One way to go north

434 Chapter 18
Rujiao panicked now, "Don't! Don't look! Don't..."

Seeing her reaction like this, he understood that he must have been hurt, so he pulled her out.

She refused to move, crying and asked, "Where are you going?"

"Go to the hospital!" He shouted back.

She kept shaking her head, "No! Don't go! I rubbed the medicine myself, and it's much better! Really! It's only a day old! Don't go! Please! I don't want to go! Shame..."

"You know it's embarrassing now?" He was furious and shook off her hand.

She fell to the ground, her clothes loosened, and she burst into tears, "I didn't... I didn't want to... I said I was just going to eat supper... He touched me in the car... I hit him Slap...he just...he just...tied me up, burned me with cigarette butts...I really don't want to..."

He couldn't listen anymore, and with a wave of his arm, he swept away all the teacups on the table, "Who asked you to take this risk? Who asked you to go? You are just a woman! What can you do?"

"No! I can!" She raised her head stubbornly while crying, "I know that Run Nan has a big move, which is related to Hei Jiu. I glanced at him when he was looking at the computer files before, I'm sure , Hei Jiu is the murderer! I want to get close to Hei Jiu, get close to people related to Hei Jiu, I want to find a chance to kill Hei Jiu and avenge Run Nan!"

"Enough!" Lu Xiangbei interrupted her, "Are you going to kill Hei Jiu? You are crazy! Starting today, you are not allowed to go to Baile Nightclub again! Neither Hei Jiu nor anyone related to him , these things have me! I am enough!"

She was stunned for a moment, her eyes were extremely stubborn, "No! I have reached this point, and I will not give up! For Run Nan, and for my own innocent body, I must make them pay the price!"

The placket in her hand was hanging down, revealing her unsightly breasts, Lu Xiangbei looked at him, piercing his eyes like needles...

"No!" he yelled out of control.

She looked over resentfully, and smiled mockingly, "No? What right do you have to say no? When you went to France many years ago without saying a word, you no longer have the right to tell me what to do!"

His guilt and self-blame immediately buried him like a tide, and his tone became soft and weak, "I'm not qualified... It's just that Run Nan asked me to take care of you..."

She suddenly burst into laughter, tears streaming down her face, "Take care? Let you take care of me? What do you brothers think of me? Let me go? Then how are you going to take care of me? Marry me? You are already married Miss Tong? Or, follow those young masters and raise me up? No! Mr. Lu! I am not worthy! I am no longer Rujiao! Rujiao is dead! What is in front of you now is a dirty dancer Yingying!"

She simply let go of her hand, allowing those scorched black marks to be completely exposed in front of him.

He turned his head away, unable to bear to look any further, "No, that's not what I meant..." Bao.keep?He never thought about it, he just didn't want Rujiao to be in such danger...

"No? Ha! Then how are you going to take care of me? No matter what kind of care I am not worthy of... I don't need your care... If you really want Runnan's friendship, leave me alone and let me Do what I want!" She tried her best to hold back her tears and hold back the grief in her heart.

He didn't know how the conversation with Rujiao ended. Her resoluteness and his speechlessness finally turned into relative silence.

I just remember the last sentence I said to her, "There is still me...everything is still with me..."

That was the advice to Rujiao, even if it was revenge, there was still him...

After putting Rujiao in the hotel to rest, he didn't go home.

Rujiao's unsightly hot-smoke marks were all shaking in front of his eyes, and he blamed himself, grabbing his heart like a demon again.If he had seen clearly before following and made sure that she was Rujiao, he would not have let her get into Hei Jiu's car; save...

But he didn't, he didn't expect such a thing to happen in the car...

It's because he didn't think carefully!

He is a police officer!The bad guys are doing evil right under his nose, and he doesn't even realize it!Moreover, the injured person is still a member of his own family!Anyway, Rujiao is also a sister-in-law...

Do not!Not only that!

Does it have nothing to do with him that Rujiao has fallen to this point?It was his brother's death that made a weak woman like Rujiao enter the night show at all costs, and he had an unshirkable responsibility for his brother's death...

My brother's voice and smile began to appear in my mind, the love for him from childhood to adulthood, they rode bicycles together, played football together, and drank father's wine together...

In the end, the picture freezes on the scene of my brother's serious injury, the blood all over his body, and the bloody hand that he raised with difficulty. The faint call of his brother's last words seemed to ring in his ears again, "Go north...go north... ..."

Gradually choked up in his throat. At this moment, he suddenly missed his brother and wanted to confess in front of him. He shouldn't have gone to the movie with Rujiao, he shouldn't have talked with Rujiao under the banyan tree, and even, he shouldn't have come from France. He came back to visit his parents, and now, after everything happened, he didn't even fulfill his brother's last request, not only failed to take care of Rujiao, but also followed her behind when she was suffering like this without knowing it... …

In the night wind, he turned the car around and drove towards the cemetery.

On a night like this, I really want to talk to my brother and have a glass of wine, just like when he was still at Liang's house...

He sat on the ground, lifted one of the glasses and spilled it to the ground, his voice choked, "Brother, I'm sorry, everything is my fault! If time could be turned back, I would rather my mother didn't put I'll pick it up and let me fend for myself, that would be great..."

He remembered that when he was a child, his elder brother always taught him the knowledge of senior grades in advance, and no matter what problems he encountered, his elder brother could answer him, but now?What else could the brother tell him?Except for the few English letters on the tombstone, there was no response...

In the dark night, the haze and self-blame in his heart are like this night, getting thicker and darker, the inside and the outside are combined, and he is caught in the crack, as if it is getting tighter and tighter. He can't get through.

He dropped the glass and started drinking directly from the bottle.

Now that he is in the position of vice president of the Tong family, and he is about to enter the circle of He Ziyu and others, drinking has become an unavoidable entertainment. Li, so, I have never let myself get drunk, today, I seem to be a little out of control...

He didn't know how long he had been sitting in front of the tomb. When people are in the dark, they are more likely to be buried in the haze than in the daytime. It seems that the grayness and decadence in his subconscious mind that have not been revealed during the day will be released in the darkness. In addition, driven by alcohol, the self-blame and guilt in the dark corners of his heart swelled to the limit.

The tombstone was stained with faint bloodstains, which should have been rubbed by Rujiao when she committed suicide last time. The color has faded due to the wind and rain, leaving only a faint mark. He was shaking in front of him, and his brother's bloody hand seemed to be reaching out to him, and he felt uncomfortable as if someone had strangled his neck and strangled his breath...

"I'm sorry, Rujiao, I'm sorry, brother, I hurt you all, it's all my fault...it's all my fault..." Rujiao's humiliation caused him to fall into such darkness and fear. Endless self-condemnation and self-torture, expanding the guilt that has always existed in his heart to the maximum limit, if possible, he would really like to lie in it himself...

When he finally got up to leave, his footsteps were already weak. He knew that he had drunk too much, but he still understood in his heart at this moment. He hoped that he could drive the car back, and he would drive back no matter what. He would rather die in a car accident on the road. And no one can find him lying in the cemetery, lest others follow the clues and find out something that cannot be revealed...

Fortunately, the alcohol is coming up slowly. Although I feel a little dizzy and the car is not stable enough, I finally drove home safely. When I got out of the car, it seemed that the drunkenness became more obvious, and my heart was still feeling guilty. Can't come out of the haze.

(End of this chapter)