One way to go north

Chapter 483 He Won't Let Go of Her Hand 2
Tan Wan stared straight and shook her head.

"Heh..." Wang Jingqiu's smile contained tears, "This is what I hate about myself the most. I should have discovered your existence earlier, so you and Lao Lu won't miss so many years... Lao Lu, this person, The city is deep, and I never say something easily. Sometimes I don’t understand what he is thinking at all. The only thing I can do is to take good care of him and prevent him from freezing and starving. In fact, I am an incompetent wife... ...I didn't know that Lao Lu was very bitter and wronged until not long ago...and it was all my fault...Hey, let's get back to business...I found out that my illness has been going on for several months, but I have always been sick. I didn't tell Lao Lu that if I say that I have no nostalgia for this world, it would be false. I have a lot of reluctance, such as my daughter and this home, and I often stay in my daughter's room and his study for a long time, as if I want to It’s as if their breath is taken away, and even carefully reorganizes every book and every piece of clothing he and his daughter have, and flips through the books he has read, always hoping to treat him more at the end. Get to know him better, and get closer to him, but at this moment, I found a photo in his book, a very beautiful girl, and the inscription on the back of the photo: Wan'er photo. It's his handwriting ..."

Tan Wan's drooping eyelids trembled slightly, and her expression also changed.

Wang Jingqiu stared at her, a little guilty, it seemed inappropriate to talk about the life of herself and her loved one in front of a woman, "I'm sorry, you don't like to hear these things, do you? Let me continue. By this time, I Only then did I realize that Lao Lu had a beloved girl when he was young, and he probably gave up for me. Of course, this is just a guess, and I’m not sure, but the matter between me and Lao Lu It's very special, if I don't find out what is going on with the girl in the photo, I won't die in peace, but if I ask Lao Lu, I will definitely not be able to ask anything, so I took this photo to Old Liu from the police department, ask him to help me investigate this girl. It took Lao Liu two months to investigate clearly, and at this time, you just returned to Beijing, and you have to go through the procedures for your son to settle down and study abroad. With a woman Intuition that your relationship with him must be unusual, and the results of Lao Liu's investigation showed that you have been single abroad these years, so I thought, is it because of Lao Lu that you are still unmarried? If so, then I really committed a heinous crime... So, I colluded with Lao Liu and asked him to find a way to put some resistance to your settlement, trick you into going to the police station again, and tell you which office to go to, and in that office , only the old Lu who was also caught in the trap..."

Tan Wan raised her head, frowned slightly, and looked deeply at Wang Jingqiu.

Wang Jingqiu still smiled, "Don't look at me like that, it turns out that my guess is right... 16 years old, Lao Lu is so stupid... and I am even more stupid... Wan'er, I don't know that you and Lao Lu were so stupid back then. What is Lu's story, but are you interested in hearing our story?"

Tan Wan didn't speak, but her eyes had revealed her desire to hear... Hope, 16 years, how can a word "stupid" pass by?
Wang Jingqiu looked at the opposite wall, lost in memory, "Actually, Wanwan is not Lao Lu's biological daughter..."

Tan Wan was shocked by her story from the very beginning, and suddenly raised her lowered eyes, looking at her in surprise.

Wang Jingqiu smiled and nodded, "Yes, Wanwan is the daughter of my ex-husband and I...my ex-husband...is called Da Gang, and he was also in the army. At that time, Lao Lu was the company commander, a very young company commander, and Da Gang He was just the junior squad leader of a squad in his company, no, it should be said to be the old squad leader, because he is older than Lao Lu, the two of them call each other brothers in private, and they have a good relationship. Their troops are stationed in the small town where I live Not far away. My marriage with Dagang was considered arranged at that time. It was arranged by the organization. I was just a small salesman in the supply and marketing cooperative in the town. I don’t know why Dagang fell in love with me. The leader of the supply and marketing cooperative gave me We became a matchmaker and got married. After we got married, I still lived in the town, and he was still in the army. He lived the life separated by most military families.

