping together, "We will share it next year. Classes are over, is Bell-chan going to choose science or liberal arts?"

"I'm not good at arts and sciences."

Suzuki Sakakihara suddenly noticed that Sakai Chieno was staring at her for a few seconds, felt strange, and asked, "Why is Tano-chan looking at me like that?"

"Does Bell Sauce want to be assigned to the first class?"

"That's right."

Sakai Chikino continued: "But Suzu-chan has been very busy recently, she doesn't have time to study her homework, and her grades have dropped to around [-]."

This is a fact, the last monthly test Sakakihara Suzu was almost at this level.

This is the result of my elder brother helping her make up urgent lessons.

"Based on this score, Bell-chan will hardly be assigned to the first class, right? It is very likely that she will be assigned to an art class or something."

This is also true.

But Suzuki Sakakihara was so tired that she no longer wanted to study.

Sakai Chienno continued: "Recently, I have heard a lot about Sakakihara-kun at school."

"What's wrong with him?" Sakakibara Suzu asked with concern, she only heard a little bit.

"Everyone is speculating whether Sakakihara-kun is dating Tianhai, and whether he is also dating the newcomer. You can often see the two sitting in the cafeteria eating together."

Sakakihara Suzu knew that her elder brother had a good reputation in school.

He has a handsome face and a very good figure. Every time he plays sports, he is alone compared to boys in other classes. He plays basketball, volleyball, baseball, etc., and he is also at the top level.
Many girls admire him very much.

It's all external.

Cut, a bunch of superficial women!

"That's it, Tian Nao doesn't need to listen to their nonsense, Zhixue and my brother are just ordinary friends." Sakakibaru Ling replied with a normal expression.

'Ling-chan doesn't seem to understand me at all.'

Sakai Chiteno thought in her heart.

As for Suzu-chan, a good friend, she has not been very happy recently, Sakai Chinano can see it completely.

[Why are you unhappy? ]
Sakai Chiteno asked several times on the sidelines during this period, but there was no result.

But at school, Bell Sauce often saw her brother smiling and exchanging eyes with Tianhai Jiururi from a distance, Sakai Chienya understood.

Bell sauce, has not been cared about recently.

Sakakihara-kun put too much heart on the two Tianhai classmates.

He didn't even realize that his sister had become less energetic than before.

Because I don't get the attention of my brother, I have never been energetic.

As a good friend, I have to think of a way.

"So that's how it is," Sakai Chienno smiled, putting her fingers together in front of her, "That Bell-chan, do you want to. Anyway, we have less work recently, do you want to try to work together? Work hard towards the second In the school year, the class with the best grades will start?"

Sakakihara Suzu didn't respond, "Why?"

"Because. Bell-chan, look, the two Tianhai students have always been No.1 in the exam, and Sakakihara-kun has always maintained the third place, only a few points behind the two Tianhai students. They must be assigned I went to class one."

"What are you going to do in class one?"

"Bing-chan must be going to Class [-], right?"

"I don't want to go."

Sakakibara Rin mumbled something like this, her shoulders relaxed, and she sighed deeply: "If you go, you can only be a light bulb."

Why not buy something to eat and sit with He Zhixue after school.

"Sakakihara-san, someone is calling you." An unfamiliar classmate interrupted their conversation.

Sakakibara Ling looked towards the door and found that it was Amami Yuki with long black hair standing at the door.

What is she here for?
Do you come to ask yourself what you want to eat again?

Sakakihara Suzu has a very good relationship with Zhixue. As a good friend, they often go out to buy food together.

Talking to Tian Nao temporarily, Sakakibara Suzu walked out of the classroom and saw Amami Zhiyuki's plain and delicate little face.

"what happened?"

"I have something to talk to Bell."

"Huh? What's the matter?"

"Join the band."

"."

Suzu Sakakibara was not sure if she had heard correctly, "Join what? Join a band?"

"Ah."

"What band?"

"Rock Band."

"."

Tianhai Zhixue played rock and roll at home every day, and during that time it was so noisy that the police came. Of course, Sakakihara Suzu knew that Zhixue liked rock and roll.

"But why did you find me all of a sudden and ask me to join a rock band?"

"Because I couldn't find anyone, Ling was easy to talk to."

"."

It's really a simple and understandable reason.

"Joining the band. Well, no problem, but I don't have time recently, and I'm about to face the end of the semester, so I have to study hard."

"Le Shuoling can be named first."

