I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 234 Will It Be Forever?

After Taozi told me about the past about Wang Lei and Lu Jia, I was in a state of being in a daze. I thought about many possibilities, but it was not as efficient as asking Lu Jia in person. I gradually couldn't sit still ...

However, in the next moment, I asked myself again, even if there is a so-called truth, but now that time has passed, do I really still have the meaning to pursue it?

For me, not only Lu Jia, but even the city of Shanghai, I should completely erase from my memory, and what I really want to face is everything I encountered in Dali. With a new career, I also have a new relationship...Compared to those years in Shanghai, I am much happier now. At least I have relieved the financial pressure and have the ability to do a good job. Own career... And this is probably the stability that many people are looking for.

I know that if I pursue the truth of that day desperately, the first thing to break may be the stability I have now...

……

Tao Zi woke up me who was in a daze, and she asked me: "Mi Gao, how do you want to deal with this matter?"

I let out a sigh of relief, and asked back, "Do you think that Lu Jia chose to break up with me because it was related to Wang Lei?"

"I can't rule out this possibility, actually... I think it's good for you and Lu Jia to be together. I'm not saying that Ye Zhi is bad, but I'm just worried that after a long time, you won't be able to bear the pressure of climbing up... ..." After a short pause, Tao Zi whispered again: "I understand that feeling. When I was working in the night market, I also met a benefactor. Our relationship is simple enough. I please him, and he gives me money. Money... But even so, I still have to work hard to please in order to maintain this unequal relationship. I am really tired and feel inferior... What about you? You and Ye Zhi are rushing to get married, and you have to live For the rest of your life, unlike us who hide in the dark and live day by day, your relationship will eventually surface and be talked about by others, with your character, can you really bear it?"

I looked at Tao Zi and replied after a while: "I've thought about all of these, so I haven't made it clear."

"What about Lu Jia, do you really have no feelings for Lu Jia at all?"

"Taozi, we've known each other for so many years, what kind of person do you think I am?"

"At least he's not a fickle man... I can see that you have true feelings for Lu Jia. You have paid a lot for her these years."

Tao Zi’s words, success reminded me of some scenes when I was with Lu Jia: One winter, she often had to work overtime, no matter how late or cold, I would buy a cup of her favorite hot coffee and stand in front of her. Waiting for her downstairs in their company was really painful, but as long as I thought of seeing her later, I ignored the cold weather and was full of determination to wait for her.

Every time we meet, the first thing she does is to take off her scarf and tie it on for me, and then call me "baby" in a nasty way, and ask me if I'm cold. If it's not true love, where would it be? These little details that are so sweet that they almost melt?
My nose was a little sore, and then my heart was hot... I was confused, and I couldn't recognize myself. I seemed to be trapped in the vortex of new love and old love, and I was struggling.

Tao Zi said to me again: "Mi Gao, Ye Zhi is a woman that all men will like and yearn for, but she is really just like a dream... You ask yourself, if one day this dream wakes up, you will be able to make your whole body back?"

I shook my head. It wasn't self-denial, but I felt that Taozi's words were too aimed at me. In my opinion, when it comes to emotional matters, there is never the so-called retreat, unless everyone really makes do with each other. Only with true feelings and no nostalgia can we start and leave gracefully.

After a moment of silence, I finally spoke to Taozi and said, "Once the emotional matters start to be weighed, they will become more contradictory. I'd better calm down first."

"Ah."

I looked at Taozi and said, "I never thought you would persuade me to get back together with Lu Jia. I always thought you didn't like Lu Jia."

"I have never liked Lu Jia, but I regard you as a close friend, so I will definitely consider it from your standpoint... You and Lu Jia are really suitable. All she needs is your success. Now you , isn't she walking on the road she hoped for...and you and Ye Zhi are together, you can't handle it in every way."

"I believe... Lu Jia's love is more realistic."

"It doesn't matter if she is a reality or a dream... as long as she really loves you, that's enough, and you can't make people ask for you... Besides, she's a woman from Shanghai."

I smiled and asked, "What happened to the women in Shanghai?"

"Smart!"

"That may not be..."

Taozi thought for a while, then pointed at me and smiled: "Sisi!... She is really an exception, she is careless and doesn't care about anything!"

Because talking about Yang Sisi, the tense and depressing atmosphere was inexplicably relieved, and after I smoked another cigarette, I also ended the chat with Taozi... I think it is the right choice to let myself calm down first, but You can wait for the truth...or, just let the so-called truth go with the wind, and accept your current life and the people around you with peace of mind.

……

Wandering alone on Foreigner Street, and from Foreigner Street to Yeyu Road, it was almost 11 o'clock before I started walking to "Jiulongju", and at this time I finally made up my mind, I want to talk to Lu Jia again Chat... don't ask too much, just ask what she and Wang Lei talked about when they met that day, and whether the content of their chat was really what Taozi guessed, which led to our breakup later.

Standing under the room where Lu Jia lived and smoking a cigarette, I gradually calmed down, then knocked on her door...

Surprisingly, I didn't get a response.

I shouted again: "Lu Jia... are you back?"

Still no response...

I couldn't help wondering, she said she would come back after a while, and Tao Zi and I had already chatted for a long time, and walked around the ancient city for another hour, logically, she should come back before me.

I wanted to knock on the door again, but at this time, the cleaning lady who was cleaning for me stopped me, and she said to me: "Boss, I have already cleaned the rooms in the guest room tonight, and I will do it later. gone back."

"Thank you, Auntie."

The aunt smiled, then took out another key from her pocket, and said to me: "The guest in this room has checked out, and she asked me to hand over the key to you."

I didn't quite believe it, so I pointed to Lu Jia's door and asked, "This one?"

"That's right... this is the room."

"She...she only came in this afternoon, how could she check out?...Did she say anything to you?"

"I didn't say anything...Oh, right...She didn't look very well, as if she had cried!"

I stayed where I was, not knowing what to say.

"Boss, if there's nothing else, I'll go first."

I came to my senses suddenly, nodded quickly and said, "Okay, okay...you go ahead."

……

After my aunt left, I went into Lu Jia's room. Except for the untidy quilt, which proved that someone had lived there before, everything else was intact. I felt inexplicably uncomfortable...

So far, I can be 100% sure that she came to Dali with the purpose of compounding, but I used the cruelest way to dispel her idea...

I swallowed hard, and then took out my phone from my pocket. I turned to the 400 yuan transfer record that Lu Jia had given me before, feeling as if I had knocked over a five-flavored bottle... She wasn't Ye Zhi, this money is already a big expense for her... She left just like that, which made me feel that apart from my youth, I owe her a huge sum.

At this moment, I am very confused... I know that as long as she hasn't gone far, as long as I am willing to chase her, we can still be together like before, but...

……

The heavy thoughts made my breathing more and more heavy, and at this moment, I received another WeChat message from Ye Zhi, she asked me very seriously: "Mi Gao, if we are together, it will be a lifetime. ?"

(End of this chapter)