That summer, they were connected to the task of fighting against the flood and set off as soon as they said they were going. They didn’t even have time to come back and take a look at me. They just called our supply and marketing cooperative. At that time, I was already pregnant and was about to give birth. He said, I'm sorry I don't know if I can come back and be with me before the child is born, and let me wait for him to come back with the child, but I didn't expect that this would be the last time I talked to him...

In the end, I couldn't wait for him to come back, but it was Lao Lu who came with his belongings..."

Having said that, Wang Jingqiu paused, and met Tan Wan's eyes in the air. Tan Wan seemed to understand something, her lips trembling slightly.

Wang Jingqiu couldn't bear it any longer, but she persisted and told the story, "Da Gang... died in the mission... But there is actually one thing that I haven't had time to tell Da Gang. During the last inspection, I I was found to have cervical cancer. I didn’t know it before. The medical conditions at that time were not good, and I didn’t pay attention to these aspects of examination, so I was still pregnant unconsciously under the condition of the disease, and I was about to give birth. I am reluctant to part with this child. Fortunately, the doctor said that the situation is not too bad, and I am considering performing a resection operation while taking out the child... What I wanted to say in the phone call before Dagang left, but I was afraid of increasing the mental burden on him, so I finally endured it. live without saying...

In fact, I have been waiting, hoping to wait until Dagang comes back before the operation... My mother is gone, and my father is not in good health, so it is impossible for me to have the energy to take care of me. So, how much I hope for such a major operation. He can come back with me...

Hey... When I saw his relics, I lost control of my emotions for a moment, and the labor pains hit me. I was at work at the time, and it was Lao Lu and a few colleagues who rushed me to the hospital...

After the operation, I lived a dark life, postoperative recovery, postpartum recovery, chemotherapy and radiotherapy, tortured me to the point where I was inhuman, many times I wanted to give up, but when I thought of my newly born daughter, He gritted his teeth and persisted, what kind of time was that?Everyday seems to be the end of the world...

And I really didn't expect that in such days, it would be Lao Lu who was always with me... Regardless of resistance, he asked for leave from the army and hired an aunt to take care of me together. When I was in pain, he was the one who gave me encouragement and strength; there was also Wanwan, who was in very poor health when she was born, and lived in the pediatric ward of the hospital. Crying and screaming, it is impossible for my body to allow me to breastfeed Wanwan or bring her by my side. He is also on duty in the wards on both sides of the aunt. , in the later days, Wanwan got closer to him, and her father was the person she admired the most...

During this period, when his vacation came, he went back to invite him, and when he arrived, he invited him again and again. Many of them were taken care of by him. However, gradually, rumors began to spread, which probably meant that I had a bad relationship with Lao Lu. It's normal, there are even rumors that my child is not from Dagang, but from Lao Lu, and the more you say it, the worse it sounds. What's more, it is said that Lao Lu and I hooked up before Dagang passed away. It was written vividly, in that year, you know, the issue of style was a very serious issue, besides, Da Gang and I were still married in the army, Da Gang was a martyr, and Lao Lu was also a soldier..."

Tan Wan's eyes gradually turned red...

Wang Jingqiu's words brought her back to those years, those sweet and painful years, she had heard these rumors... It was because of these rumors that she had doubts... It was not that she didn't believe in love, but that The flower of love between her and Lu Zhengyu has never bloomed in the sun openly...

Wang Jingqiu's voice continued, "I don't know how to continue my life from now on. I still have to continue the torturous chemotherapy and worry about the cancer cells that may transfer at any time. More importantly, I still have a daughter. , I have to bring her up. I have never thought about remarrying. A woman like me who has undergone surgery and can no longer have children, no one will want her again, let alone a woman who has suffered from cancer. The shadow is like reminding the world that relapse may occur at any time, who would have to bear such a big burden? And the rumors and rumors spreading everywhere made me an indiscreet person among the people. Don't be afraid, because I have Wanwan! I really plan to live a good life with Wanwan no matter how difficult it is.

(End of this chapter)