"Then it's no problem." Sakakibara Ling nodded, of course it's no problem to help a good friend, you must know that Yuki will bring her favorite things to eat for herself!
"Wait!" Sakakibara Suzu suddenly realized something, "Zhixue, you mean, what my brother told you can be named first?"

"Ah."

"Is he in the band too?"

"Happy."

"Where's Jiuliuli and Qimingyue?"

"Xiao Qi and Xiao Jiu are also here."

"Then I won't join." Sakakibara Suzu suddenly became depressed, but recovered quickly.

"why?"

"Zhixue, you don't understand. Anyway, if the three of them stay together, I won't join, because I have nothing to do with it."

"understood."

As soon as Tianhai Zhixue finished speaking, she turned her head and left without emotion.The figure drifted away at the other end of the corridor.

This made Sakakihara Suzu who hadn't reacted quite messy.

"So, let's go like this?"

Suzu Sakakibara, who didn't understand, stood there for a minute.

She really didn't want to understand, so she had to go back to the classroom.After explaining the situation with Sakai Chinano, we talked for half an hour about the topic of the second grade, and it was time for class.

About why Zhixue didn't agree to join the band.

Sakakihara Suzu knew that she just didn't want to see the intimacy that those few people might show in the band.

Don't want to see it, don't want to see it at all.

I won't join it myself!

It was time to finish school in the afternoon, because there were two more classes, and the time was much later than before.

"Ling, join the band."

Sakakihara Suzu met Amami Yuki in the shoe changing room after greeting her classmates.

She didn't want to target this good friend, but she felt that she should still refuse.

"No."

"Well, then I'll ask later." Tianhai Zhixue, who was carrying a small schoolbag, still nodded lightly, "Then go to the convenience store and buy something to eat?"

"Why ask later if you can eat, this is good."

Walking out of school, I came to the convenience store to buy sweet chicken steak and teriyaki meat skewers. Sakakihara Suzu thought that Amami Yuki would continue to ask herself if she wanted to join the band, but she didn't expect that she would just eat quietly at the bar table.

The side facing the street.

"My brother asked you to create this band?"

"I created it myself."

"Why do you suddenly want to start a band?"

"Because I want more fans."

"Oh Nazhiyuki how's your video going?"

"There is no fire."

"It's true if you think about it. How can it be popular as soon as it comes out?" Sakakihara Ling was quite emotional. "I used to think that as long as I had strength, I would be popular. Everyone should be able to hear my efforts, but in fact? No one cares. I spent the first year as a small role, and I had to prepare and be nervous for a few days for an audition."

"But Le still wants to help me continue to make videos." Tianhai Zhixue continued the topic just now, "Le wants to help me get more fans."

"Why is he helping you so much?"

Tianhai Zhixue thought for a while: "I don't know."

"It's fine if you don't know, it's a central air conditioner anyway, that's the kind of person he is."

"Le also said that he wants to find his goal through the band."

"Hmph, that's really gratifying, but I won't join in." Sakakibara Suzu twisted the two ends of the teriyaki chicken skewers with both hands, biting them in small bites.Full of fragrant heat.

"Le also said that he likes Bell very much."

Amami Zhixue's light words almost made Sakakihara Suzu almost choke, and hurriedly asked:

"Did he really say that?"

"The band, Suzu is the most indispensable one." Amami Yuki imitated the words of Sakakihara Raku at that time, her voice was as thin as an ice sculpture.

This sentence made Sakakihara Suzu feel strange, a little warm, and it also reminded her of many scenes.

The clearest thing is that when he ran away from home, he went to find him by himself. He smiled and made himself a king crab meal to entertain himself.

Not only do you not need to wash the dishes, but you can also boldly fall asleep on his lap when you are tired.

That was the happiest dinner Suzu Sakakihara had had in recent years.

But what about recently?

I've been paying less and less attention to myself lately.

He doesn't pay attention to himself at all now, why is he trying to pull himself into some band?
"Certainly! Even if that's the case, why didn't he invite me himself, so I won't go!"

"Le invites Ling, will Ling come?"

"Not anymore! Sorry, this is not aimed at you, Zhixue, but I won't join."

Sakakihara Suzu looked like she was about to leave, she packed up the leftover packing boxes and picked up her schoolbag.

"Okay, okay, that's the end of this topic. I won't join anyway, that's all."

Suzu Sakakibara escaped from the convenience store.

Even she herself didn't know why she fled in a panic.

Looking at the darkened sky above, the sound of trams running on the elevated tracks, the glass curtain walls of tall buildings are filled with bright lights like glazed glass.

Suzu Sakakibara was carrying a small schoolbag in a daze, and walked down the street full of cold air with a small schoolbag on her shoulders.

Head full of memories about some stinky guy.

[A Ling, actually I like Jiuliuli]
[A Ling, Qi Mingyue seems to like me too]
[A Ling, actually I don’t like Tokyo very much, if possible, I will go to Kyoto to study in university]
Sakakibara Suzu pursed her lips in a sentence of reminiscence-like words.

She is so annoying, obviously before he only cared about himself.

But now
I haven't been taken care of at all.

Why, why be so damn nice to everyone?
Why, why did you have to forgive Jiu Liuli at that time?

Why, why didn't you think about anything because of me?Thinking because I stayed in Tokyo to study?
Am I that unimportant?

Why, why can't you see through my thoughts?

All kinds of uncomfortable thoughts fermented in the cold wind.

Sakakibara Suzu walked into the residential area, entered a nearby children's park, and sat down on the snow-covered sandpit and the swing between the slides.Sitting here like this is of course meaningless, but only here, the cold, unlit corner can make her feel a little more comfortable.

Sakakibara Suzu remembered a certain guy's reaction to her.

Perhaps his thoughts have long been seen through.

He knew it, and he knew it too.

But it was precisely because of his understanding and clarity that he did not express other thoughts to himself, and was always caring, caring with a hint of pampering.

I have been indulging my unreasonable troubles all the time, and I have been indulging my character.

"Pfft", Sakakibara Suzu laughed humorously, "It might as well be unclear."

As soon as this sentence was finished, Sakakibara Suzu fell into a state of silence again, and she began to shake the swing, letting her body sway along with it.

squeak
The cold friction sound driven by the chain locks was the only sound in the cold wind.

Should, what should I do?
Should, how to do?
It should be, how can I not feel uncomfortable?

A series of thoughts popped out of Sakakihara Ling's head, but the more she thought, the more she didn't know what to do.

How about disappearing suddenly?
If it disappears, it won't have a big impact on him, right?

Is he coming back to find himself?
How long will it take?

I probably don't care about my existence at all.
The creaking sound stopped, and the girl's hand holding the chain disappeared, and the figure on the swing raised her head to the sky.

The girl's purple eyes, which reflected thousands of neon lights, shone with a crystal light.

After 5 minutes of silence.

Suzu Sakakibara sniffed, stretched out her hand to erase all the things that blurred her vision, and then smiled at the sky:

"Really, will I cry in this way? I didn't cry, no!"

After shouting like this, no one answered her.

No one responded to her either.

"Smelly Lele"

The cold wind made people's cheeks feel cold and their bodies trembled.

Sitting on the swing in this children's park, she seems to want someone to run out to find her, tell herself that I care about you, tell herself not to catch a cold, tell herself to go home quickly
Sakakibaru Ling was very sad, but for some reason, there was always something in her heart that made her not want to be so sad.

I want to change, I want to change, at least, I don't want to be remembered.

"That guy Qi Mingyue said he liked that guy since he was a child. I'm afraid he also had the same mentality as me? In front of Jiu Liuli?"

Sakakihara Suzu thought more and more, what did Qi Mingyue do?

How did she treat Jiu Liuli?

If she chooses to escape, there will be nothing left.

"bell."

After 10 minutes of silence, Sakakibara Suzu raised her head and realized that it was Amami Yuki who had found this place.

She was also carrying the small schoolbag on her back, staring at herself like a blank sheet of paper.

Seeing her, Sakakibara Suzu stood up.

"Sorry for keeping you looking for me."

"Then why did Ling run away just now?"

"Angry. That guy went to call Jiuliuli and Qi Mingyue didn't come to call me. But thinking about it carefully, he probably didn't think about it. I don't want to be that kind of Mai Tai who only complains. I can take whatever I want. No matter how bad it is, you must keep your position!"

"What are you talking about?"

"I mean, I'm going to change my approach in the future! If I'm passive, I'll just get beaten, and I won't get anything good! The two of them have been bullying me, I've had enough!"

　In fact, I wrote it tonight.

　　But ah, because I didn't feel very good, I stayed up all night and wrote 6000 words.

　　As a result, looking back, it was not as good as before.

　　depressed
　　
　
(End of this chapter)